A/N:- WE HERE YOU GO READERS, THIS IS THE REAL CHAPTER NOW!!
I WOULD JUST LIKE TO SAY THAT AT THE END OF THIS CHAPTER IS A VERY IMPORTANT A/N AND EVEN A BETA NOTE (EVEN THOUGH I DIDN'T WANT TO ADD THE BETA NOTE, BUT MY BETA ASKED ME TO AND SHE IS MY FRIEND AND HAS HELPED ME THROUGH A LOT OF THINGS SO THAT'S WHY IT IS THERE)
WITHOUT FURTHER ADUE - HERE IS CHAPTER ELEVEN, I HOPE YOU ENJOY.
Chapter Eleven: Relief and Happiness...?
I awoke in a very comfortable bed and felt very safe and warm; I look around and see that I was back in my room at the Cullen's' house. The chair that normally sat by the door had been dragged to my bedside where my Edward was now sitting.
Even though I knew vampires can't sleep, that's what it looked like so I just watched him sitting there with his head on the bed next to our hands. I felt so safe and comfortable that I didn't want to disturb him.
For a human this position would be very uncomfortable, but he could stay in the same position for god only knows how long. I wonder how long he'd been sitting by me; I knew I'd be able to tell as soon as I look at the colour of his eyes.
Black meant he was thirsty and he'd been a naughty boy and sat by me the whole time.
Golden meant he was full and had just hunted having been a good boy and looked after himself but came straight back.
As much as I would have wanted him to look after himself, I had a feeling that after what just happened that would not be the case. I didn't have long to wait for confirmation because even though I didn't make a noise he lifted his head up and his black eyes found mine. Although the colour of his eyes was more than slightly off-putting I couldn't help but smile as I watched his whole face light up.
After a few minutes I averted my eyes to take a good look at him. His hair was more unruly, if that were possible, then before. It wasn't as shinny and seemed rather dull. His face looked paler and again seemed rather dull. He had purple bruise-like patches under his eyes.
Oh god how long has it been since he last hunted. I thought to myself. However the only thing I could manage when I opened my mouth to speak was "Hey". My throat was so dry and my voice was harsh and raspy.
"Oh my Angel, you're finally awake. I am so relieved. I thought I had lost you for a moment there." He said in a rush while standing up and sitting on the bed next to me. I could tell he wanted to hug me but I guess he didn't know if I would want that after what just happened to me.
"Ed-Edward...I love you...how..." was all I managed to get out through my dry throat and mouth before Edward placed a cool finger over my mouth.
"Shh Love, don't try to speak just yet. You lost a lot of blood and you've been comatose for about a month, speaking is going to be a little difficult for a while. Do you want something to drink?" He said.
A MONTH!! Man I keep losing big amounts of time lately. Comatose? WOW that's different. What happened with what was in my stomach? I needed answers but Edward told me not to talk yet so I just listened to him. I knew that he will tell me everything I needed to know when I'm rested and can finally ask him the questions that are burning at the back of my mind.
I nod my head and he leaves the room at vampire speed, then he was back before I could miss him with a glass of water and a straw. He holds the straw to my lips and I take a small sip til the clear liquid hits my dry mouth and I gulp it down greedily, which makes me cough.
He pulled the glass away quickly and placed it on the bedside table. "Whoa there Bella, not so fast. I know you must be thirsty but you have to take it easy. Oh by the way I love you too." My favourite smile flashes across his face and I can't help but break into a smile at seeing it.
He went to sit back down in the chair next to the bed, making me frown. When he saw my expression he quickly jumped up and sat down on the bed next to me.
"I didn't know if you wanted me close to you after..." he said and let his sentence trail off. He didn't need to finish it I knew what he was going to say and I was grateful that he stopped, but I couldn't let him think that I didn't want him close. He saved me again, how could I not I trust him? Nothing any one could do to me would ever change that!
So I spoke, even though he told me not to just yet, but I had to let him know that I would never want him to stop being close to me. Especially after what happened!
"Edward, I don't want you to stop being close to me. I feel safe and protected in your arms, even more so now. So please, PLEASE don't think that I don't want you to be close to me." I coughed again and it hurt.
