Chapter 11

The brink of insanity

How much longer would we have to wait? I'm fucking tired of having to wait around like a little shit for this goddamn shadow to appear! Maybe if just one Akatsuki member went missing it wouldn't be so bad. I could see it. Rich blood spilling all over the floor and pooling. And the scent…No one would notice. Just one. But who? I wanted revenge on Hidan. But he was immortal. He liked pain. Deidara was too stupid. He wouldn't be a fulfilling kill. Perhaps Kisame. Yeah, Kisame. But how. Maybe I could carve out the eyes. Yeah, then while the blood is dripping down his cheeks I'll cut his face where the blood fell. Yeah, all the way down to his neck, where I'll slit his carotid artery. Once the blood spills enough I'll cut off his stupid fish head. Then his blood will-

I was dragged by the hair to meet face to face with none other than Itachi. But something was different. I could smell his blood. He brought his arm to my face. A small cut with a pin drop of blood. It was rich and intoxicating. Exactly the same as when I first smelt it.

"Do it." I stared at him, trying to control myself.

"No." He glared at me. His hand released me, but my body was frozen, staring at his arm. He pulled out a kunai, and brought it to that cut, everything still in front of me.

"What are you doing?" I barked at him. "Stop!"

"It'd be better if you took some of my blood than kill this entire organization. I haven't come for a fight. Just do it." He brought his kunai to the wound, ripping open the cut from his elbow to his wrist. I held my breath, and covered my nose with my sleeve.

"No! Not after you beat me! I won't do it!"

"I can see how hard it is for you to resist. Stop fighting it." Itachi stepped closer to me, I stepped back. He kept advancing until I was backed up against a wall.

"If you're so worried about the condition of the Akatsuki members why don't you just let me into the open?" I screamed at him. I bore my fangs. Senses on overdrive.

"You won't settle for that. Not when you have all of us right in front of you." He pushed his arm closer to my face. His blood touched my skin. It was like magnificent fire burning my skin.

"Then why don't you kill me! I've had nothing and still do! So bring me peace if you want to save a soul Uchiha! Kill me!" His eyes narrowed harshly at me and he remained silent. "What are you waiting for! Let me move on to the next life so I might actually have a purpose!" Itachi reached into his pocket. I'd be free. Any moment now I'd be free from this living hell. My soul would be passed on, to start a new life. A life without death.

"You already have a purpose." He brought his hand up to my eyes. Dangling in his closed fist was my pendant. My white pendant. It was stupid. I wasn't fighting for anything. I didn't have a focus. To stay in the Akatsuki? Like that would ever work. It was just a stupid pendant some stupid elders claim to have "magical meanings". Yeah, my ass.

"If you know so much about me maybe you should tell me my purpose eh?" I jerked my body forward, trying to get out of his grasp. It didn't work.

"You're weak."

"What the fuck did you just say?"

"Running away from your problems instead of facing them. You didn't even try to control the urges to kill that you have. What a shame. Maybe I should've killed you that day. That way I wouldn't be reminded everyday how my only purpose is to die at the hands of my brother. And until then? Nothing. So don't tell me you have no purpose, because everyone does. Even if that purpose is to die. Otherwise I will take the chance to split your head open the next time I get. Get this over with and get on with life. Tengoku No Hikari."

"You know, I have a lot of respect for you, Uchiha Itachi." I bit his arm. Blood filled my mouth. It became more fulfilling with each drop. The blood of a killer. It was rich and ravishing. I moved, to grab him arm, when he threw me against the wall. I laughed. He was a smart man.

"Mangekyo Sharingan."