AN: Another update! Hehe I seem to have made a typing mistake in last chapter's AN I actually watched Grey's season 4 not 3. there ya go.

mcaddexfan, mcdreamyslover – hehe thanks for still sticking to this story and yes addisex will prevail!

addisonkarev – aaaw you're making me blush with your kind words… I personally don't like it when I saw women relying on a man so much. But in Izzie's case, I think her character (albeit sometimes portrayed strong headed) is more on a womanly side. I can't help but notice that Izzie sometimes, rely so much in the men in her life. And although I don't approve in forgiving Alex so easily (hell if it was me who's been cheated on, I'll probably cut his balls off- no originality but still a good strategy) I think that it's in her character to do just that. Hehe did that made sense or did I just confuse you more?

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Izzie's POV

Three months. It took Alex and I three months to start off (or once again) our 'budding' relationship. It wasn't easy. And it wasn't as fun as I thought it would be. What with the subject of his past indiscretion just around the corner, it really was hard. Addison had distance herself. Alex even stopped working with her in OB cases. In fact he stopped taking OB cases altogether. He's back to plastics. And me, I'm busy being the three month pregnant intern (of course with cut off hours and soon to be maternity leave). I got off the bed, our bed, careful to not wake Alex and stand by the window. I don't know sleep just comes hard for me nowadays.

So yeah, everyone's making an effort to forgive and forget. I should be happy right? This is what I want, isn't it? Huh. Then why the hell do I feel like I'm the one who stole all the Christmas presents? I mean honestly, I'm the victim here and yet you wouldn't see me sulking everywhere like what's Alex's doing. Oh he thinks I don't notice, but come on I live with him for Christ sakes. He tried to be happy in front of me. He became more attentive towards me. He's always saying he's fine. But anyone who knows Alex will clearly see that he's everything but fine. Heck even Cristina felt sorry for him that she stopped calling him Satan spawn thinking that Alex had finally lost his mind.

And Addison is really no better. She's often seen just staring into spaces or in the nicu room. Oh she's still a great doctor. Better than ever I guess, considering the fact that she's in the hospital for like 20 hours a day. If her whole life revolved on surgeries back then, she certainly made it her life now. She's getting thinner, looking more tired, and yet still manage to look stunning in those branded dresses she wore. God I hate her.

Everyone, and when I mean everyone, it's mostly the nurses and the interns, and the residents, alright and the attendings, and the chief notice the turnabout change those two had. Every bit of hospital gossip is about them. God, why don't they just announce it in the world that they had a measly affair and I was the one who put a stop in it. Oh no one has yet to caught up in the said affair, but still from the way they're acting, someone is bound to know sooner or later. And I prefer that it never happen.

Whereas I, who's juggling and rearranging my whole life and career for what exactly? A shallow of the man I once and still love (pity, I know)? It kills me that I can't make him happy. I know he's not purposely doing it but still, I felt the pain whenever I caught him looking longingly at Addison. Staring at the nicu. I didn't told him to stop learning about obstetrics. It's his own choice. Then why the hell do I feel guilty? Why do I feel like I ruined whatever it is going on between them, when I should be the one who should hold a grudge toward them.

God how did things got so complicated?

My musings were cut off as I heard the silent vibration of Alex's phone. I don't know if it's a reflex thing or something, but my hand immediately get the offending item and I walk my way towards the bathroom. "Yeah?"

"Oh Dr. Stevens, sorry to wake you up. It's Brenda here. Can I talk to Dr. Karev?"

"Brenda? Third floor head nurse, right? Alex's kinda sleeping right now. Just tell me and I'll relay the message to him the minute he wake up, or is this an emergency?"

"No, he just wants an update with the burned patient, Tyrone Giggs. An attending visited him earlier and his facial reconstruction is scheduled on Monday."

"Oh alright. Is that all?"

"Yes thank you Dr. Stevens and good night."

I shut the phone off and was about to bring it back to Alex's side but curiosity held me back. I threw a glance at Alex's sleeping form as I once again flipped his phone open. I pressed number one hoping to find my name (or at least anyone's name besides her) in his speed dial. I was crushed when I took note of whose name it was. Addie. No point in questioning who the hell is that. I quickly snapped the phone off again and prepared to haul it across the room when I remembered that it's still Alex's phone and the said man is still in the bedroom. And I'm pretty sure he will hear the sound of the phone breaking against the wall. So I took a few deep breathes and tried to calm myself.

"What the hell are you doing Izzie?"

I turned around, startled at Alex's voice and tone. He looked pissed as his gaze turned towards the phone in my hands.

"I uh the nurse called. Brenda had an update with uh the burned patient? She said to tell you that uh his surgery is set on Monday."

He raised an eyebrow at me and held out his hands motioning for the cellphone. "I thought you don't want to know anything Izzie?"

Oh oh. A deer caught in the headlights. That's what I', feeling right now as I followed Alex into the bedroom. "I don't " I said weakly as I watch Alex dressed himself. "Where are you going Alex?" Panic is slowly building on me as I watched a fully dressed Alex turned his back on me and walked towards the door. "Alex where the hell are you going?!"

"Can we please not talk about this now?" I heard him say as I put myself between him and the door.

"You're going to see her, aren't you?" I accused him not really caring how paranoid and how childish I'm acting. All I know is that Alex is going somewhere in the middle of the night. All that registered in my mind is that he's leaving me yet again. And the fear, the constant fear that is in me thinks, that he won't come back this time. "You're leaving me again, you'll go to her and start something with her? Or did you guys ever stop?" Fear clouded my senses as I felt the words came right out of my mouth.

He turned to face me. I can see how angry my words had made him as he tries to reach the door behind me. "Are you just going to doubt me every freaking time I go out at night?"

"You never did give me a reason fro me to trust you again Alex, didn't you?"

I can see how he tries to control himself with his voice a little strain (from keeping himself from shouting at me I guess) and his hands fisted in his sides. "The affair with Addison and me are over. It's long been over Izzie. And I think I apologized enough for that. I spent my every waking hour with you. Isn't that enough for you yet huh? And for the last time, get this in your head, I'm not starting or already having an affair with Addison. It's up to you if you believe me or not."

And with that he maneuvered his way towards the door and slammed it close on his way out.

As soon as the door was closed, I let the tears escaped my eyes as I beat myself up inside. Can I ever trust Alex again? Or will I continuously doubt his ability and sincerity towards me. I was left there crying until I felt a sharp pain in my side that radiates towards my lower back. "aaah" I moan as I felt myself weaken. Oh God, this is not happening. I thought as I reached for the phone and dialed Alex's number.

The number you're calling is temporary out of ser---

Damn. Must have turned it off. I grimace as I felt the pain again. I looked down and notice the trail of blood running down my legs as I desperately tried to calm myself down and dialed another number.

"George…"

AN: ok not really that much of a Gizzie fan I mean they happened so it's either I can stomach their coupleness or not (which turned out I can hehe sorry for the non gizzie fans out there) but still amidst of all the trouble George and Izzie might be having, I still think George is Izzie's Cristina so naturally he's the first one she'll call in times like this. And yes Ales is being an uber ass in this one. I'm trying to get him to stay in his character. When I had watch season 4 opening episode I noticed that without Addison (or so I like to think) he just revert back to his own assy (is that even a word?) self and besides I think I made him too soft in Mistake (other fic) already so I decided against that. But I think I made him too much of an ass (for the lack of a better word) here.