I didn't care because it was worth it if Edward knew how I felt. He leant over and grabbed that glass of water and placed the straw to my mouth again for me to sip from and I remembered to just sip it.
He placed it back on the nightstand and leant down to kiss my forehead before resting his head on my chest with his ear over my heart...he was listening to my heartbeat.
After a few minutes he sat up to look at me. His eyes still very black, I reach up to touch his cheek with my right hand and a painful pulling sensation shoots up my arm. I look to see an IV in my elbow that's attached to a bag of liquid.
AHHHH!!!! I made a face and quickly turn away only to see and hear Edward chuckle. I glared him and he smiled straight back at me before he said.
"Bella, we needed to get nutrients into you somehow. After all you have been out for a month now."
I nod my head and I found that I could speak better when I replied. "You stayed with me the whole time?"
"Yes Bella, I promised I would. After you had gone to sleep, Carlisle checked you over more thoroughly. He found out that the child was actually breaking your fragile bones and slowly taking your energy from you, and they call us the leeches..." he muttered darkly.
"We later found out that if one of their kind procreates with someone that they have not imprinted on then both the mother and child dies unless the child can be safely removed from the mother before it's born, then the mother at the very least has a chance to live. You can ask Carlisle about the whole 'imprinting' thing because he understands it better. Even with my mind-reading I still don't fully understand it, so I don't think it's fair to try and explain something I understand very little about.
"Anyway, you had 8 broken ribs and your pelvis was fractured, but thankfully it wasn't too bad and easily fixed. The reason why you lost a lot of blood is that he also ripped a hole inside of you, as well as the child ripping and tearing your insides. They are almost all completely healed now, your back wasn't too bad but we x-rayed you to make sure nothing more serious was wrong and thankfully there wasn't.
"On a happier note though Bella, Carlisle came to an agreement with Charlie. After he had you stable and back here, he went to Charlie and told him as well as shown him pictures of what happened to you and Billy Black went with him. Charlie didn't like that one bit, but after quite some arguing he finally conceded and has let Carlisle and Esme adopt you.
"As soon as you are ready you have to go for an interview with the adoption agency though, and you cannot tell them the full extent of what you suffered at the hands of Charlie as part of the agreement he made with Carlisle. You can however tell them about how your mother's death forced you to assume certain responsibilities and how once he over-reacted about something silly and pushed you into the kitchen counter.
"You need to tell them that you didn't want your father to get into trouble seeing as he is all you have left and didn't go to the hospital. When you went to the school the next day, you moved the wrong way, fell down in pain but I was there to help you out as a friend and brought you to my father because you still didn't want to go to the hospital. When you were better you expressed how much you would rather be with Carlisle, Esme and our family and we accepted.
"But you are not once allowed to mention anything that may get him charged with being an abusive parent because the deal would be off. We can talk all about that later though! Carlisle just got home from the hospital and he is on his way up here to check on you." His mouth pulled up into my favourite grin and he leant in to give me a kiss on my forehead. Being the reckless human I was I wouldn't have that, so with my left hand I put it to the back of his neck, grab a hold of some of his hair and pull his lips to mine in a small but sweet kiss.
He pulled away and his smile grows. Looking at him I knew that he could tell that I trusted him completely and nothing that Jacob did to me had changed that.
Carlisle walked in a few minutes later and a small smile graced his features when he saw me. "Ah Bella you're finally awake. I am guessing Edward has filled you in about what has transpired since you went to sleep?" We both nod at him and he started checking my pulse and other vitals.
"Well that's good. How are you feeling?" he gave me another soft and small smile and sat down in Edward's vacant chair, a clip board in his lap.
"I'm still a bit thirsty, but not as much as I was before because Edward got me a glass of water; I feel a little bit hungry, but not much really. Um...my ribs and back are a little sore, but it's more of a stiffness then actual pain at the moment." I said and then a thought is brought back to my attention, what happened with the thing in my stomach? At this thought my hands went to my stomach only to feel it flat and empty and a slight twinge of pain.
Edward and Carlisle both looked at me and frowned slightly before Edward answers. "It's alright love, there is nothing there. We got it out in time, but not before it did some damage..." He looks away, but not before I see the look of pain and sadness on his face.
