Disclaimer: I own nothing

Calvin lay sprawled out on the plastic couch asleep just outside the ICU. Elliot sat maybe 5 feet away from him, his head buried in the palms of his hands. There had been so much blood, so much of her blood. A doctor had not come to update him on Olivia's condition since they had first arrived. Why weren't they telling them anything! Elliot cocked his head to the side. His head was pounding, this morning was never-ending. It was now six o'clock in the morning and he had finally convinced Calvin that it was okay to fall asleep. The young boy shook violently while he slept. Was he cold? Possibly… No, Elliot knew that wasn't the reason. Judging from the almost inaudible whimpers that escaped his lips, Calvin's brain was currently drowning in some kind of nightmare. A nightmare Elliot knew would come to haunt him as soon as he shut his own eyes.

[Calvin's dream]

All around me it's dark. I run as hard and as fast as I can, but I can't make any progress. I can't breathe, can't think, can't process the Hell that's occurring all around. His face materializes right in front of me. His smile, slick like butter, sends chills down my spine. My body is frozen to the core.

"Do you see what you've done, boy? This is all your fault. Fucking pathetic screw up." Carl's voice echoes loudly in the darkness, shattering my ear drums.

"Please, please stop it! Please! Shut up!" I scream as my hands start digging fiercely into my skull. Carl towers over me now, his laughter is suffocating me. Now I see her. Her smile is warm and it quickly melts away Carl.

"Calvin…Calvin, come on. Let's get out of here." Olivia's hand is outstretched toward me. I'm so close to touching her again I can't control the flood of tears damming up behind my eye lashes.

Then our hands touch, and crimson begins to drip off her fingers. I quickly retract my hand, but it's too late. Red, sticky blood oozes from fresh wounds all over her body. Her smile twists into a sick cry and she collapses onto the ground beside me.

"Olivia! Olivia!" I cry as I try to fix what I've done. Carl is back now, taunting me as I cling to Olivia's fading body. Carl bends down beside her and lifts her up off the ground.

"What are you doing? Let her go! Stop!" I choke out as I try to lunge at him. It's no use. My body weighs a thousand pounds and I'm quickly sinking deeper into the darkness.

"Don't worry, Calvin. I'll take very good care of your precious Olivia." Carl flashes his teeth one more before leaning down and kissing Olivia hard on the lips. Her body lay limp in his hands.

"Please…"

[End Dream]

"Calvin! Calvin, wake up!" Elliot shook the boy hard on the shoulder. He had been screaming in his sleep. Whatever demons were attacking him in his dreams they were definitely powerful ones. Calvin quickly shot up out of the fog of his nightmare. He couldn't catch his breath.

"Calvin…Are you okay?" Elliot's eyes were filled with concern as Calvin buried his face into the detective's dress shirt and sobbed.

"It's all my fault. It's all my fault. It's all my fault…" Calvin repeated the phrase over and over again as Elliot pulled him tighter against his chest.

"It's okay, Calvin. You're going to be fine. She's going to be fine…" Elliot's voice drifted off at the sight of a man in green scrubs approaching them.

"Detective Stabler? I'm Dr. Lee." Elliot's embrace loosened around the young boy as he quickly turned his attention toward the doctor.

"How is she, how is Olivia?" The words tumbled out of Elliot's mouth. Dr. Lee's facial expression looked grave at the sight of Calvin.

"Perhaps we should talk alone…" Dr. Lee spoke his eyes fixed on Elliot.

"I'll be right back, okay Calvin? Just wait here." Elliot had to work to pry the young boy's arms off his torso. Calvin sat, motionless and without expression, as the detective and the doctor took off down the hallway.

"Detective, I'm not going to sugar coat this. Miss Benson's condition is not great."

"What does that mean, 'not great?' Is she going to recover?" Elliot voice was angry.

"She has lost a lot of blood. She hasn't regained consciousness since she first arrived at the hospital. She could recover, don't misunderstand me. However, there is also a chance that we may lose-" Elliot quickly cut the doctor off.

"You don't know, Olivia. She strong, and persistent, and stubborn. She is one of the toughest persons I know. She will pull through this." Elliot growled. He would not lose her. He would never allow it.

"I just wanted to be sure you were updated on her situation. I meant no disrespect. I'm sure she was a strong person…"

"She still is a strong person, Dr. Lee. You'll see. Thanks for updating me." Elliot spun around swiftly on heels before making his way back to the waiting room.

A waiting room that was now empty.

"Calvin? Calvin!"

A/N: Wow, what has it been almost 8 months since I updated this? Well hopefully you all will still enjoy it!