A/N: I know it's been like forever, but this chapter was refusing to come out of me for some strange reason. I was about ready to give up, buuut instead cut off my tumblr and all the pics of Kendall's new hair cut and his just utter hotness in general and seriously thought about it and this is the outcome!

Btw, is it just me or does Kendall's new hair cut kinda make you think of what his hair looks like after sex? Like he and James just got done...OH NO I'M NOT EVEN GOING THERE! That is so Kames sex hair! Blarg, these boys are going to be the death of me!

ENJOY!


I sat outside of Kendall's apartment complex. My knuckles were white as a sheet from gripping the steering wheel so tight. I was scared, nervous, anxious, and every other kind of emotion that I just flat out couldn't grasp the word to form in my almost overwhelmed brain. I kept replaying the last half hour in my mind repeatedly. How would I explain all of this to Kendall?

Flashback

I stepped out of the shower after only a few minutes. Hair washed and smelling like well whatever the fuck scent it was. My mind was in too much of a haze to notice. But anyway, check. Body completely cleansed. Double check. Now I was face to face with the mirror, still afraid to look at what lay on the counter. Would I be excited? Disappointed? Happy? I wasn't sure which emotion to feel.

"It'll be okay Kennah. You'll get through this. Just look at it." I spoke to myself, closing my eyes.

I kept my eyes closed for a few minutes, trying to calm myself down a little more. My heart was pounding so hard I thought it was going to thud right out of my chest. I could feel it in my ears at the rapidness of it beating. It sounded like I had been running a marathon. I slowly opened my eyes and trailed them down to my bathroom counter. Only one word shined up at me. Positive.

End flashback

I still wasn't sure I could get myself to get out of my car. I was almost certain my heart was gonna come out of my chest this time. I took one last deep breath and pulled my keys from the ignition. I glanced up into my rearview mirror at my appearance and, once deciding I looked presentable, stepped out of my car. Every step I took toward the building was stressing me out even more. I don't even remember reaching the elevator let alone stepping inside the building. I waited somewhat patiently for the elevator, not knowing if I'd just give up and chicken out before it arrived on the first floor. I glanced around the lobby as I waited. My resolve quickly fading but that familiar ding signaling that the elevator had finally made it, broke me of my thoughts. I turned back to the big metal doors as they opened and came face to face with Mrs. Knight and Katie. I gulped somewhat loudly as they both glanced up and saw me.

"Kennah! Oh god I'm so glad to see you!" Mrs. Knight exclaimed, wrapping me in her arms.

"Hey mom." I said, returning her hug and smiling to myself.

I had always loved Mrs. Knight. She was like my mom just as much as she was Kendall's.

"I suppose you're here to see my big brother?" I heard Katie ask, arms crossed over her chest.

I stepped away from Kendall's mom and looked at his little sister. She had grown so much and was really turning into a beautiful girl. And still planning to take over the world. The youngest Knight had not changed much.

"Yeah. Is he home?" I asked, feeling Katie's eyes bore into me.

"Yes he is. He said something about getting a shower after we left." Mrs. Knight answered.

"I-I came to see him. I know he may not want to see me…"

"Oh he does. I'm just not sure you deserve to see him." Katie retorted, interrupting me.

"Katie!" Mrs. Knight barked.

"No, it's okay. She has a point. Katie, you're right. I don't deserve to see him, but he has been my best friend for a long time. He deserves to know why I left and didn't come back until now. I owe it to him. Even if he just slams his front door in my face."

My small speech had Momma Knight near tears. I meant every word, even if it would shatter my heart, I knew I had to do this no matter what the outcome would be. Katie starred at me for a while before rapidly tapping her foot and throwing her arms to her side, finally giving me a smile.

"Fine, but if you break his heart again, I will take you out." She warned pointing at me.

Momma Knight and I both laughed as Katie gave me a big hug.

"We'll leave it at that and get going. Kennah, just take care of him okay." Momma knight told me.

I nodded as she and Katie took their leave and I climbed into the elevator. The ride up was nerve wracking. Once I reached Kendall's floor I blindly walked to his door. I took one deep breath before knocking lightly. After a few minutes of no answer, I knocked again. Still nothing. Finally I knew I had only one choice. I took my keys and searched for the key Kendall had given me to his apartment. I smiled as I gripped it in my hand before pushing it into the lock and turning. I stepped inside and closed the door behind me as softly as I could.

"Kendall? It's me, Kennah." I called out.

