January, 1981
I squeaked as the wall crumbled and ran to hide behind another wall.
"Ella!"
I shot a curse as I rushed in the direction Sirius' voice was coming from. He was dueling a masked Death Eater, and gave me a grin when he saw me. I stunned the Death Eater, and grinned back at him.
"You're welcome" I said.
"I was having fun" he playfully pouted.
"Well, we can have fun when we get home, let's just get this over with, alright?" I smirked.
He smirked back, and took a step towards me. But a red jet of light hit him and he flew back on a crumbling wall.
"Sirius!" I gasped.
Someone grabbed me by the throat as I rushed to him and lifted me from the ground. My wand was taken, and the vicious-looking man holding me, grinned, showing his yellowish sharp teeth, and his grey eyes sparkled as he sneered at me. I struggled against him, desperate for a breath of air. My eyes glanced at Sirius fallen form, but he wasn't moving beneath the rubble that almost hid him. I pulled at the man's hands on my neck, but he was clearly too strong for me to even move a finger. My lungs burned for air, and my mind started to feel hazy.
"A Potter aren't you?" the man sneered.
I gasped as he threw me on the ground, coughing as my lungs fought desperately for air. I rolled on the ground and felt scratches on my arms from the rubble that surrounded us. I lifted my head, still breathing heavy, and saw my wand a few feet away. I started to crawl towards it, but just when I was reaching for it a booted foot stepped on my wrist and I heard a crack before pain seared up my arm. I screamed, and the man kicked my wand away before kicking me in the ribs. I groaned and tried to get up. Where were Remus and Peter? Andromeda and Ted? Dumbledore? … James?
The man grabbed me by the hair, and smashed my face against the doorframe, and then pulled me face to face with him. He was grinning, clearly enjoying seeing me in pain.
"You tell your baby brother that we are coming for him, and that by the time we are finished, the Potters will be dust… and that includes you, doll, you and your traitor's bastard baby"
I used all my strength as I tried to punch him, but he didn't seem fazed by it. He laughed and threw me back on the floor, straddling my waist and holding my arms in one hand. I thrashed underneath him, and spat in his face. He grabbed me by the chin as his hold on my arms tightened, and smirked.
"I should fuck you bloody while your beloved little husband lays a few feet away" he growled.
I continued to thrash, getting desperate, fear crawling up my spine and he laughed.
"Remus! Help!" I screamed as loud as I could.
He hit me in the face and I felt blood pooling in my mouth. I whimpered as he leaned down, inhaling deeply in my neck. I heard a growl, and turned my head just in time to see Padfoot rushing towards us, his black fur grey from dust. He tackled the man off me, both rolling away, while Padfoot snarled and bit at him. I scrambled up and a hand on my arm almost made me scream, but I saw it was Remus and he helped me up. I hugged him tightly, hiding my face in his shoulder as he pulled me away from the fight and apparated us away.
"Ouch" I hissed.
"Sorry, but I need to clean it" Remus said quietly.
"You're hurt too" I mumbled looking at the gash on his arm.
"I'll be fine" he smiled sadly. "We'll be fine, right?"
I nodded and winced again as he continued to clean the gash on my cheek. He took the dittany and poured a few drops on the cut. I watched as he put away everything and sighed.
"Madame Pomfrey will have to send me more dittany"
"She's stocking it, don't worry" he said, leaning against the sink. "How's your arm?"
"Perfect, thanks" I smiled. "For everything"
"You don't have to thank me…"
"Ella!"
We turned towards the door and sure enough, a minute later, Sirius was bursting into our room, looking ragged, exhausted and in panic. He let out a sigh when he saw us in the bathroom, and I smiled as he walked towards me. Remus gave me a smile and left while Sirius pulled me into a hug.
"I'm sorry" he whispered in my hair.
"I'm fine" I mumbled, holding him tightly.
"Merlin, I… I just… I felt fire rush through my veins, my vision turned red and I left you…"
"Remus had found me, it's fine, love" I whispered.
He ran his fingers through my hair and buried his face in my neck.
"If something had…"
"Shhh" I sushed him, pulling back and caressed his cheek. "I'm here and I'm alright"
He kissed me softly, and held me to him, as if he was scared I would leave. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and kissed him back, understanding his need to be close, for I had the same need. I needed the safety of his arms around me, the comfort of his lips on mine, of his chest pressed to mine, hearts beating in sync. He pulled back and looked me in the eyes, pulling my hair back from my face and I smiled at him.
"I know I'm pretty, but stop starring" I teased.
I was everything but pretty in that moment. Although the dittany had sealed the cut, the bruise was still in my face. There was a cut in my lip, and I was all dusty and messy.
"You're not pretty" he said. "You're beautiful, stunning, perfect"
"I need a bath" I chuckled.