Carlisle finishes his sentence and places a hand on his shoulder with a sad and forlorn look on his face and in his eyes. "I am so terribly sorry, I tried to fix the damage but it was just too great. It destroyed your womb, in its attempt to get out. I tried my hardest, but it was the only way I could stop the bleeding. I'm so sorry to say this but it's now impossible for you to bear a child again. We tried Bella, really we did! But the damage was just too extensive.
"Jacob, in his stupidity, misjudged his timing as well so by doing that despicable act one last time upon you and being so rough and forceful with his strength, he very nearly killed you himself. I don't know if you will think this about this, but the wolf/child didn't live for too long after we got it out of you."
I nod my head and looked down at my stomach. I felt a small twinge of sadness over its death, but only because it was not its fault it was created. I didn't know how I felt about not being able to have kids though; I mean I never really wanted to have them, yet, but still.
I look at Carlisle and say. "It's ok Carlisle, I know you did everything you could and I can't ask for more than that. It is sad that it died, but it wasn't at fault for being created, so I can't blame it. It's probably better this way.
"Thank you for dealing with Charlie, I'll be more than happy to do what I need to so that I can get away from him once and for all, and I would be honoured and overjoyed to have you and Esme adopt me and be my parents." I gave him a full smile and he came over and pulled me into a gentle hug, which I return as best as I could with an IV in one arm.
"Oh Bella, we are more than happy to adopt you. We couldn't bare it if you were taken away from us and we know that Edward would be so torn and that thought hurt even more to think of. I promise Bella I will make sure that there are no loop holes that anyone can get to you through." He said into my ear.
When he pulled back he looked over at the IV in my right arm and said with a small chuckle. "Hmm, Well I guess we can take this out now." He started to get up but Edward stopped him.
"Carlisle, I'll do it. Plus someone needs to make Bella something to eat that's decent for her to have as a first meal in a month and I don't know what that would be." He said while looking down at me and giving me his crooked grin.
"Are you sure Edward? You have not hunted in a while. Against advice might I add. " Carlisle said in a stern tone. Edward simply nodded his head and sent Carlisle a pleading glance. Carlisle seemed convinced and headed out of the room at vampire speed returning only a second later, doctor's bag in hand.
After a quick explanation of what to do, at which Edward continually rolled his eyes, Carlisle left the room, closing the door behind him. Edward looked down at me and gave me a soft, gentle kiss on my forehead before getting up and walking over to my right side with the bag in his hand.
He looked so much like a doctor, I couldn't help but chuckle. Edward gave me a confused, but amused look before he said.
"What's so funny?" I just shook my head at first; until he sighed showing he was getting frustrated at my silence.
"Nothing, just you look so much like a doctor and I couldn't help it. But I love the look and the thought that I could get used to being in the hospital more if you were my Doctor." I blush after I said this. I was being rather cheeky, I know but I just wanted to lighten up the mood.
He shook his head and in a voice that was soft, calming and very sexy, all at the same time, he replied with a cheeky glint in his black eyes. "Now Miss. Swan, I want you to remain still and calm while I take your IV out." He smiled at me and I was truly dazzled and in awe of him. There was this tingly feeling I got at his words, and I loved it.
I watch as he detached the IV-bag and as gently as he could he pulled off the tape around the IV needle and removed the tube that linked the bag of fluids to the needle. Once this was done he removed the needle from my arm so gently that I barely feel it.
I look at him in amazement. "Wow Edward, your reactions to my blood have changed, haven't they?" I said to him while he sealed everything in a plastic bag and placed it back into the doctor's bag so Carlisle can deal with it appropriately.
"Yea, they have. Although you still smell really delicious to me and it still causes my throat to burn, but your scent no longer makes the venom pool in my mouth and I no longer have to fight myself to not kill you.
"So being around you is so much easier than before, I'm glad for this though and I am not going to complain about it. But it means I can do this without too much of a risk." He said while lifting my arm up and kissed the inside of my elbow where the IV went into my arm, where a small drop of blood had seeped out from the broken skin.
I gasped in surprise and shivered as his cool breath washed over my arm. The strange electric current I experienced with Edward, shot pleasantly up my arm. He gave me my favourite grin and leant over to kiss me on the lips.
This kiss was so gentle, soft and loving that I almost forgot I was kissing a vampire. We were so engrossed in our own little world that we didn't hear Carlisle come back in with Esme right behind him.
