"So, that's why you don't want me to have the baby? Because of what happened to your mother?"
Chuck nodded. They were sitting together in Chuck's suite, and Chuck had just told her about his dream.
"Oh Chuck, that's so silly. Just because you dreamed it, it doesn't mean it's going to happen. What is there to be so upset about?"
Chuck shook his head. "I didn't tell you about the other part of the dream"
"What other part?"
"The part with my mother"
There was silence for a moment. "Chuck" Blair began, "What did happen to your mother?"
Chuck didn't say anything for a bit, then sighed. "My mother…" he stopped. Blair moved closer to him "Tell me"
He sighed and began again "My mother died giving birth to me. She had a choice to save me or herself, and she chose me. If it wasn't for me, she would still be here. It's my fault, and I don't think my father ever forgave me for that."
"Oh Chuck. That is not your fault. You were just a baby, and of course your mother would choose to save you. Any mother would! And if it wasn't for her, you wouldn't be here right now. And I don't know what I would do without you." she added quietly. Chuck remained silent. "Chuck" she grabbed his hands and pulled him to face her "Nothing is going to happen to me. That was a long time ago, and medicines are so much better now. Please Chuck" she said softly.
He looked at her, then kissed the top of her head. "I'm sorry Blair." He murmured into her hair.
"It's okay" she said snuggling into him. "I just don't want you to be so worried about this. Everything is going to work out fine"
"I know" he said. "As long as I have you, I don't see how it can't be.
XOXO
"Chuck! Where are you taking me?" cried out a blindfolded Blair.
"Well, if I tell you, it won't be a surprise, will it?" They were travelling in Chuck's limo to a mystery destination Chuck had planned for Blair as a surprise.
"Chuck! You know I only like surprises when I know what they are! And this blindfold is itchy." She went to take it off, but Chuck stopped her.
"No no" he said. "Not until we get there."
The limo came to halt. "Now can I take the blindfold off?" Blair asked.
""Not quite" Chuck answered playfully.
He led her into a building and up an elevator. When the elevator reached a stop and the doors opened, Blair asked "Now?"
"Yes, now" and he took the blindfold off of her. Blair gasped. What lay before her was a stunning penthouse. The whole scene was something Audrey Hepburn would have had as the Princess in Roman Holiday, very regal, very rich.
"Chuck" she breathed, unable to find any other words.
"Do you like it?" he asked.
"Like it? Why, it's unbelievable and amazing, but why?"
"Well, I know we are going to have a baby coming along in the next three months, and I want you to know I am good with it. Come on, I'll show you the best part."
He led her up the marble staircase and into a room. The room was painted a sunny shade of yellow with elegant white baby furniture, such as a crib and change table. There was a white wicker rocking chair in the corner with a baby blue cashmere blanket thrown over it. The window gave a stunning view over central park.
"This would be the baby's nursery" Chuck explained.
"It's beautiful" Blair said as she went to sit in the rocking chair. She held up the blanket. "Blue?" she asked cocking an eyebrow.
"There's a pink one in the closet, you know, just in case."
Blair nodded. There was a moment of silence.
"Look Blair, I don't want you to feel pressured or anything. I bought this penthouse for you, so you can do whatever you want with it. You could move in now or wait for the baby, or not move in at all, it's your choice."
Blair nodded. "And where are you in these options?"
Chuck stared at her a minute. "Wherever you want me to be."
Another moment of silence. "I'll tell you what Chuck" Blair said standing up. "Since in all honesty, in my mind, I've only been dating you for about a month now, I think moving in together now would be a bit hasty." Chuck nodded in understanding. "But of course" she continued "Our situation is a bit different from everyone else, and I think it's likely that this relationship is going somewhere, so this is what I propose. We leave this place be for the next three months, and see how our relationship goes. If when the baby comes we are still as happy and good together as we are now, we'll both move in here. Is that okay?" she added.
Chuck pulled her in and kissed her. "That's perfect".
XOXO
Blair tossed and turned that night in her bed unable to sleep. Her big pregnant belly was making her hot and uncomfortable, and her mind was restless. She finally got up and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. She sat down and put her face in her hands. Her mind would not settle down. Suddenly, she could sort of see some vague shapes in her mind. Am I remembering something? She could see a bar surrounding and an empty drink in front of her. She turned to see Chuck beside her: "Nate's waiting for me to give him an answer" she spoke.
"I heard" he said solemnly. "But do you want to know what's stopping me?" she asked. Chuck said nothing so she continued. "I can't answer his question while I'm waiting for you to answer mine." Chuck looked down. "The one I asked you forever ago" she continued. "What are we Chuck?"
He shook his head, "Blair-", but she cut him off.
"Last fall, you said we couldn't be together, and I believed you. But every time I try to move on you're right there…acting like-"
"Acting like what?" he cut her off defensively.
"Like..." she started, but one look into his pained face stopped her and she turned away suddenly. "Maybe you just want me to be as unhappy as you are" she said.
"I would never wish that on anyone" he said meaningfully, causing her to look back at him. "I want you to be happy".
"Then look down deep, into the soul I know you have, and tell me if what you feel for me is real, or if it's just a game." She told him, fighting to hold herself together. "If it's real, we'll figure it out. All of us. But if it's not…" She paused. "Then please Chuck, just let me go." A tear finally escaped from her eye and she hastily brushed it away.
He continued to stare at her with that pained expression. After a moment it turned to the signature Chuck Bass look she knew all too well. "It's just a game" he said, a stab to the heart. "I hate to lose. You're free to go."
"Thank you" she said hurriedly and left. There was no way she was letting him see her cry anymore. She ran to the bathroom and threw up. She hadn't done it for a long time, but it always seemed to help. When it was over, she shakily stood up and looked in the mirror, looked at her tear stained face and running makeup. This is what Chuck Bass did to her. This was why she was with Nate. No more. Never again will she be fooled by him. This was it.
Blair gasped when the memory was over. As realization dawned on her, she put her head on the table and started to cry. What a fool she'd been…
Yes, it has been a very long time since I updated. And frankly it will probably be a very long time before I update again. Unless of course the demand is high and I get motivated to do another chapter before school starts again. Please let me know what you think. I think there should only be about 2, possibly 3 more chapters. Reviews are so greatly loved J
