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Rin frozed. The stranger in her arms was Sesshomaru. The one who abandoned her. The one who could not protect her. The one who left a hole in her heart. The one she had always loved. The one she longed to see, to be with. The one whom haunts her dreams. Her eyes scanned his face. He had grown much from her memory. His face was longer and jaw line was more pronounce. His shoulder widen with muscles.

She reached up to his surgical cap and took it off. His silver hair was in a pony tail but down to his shoulders. She used her hands to trace his features. She started from his fore head , around his ears, across his cheeks to his nose, down to his lips and back around his neck. She was trying to take in all his features just in case he were to disappear from her life again. Lord, how she missed him. She missed holding his hand, leaning on his chest, and sleeping on his lap. She missed how he would be so expressionless when she can see the laughter in his eyes. She missed how he took her fears away with one single word.

"Rin, please forgive this Sesshomaru for all his mistakes. I am not good at expressing myself. I do not expect you to forgive me for making a hasty decision I thought was right for you and not consulting you for it. All the same, I hope you can find it in your heart to allow this Sesshomaru to make amends. But know this, I will fight to stay by your side. no matter what you decide, there will be none other than you whom holds my heart."

She started to cry. "Please don't let this be a dream. I can't do this again." She cried softly sliding out of his arms to the ground.

Sesshomaru was at a lost. How else can he show her how much he missed her, how he felt about her?

He sat on the ground in front of her and lifted her chin with his finger. " RIn, I..I love you. I am in love with you and only you."

He leaned into her for another kiss. This time his lips softly caressed her top lip, then bottom lip before suckling her mouth. She felt her whole body heat ten times more than her cheeks. She started panting and felt shivers rush through her body.

Sesshomaru was lost again but in heaven. Her lips responded to his sending jolts down his body and making him lose more control with every ticking moment. They pulled apart and looked at one another in silence.

Rin adored this boy. Correction, this man in front of her. All the doubts and pain she held were sooth in an instance. He nearly destroyed his image in her heart when he left her, but redeemed himself also. Then she remembered the kiss.

Does this mean they are together? The nuns raised her so she had never dated before. Not that she was in any mind-set for such things. She was not a nun herself but through the years she had learned many conservative ideals from them. Like she should never be alone with a man especially at night. Her body is a sacred temple and should only be touched by her husband. Her first kiss was with a man she loved but he has changed. Can she trust him so easily after all the heartbreak and pain she endured? Would he leave if something else threaten to tear them apart? Will he run again or truly fight for her like he said?

Trust is easily lost but hard to build. She did not know what her heart wanted. She was sure she was past this pain but having him so close made her more confused.

"I.. need some time to sort out my feelings. I don't know if I can trust you." She said quietly turning her head from him. "I know nothing of you."

Sesshomaru shoulders sank. He knew that she was disappointed in him. He knew first hand the anger of feeling abandoned by someone you trust. His mother did just that. It took her saving someone important to him for him to forgive her. But he had not truly trust her until she came to talk to him. She bare all her pain and scars for him so he would not make the mistake she did and lose the one thing he cared about.

"I will never leave you again. You have my word." Sesshomaru said holding on to the last bit of composure he had. "I will tell you everything you want to know about me. You need only asked."

Rin still would not look at him. She knew if she did, She would give in and not have a relationship with him built on mutual respect and trust. But she was surprise at what she saw when she finally looked into his eyes.

Rin did not look at him, Sesshomaru thought. She was so upset she did not want to look at him. He felt like she was beyond his grasp again, he was losing her again. He let a tear trickle down his cheek.

"Sesshomaru. I," Rin was taken aback when she saw the teardrop." I want you to court me. Convince me of your intentions. Leave me with no doubts of you, of us. And let time heal us both. "

Sesshomaru eyes opened wide. A chance. She said she wants to be courted. She will never ever doubt his intentions, he will make sure of it. She spoke with the maturity of a woman beyond her years. She has grown into a wonderful person. He would abide with her wishes just as he always had.

"Would you care to join me for lunch then Rin?" He asked

After a moment of silence she replied with a beaming smile with joy,"Yes, I would."