"I need you"
He crashed his lips to mine and I moaned at the passion. His tongue invaded my mouth, and he held my head to his, his fingers gently tugging on my hair. I let my hands travel down his chest, but before I could get to the hem and pull it off him, I felt a rip in the fabric. I grabbed it and tore the rest of the shirt off him, making him groan in approval against my lips. I kicked my shoes off as he pushed me further into the bathroom, unbuttoning my shirt and tugging it off my arms. He pulled forcefully on my bra, making my breasts spill from the cups, and he let my lips go to kiss, lick and nibble down my neck and to my nipples. I moaned, tugging on his hair.
"Oh, Merlin" I breathed as he sucked on my right hardened nipple, twirling his tongue around the tip as he unbuttoned my jeans.
He fell to his knees before me, licking a path down my stomach, making butterflies flutter inside me and nipped at my hipbone as he pulled the tight jeans down over my hips and legs. As I stepped out of them, he brushed his nose against my panties and I moaned as his hot breath met my heated flesh. I took off my bra, and tugged on his hair. He stood up, grabbing me by the thighs and lifting me, I wrapped my legs around his body, running my hands down his muscular torso, following the path of hair that led to his jeans. He pressed me against the cold tiles of the shower. My bruised ribs protested, but my gasp died as his lips covered mine, with a kiss that took my breath away. My hands fumbled to undo his button and fly, and I pushed his clothes down in a rush when I finally did it. He grabbed my hands and held them above my head as he continued to kiss me, and impaled himself in me. I screamed against his lips and threw my head back, panting for breath as he thrust into me mercilessly, burying his face in my neck, kissing the flesh between his groans of pleasure. I tightened my legs around his waist and dug my nails on his shoulder.
"Oh! Don't… Oh, Sirius! Harder!" I cried.
He growled, and pulled all the way back to thrust all the way back in hard, making my lower back crash against the tiles loudly. I don't know when he had turned the water on, but our bodies were slipping against one another, drenching his jeans, and the heat of the water allied with the heat from our lovemaking made me feel like there was an inferno inside of me. I screamed as I felt myself falling from the edge, the orgasm bringing stars to my eyes and making my body spasm before relaxing completely. Sirius slowed down and stopped. I pulled his head from my shoulder and kissed him deeply, wrapping my arms tightly around him.
"You're mine" he growled against my lips.
"Always and Forever" I whispered as he started to thrust slowly. "I love you so much"
He kissed me passionately as he held me tightly to him, bringing me as close to him as possible and we both fell over the edge together.
"It's only a bruise, stop worrying" I whispered.
"I can't" he whispered, still caressing my ribcage.
"Then at least stop frowning, it makes you ugly"
He rolled his eyes at my teasing grin and pulled me closer carefully.
"If I had known you were hurt…"
"I said I was fine and I am" I said, pressing a fingertip to his lips. "Stop it, you're killing the mood"
"Okay" he smiled and kissed my fingertip.
Sunlight filtered through the curtains and birds were chirping outside, it would be a sunny morning, but still a cold winter day. We were lying turned on our sides, facing each other, completely naked. One of the pillows had been discarded after my wet hair had drenched the pillowcase and the fluffy comforter and soft sheets were a mess around us. I had missed being like this with him, like we were in the beginning of our marriage. Miraculously, we hadn't been interrupted yet, even if the Order was probably a chaos after last night's battle. Nathan had slept all night and hadn't given a sign of waking up this morning. He had really calmed down after his first birthday, thank Godric.
"What are you think about?" Sirius asked, caressing my bruised cheek.
I smiled.
"Nathan"
"What about the little Marauder?" he smiled.
I shrugged, and my smile faltered.
"That man… He threatened him" Sirius' eyes darkened and his body tensed. "He threatened my family… James…"
"They're safe"
"And until when will Dumbledore's protection stand?" I asked frowning. "You-Know-Who grows more powerful every day, and…"
"Shhh" he said kissing my forehead and holding me. "All of us will be fine, I'll make sure of it"
"Where the hell were you?!" I asked frowning at Sirius as he shrugged out of his jacket, sighing. "I've been worried sick! No one knew where you were!"
He didn't answer me, only turned and walked to the sitting room. I scowled, and followed him. He poured a drink, downed and poured another one.
"What is wrong?" I snapped. "I thought we were fine, and now you go missing , never tells me where you've been when you come back… You're avoiding me! Why?!"
"Ella" he sighed.
"I can't do that again, Sirius, I mean it this time… I just, if you're going to put me through that again just tell me because I can't stand it…"
He pulled a paper from his pocket, unfolded it and extended it to me. I took a deep breath and willed the tears away as I walked closer and took the paper. It was an envelope with my name on it and I recognized James' handwriting. I looked at Sirius.
"What is it?" I asked.
"Open it" he shrugged.
He sat down on the couch, sipping his drink as I opened the letter.
Dear Ella,
I'm really am sorry. We had no other option. Lily gets more scared every day we hear of an attack, and frankly, I am worried too. We couldn't stand by, waiting for Him to find us. I am sorry we couldn't say goodbye properly.
