Shuichi was sitting down on his hospital bed re-reading the letter that Yuki had written him. "If only he would say to me." Shuichi whispered to himself and then looked around. He didn't want to get sedated again for talking to himself. Shuichi looked at the plain white walls and the plain white ceiling, missing his home. Most importantly he was missing his Yuki. Finally a knock distracted him, when he looked at the door he saw a nurse standing there. "Is it time for more of my medication?"
"No sir, in fact you have a visitor waiting to see you." Shuichi perked up, maybe it was his Yuki coming to see him and profess his undying love and devotion to him. Shuichi ran a comb through his greasy pink almost brown hair since his hair dye was finally fading. Shuichi then turned and faced the nurse. "Let's go." Shuichi was on cloud nine ready to see the love of his life, but his smile and heart fell from his chest when he saw that it was only Hiro. Shuichi sat down in one of the hard plastic chairs and faced his friend.
"Hey Shu, why do you look so sad to see me?"
"I was kind of hoping to see Yuki." Hiro nodded his head in response to what his friend said. "He hasn't seen you yet?"
"He has, but I kind of did that thing and he hasn't come back." Shuichi said and hung his head low. "I don't mean to switch personalities on Yuki. I really don't Hiro, but I can't control it."
"I'm sure that Mr. Yuki knows that, and I'm pretty sure that he understands."
"Kisho says that Yuki made this happen to me, you know made me have this other personality."
"Well I can understand why you feel think that________"
"No you don't understand what he did too him. He would abuse him and use him." Hiro raised an eyebrow at Shuichi. "Oh please don't give me that look; you and I both knew that Eiri is a bastard. I mean you don't know all of the stories and all."
"Well why don't you tell me what he did to you."
"You mean Shuichi." Kisho pulled a cigarette out of his pocket. "You got a light?" Hiro pulled out his lighter and lit Kisho's cigarette. "Thanks, but I would never let Eiri touch me." Hiro nodded for Kisho to continue. "Sit back and get comfortable I'm going to you every gory detail."
Flashback
Shuichi was sitting at the dining room table; his plate of food was cold and looked very unappetizing. Yuki promised that he would come home for dinner and it was already ten o'clock and no sign of Yuki yet. Shuichi stood up and threw his plate of food in the trash can walked into his bedroom. "I hope that he isn't with another woman again." Shuichi checked his phone for the tenth time within the hour and still no messages or missed calls. "I hate this!"
"You hate what you damn brat?" Yuki asked from the doorway with a slur in his voice and cigarette dangling from his lips.
"Yuki, you said that you would be here at seven and it's ten."
"So what. Your still here as usual."
"Why are you being so mean to me? You promised that we could have dinner together tonight but you never showed."
"Take your clothes off."
"What?! Did you hear me Yuki I said____" Shuichi was cut off when a fist connected with his jaw.
"I said take your shit off and lay down are you deaf." Shuichi did as he was told with tears streaming down his face. "Lay face down I don't want to look at you."
"Yuki." Shuichi whimpered and laid face down on the bed. "Yuki why are you being so mean."
"My editor didn't finish me off like she promised she could, so now I have to finish with you." Yuki said as he unzipped his pants and went over to the bed. He then rammed his raw member inside of Shuichi.
"Ah, Yuki it hurts."
"You'll be just fine." Yuki said as he continued to thrust in and out of Shuichi forcefully. Shuichi was crying and sobbing into his pillow. Finally with a final grunt Yuki was finished. "Get a towel and clean up, and change the damn sheets. You put blood everywhere." Shuichi could barely move and when Yuki noticed this he walked around to the side that Shuichi was laying on. "Perhaps you didn't hear me, but get up and change the damn sheets, or else." Slowly Shuichi got up and walked towards the linen closet and took out a set of sheets. He then went back into the bedroom to make the bed, when he pulled the old sheets off he saw that blood was all over the mattress.
"Yuki." Shuichi called for his drunken boyfriend.
"What?"
"There's blood all over the mattress." Yuki ran inside the bedroom and looked at the mattress. "Can you help me clean it?"
"You fucking idiot!" Yuki yelled and slapped Shuichi. "This was a one thousand dollar mattress and you ruined it, now I need a new one. Why the hell do I keep you?"
"You did it Yuki, you made me bleed all over the place, and I asked you to stop." Shuichi whispered. Yuki turned angry hazel eyes at his lover and smirked.
"If you were a woman then you would be fine. Maybe you should look into that."
