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Where her heart beats

Rin was bawling on Ah-un. Sensing her distress, he took her to the nearby river where the wildflowers grew. He knew she loves flowers.

"What am I to do? If that child is his, Kagura will have to stay in the castle. I would be reminded of his past everyday for the rest of my life. Since she is niece to the King of the south, he will demand her given a status as mistress or even queen. She would be the mother of his heir." So much hurt and pain made Rin fall into the flowers below. She was in no mind to notice their beauty as her world was crumbling away. Ah-un got closer to her and nudged her, kissing her cheeks. She spent the day crying to Ah-un.

Lord Haruki was going to the west to surprise his newfound sister on her upcoming wedding when he heard a maiden weeping by the river's edge. His men secured the area as he stopped his carriage and went to investigate. When he saw her, he ran over and shook her.

"Rin, why are you here by yourself? What happened? What did Sesshomaru do? " All she could muster was a pained looked of devastation before she passed out.

They stopped at the temple for it was getting dark and she was in need of rest. It was the same temple her uncle was in. Though still under repair, it was decent.

A guard stepped out to ask the monk,"My lord request to stay here with his sister. We will pay handsomely for your generosity."

The monk smiled," If you help us with repairs, no other payment is required." Haruki nodded. He ordered his men to rebuild the wall and roof.

"Rin, can you get up? We will rest here for the night." He said nudging his sister. Rin nodded. She walked into the prayer room noticing a faint memory of this place.

Just then a voice and face caused her tears to overflow. "Rinny, nice to see you again."

"Uncle Totosai." Rin slumped to the ground crying again. "My dear, what has cause you to be so distraught?" Rin said nothing but continued to cry harder until she started to dry heave.

Uncle Totosai resorted to giving Rin some medicine to calm her, a sedative to help her sleep. "Young Lord, what happened to her? Why is she in such a delicate disposition?"

"Honestly monk, I do not know. Last time I got her note, she was happier than ever and she is to wed her love in a month's time. I have never seen her so devastated." Both men sighed.

Rin woke up early the next morning. Crying took so much energy. She felt drained of all energy and the pain still baring on her soul. She got up and walked outside. Memories flooded her mind. That well, was where he spilled water on her kimono. She had a soft smile. And there by the logs, is where he kissed her the first time. And that tree was where he made it almost impossible to hang the laundry. "Maybe it would be better if I never met him." She said out loud.

"Rinny, it is better to have love and lost, than to have never loved at all. Memories can not be erase so easily, but think back and dwell on those happy moments, rather than the sad ones."

"But it hurts so much, how can I?" Rin asked.

"Talking usually helps Rinny, doesn't it? Tell me what happened? We can work this out my child." Rin nodded. She explained to her uncle and Haruki about how Sesshomaru was before her and that Kagura was claiming to have his baby. She finally realise what she was afraid of. She was afraid of losing him to Kagura. Afraid that he would love the child and forget about her. She feared losing him.

"Rinny, a man only changes when he truly has a reason. No one can make him change. He desired the change for you. If you made him want to settle and get married, that speaks volumes of his affection for you. A child will change your relationship, but would you love the child as well, even though he is not yours? Will you not forgive him for something he did before you were in his life?"

"The child is not at fault, I could not dislike him, because of it. I guess I knew the kind of person he was, but this throws it in my face so I can't just ignore it. But, but I can't be mad at him for something he did in the past. I would not be the person my mother and brother wished me to become." Rin realised that her love for Sesshomaru was stronger than her fear of losing him. Totosai noted her discovery. "Happiness is not given or attained easily, you must work hard to achieve it. I will be here if you need to get away from him but do not run without letting him explain himself. Being in a relationship means when you fight, you fight fair. You cool off first. Then you need to hear each other out. You both need it." Rin smiled. She is grateful for having such a wise uncle.


Sesshomaru watched as Rin ran out the dining hall and moments later, heard Ah-un. She fled the castle. She left him.

Kagura came up to Sesshomaru and placed her hand on his arm only earning a glare from him.

"Kagura, this will change nothing. You may be the child's mother, but you will never be my wife. Rin is the only one who can fulfill that position." he spat.

"Sesshomaru, would you have your child hold the label of illegitimacy? Royalty at that? I doubt Lord Toga will approve." King Naraku said.