I got no answer. I moved through the apartment silently and as I approached his bedroom, I heard the shower running. I smiled as I stepped into his bedroom and looked through the doorway. I saw Kendall standing in the shower, both hands on the wall and his head hung in between them, letting the water wet his hair and face. His eyes were tightly shut and he let a heavy, frustrated sigh slip out of his mouth. Finally he straightened up and began running his hands through his hair, wetting it fully and pushing it back out of his face. I watched him silently, just taking the gorgeous guy in my sight. How had I not seen how crazy I was about him? How had I wanted James all those years when the one person that made me feel complete had been right beside me the entire time? My mind, or heart for that matter, would never be able to comprehend how I had been so blind. I smiled knowing that to anyone whom could see me probably would think I was some freak, just standing there watching a gorgeous blond guy showering. But to be honest, my eyes were focused on his face, not his nether-regions. I suppressed the giggle I felt creeping up my throat and walked back into his bedroom. Once out of his line of vision, in case he happened to turn around, I removed my clothing and laid it gently in a pile at the foot of Kendall's bed. I walked back into the bathroom just as it looked like he had rinsed the last of his shampoo from his beautiful blonde locks. I somehow managed to open the glass door to the shower and step inside behind him without him noticing. I watched his back as the muscles flexed as he stood under the water once again. I slowly stepped forward and wrapped my arms around his waist. As soon as they were wrapped securely around him, he froze. I could hear as his breathing became heavier.

"Ke-Kennah?" He asked softly, slowly turning in my arms and facing me.

I smiled up at him as I pushed his bangs back out of his eyes and cupped his cheek with my hand.

"This…this is a dream. I'm dreaming." He said, his voice cracking slightly.

"No. I'm here Kendall. It's really me." I answered him, stepping closer to him if that was at all possible.

"But you left. It's been so long."

"I know and I'm so sorry. I never should have stayed away."

"Kennah. You-you're really here."

He finally smiled and pulled me into his arms. There it was. That spark. That fire that only Kendall could ignite. His touch was electric, giving my entire body a jolt of more emotions than I think most people knew how to handle at once. If Kendall hadn't of kissed me when he did, I'm sure I would have been an electrocuted mound of mush in the floor of the shower. As much as I didn't want to, I had to pull away from his lips. I had to tell him something. Something I hadn't been able to say before. I reluctantly pulled away from his lips, earning a groan form him in return, but he still had his smile.

"Kennah, I missed you so damn much. Please don't leave me again." He said as he placed our foreheads together.

"I'm never leaving again. Ever." I answered.

He pulled me into a hug and I smiled as I wrapped my arms around his shoulders.

"I need to tell you something." I whispered into his shoulder.

"You can tell me anything baby."

I pulled away slightly, just so our eyes could meet.

"I am truly, madly, crazy, and one hundred percent in love with you. I love you Kendall. More than anything."

He stood there speechless for a few minutes, that same smile still plastered o his face.

"Kennah…I love you too. So fucking much."

Again our lips met and this time, I could feel how much love he had. Everything in our lives had been leading up to that one moment where we both finally confessed our love to one another. I'm not sure when exactly it had happened, but somehow, Kendall had managed to scoop my up in his arms and carried me into his room. We crawled under his sheets and instantly, we became one. Our bodies fitting like two puzzle pieces. It had been too long since I had felt him against me and I promised to never be without him again. Our tongues danced wildly with the other, earning a low growl from him and a moan from me. We parted simply for two reasons. One, the need for air was becoming a necessity and two, I couldn't suppress the high pitched moan from escaping my mouth any longer. It had been too long since the last time we had made love.

"Kenny!" I exclaimed, lost in complete bliss

I drew my legs up into a v shape as I felt him moving in and out of me. A move he seemed to appreciate as a loud moan emitted from deep in his throat.

"Fuck. Kennah…I…love you!"

"Love you…too! Oh God Kendall! Yes!"

I had lost all control of my body. I could feel myself lifting my hips ever so slightly to aid in the intensity of his thrusts. Judging by both of our actions, loud noises, and overall feeling of being in pure heaven, we were both nearing our climaxes. Mine was rapidly approaching. A lot faster than I would have liked. Soon we were both screaming each others names as we came together. He didn't move afterwards. Only, lay on top of me until or breathing became regular again and we both looked into the others eyes and smiled. Finally we were whole again. Once he rolled off of my body, he placed himself beside me and lay on his side, just staring at me.

"I love you." He finally whispered, breaking the silence.

"I love you too." I replied, turning on my side as well.

"Why…why did you finally decide to show up? After a month?"

"That you can thank James for."

He seemed confused and I could see that same hurt flash in his eyes that I had that night a month prior. I hated that I was the cause of that hurt.