We broke apart, I blushed and Edward looked away. I knew that if he could he would be blushing too and I knew right then that even he didn't hear them coming.
Esme stepped forward and pulled me into a hug. She then turned to smile at Edward but her expression quickly changed to look worried and even a little angry.
"Edward Anthony Cullen! You promised me you were going to go out and hunt yesterday," she growled. "YOU GO HUNT THIS INSTANT YOUNG MAN!"
"I'm not leaving Bella alone." Edward replied.
"I'll sit with Bella til you get back. Which better not be for a good few hours." Edward started to shake his head but I put a hand on the side of his face to stop him.
"Please Edward; I'll be ok. I want you to take care of yourself now. You have looked after me for long enough without hunting, so please go, have a decent hunt so you don't have to go out for a while again and then come back to me. If I could I would personally drag you out myself." I said.
He looked at me with a sad and slightly pained look in his eyes. He asked me if I was sure and I adamantly nodded my head. With one final kiss he took off out the glass door and over the balcony.
I was pulled out of my thoughts by Esme. "He'll be back soon enough Bella. But for now you have to eat something." I look at her and smile. It was only then that I noticed the tray Carlisle was holding, which he placed on my lap. I looked it over and found it was full of all my favourite things to eat.
I looked at both of them and I couldn't stop the tears from falling down my cheeks. Only this time they are happy tears running down to meet my now watery smile that had taken up residence across my lips.
"Oh dear, don't cry everything will be ok. You'll see." Esme cooed as she tried to wipe away the steady stream of tears that coursed form my eyes. "Esme, I'm not crying because I am sad. I'm crying because I am happy, if that's possible. I don't know how to express love very well, but I want you both to know that I love you very much and I am so thankful to you both for everything you have done and are still doing for me.
"Even though I don't feel like you should, I am glad that you are and have." I told her, and was sure if Esme could cry she would be, but instead she pulls me into a motherly hug and asked if I need any help with anything to just call out and with that she left the room.
Carlisle was still sitting next to me on the bed; he lifted my hand in his much larger ones and said. "Bella, I am going to work hard to make sure you don't feel like that for very long because I don't want you to put yourself down any longer. Now eat up, but take it slow ok!" He said.
"Tell me more about the adoption thing, please! I want to know everything so I can think about it tonight and be ready as quickly as possible because I don't want to wait too long to be your daughter." I smiled while lifting a fork full of mashed potato to my mouth.
"Well Bella, the adoption agency wishes to talk to you about your reasons for wanting us as your parents instead of Charlie. They also wish to know about how sure you are of your decisions on the matter. Then they will want to make sure that your living conditions here are well suited to you and all of that boring stuff." He chuckled at this for some reason and I chuckle with him when I think about how entertaining this must be for him and the others, having to go along with human necessities just so that they can pass an inspection.
"Unfortunately Bella, you may have to spend some time alone with Charlie. But it would only be for an inspection of your previous living conditions, and then you will only be there for two days and one night. Charlie has agreed that either Alice or Edward are to be there, until someone from the agency shows up to do the inspection and as soon as that is done you are coming back here with all your stuff that you wish to take. Well that is what's planned, at any rate.
"You have to go to school and I'm sorry for this one Bella, but Charlie wishes that if you are to get engaged your husband to be has to ask his permission first and he has to be asked to walk you down the aisle as well. He said he doesn't care if you still get married or whatever when you're ready to despite his answer as long as he is the first to know about it and be considered. His words by the way, not my own.
"I didn't want to have to agree to that without your permission or knowledge, but I knew how much you wish to be away from him as well as how much I wanted you to be away from him so I agreed. I hope you are ok with those conditions, I did what I thought was best for you and what needed to be done to get you away from him." He said while looking down at our hands. He glanced at my tray and noticing that it is more or less empty, he took the tray off me and places a glass of water on the nightstand.
"Thank you Carlisle, for doing that for me. I am more than ok with those conditions, I don't feel that he should be considered in any way after what he has put me through, but he is my biological father after all and it also means that I get away from him so I can't complain.
