I'm actually trying to update! I'm just not feeling this story, but I'm still trying. Maybe if I actually got a decent number of reviews…It's okay. Whatever. By the way, I might pull a 'Midnight Sun' and do this from Edward's POV once I finish. What do you think?


His face was the first thing that I saw. He was so incredibly, blindingly, beautiful that my breath caught. It was a good thing that I didn't actually need to breathe anymore. Otherwise, we might have had a problem. It took me a while to form a coherent thought. All I could do was just stare at him, memorizing his features. He was definitely inhuman again.

"Bella?" He asked anxiously. His scarlet eyes looked me over with intense worry. "What's wrong with her, Carlisle? Is she okay?"

"She's fine." Alice stepped in.

"I'm okay, Edward." I murmured. My breath caught again. Was that my voice? It sounded too unearthly, too bell-like. "Edward," I said, grabbing his hand. His eyes fell on me, still panicked. "Edward, I'm absolutely fine." His eyes softened, but didn't lose their worry.

It was very odd to look into his eyes and see scarlet. I supposed that mine must be just as vividly red. I slid off of the bed that I was laying on to stand in front of my love.

"Edward, look at me." His gaze met mine. I cupped his face in my hands. I was surprised to feel that his skin was warm against mine, but I supposed that that made sense. We had the same skin temperature after all. "I feel fine."

"I hate that word." he said, but he smiled a crooked smile. I leaned up and kissed the edge of his smile. He didn't pull back or even stiffen. There was no need anymore.

"Are you okay?" I asked, pulling back. His arms encircled me to keep me close. He buried his face in the crook of my neck.

"You smell the same." He murmured. The others left the room to give us privacy. "In a good way." He added as I opened my mouth to ask. "And I still can't read your mind." He pulled back to read my scowl. "I can't." He insisted. It sure seemed like he was reading my mind. I decided to let it drop though.

"You didn't answer my question. Are you okay?"

"I'm much better now that you're awake." He said.

"Good. Edward, I-"

"Don't, Bella. I don't regret anything."

"Are you sure?" It hurt me to ask. I was deeply afraid that he would resent me now.

"Yes." He leaned down and kissed me. It was so much better than before. When he had been a vampire and I had been a human, there was always a sense of tension. When we had both been human, there had been that mortal urgency. Now there was just Edward and I (and our heightened senses). It was breath-taking.

"I love you." I whispered against his lips.

"And I love you." He seemed surprisingly calm. It was worrying me.

"Edward, are you sure about this?"

"About being a vampire again?" He asked. I nodded my head. "Are you okay with this?" he asked.

"I asked you first." He said nothing. I sighed. "Of course I'm okay with it. I came to terms with this path a long time ago. I know this isn't what you wanted though-"

"I didn't want to take your life away from you." He corrected. "I didn't want to force you into something. I made decisions that I regret. It appears that I'm destined to be a vampire-"

"But couldn't you just change back again?" I asked. He shook his beautiful head.

"Carlisle says that I couldn't go through another conversion."

"So you have no choice." My heart dropped. Maybe he would grow to resent this.

"There's always a choice, my love. I choose you. I choose life for us, forever."

"Are you sure?" I asked again. He laughed.

"Bella! How many times do I have to tell you?"

"Okay, okay. I believe you." I smiled, and kissed him again. The kissing went on for quite some time. However, our vampire memories allowed us to pick up our conversation right where we left off.

"I'm just afraid that you'll come to resent this which will lead to you resenting me…" I trailed off helplessly.

"I could never resent you, Bella love."

"It does seem like someone up there wants this for us, doesn't it?" I laughed.

"It does at that." He smiled.

"Okay, I promise not to bring it up again."

"Are you sure?" He asked. His eyes were suddenly clouded with some dark emotion.

"I thought we were done with this discussion?" He stayed quiet. "I want this, Edward. I want you, forever. I don't think a mortal life would be enough time for me to love you."

"But you could still change back, live a normal life."

"When are you going to understand that my life will never be normal? Even if I did change back, you're a vampire. Don't even suggest that I let you go again." I shot him a glare to silence him. "Plus, even without you, my daughter's half-vampire. Her soul mate's a werewolf…"

"Okay, I get it."

"Edward, you say that another transformation would be too much for you. Well, losing you again would be too much for me." I could feel myself starting to hyperventilate, even as a vampire.

"Calm down, love. I'm not going anywhere." He pulled me close. "I promise."

"You really need to stop doing that to me."

"I'm sorry." He responded sheepishly.

"I forgive you." I laugh. My laugh is so different. It reminds me…

"What do I look like?" I asked. "No, don't answer. You'll just lie."

"I never lie to you." he said indignantly. "You look breath-taking, amazing. You're the most exquisite creature that I've ever seen." He added quickly. I glared at him.

"That's what I meant by lying."

"Not a lie." He retorted. I rolled my eyes and went to stand in front of the mirror.

My clothes were wrinkled. My hair was somewhat messy, but it looked shinier, healthier. My skin was pale as ever, but it had a beautiful healthiness that it had previously lacked. My eyes had dark bruises under them, but my features seemed the same. Somehow, though, they seemed to go together better. Before, I had felt plain. I didn't anymore. I wasn't as beautiful as Rosalie, but I had never cared about that. My gaze fell on my eyes. They were red as I had expected. I was really a vampire.

Edward stood behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist. He looked more handsome than ever. My enhanced sight showed me what my human vision had not. He was ever more perfect than I had known. I looked at the whole of us in the mirror. He was still too perfect for me, but I could see how we fit. I could no longer deny that we fit together. There was something in the way we looked together that just screamed rightness.

I turned away from my reflection to look at my love. He smiled gently at me. I smiled back. Suddenly, the door burst open. It was Alice.

"It's okay, Jazzy. I told you we weren't interrupting." Jasper walked in behind her. The rest of the family followed (minus, Rosalie and Emmett obviously).

"Hey, Alice." I grinned. She rushed over to me. I found myself swept into her arms. I hugged her back. She jumped back and let out an excited screech.

"This is what I saw! Remember, Edward." He nodded. "I knew I wasn't wrong." I shook my head with a smile.

"How do you two feel?" Carlisle said as Alice went over to hug Edward.

"We're fine."

"Aren't you thirsty?" Jasper asked. Burning exploded at the back of my throat.

"I wasn't until you mentioned it." I grumbled. I willed the burning away. It stopped. My eyes widened. "Ummm…Carlisle? I just willed the thirst away. Is that supposed to happen?" I asked.

"No."

"I didn't think so."


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