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My Lord Sesshomaru….. Life-giver. Life-saver. Now…..Life-taker.
Familiar hand touched her shoulder and brought the crying girl back to Earth.
Rin looked up to see who it was.
"Oh, Kagome!" Rin pulled Kagome into a tight hug.
"Guess my clues served the purpose", said Kagome in a soft, caressing voice, while returning her hug.
"How'd you know?" Rin asked puzzled.
"You may be in pain but your face shows no confusion"
Rin didn't answer. However she stopped crying.
"Now tell me… are you torn between Seiko and… Sesshomaru?" Kagome asked her with a knowing smile.
Rin's head snapped up in shock, Again! "H-how'd you know?"
"Because you're a lot similar to me than I can ever admit, Rin"
"What…. What do you mean?"
"We look a little bit alike and our nature is quite similar to each other, as how Jinenji puts it, although you're a lot gentler than I can ever be! Not only that Rin, quite often I find similarities in the way we have lived and keep living our lives….. remember how the Monk called Ungai pointed both of us for choosing to be with demons, despite that us humans and demons belong in two different worlds?". Earlier, Rin had shared her past adventures with Kagome. She had told the miko everything of that day when confronted Monk Ungai. Kagome was also questioned by Ungai the next day, so she told the same to Rin.
Rin still didn't understand.
"We both are human girls who have sought a demon for a companion, or in my case it's more like a half-demon. Both our companions took care of us and have protected us with their lives…. I was always concerned about Inu yasha while you were concerned about Sesshomaru…. We both are warm, caring and very expressive as far as our emotions are concerned while our companions…..", at this Kagome let out a sigh of defeat, "well….. the only emotion Inu Yasha is good at showing is temper…. While Sesshomaru is as good as a wall, emotionless…. and even as a calm volcano, you wouldn't know when he'll erupt and when he does, it's CHAOS!"
Wow! Did Rin had a good laugh at this remark! …. Kagome joined her with her own giggles.
"Guess there are few things in common between the brothers even though both fight a lot with each other" Kagome said in an uninterested tone, eyes half closed.
After a second, both the girls giggled again. They had always enjoyed their private conversations about their counterpart companions.
Kagome turned red "I liked Inu Yasha in the beginning; but it blossomed into Love as time progressed….. In your case, you've always loved Sesshomaru probably more than your own life! You worship him like God. You were innocent, as a kid. But for some reason, I guessed that you'll eventually fall in love with him when you grow up"
Rin understood, but not too well.
"Rin, considering the impact Sesshomaru made on you, I figured out that you can never love or worship any other male the way you love and worship him; you are so devoted to him that no man can compete for the special place in your heart that was reserved only for your Lord. You may fall in love with another male, but he is NOT Sesshomaru, and he can NEVER be!"
How true! Rin mused, unconsciously nodding her agreement.
Rin snapped out of her trance and asked, "But how is the similarity between us relevant now?"
Kagome's cheeks turned pink, "I recall my own experience; when I was about 15 years old; I was in a similar situation…. It was during such time when Inu Yasha and I have gotten along as friends… well we began to share a 'bond' which was beyond our 'friendship' but our pride never let us admit it…. And there was this guy at school…. He was very tall, handsome, nice, well-behaved, athletic, what not? So he was naturally the most popular guy at school. He was attracted to me and asked me out on a date…. I did like him but was never in love with him, or at least I never felt what I had felt with Inu Yasha. But at that time, I was mad at Inu Yasha because he took the jewel from me and forced me back to my own time. He actually did it to save me from danger but I suspected him that he was only after the jewel… and of course my friends persuaded me in accepting the date. Although I tried to convince myself that I should be happy and excited for dating the most popular guy, my mind was all over Inu Yasha… My inner voice told me that, he was genuine; even though he sent me away for my safety, he had actually needed my presence by his side all along. I eventually returned to him at the right moment when he really needed me….."
Kagome took deep breathe and went on, "even after slaying Naraku, he sent me back to my own time, thinking again that I should be safe and happy with my family and that I should live in my own time; but those three years were horrible for me….. for him, it was even worse! During that time, he visited bone-eater's well once in every three days, hoping my return…. That showed how much he needed me…. How lonely and hurtful he must have felt, without me!"