"I can't wait for you to be my father, because my 'blood related' one would never have done what was best for me like that nor would he have fought for me like you have. Instead my 'blood related' one just barters with my life so he can get the best deal possible." I said in a voice that was shaking with emotions that I don't understand. Carlisle seemed to sense my insecurity and he placed the tray down for a moment and gave me a hug as he whispered in my ear.
"I am glad to hear you say that and I can't wait to have you as my daughter." Standing back up he picked the tray up once more and walked to the door. Before he crossed into the hallway he turned back around and said.
"By the way Bella, don't hesitate to come to me for any reason. Even if you think it is silly ok?" And with that he walked out of the door and down the stairs. Before I even had a chance to feel alone I heard a knock on the door and I looked up to see that Jasper leaning on the door jamb.
"May I enter and sit with you Bella?" He asked in his gorgeous southern accent. I love the old fashion manners that everyone in the Cullen household seemed to possess. It was so refreshing and I never got tired of it. Jasper tilted his head to the side while watching me, waiting patiently for my answer.
"Sure Jasper, I didn't wish to be alone anyway and was about to call out for someone to come sit with me until Edward came back. So what brings you here?" I said to him. He walked over and took a seat in the chair by my bed. He smiled a small, sweet smile that seemed to light his face from within.
"Well Bella, Alice had a vision of you needing someone to sit with you and she thought it would be better if it was me that came to you. She wanted to come herself, but she wouldn't know what to say if you needed to talk about your feelings or if you can forgive her for not being able to protect you better a month ago, I have tried to calm her about that but she is beating herself up over it." He looked down when he said this.
Poor Jasper, it must not be easy for him sometimes with his ability.
So to help him out and called out in a clear voice, without shouting because I know any vampires in or within a short distance of the house will hear me.
"I know you can hear me, Alice and I want you to know that I don't blame you or anyone else in this family for what happened. You all tried your hardest and that's all I could ever expect and ask for. So I thank you instead of blame you." Next thing I know I have a very excided pixie giving me a hug and saying something about shopping and make-over's and other girlie things but I couldn't really make it all out because she was talking so fast.
Normally the whole idea of shopping and make-over's I found scary but I wasn't that scared of them anymore if it meant that I'd get some girl time with my sister. Wow I like the sound of that...my sister! Right then at that thought she squealed so loud I had to cover my ears and this time all I could understand was "Thank you Bella."
Jasper quickly herded the still babbling Alice out of the room and closed the door behind him. He then came back to sit down in the chair again. "Thank you Bella, for doing that and helping me. I just hope you know what you got yourself into. She loves her shopping." He said with an amused and happy smile on his face.
I shrugged my shoulders. At this point I needed all of their company now more than ever so I didn't really mind that much. And shopping wasn't too bad, I just didn't like to do it because of my injuries and also because I was never really allowed to do it before; I had to go to second hand stores to get my clothes.
Just to be sure though I'll just plan and think about some guidelines so she knew to go easy on me and only get the things I like!! So I started thinking about getting some different types of pants, some nice tops but nothing too tight or slutty. I never really like skirts but then again I never really was able to wear skirts so maybe a few wouldn't be too bad; just nothing shorter than my knees AND DEFINETLY NOTHING PINK!!!!
After I was done thinking of what I planned to look at getting I hear a squeal and then Alice's clear high bell chime voice filtered into the room "Don't worry Bella, you're going to have so much fun and I will make sure of that! And oh we'll get all the things you like I promise. If you promise to be open minded about a few things, but if you still say no then I won't force you into getting it."
Jasper looked at me at with a puzzled and questioning face and I say "I thought of a few guidelines just so she knew." He let out a short burst of laughter and then looked down at his hands all serious like, signalling that our pleasant conversation was over with for the time being.
I knew I should try and get the unpleasant parts over with, but I don't want Jasper to be uncomfortable or anything like that. He never seemed to mind and he did say he wanted to help me. Hmm what to do, what to do?
"Jasper, I don't know if it will make you uncomfortable or anything like that, but I really need to talk to someone that knows what I am feeling to help me get through this. I don't know if I can...oh I don't know...I just don't know what to feel!!!" I whispered and cried to him.
