Chapter 8: A New Beginning
"A whole new world,
that's were we'll be,
A thrilling place,
for you and me."
-Aladdin, A Whole New World.
RPOV
Since two days ago at the clearing, things have been perfect. Jacob, Emmett, Rosalie, and Alice took Jane, Riley and Alec for their first hunt, and they did great. Jane was having fun with Rosalie, and even called her mom by mistake once. Rosalie's eyes lit up and told her there was no need to apologize, and that if she felt comfortable calling her mom that she could. Alec liked the idea as well. He and Emmett hit it off instantly when they watched football together. It seemed as if Rosalie finally got what they had always wanted, kids.
Riley was wonderful. He and dad had been playing music all day, and when Aunt. Alice didn't have me busy with wedding plans I would hang out with Jane and Riley until Jacob got off of patrol. We realized we all had more in common then we had thought. Riley and I both loved music, and playing it. Jane was into reading like me, and I get her borrow a lot of my books and told her when she is done with those she could come back and get more.
The day the Volturi left, things between Jacob and I changed dirastically. He led me to the cottage, and up to my room where he told me to get my pictures and find the one of us from the day at Emily's. When I had found it he told me to look behind it. In the process of taking the picture out of the book a piece of paper fell from behind it. I picked up the paper and unfolded it.
My dearest Renesmee,
I'm sorry for all tht has happened. I tried to protect you the best I could, and now I see that I can't protect you from everything, but I can and will always try. I want you to know something that I have never told you.
There is a way that a wolf can break an imprint. I didn't know this until my dad had told me. I wanted to make sure you are always safe, and being around me isn't always the safest thing. I wanted to break my imprint on you, so that you would be safe from me. It wasn't an easy decision to make, but I felt was the best thing for you. I'm truly sorry that I had to do it, but there's something else you should know.
After I broke the imprint, I thought it would be easy for me, but I was terribly wrong. I still thought of you every single second. I still dreamed of you, and it pained me to be away from you for so long. It felt as if the imprint wasn't broken, but I felt that it was when I broke it. I was confused about why I was still in love with you, if the imprint was broken. Sam kept hearing my thoughts about you, and he understood perfectly.
Even though I can break an imprint, I can't break true love. Even without the imprint, I still loved you just as much, if not more. I love you, and not just because of an imprint. I love you more then that. No imprint can compare to true love.
I know this may not be easy to hear, but you have to understand why I broke the imprint. I thought you would be safer if I wasn't around. I didn't plan on leaving, just breaking the imprint so you could find real, true love. I realize two things now.
One, you already had true love. Even though I had imprinted on you, I loved you on my own free will as well. It wasn't only the imprint that made me love you.
And second, you can't be safe without me, because you love me, and not having me around you is worse than having me near you all the time.
I love you, Nesie, and I always will, but now, I will love you on my own terms, and not on the terms of an imprint.
I will love you forever.
-Jacob Black
P.S. Read the back of the picture.
I couldn't get myself to stop reading the letter. Jacob truly did love me. He truly did, and it wasn't because he had to. I couldn't be mad at him for breaking the imprint, because it only brought us closer together.
I picked the picture up without looking at him and flipped it over to read,
The day before this was the day I broke the imprint. This day was when I realized I loved you on my own, and not just becasue of an imprint. This was the day that I myself fell in love with you.
I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. I couldn't think of anything to say. It was then that I realized just how lucky I really was.
The day before this was the day I broke the imprint. This day was the day when I realized I loved you on my own, This was the day that I fell in love with you.
I looked up at him with tears in my eyes. I couldn't think of anything to say. It was then that I realized just how lucky I really was.
"I meant all of it. I really do love you with all of my heart. And it's on my own terms. I'm no longer being forced to love you by some stupid spell, and evedn when the imprint was still there, I loved you because my heart did, not just the imprint." Jacob said as he held me close to him.
"My Jacob. You're really my Jacob. Not my best friend that fell in love with me because of a spell thing, but because of his heart. My Jacob." I said.
"I'll always be yours, never forget that." he whispered into my hair.
I cuddled my face into the cress of his should and started to cry at the thought of what had made him write the letter. He was expecting to die in the batter that hadn't even happened. He was willing to die for me. I couldn't think of anything to say, so I just laid there in his arms crying. It was the safest place in the world for me, the best place, and my favorite place in the entire world. I wouldn't have watned to be anywhere else.
EPOV(EDWARDSPOINTOFVIEW)
I looked around at all the picture's on the walls and shelf's all over my and Bella's room. The one that I couldn't stop looking at for the longest time. Renesmee was about three in the picture, and she was walking through a field full of flowers. It was around the time that we went to Canada on vacation for good hunting. She smelled tulips from a mile away and took off toward the field. She was so happy running through them and picking them to lift them up and smell them.
