11

I kicked my feet back and forth, feeling somewhat sick again. There was a knock on the door, assuming it was the doctor, "come in" I said. Jess Bowen walked.

"Hey, are you okay, your other friend Jess went back to the school and I asked where you were so she said your mom brought you here and you weren't feeling good. So, how's my best friend doing?" She asked. Just then there was another knock at the door. The doctor walked in and noticed there was another person in the room.

"Sorry but you have to leave the room." She said to Jess. Jess left and went back to the room.

"So did you find out what is wrong?" My mom asked.

"Sure did, your daughter is pregnant. That's why she hasn't been feeling good and having some headaches. I'll let you guys talk for about 5 minutes and talk to you guys more about it. Don't forget there are always options." She finished and left the room, clicking the door behind her.

I expected my mom to yell but all she said was, "You do know you are now grounded and can't go anywhere for a while."

"Yeah, I get it mom. I'm sorry it was stupid and trust me, I'm never having sex again. You have my word."

"Okay good. We'll talk more about your punishment later. So did you want to keep it?" She asked.

"Well, I'm not going to give him or her away and abortion is defiantly not the option I would pick for anyone." I finished and looked down. The doctor knocked and walked in without waiting this time.

"Have you decided?" She asked. "If you would like to keep the baby there are many things we can do to help. We have a great teen mom program here."

"I'm going to keep it for sure. Thank you." I said and smiled.

"Good, would you like to have your first ultrasound now?"

"We would love to." My mom said and I turned to her. "Now I'm excited."

We sent about 15 minutes looking at the baby in my stomach. I wasn't showing at all so that was good, I can still go on with living without having to explain. The thing I was most scared about was John. I missed him already and I didn't even break it to him that we were over yet. "Hey mom?" I got her attention while we walked to the waiting room. "Can I go to the show tonight at Xtreme wheels with Alexis?"

She nodded and added, "Are you going to tell him." She pointed and it was then that we were in the waiting room and so was Jess, Stephen, Josh, Brian and John.

I stopped where I was and grabbed my mom, "not yet, not till I figure out what to say or if were even going to be together." Then we walked over to everyone. "I'm ready to go, and my mom said I can go to the show tonight. Can we pick up Alexis?" I asked Brian.

"Yup, but we have to go now though." He said.

"Okay," I turned to Jess. "Can I sit in the back, with just you?"

"I'd love too; we have so much to ketch-up to do." We then loaded into the bus, I gave my mom a hug and she told me not to get into too much trouble.

"Are you really?" Alexis and Jess asked at the same time, while we were waiting in the venue for doors to open. "When are you going to tell him?"

"I'm not sure I'm going to. It takes a lot for my trust to build up again. If I can't trust him for a few months how can I expect him to care about him or her for her life?" I answered their question with one I've been wondering all night.

The show was over and John wanted to talk. I crossed my arms around my tummy; it suddenly felt like my stomach grew three times in size. "John, I don't think it would be good to continue going out. I can't trust you." I could feel the tears burning in the back of my throat.

"Alie, please. Nothing happened. I was drunk, and all we did was make out. Her shirt was off but she did that. I wouldn't cheat on you. I love YOU. No one else." He finished really fast.

"Sorry but it'll take time to forgive and trust you again." I was going to continue but put his hand on my cheek and pressed his lips to mine. I kissed him back at first but pulled away when I pictured him with another girl. "L-Leave me alone." I said and left him standing there alone. He was hurt and I know he didn't mean it but I couldn't deal with it right now. I felt so hurt and betrayed.

Alexis walked up to me as soon as I walked in the door, "my mom is here, she's been waiting."

"I'll be out in a second I'm gonna go say goodbye to the others." I left and went over to Jess, Josh, Stephen and Josh. "I'll see you guys soon. Tell him I hope he's happy soon enough. And that everything happens for a reason."

"Well maybe you know what is a sign you guys should stay together." Jess said, and she had a point, you never know. Everyone gave her a cocked-eye brow look and then to me. "Forget it guys. It's a girl thing." I gave her a hug and whispered a thank you to her.

I gave Josh and Brian a hug, then got to Stephen, "Help him move on." I said.

"It won't happen, you should have seen him when you guys were away from each other and dating, this will be 10 times harder. But I'll try. I'll call you everyday with an update."

"Bye," I gave him a hug, a quick peck on the cheek and left to find Alexis.