Hopefully, I will see you soon. I have hope that this will be over soon. This prophecy might be right about that. You-Know-Who is so worried hunting us maybe he will finally slip and I know Dumbledore will defeat him, once and for all.
I did this for us. We're not the only ones threatened, and I couldn't forgive myself if something happened to you or Nathan. My love for him is bigger than the love of uncle-nephew, I think you understand, I know you feel the same way about little Harry. I want them to grow up together, safe and happy, but for that, we'll have to endure this time apart.
Take care of Sirius. I know I don't need to tell you that, you already do, but I know the pressure that's been upon you lately. Don't let it break you, the love you two have for each other is wonderful. Mum and Dad would be happy and proud. You're probably calling me a jerk for saying all this in a letter when I am away, but you know me. I will always be your little bother… I meant brother.
Don't torture Sirius, he doesn't want to hurt you, but he can't tell you where we are for obvious reasons. Dumbledore knows what he's doing… hopefully.
I love you with all my heart, big sister.
James Potter
"What? I… I don't…" I frowned at him, wiping away the tears that fell from my eyes. "What is this?"
"What does it say?" he asked.
"I don't care what it says!" I snapped, throwing the letter down. "I am asking you what is going on!"
"They had to go into hiding… it was the only way for them to be safe. For Harry to be safe" he said calmly.
"Where?"
"I can't tell you"
"But you know!"
"Yes"
"Why didn't they tell me?! Why? I… Why didn't they say goodbye?" I cried.
"Because they knew you would want to help, and you can't" he said, standing up. "Please, Ella, try to understand…"
"All I understand is… you've known this for a while. You lied to me!"
"I didn't lie!" he snapped.
"You hid it from me! It's the same! He is my brother! My nephew! And you tried to keep it a secret from me! I have the right to know!"
I could see he was quickly losing his patience.
"They are safe this way!"
"I am their family!" I screamed. "I have more right than you! You are nothing of them! I am a Potter, I should know!"
"News flash! You are a Black now" he snapped and dropped the glass back on the bar. "I am not in the mood for this, you're getting on my nerves"
"It's so easy for you to walk away, isn't it? Why don't you walk away for good, stop meddling in my family and…"
"What the hell is wrong with you?" he yelled. "Don't you see no one wanted that?! They had to go, I am sorry, but that's the truth. And no, you couldn't and can't know! It could be dangerous for you!"
"Oh, so it is okay for you to be in danger?" I snapped crossing my arms.
"Good Godric, you're infuriating when you don't want to listen!" he groaned, running his hand through his hair.
I opened my mouth to retort, but he had turned his back to me already and left.
"Where have you been?" I whispered as Sirius took off his shirt.
He sighed and sat on the edge of the bed.
"Please, don't start, Ella" he mumbled.
"I won't" I said sitting up, "I'm sorry"
He turned frowning but as he looked me in the eyes, his expression softened. He crawled towards me and kissed me softly, before we lay side by side.
"If I could, I would bring them here… But they wouldn't be safe" he mumbled.
"Maybe we should leave" I said quietly, shifting so I was lying against his chest. He ran his fingers through my hair soothingly. "I mean, we stayed because of them. We should just get out of here until this is over. All of us, Remus and Peter and Andromeda…"
"We can't run, Ella" he sighed. "We shouldn't before, but now… They will hunt Harry down, wherever we are"
I buried my face in his chest and tried to stop the tears but they fell anyway.
"Hey" he said softly, tilting my head up and wiping away the tears. "Don't cry, everything will be alright now, they're safe"
"We should leave anyway. If they are safe, if you're so sure of it… We can leave" I cried.
"I…" he sighed, frowning and shook his head. "I can't. I can't leave them, Ella. I won't leave them" he kissed my forehead and wiped my tears again. "I know you want Nate safe, but I will keep you safe…"
"It's not just Nate"
"Ella, we can't save everyone from the war… but I will keep my family safe" he said seriously. "I promise you"
"I'm pregnant" I cried quietly.
He stared at me in shock and I put my head back on his chest, crying in silence. He hugged me tightly, and whispered soothing words until I fell asleep. But I could never be soothed. My brother, sister and nephew were being hunted by the darkest wizard of all times, and I was just bringing another innocent child into danger. This war seemed to never end.
AN: Hey, guys! Sorry for taking so long to update. Hope you liked last chapter and this one!
I think this is the end of Part 1 of this story. Part 2 will take us to the 'present', the current timeline of Harry Potter books and movies, and will show us what happened. Some blanks will be filled with flashbacks, don't worry.
I hope you enjoyed it so far! And I hope I don't screw it up by adding our dear characters into the mix...
BTW, there's a video on youtube that was the inspiration for this story, and it makes me cry every time. I reccomend you watch it, link is on my profile or just search for "Marauders Time" on youtube, it's by NiiightAnGeeel.
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