"Yuki." Was all that Shuichi could say as tears rolled down his cheek.
"If you were a woman, than I would never have to cheat, but look at you. You're a disgrace." Yuki then turned and walked out of the room. "You better clean my mattress and make it like brand new again." Shuichi sat on the floor and cried, he eventually fell asleep there, and when he woke up Yuki was gone again.
End Flashback
Kisho had long finished his cigarette and looked at Hiro, who was beet red with anger. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"Shuichi didn't want to trouble you. You're planning a wedding and all. His life and drama could wait. Besides once you get married Shuichi can't come and whine to you all the time. It was fine while you were single and all, but look at you. You're going to get married and start a family; you don't need any of his extra drama."
"But Shuichi has been my friend since childhood, how can he think that I'm going to just forget about him like that."
"Times change and so do people, so he feels that it's time for him to let some people go." Kisho sat back and looked for another cigarette. Hiro gave him one and lit it for Kisho. "I'm sorry that Shuichi is ready to part ways with you but you know that's just how it goes. That's why he started to learn on Ryuichi so much."
"That's not fair, Shuichi is my friend." Hiro almost yelled.
"Calm down or there going to medicate me." Kisho warned. "Plus I'm not ready to go back yet. I just want to hang out a little bit and relax some." Hiro nodded and stood up he then held out his hand. Kisho shook it.
"Thank you for telling me that, and if Shuichi can hear us I want him to know that he's still my best friend and no matter what he's always my best friend and I want him to know that."
"He knows, trust me he knows." Kisho said and stood up. Both men parted ways Hiro to go and see Ayika and Kisho to go and see Dr. Frost.
Eiri finally opened his eyes and looked around. Once again he had fallen asleep on the couch; he just couldn't bring himself to sleep in the bedroom that he and Shuichi shared together. Eiri lit a cigarette and inhaled deeply, he hated this, he hated that fact that he knew that he caused all of this to happen to Shuichi. He loved Shuichi, but he just couldn't get himself together. That made him hate himself even more for not being able or capable to return Shuichi feelings. "Why is love so damn difficult, I write about love all the time and yet I can't make myself act the way that my characters should act." Yuki sighed to himself and stood up to stretch. "I really hate this." He then walked into the kitchen and grabbed a beer. "I should grocery shop." He muttered to himself and the laughed. "Without the brat I would've never noticed that I need food." Yuki then sat down on the couch and turned on the television. After flipping through the channels aimlessly he gave up and walked outside on the balcony. Eiri looked at the city and then at the ground below. He then shook his head and went back inside. After writing a letter and tapping it on the television, he then left the apartment unlocked and walked to the rooftop of the apartment building. He looked at the ground and then at the sky. Yuki stood on the ledge and took a deep breath, and leaned forward.
Kisho had made it back to Dr. Frost's office and knocked on the door. When he didn't hear anything he opened the door and saw Dr. Frost with his head down. "Doctor."
"Come in." Dr. Frost said and sat up. "I was meditating; tell me what can I do for you?"
"Nothing, I was bored."
"I can tell that you're not Shuichi at this time."
"Your right, Hiro came to visit Shu today so I told him about what was going on and all."
"All as in…."
"Shuichi and Eiri, you know Hiro wasn't too pleased to hear about it, but oh well." Kisho then produced a pack of cigarettes.
"You need to discuss something Kisho."
"No, just saying hi and all." Kisho then turned around to leave. "Hey is there anyway that you can make it so that I can stay out permanently?"
"I don't know if you're safe yet."
"Hn. I don't know either." Kisho then left and closed the door. He walked back to the main area of the hospital and watched the news on television.
"I'm Miyuki Takwawa reporting live from the apartment building of the famous novelist Eiri Yuki. As you may already know Mr. Yuki has tried to commit suicide by jumping off of the roof of his apartment building. So far he has flat lined twice and is still unconscious; the paramedics have been trying to stabilize him so that they can transport him to the nearest hospital." Ms. Takwawa turned in the direction of the apartment build to see the paramedics trying to left Yuki in a stretcher and put him inside of an ambulance. "As you can see he must be some what stable they have now Mr. Yuki into an ambulance. I'm Miyuki Takwawa and I will keep you updated and now back to you."
Kisho had turned away from the television with a smile on his face. "Good he deserves to die." Kisho then walked back to his room and lay on the bed. "I wish I could stay around forever." Kisho said to himself as his drifted shut. He will dream of Eiri dying and Shuichi and him being free.
TBC
