A/N: Well, hi there. :P

Disclaimer: I'm going to Eclipse on Wednesday, and Taylor Swift in 12 days. I have no idea what that has to do with me not owning the Twilight Copywrites, but anyways. I don't own Twilight ! :(

I return home with Edward after the dance, only to be jumped by Alice as soon as I get to my bedroom. I sigh and just stare at her as she bounces up and down like a little retard. Will some one just get her the fuck out of here? I want to go drown myself in my shower for actually kissing him. It really isn't right, at least, in my mind it isn't right. I don't know about him...

"Did you really kiss him?" Alice squeals, jumping up and down.

"Alice, will you please shut up?" I grumble, "I don't want to talk about it. It's really stupid and I don't even know why I kissed him. I don't like him anyways."

"Bella, you always say that you don't like Edward, but you know that you really do."

"No, I don't." I say, still trying to deny it.

I've denied it all along but I'm sure Edward would like to deny it, too. There also has to be some part of him that thinks that all of this is wrong. Every little bit of it is all wrong. Maybe that's what I'm afraid of. For the first time in my life, I am really afraid to have my heart broken. I won't say I'm in love with him yet, just simply infatuated. Yes I am infatuated with Edward Cullen. It's just puppy love, seeing as I have never really liked someone. I was only with my last boyfriend because he had access to alcohol and drugs. We were drinking and drug buddies, that's all...

"Well, I think that you're just being stupid. I can see that look in your eyes. You've got that look."

"What look?" I snap at Alice.

"You've got the I'm in love with him, but I don't want anyone to know I am, so that way if something happens it won't matter as much type of look, Bella."

"Well, aren't you smart and on the ball with these things?" I grumble at her.

"As your sister it is my job to know all these things." Alice says proudly.

I sigh, "Oh fine, I like him." I have for a long time. God damn it.

"See, I knew that." she giggles, "I knew you were going to say that."

"Oh, will you shut the hell up?"

"No, I won't." she says, grinning. "I am going to shout your love for Edward to the whole house, and then all of the town."

"You have got to be kidding me, and don't you think if there was anyone going to should my love to the whole house and all of the town it would be me?"

"No, you'd never do that, unfortunately. I know you well enough to know that that will never happen."

"Well, I'm glad you know that much about me." I look at her, "Do you mind getting out of my room? I need to get undressed, take a shower, and then go to sleep. It's late and I still do have school tomorrow, you know."

"No, you don't. There's going to be sun yet again tomorrow, and we're going to take you with us this time. We're actually going up to Alaska, so you can stay at the Denali's while we go hunting."

"Oh, you have got to be kidding me! We're going to see Tanya of all people?" I whine at Alice.

"Don't worry, I think Edward dislikes this more than you do." Alice snorts.

"No, no one can dislike this more than I can. I don't want to be anywhere near Tanya. I hate her with a passion." and she does like Edward... and that bothers me.

"Well don't worry, if you need to go all emo over this, you can go emo over it with Edward. No big deal."

"Just get out of my room, please." I snap at Alice.

She laughs and slips out of my room, and then I go to do my nightly routine to get ready for bed. However, after I'm showered and dressed my pajamas the routine becomes slightly altered.

"I don't want to go to fucking Alaska." I grumble, as I kick around some text books on my floor rather angrily. Yes, I still do have a bit of an attitude. Sue me. So does every other teenager, pretty much. "Alaska is fucking stupid and good for nothing. God fucking damn it."

I continue to kick random items that were laying on my floor around my room, and finally someone knocks on my door. It was Esme. Oh dear..

"Bella, if you continue to swear and go on like that, I'm going to have to ground you." she says firmly, but still with that kind and mothering tone of voice.

"Sorry, Esme." I grumble and stop. Well, that ruins my fun.

She walks in to my room, and hugs me, "Come on, Bella. It's only for the weekend. There's no harm in that. We know Edward would take you over Tanya any day. I don't think he appreciates her falling all over him all the time." she smirks a little.

"I still don't want to go, mom. Can't I just stay home alone?"

"I'd rather you not..." she trails off.

"Don't you trust me, mom?"

"No, it's just if any vampires do happen to come in the area, they'll pick up your scent, come here and you'd be left unprotected." she sighs.

"I've stayed home alone before." I reply.

"Yes, you have, but only for a few hours."

"Please can't I just stay here alone, just this once?" I plead.

"I said no, and that's it." Esme says.

"I hate my life right now.." I grumble.

"No you don't, you're just saying that because you can't get your way. Typical teenage thing." she smiles wryly.

"True enough, but still..."

"Bella, honey..."

"Yes?" I ask.

"Just do yourself a favor and go to bed. You'll think differently in the morning, once you've got some sleep, and the chance to think about some things."

"I doubt that." I mumble, but get in to bed anyways.

She just sighs, "Do you want anything to eat or drink before you go to sleep, Bella?"

"Milk and cookies please, mommy?" I bat my eyelashes.

"Cookies aren't good for you at the rate you eat them, Bella!" Carlisle yells from his study.

"I don't care about your opinion, dad!" I shout back.

"Of course you don't." he yells back.

"Glad you got things all figured out!" I snort, and then look back to Esme. "Please?"

"Yes, alright." she says, "No more for a week though."

"That is just cruel." I sigh to myself, as she leaves to get me what I wanted.

"It isn't cruel at all." Edward walks in.

"Oh, and who gave you permission to come in here, Eddie Boy?"

"Door was open." he shrugs, "Anyways, it is unhealthy."

"Eh, I'll be a vampire soon enough anyways."

"First vampire with high cholesterol." he laughs at me.

"Shut up, won't you?" I ask, as he walks over and hugs me.

"No." he smirks, and also pecks my cheek, "Goodnight, Bella."

"Goodnight, Edward." I blush, as Esme walks back in to the room, and smiles.

"Leave the poor girl alone now, Edward." she shoos him away.

I laugh, as she hands me the cookies and glass of milk, "Thanks."

"No problem." she smiles and pats my hair, "Bed now, Bella."

"Yes, ma'am." I say, and salute her as I lay down, and sigh.

I lightly close my eyes and drift off in to my own little dream land.

A/N: There, that's not much, but it's enough to get myself on track again. :) Hope you all are having a good start to Summer.

Songs I listened to during this chapter:

Wavin' Flag- K'naan.

Celebrity Status-Marianas Trench

The Climb-Miley Cyrus (Hate MC, but love that song..)

Dressed To Kill- New Found Glory

Rude Boy-Rhianna

California Gurls-Katie Perry.

I shall update soonish ! :)