Wake Me When I Begin To Disappear
~This is A SasuNaru Fanfic! Don't like it, then don't read it! All Naruto characters belong to Masashi Kishimoto
Chapter 10
Naruto and Sasuke were staring at one another for a long moment and the only sound was the drizzling rain.
Sasuke was the first to speak, "What the hell are doing here? Don't you see it's raining you idiot? Go home." He began to close his door.
Naruto stopped him by propping his foot out, "Why did you do it?"
Sasuke didn't comprehend, "What do you mean?"
"You know what I mean!" Naruto's voice could barely be heard by the thunder, droplets of water fell from his hair.
The sky became more and more malicious, so Sasuke surrendered and yanked Naruto inside, "Don't just stand there! Get in!"
Naruto tumbled a bit, but caught himself "…You didn't have to let me in..."
"Don't be ridiculous! If you haven't noticed there's a storm right now, you imbecile! ...If you want to talk let's do it in here. But, before that I'm getting a towel for your idiotic ass." Sasuke walked and turned a corner, while Naruto listened to his footsteps.
Suddenly the realization came to him, (WHAT THE HELL!? I WAS SO ANGRY WHEN I WAS ON MY WAY HERE! WHAT HAPPENED TO ME!?...Was it because of just seeing Sasuke? No way! No fucking way!) Naruto had his face in his hands when he was interrupted.
"What are you doing now, moron?" Sasuke had one eye brow raised.
Just hearing Sasuke's voice and turning his head to look at his face made Naruto question his former thought. "Uh! Nothing! I'm not doing anything so quit looking at me like that!"
Sasuke's face showed confusion but quickly reverted back to its expressionless form, "Here." He tossed one of the two towels he retrieved to Naruto.
He fumbled trying to catch it, "Um…thanks, I guess." (Why did he bring two?) He thought as he placed the towel over his head and rubbed it through his hair. Naruto was shocked when he suddenly felt Sasuke grab one of his hands and began leading him to the living room sofa. "Hey leggo'! You don't need to drag me! I can see where your couch is!" he half blushed.
Obviously not listening, Sasuke placed the remaining towel over one side of the cushions and set Naruto down.
Not understanding any of Sasuke's actions as usual, Naruto felt uncomfortable and awkward. (Okay…I don't get anything that's going on right now! Why is he being so considerate to me!? Why didn't he just toss me out!? And why isn't he answering the question I asked him!?) Unaware that Sasuke was staring at him, Naruto continued to stare at the floor while panicking internally.
"Are you going to keep quiet the whole time or are you going to let me answer you?" Naruto was startled, "Because it'd be a lot easier for you if I responded to your questions instead of freaking out in that thing you call your brain." Sasuke didn't reveal any annoyance in his sentence, but clearly showed he was beginning to get agitated.
Not knowing what to reply Naruto remained quiet, stunned by Sasuke's words. (Somehow I feel like…he's feeling the same way I am right now…, though why would he be freaking out? I'm the one who's about to have a heart attack here!)
Sasuke's eyes narrowed, "Alright I've had enough of this! If you're not going to say a damn word then leave!" he stood up and took a step when his arm was caught by Naruto's hand.
"I'm not leaving until you answer what I just asked you before!" Naruto was completely serious and caught Sasuke off guard.
"I-I always assumed you hated me because you and I would be fighting all the time! So when you started to act weird I was really going crazy and didn't know what to do! And I still don't know what to do!" Naruto gripped Sasuke's arm, creasing his long-sleeved shirt.
Silent for a few seconds, Sasuke unexpectedly ruffled the towel upon Naruto's head and it annoyed the already troubled blonde.
"Cut that out! Sas-!" Looking up, Naruto was shocked by Sasuke's pained appearance.
"I…..I'm not exactly sure…why I kissed you either." Sasuke admitted.
Naruto was annoyed, "That's not an answer!"
"What do you want me to fucking say then!?" Sasuke shouted and it made Naruto stiffen, "Don't whine and say I should have an answer because I don't have a clear one! Sorry to disappoint you!" Sasuke enthralled Naruto's hair tight, and even though it hurt him, Naruto didn't complain.
(He...he made that same face…before he almost kissed me the first time…What's with him? Why does he always have to be so difficult!?) Covering Sasuke's hands with his, Naruto murmured "Sasuke…you're so unfair." His light blue eyes burned, which only further irritated him.
Sasuke held their gaze for a short moment before sinking to the floor, sliding his hands down to Naruto's elbows.
"Whoa! Sasuke!?" Naruto said alarmed while holding on firmly to Sasuke's arms.