"He came over and talked sense into me. Had to prove it to me in a real weird mind game, but…it worked and I saw. I saw that the one I should be with is you."

He smiled before speaking.

"You actually let him in? You wouldn't let anyone in before." He said, thinking about it.

"Yeah, he found his key and kinda broke in. Only he wasn't trying to rob me."

"You mean to tell me that James Diamond actually thought of something that not even I nor Logan could think of which was to use our key to your place?"

"Yeah pretty much."

"I must be slipping if James outsmarted me and Logan. For once."

I laughed as I snuggled closer to him. He wrapped his arm around my waist and rubbed my naked back gently. I could've fallen asleep right there in his arms. If he hadn't started speaking again that is.

"How did he play a mind game on you?" He asked, sounding lost in thought.

I sighed, knowing this may come up. Well, just tell him and get it over with Kennah.

"Well…" I began. "He woke me up and kinda gave me this speech about how miserable you were and then…well, he kinda…kissed me."

Not only could I see Kendall's eyes flash even more hurt, but I could also see resentment and betrayal. I had to clear this up and quickly.

"But, I pushed him away. I just couldn't do it. But he said it was just to test me. To make me see that it was you I wanted and he was right. I know I said I had loved him for all these years, but…I just didn't feel the way I felt when you kissed me. Kissing James was like kissing some stranger. But kissing you…it was like you breathed life into me. Like I could finally live, finally breath for the first time and I just can't lose that. I can't lose you. Not now."

Another smile came to his face and he pulled me in for another quick kiss.

"I can't lose you either. You're too important to me." He spoke once our lips separated.

"You're important to us. That's why we need you." I said, figuring I might as well unload the bombshell on him.

"Us? Who's this we?"

"Me…and our unborn child. I'm pregnant Kendall."

Suddenly all the color drained from his face and I watched his adam's apple as it bobbed from the gulp he took.

Not the reaction I'd hoped for, but at least he wasn't throwing me out or screaming like a banshee.

'There's still time for him to run away screaming.'

Shut up brain! Now you kick in? When I don't even need your input! The audacity you have to…wait, why am I arguing with myself? Dear Lord I have finally lost it. What the literal fuck is wrong with me?

"Preg-pregnant?" Kendall stuttered, his eyes completely unreadable for the very first time to me.

I nodded slowly, unable to form any words, not really knowing if this reaction was good or bad. I watched as a small smile came to his face again and he sat up, quickly pulling me up as well and into a tight hug. I felt wetness against my shoulder and knew he was crying. I hadn't seen him cry since we were all in school so at first I was alarmed by the tears now dropping onto my shoulder.

"Kenny? What's wrong?" I asked, pulling out of his grasp to look into his eyes.

He was happy, possibly ecstatic even. His smile was bigger, brighter and his eyes sparkled in pure joy. It had been a long time since I had seen Kendall look this happy.

"Nothing's wrong. Everything I just right. The way everything should be." He replied, trailing his hand down and resting it on my stomach where he rubbed it lightly.

The motion was some-what ticklish, but more than anything, it was touching and made my heart flutter. I watched as he moved his eyes down to my stomach and now both his hands were rubbing it. He pushed me back where I was laying down again and kissed my stomach gently. I smiled, running my fingers through his hair as a tear slipped from the corner of my eye.

"Hi baby." Kendall said, sniffling a little. "I'm you're Daddy and I love you. Even if I haven't met you yet, you already have me wrapped around you're little finger."

Now the tears were pouring out. This. This feeling was so new, yet exactly what I wanted. Kendall was happy, which immediately made me happy about the baby. If I had was to have been turned away, I'm not sure I could have done this by myself. But Kendall was here, lying next to me, talking to our baby and I couldn't imagine it being any better than this moment. Our eyes met and we shared a smile as he leaned up and his face was level with mine again.

"Do the others know? Did you tell James?" He asked, his smile never leaving.

I shook my head no before kissing him lightly.

"You were the first to know. As you should have been." I answered, pulling away.

"We should tell everyone. Tonight. We could have a little get together here and let everyone know were back together and about…" He paused as he ran his hand over my belly again. "About the baby."

"It'd be good to see everyone. Invite your mom and Katie too."

"Kennah…I love you. And this baby. You two will forever have my heart."

Forever? Forever sounded good to me, but would forever be long enough? I was ready to find out.


Also the next chapter will be the last! I was gonna end it on this chapter, but I got inspired to write the dinner/get together/whatever the hell you wanna call it and ending something on chapter 11 is just...well, it irks me! Yeah I'm weird I know. Thank you guys!