"Then I will request to be relieved from being the crowned prince. Inuyasha will hereby take that title. I say again, Rin is the only one I shall marry. If you use diplomacy to force Kagura on me, you will lose. Besides, who know if that baby is really mine? I caught her in bed with my general seven months ago. Hence her quick departure. Nothing will be done until the baby is borned. I shall hear nothing more until my wife returns." Sesshomaru said storming out of the dining hall. In his mind, Rin was already his wife.

Kagome was upset and glad at the same time. Upset Sesshomaru was such a bastard and made her sister leave, but glad he was truly in love with her sister. 'Rin, please come back.'

Sesshomaru went to the gate and sat against the wall. After a while Toga came out and sat next to him.

"You would become a commoner for her? Is she worth it?" He said tossing Sesshomaru an apple. He did miss lunch.

"She is the air I need to breathe. She is the blood that my heart pumps to feed my body. I have nothing without her. No direction, no motivation, no life. Without her, my life goes back to meaningless conquest. Which I prefer to leave behind." He said matter of fact.

"Son, I am proud of your decision. If you are worried, why don't you go after her?"

"I have always told her it is her decision. If she so chooses, she will return to me. I will wait until then. She has suffered much in her lifetime and I wish not to add to that. I know she will return when she is ready. If she should refuse to be with me, I will die on this spot. If the child indeed is mine, please raise him or her to be respectful of another person. That is all I ask of you, father."

"Sesshomaru, you are strong. One night in freezing weather will not kill you. Besides, if she loves you like you believe, she will come back by tomorrow. Stop pawning your responsibilities off on me, I'm too old to raise a child. Ungrateful mutt."

Both laughed. There was much to do and it all depended on Rin's return. Toga ordered a guard to bring a heavy blanket out for Sesshomaru.

Sesshomaru watched as the sun settled. 'Kami, I know the errors of my way. If you need me to prove myself, I shall use my life to prove it.'

'She'll be back. She loves us. She has to come back.' his subconscious continued to murmur through the frigid night.


Rin and Haruki left the temple and made their way to the palace. Upon arriving at the gates, she noticed Sesshomaru sitting against the wall with a blanket over him. She ran up to him and touched his face. It was cold.

"Stupid jerk, you could have died!" She yelled at a half asleep Sesshomaru.

His arms came up and pulled her into his chest under his blanket. " No, not until you return to me. Rin, please. I was a changed man when I met you, I swear it on my life. Kagura was one I once had feelings for, but you are my reason to live. Please, don't go."

She looked at her broken fiancé, "I am here, am I not? It's freezing out here, or am I to be a widow before my wedding?" His smile brighten and he scooped her up and ran inside to the castle.

Once in her chambers, she sat Sesshomaru down for a heart to heart.

"Please hear me out completely before you give your opinion. I want to postpone the wedding until the baby has been borne. I want your baby to have a legitimate standing in life. Once things are decided with Kagura's position in your life, we can get married. I will not be the mistress. If we are to be married, I will be your only wife as you will be the only man in mine."

Sesshomaru smiled. He loved her fiery side. She knew what she wanted and that was what he wanted too. "I have said it before, only you. If the child is mine, I will take responsibility. Kagura will be his mother, nothing more. I will not be pressured to give her a title of any kind. "

"What do you mean if it is yours?" Rin asked. " Who else would it be?"

He smirked," She was with others while with me. I can not be certain that child is mine. I actually caught her with my general before excusing her from my presence."

Rin's eyes opened even wider. That vile woman was unbelievable. But Sesshomaru was not innocent either. He needed to pay.

"One more thing. No touching, holding, or kissing until the baby is borne. Agreed?" Rin smiled at Sesshomaru's stomp.

"No. It is bad enough I have to wait to bed you, but if you take away the other things, I will surely die."

Rin giggled, "You won't die, my love."

" My soon to be wife does not understand my cravings for her will be insatiable. You must let me kiss you and hold you. I will refrain from my exploration of your body until our wedding." He said inching closer to her, breathing into her ear.

Her pouting lips and widen eyes made him wrap his arms around her as he pulled her onto his lap. "RRIn, I will wait forever for you. I will die if I can't hold you."

Rin looked at him with hands on his cheeks. " You look fine to me." They sat there just looking into each other's eyes. Once again their world was complete.

They did not notice an angry,heavily pregnant Kagura outside Rin's room.

"I must get rid of her or there will be no place here for me." Kagura said to herself.