We stayed up all night at her house just talking about everything, feelings, babies and baby names. Since I didn't have John to help with these things she thought she could be the babies' second mommy. We decided on a cute name that would go with John's last name. I decided to keep the last name because it's still his and he will know about him or her soon enough. They will probably end up touring by the spring and we will see them again.

"So I decided it's going to be a girl. Therefore there is no reason to even think about a boy's name." Alexis said and laughed.

"I like the name Jorja." I smiled and tried to picture me holding a baby.

"It's cute and sounds alright with Gomez." Alexis yawned and we both thought it was time for bed.

"He keeps on asking about you, will you just talk to you him?" She asked. "He hasn't even touched a drink since you guys broke up. Plus he'll be seeing you soon on the date near you of the Dirty Works Tour. He'll see your belly! By the way you're still pretty, they say pregnancy makes you glow, and maybe it's true."

"Well it makes you feel like crap and has your back in constant pain too. And don't worry I plan on telling him, plus I'm going to tomorrow's show, what did you think I was going to? The one on the 24th?" I laughed; she was always bad with her dates.

"Okay, good. Do you know what you're going to say yet?" she asked.

"I plan on telling him at the merch table but not till after the show."

"Well I wish you the best of luck. You guys were so good for each other. I don't think I've ever seen him cry when singing 'Where are you now?' he used to sing it with a meaning but now he sings it with emotion like, all he can do is think about what you are doing at the same moment of him singing it. It's kind of heartbreaking when you watch it." She finished. "Look Courtney is yelling at me to get off, I'll see you in 24 hours!"

I hung up at looked at Alexis who was talking to Cameron on Skype. She soon got off with him and we left to start our 5 hour ride. My mom had packed an entire buffet for me and two sandwiches for Alexis. It almost seemed like I was eating for 5 people, not two.

"Are you excited?" Alexis asked while throwing on her Cute Is What We Aim For CD.

"Yeah, but I'm scared too." We pulled up into the parking lot of our hotel; it was down the street from where the show was going to be.

The next morning we were already waiting outside the venue by 2:00. Jess walked by with pizza for Josh and she gave me a hug. "Holy fuck Alie! How far are you? You look like your about to pop any day now!"

"I'm exactly 8 months and one week today." I smiled and felt her kick. Yes her, Alexis had taken me 2 months before to find out the sex of the baby. Turns out Alexis as a way of knowing what sex a baby will be.

"Awe, so what if you go into labor here?" Jess asked with a look of terror on her face.

"I will be telling John before anything happens. He needs to know, by the way, where is he?" I asked, I haven't seen him in months.

"Last I know he was in the van, he's doesn't really try to hang out with anyone anymore before or after shows, especially girls, after last time and all. Can't you just forgive him already?" She asked and jumped up and down hoping I would say yes.

"I want to, I miss him like hell. Hopefully he has changed. Will he be selling merch until you guys play?"

"Yeah, he's there right now. But they are opening doors; I'll see you in a bit."

We walked in and Alexis walked over to the merch table with me. Without looking up, "How can I help you?" John asked.

"I would like this shirt." I handed him money and a sharpie. "Can you sign it?"

"Sure, who is this too?" He asked again without even wondering who it was. Did he remember my voice at all?

"Jorja Gomez, that's spelled J-o-r-j-a, and I think you know how to spell your last name John." I stated.

"That's a cute name, I like the way it is spelled." I finally looked up to hand me the shirt. I got good at finding shirts that hid my pregnancy, so it was hard to tell I was pregnant even at 8 months. "Alie?" he looked at my stomach. "I don't think you need an extra large." Then he realized my name was not Jorja and not Gomez either.

"Thanks but believe me, I do." I said and grabbed the shirt.

"Who is Jorja?" He asked. Then he looked at my stomach again and realized why I needed an extra large shirt. "You're pregnant?" He asked.

"Yeah, sorry I didn't tell you before. I didn't know if I would be able to trust you ever again or not so no one really knew about her."

"Wait, she's mine? Are you sure?" He asked looking kind of hopeful.

I pretended to think, "You are the first and last person I slept with." I smiled, "So, if you still want me, I forgive you."

He pulled me into a hug right away, "of course I do, and I'm not even mad that you didn't tell me right away." He felt the baby kick when he started to pull away from the hug. "When are you due? No offence but you are HUGE!" He laughed and I saw him smile for the first time in 3 months.

"Any day now. I'm 8 months and 1 week."

"So Jorja is the name for sure?"

"Yeah, I really like it. Hope you don't mind but Alexis helped me pick it out."

"I don't mind at all." He smiled and didn't even hesitate to give me a kiss across the table.