He got up off the chair and carefully wrapped his arms around me as best he could without hurting me. He gently rocked us both back and forth, as if he were rocking a small child. I feel a wave of calm and I clung to it. It was kind of weird in a way, but at the same time it just felt good and right. Like I could feel what I was feeling before but then I suddenly felt... well... calm about it. See what I mean... weird.
"Bella, I know you're confused and don't know what to do or which way to turn. But you need to know that you can get through this and anyone of us are here for you especially Edward! He is so worried that you will never what him to touch you, but you're worried he doesn't want to touch you because he is disgusted by what happened. Neither is true I can assure you of this, but you have to tell him and show him that you can trust him despite what happened.
"You also need to know that none of us will let anything happen to you ever again. I'm here for you when you need to talk and figure out your feelings. Edward is here for you, for whatever you need whenever you need it. Carlisle and Esme are here for you as your parents plus Carlisle is your doctor. Alice is your friend and sister, Emmett is really just a teddy bear at heart and Rosalie, well she'll warm up to you in her own time so there is no need to ever feel like you're alone ok."
I never knew Edward was that worried and thought that I don't want him near me or anything like that because of what has happened. I paled at the thought of not having Edward around. I wanted nothing more than to trust Edward and I knew that I could but I didn't trust myself enough to let him in. Every time I ever put myself out there something always comes and hits me in the face. All these beautiful people want to help me but it's just causing them worry and heartache, especially Edward. I wanted nothing more than to take away that pain and suffering but I knew it was impossible.
Jasper, sensing my change in emotions, sent me a wave of calm again and continued "Bella, you mean everything to us. Hell I have never been able to get as close to a human like I have with you and it breaks my dead heart to see you like this because of someone that I can't get at to hurt him back. You are already my little sister Bella and I would do anything for you.
"So please Bella, don't think that you're worthless. Everything will be ok! Don't let all the progress you have made go to waste because of that furry mongrel dog of a low life. You may not be as physically strong like us vampires or even mutts like the bastard that did this to you but I have never seen a human being as strong of will and mind like you.
"Hearing everything you withstood from your father and then seeing you stand up to him, and then seeing you stand up for your friend at school, although that was kind of humorous from my point of view. If you were a man and born in the time I was, you would have been an excellent solider and I would've been proud to have you serve under me.
"I can tell that you truly love all of us, and I think that a part of you is empathic and you can tell that we are upset that your upset and it upsets you even more, but you need to know that we are only upset because we love you so much and want to give you nothing more than the love and attention that you deserve to have had your whole life.
"You cannot live your life trying to please everybody, Bella. You need to focus on you right now and let others help to look after you and we can be trusted to do that. I think even your friend Amy can be too although I don't know her very well, from the way you stood up for her I can tell that you trust her and would be there for her like she has for you and I am sure will again.
"I know that my words could be harsh to you right now, but I feel that you need a push and I don't want to do that with my gift because I want you to know and feel that it's not some kind of glimmer or illusion if I falter or when it dissipates after I leave the room. I am a part of it though but I can't really block out the emotions of others so it's not really something I can stop, sorry.
"Please the moment that you feel like you can't take dealing with things and feel like the only way to stop the pain and suffering is to end your life you come to Edward, Carlisle or I ok? Even though Alice will more than likely get to you beforehand, please don't feel like you have to do this on your own and do something to yourself. It would kill us all and Edward would be more than beside himself." He said his voice thick with love, support, calm, trust and worry.
All I could do was nod and as I do so, I could feel my eyes droop and Jasper noticed this too. He started to pull away but I grabbed his arm with all the might I could muster. I was scared to be alone. I looked up to him and he looked down to me. In a calm voice he asks me.
"Bella, what are you afraid of right now? You're safe here in the house." Tears start to fall down my cheeks, he brushed them away and his face was full of worry because he couldn't tell what thoughts were causing my emotions. So I said to him.
"Please Jasper, I don't want to be alone and with Edward out hunting I need to feel someone's arms around me, can you please stay with me? At the very least until you know I am deeply asleep and then you can go, but please get someone else to sit with me when you do please."
He looked at me for a moment before settling back down in the position that he was in before. He then began to rock me like before and with that I fell asleep.
BETA NOTE! Hello everyone. My most sincere apologies for the massive holdup with the story it's really all my fault, Ezzy is just trying to cover up for me. I will try and be better and faster in the future. – TT26
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