Setting his head against Naruto's knee, Sasuke sighed "If I just apologized… I know I wouldn't mean it. Plus…I'm sure what I did was part subconsciously…although, I'm not sure if I did do it on purpose too..." Naruto listened deeply. "You're right though. I have always hated you. However… some piece of me…felt strongly close to you…I don't know what it is, but I've never sensed it with anyone other than you. It's difficult for me to explain in words…especially since I've never had to say such humiliating sentences!"
Speechless, Naruto understood perfectly what Sasuke was attempting to say. His words were almost identical to what his own doubts and thoughts were.
"It's so infuriating! I can't differentiate whether I see you as just a friend or something more than as a friend! I literally can't stand myself for thinking like this! I get that you're freaked out just as much as I am, probably more; nonetheless I always tried to get through each day without unleashing these damn feelings! I always have to remind myself that you would be affected drastically if I even uttered the words 'I think I might like you!'…. however regardless of everything I tried to keep things the way they were, I found myself abandoning my reason and acted without thinking. Just being near you sets me off!..." Sasuke raised his head and locked eyes with the startled boy; he spoke firmly "Naruto."
He stuttered, "WH-What…?" The unwavering stare made Naruto shudder. He sat paralyzed when he noticed Sasuke was now standing on his knees and slowly leaning towards him, stopping when they were only a few inches apart.
"I forced you the last two encounters, this time I'm asking you straight out. I want, scratch that, need to figure out what is that I'm feeling…Will you let me test it…Naruto?" Sasuke's seriousness scrambled Naruto's instinctive rejection manifesting itself inside his mind.
Heart pounding and hands sweating, Naruto couldn't help feeling embarrassed from the closeness of their faces once again. Only this time, he found himself not resisting with his entire body.
(H-H-He's waaaaaaaaaay too close! Last time he was so forceful that I naturally fought against him but now-!...Now he's being really …nice. Well not exactly nice, more dramatic really…but when he kept saying he has to know what it is he's feeling when…when I wanna know the same thing too!Sasuke you asshole! Quit acting like you're the only one who needs to understand your own feelings!) Aside from his increasing annoyance, Naruto couldn't help but notice Sasuke's facial features, from his dark eyes to his mouth that moved slightly when he breathed. The too many occurring thoughts hurt Naruto's head, so he decided to allow the soon to happen sensation rid…and answer his unending demands. No longer capable of putting up with the silence he answered as best as he could with an angry smirk, "You couldn't have asked it in a less embarrassing way!?"
Sasuke slightly smiled the most sincere smile Naruto had ever saw and it caused his heart to race more rapidly.
Naruto squeezed his eyes shut when he could feel Sasuke's lips lightly press against his own, the same tingling sensation, which he felt from their former kiss, returned. It took all of Naruto's will power to not shove Sasuke away when he began to use a bit of force. His head started to become fuzzy and Naruto gradually succumbed to the kiss that was getting deeper.
When they came up for air, both boys were breathing heavy. Their faces still closely together, they gazed into one another's eyes for only a couple of seconds.
In a swift movement, Naruto's arms wrapped around Sasuke's neck and connected their lips for a second time. Sasuke was tremendously taken aback by the reunion from Naruto, but couldn't resist. Naruto was so indulged in the kiss he let out a low moan when Sasuke slipped his tongue in.
The kiss grew deeper and more passionate.
Naruto gasped for air when Sasuke started to very carefully kiss down his neck. The pale hand that tried to make its way under Naruto's shirt snapped him back to reality.
He suddenly felt smothered by Sasuke and his body being pressed against the sofa. He untangled his hands from Sasuke's hair and pushed them on Sasuke's chest, trying to plead the raven haired boy to stop.
Misinterpreting Naruto's action, Sasuke engulfed the blonde's hair with both hands and enforced another kiss.
Beginning to panic, he screamed "N-NO! STOP!" Naruto hurled Sasuke onto the other side of the couch.
Sasuke stared wide-eyed at Naruto, who was breathing so fast he looked like he was hyperventilating. "Naruto calm down." He forced his own anxiety away, concentrating all his attention on Naruto.
"I don't know why-! Why did I-!?" Naruto was at a loss for words. His whole body was trembling, hands and forehead sweating, and mind in total chaos. (I can't believe I let him kiss me! I really can't believe I kissed him back too!? Why did I do it!? Why!? Why!?...No I, I have to get out of here! I-I-I can't be here right now!) "I…I'm…s-sorry…" He said in a whisper barely audible. Avoiding Sasuke's questioning eyes, Naruto sprinted for the door.
Sasuke called after him, "Naruto wait-!" The petrified blonde flung the front door open and ran straight into the ongoing hammering rain.
"NARUTO!" Sasuke shouted as he watched the running figure disappear into the darkness.