"Gasp!" How lonely should Lord Sesshomaru feel!…..without…. ME….. Rin felt a lump in her throat.
Kagome didn't notice Rin's reaction; she took few moments to wipe away her tears and then continued, "In your case, we have Seiko and Sesshomaru. Likewise, Sesshomaru left you at this village for your safety; to let you live with your own race. He would supposedly give you a choice to return or otherwise; but what if he really needs you…. like how Inu Yasha needed me?"
Rin listened attentively and understood their 'similarities'. Oh my goodness!... Lord Sesshomaru….. Rin was beginning to feel guilty. She felt as if something was piercing through her chest. Rin couldn't breath. Just like how Kagome did, over the past years Rin has been feeling bad from the inside of the separation from her demon companion, although she was doing her best to live a normal human life.
Now, Kagome held up her right hand with resolution gleaming in her eyes, "Cheer up girl! Those boys think that they can manage without us when they try to 'protect' us, but they cannot survive another day without US!"
The girls hugged each other and giggled long this time. Rin's mind got lightened a bit and Kagome felt her sincere efforts in cheering her up paid off.
"I sure hope you're right, Kagome….. it's just that, Lord Sesshomaru may never love me as how I love him… he'll never take a human for a mate….. not to mention his disgust towards half-breeds" Rin felt disheartened again.
"uh-oh….. hate to admit it Rin, but you do have a point there…" said Kagome, losing her spirit.
Rin painfully nodded.
"he loves you a lot! Maybe even more that his life! At least, I suspect so….. considering how he risks his life to save yours" Kagome reasoned, "but I doubt whether he'll even love the demoness he takes as his mate, if at all he takes one. I remember you told me once that Sesshomaru thinks emotions as weakness. Guess you're the one and only exception, Rin" Kagome tried to cheer her up.
Kagome was right, but that didn't help Rin to feel any better.
"Rin….. I know it's a hard choice to make….. but….." Kagome hesitated.
"What will I do about Seiko?"
"Rin… Are you in love with Seiko?"
"I love him as a friend. But nothing more", Rin mumbled.
"Are you in love with Sesshomaru?"
"YES! YES I AM!" yelled Rin, having tearful eyes tightly closed and hands held up in a fist.
"Good. So, now you know what choice to make."
"But, I feel awful when I think about hurting Seiko!" Rin cried.
"Rin. It will hurt him more, if you marry him but you're actually in love with another"
"….."
"Whether the hole which Sesshomaru creates in your heart can ever be filled by Seiko or not, is something you have to figure out by yourself"
"Lord Sesshomaru will never take me as his mate. And to make things worse he'll choose another woman; a demoness. I just can't stand it Kagome!" tears welled up in Rin's eyes.
Kagome thought for a moment and a realization dawned upon her pretty face, "Rin, I think it's kinda creepy but again I recall my own experience in a situation akin to yours…. Earlier when we were after Naraku, Inu Yasha and I got closer over the time but we had not yet committed nor did we discuss about mating, in spite of being in love with each other"
Dropping her gaze from Rin, she went on in a melancholic tone, "This Inu Yasha was still on with Kikyo. He was confused with his own feelings as to whom he wants; me or Kikyo; he knew too well he can't have both" Kagome's face looked a lot annoyed at this, "That was the time the 'relationship' which we never committed got worse and I was so heartbroken, I almost chose not to return to this feudal era…". Kagome slightly smiled, "Can you imagine how things would have been if I had?"
Rin shook her head, finding it hard to visualize the consequences.
"Well, to think logically, I should have chosen not to return. But like any other girl, dumb and stupid enough to fall in love, I chose to stay by the side of Inu Yasha…. Even when he loved Kikyo… Even when chances were there that we may never unite as mates"
Rin's eyes widened at the harsh Trial her friend had been through.
"I just loved him too much to desert him like that… He needed me more than he'd ever admit…. Like I told you, he was my home….. I was content by just being with him…. I needed nothing more"
Rin's heart warmed at her friend's declaration; she hugged her, "Kagome! How painful it would have been for you! I'm- I'm just glad all went well for you at the end…. and thank you… I feel much better now"
The girls held each other for the comfort they sought.
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