In the picture, She was facing the side, holding a single red tulip up to her nose and inhaling the scent. There was so much happiness spread across her face, and I felt as if I was standing in that field again. It was as if she was three years old again. The picture to the left of that one was of her sitting on my lap at the piano when she was around the age of six. She was playing a song she had compossed on her own for the first time. Her tiny little hands flew across the keyboard and sounded better then many of the songs I had wrote. She had even wrote lyrics to the song, and sung them. I swear I heard her voice playing in my head.
I looked around the room at all the pictures of her, myself, and Bella. There was our first family photo, the one of her first steps, the first time I held her, and the one of her first birthday. Another of my favorites of her was when she was about eight, and she was playing the guitar to her Aunt. Alice. One was of her asleep in my arms, and I was watching her dream.
I kept looking at other pictures, but I still felt as if I was back in that field with Renesmee. I couldn't shake off the memory for anything until I heard a knock on the door.
"Come in." I said, still holding the picture in my hand. I couldn't break my gaze away from the picture to see who was coming in, but I could tell it was Renesmee.
"Dad! You don't even have your tie on yet? I thought you were getting ready an hour ago." she said as she came over to help with my tie.
"I'm sorry, honey. I got distracted." I said as I layed the picture down and looked at her. "I know this is your big day, and I promise, I'll get it together."
"What's been bothering you? I can tell by the look on your face when I came in that something was wrong."
"I just feel like your leaving me too soon. It seems like yesterday you were wearing a sun dress in that field of tulips running towards me with a smile on your face, rather then running away in a wedding dress towards Jacob. Time flew by so fast, and I'm having difficulty wrapping my head around the idea that you aren't three years old still. Your almost eighteen, and it's hard to believe." I confessed, and saw a tear slide down her face. I knew it was hard on her as well. She could remember that day just as much as I could.
"Dad, I'll always be here. I could never completely leave you. I love you too much." She said as I held her close to me.
Alice came in and before I knew it she was complaining. "Edward, we don't have time for this. Your just giving her away, it's not the end of the world. Come on Renesmee. We need to get you into your dress." And before I knew it Alice was pulling her out of the room.
I sat down on the bed and held my head between my hands. If it were possible, I would have been crying by now. I wasn't expecting this day to come so soon. I knew it would happen eventually, but not this fast. I wasn't ready for her to grow up. I wished and wished and wished to go back to the day when she was three.
RPOV
The knot in my stomach only grew the longer I had to sit in the chair wihile Aunt. Rose worked on my hair and Aunt. Alice put my shoes on. My head felt as if world war three was happening in it, and my throat was tight as I tried to hold back the tears after the talk my father and I had.
I knew this would be hard on him, but I didn't expect he would take it that hard. He had done better with excepting the fact of Jacob and I getting married then I thought he would. For some reason though, I felt the same as my dad. I grew up so fast and it was like time just flew by.
As Aunt. Rose was gently running her hands through my hair, I kept flashing back to different memories. Some of my dad, mom and I, and others of me and Jake. I felt as if my entire my life was flashing before my eyes. People say that happens sometimes before you die, but all I was doing was starting a new chapter in my life.
"Ness, I know your going through an emotional time right now, but please don't cry. You'll ruin your make up before Jacob even gets to see it, and I'd hate for him to miss out on how beautiful look right now." Aunt. Rose said as she wiped away a tear that escaped from my eye without me even knowing it had done so.
"I'm sorry. I'll hold it back, I promise." I replied. She was finally done with my hair and the next thing to do was too go down the steps and have my dad walk me down the aile.
My stomach started doing flips and I felt like I was going to throw up any minute. My mother greeted me with a hug when I reached the bottom of the steps and whispered in my ear about how beautiful I looked. I turned the corner and my father extened his arm for me to take, and I knew this was it. In just seconds, I would be looking into the eyes of the only person that I loved more then myself. The only person who would be able to calm the butterflies in my stomach.
The closer I got to the french doors, the more my stomach flipped out. I started to calm down a bit when I thought about how close I was to being with Jacob. My father looked at me and kissed my cheek before my Aunts opened the doors and I heard the music start. My Aunts would be going down the aisle before me, since they were the bridesmaids, and then Emily, and Claire.
I looked up at my father as it came closer and closer for the time for us to start walking. I closed my eyes for a second, and just for that split second, I was three again. Time had stopped, and I was in that field of tulips, trying to find the prettest one to give to Jacob. I was just three. I didn;t have to worry about any dangers of life, or how to tell Jacob I loved him more then a friend. I didn't have to see my father so upset that I was growing up so fast. But I couldn't stay three for long, because my father started pulling me down the aisle, and before I knew it, I was looking into Jacob's eyes.
The soft touch of his hand and my dad placed my hand in his instantly soothed me, and suddenly, that day was out of my mind, and all I could think about was what was infront of me. Jacob.
A/N: Thank you for reading! I really hope everyone enjoys this chapter, and I would like to say a special thanks to one of my readers, Lyrics2soul. And please, if you get the chance, read her story, Jacob's New Horizon. It's pure amazement! (: Pleassssssssse review (:
