Time, it's not worth my time

Blue shine bleeds into my eyes

I still, sleep on the right side

Of the white noise, can't leave the scene behind

Could I be anything you want me to be?

It's always meant to be seen

When you see yourself in a crowded room,

Do your fingers itch? Are you pistol whipped?

Do you step in line or release the glitch?

Do you think she'll sleep with a panic?

And I'll try to hold on tight tonight.

Pink slip, inviting me inside.

I want to burn skin and brand what once was mine,

But the red news came ripping in to fight.

If I go anywhere that you want me to go,

How do I know you'll still follow?

I texted Bella, telling her we would be meeting after school. I had to say, I was pleased that I didn't get kicked off any of the teams I was on. Then again, students generally only got kicked off of a team for crappy grades and I was still up in the nineties, so I wasn't concerned. Hailey got a warning apparently, and she was a little nervous about that. I didn't understand what the big deal was, there was still baseball, track and a few others things coming up. I doubted if they would instantly cut her off from all sports just because of one slightly embarrassing misdemeanor.

By the time lunch rolled around the entire school was freaking out. They'd found Mr. Bensons body already. Guess they'd gone looking for him when Sam found out he was missing. Hailey and I paused at her locker to the cafeteria, she'd invited me to join her and some friends for lunch. I'd agreed that I would behave and make some new little normal friends so I accepted the invite.

"Here comes one of the La Push Nudists," I said amused with Jake and Jared's furious expressions. Hailey giggled at that and I greeted them cheerfully, "hello boys."

I figured I might as well play this up, I couldn't hang out with the pack anymore then I could with Leah. I wouldn't break it off right away, I'd wait a few days, sometime this weekend perhaps. That was not something I was looking forward to.

"We need to talk," Jake said, neither of them sparing a glance at Hailey's unimpressed look.

"To me? What could you possibly want with little ol' me?" I mocked.

"Were going to Sam's, your brothers already gone over," Jake said in a clipped tone.

"You know why we want to talk to you! Do you think were stupid Kira?" Jared snarled, and I could just picture steam coming out of their noses and ears.

"Is that a rhetorical question?" I asked grinning widely, "I'd love to have lunch, but as you can see, I've already made plans with my beautiful new friend Hailey," I said gesturing at her, as she blushed a little under the compliment, which only fueled my amusement.

"It wasn't open for negotiation," Jake growled out, both of them reaching for me and I backed up, eyes narrowing. I didn't like that they tried to touch me, it was almost tempting enough to reach out and strike them down just for thinking about forcing me out of here. I doubted if they could. You know, I was really starting to regret training them. I knew being a good person would come back to bite me in the ass somehow.

"Don't get too touchy Jake, if Caleb sees that in your tiny little brains later," I said in an annoyed tone, taking Hailey's hand, mostly because I knew they wouldn't try anything stupid with her right next to me. Wouldn't want to hurt anyone, defeat the purpose of being the La Push heroes.

"Your brothers in enough trouble, both of you are, let's go!" Jared snapped loudly, loud enough to get the dozen or so people in hall's attention. Excellent, now we had an audience.

I smiled now, "I'm not going anywhere with you, come on Hailey, let's eat."

"Sounds good to me," she said glaring at them, as if it bothered her too that they'd tried to force me out of the building. Who knows, maybe it did bother her. Things that bothered us too, usually only when it involved myself or my brothers, but for Random's, it bothered them just on principle. The nicer ones anyways.

"We ordered not to leave without you, sorry Kira," Jake said quietly gripping my arm, so that only I could hear them, though Hailey heard them too. He pulled me, hard enough to make me swing around and almost fall into him.

"No Jake, I'm sorry," I struck out, it was a bad shot, the angle was crappy, but it got him hard enough to knock him backwards a little. Jared wrapped his arms around me tightly. I threw my head backwards, getting him only barely, I guess he saw that coming.

Instead I jumped, and thankfully we were close enough to the lockers that I could use them as leverage and throw my body backwards and push him that way. We hit the ground and I rolled, elbowing him in the face and I moved to stand up. Jared grabbed my ankle and pulled hard, and I smashed the edge of my jaw on the cold hard floor, biting down on my tongue on the process.

"Ow! What the hell Jared," I ground out and before any of us could move an authoritive voice broke through the hallway, making every person down here freeze.

"That is enough!" I raised my eyebrows, standing back up as my jaw continued to throb. Jared and Jake stood as well, all of us facing the principle.

"Bet you didn't count on the principle showing up," I muttered at them, and they glared at me heavily.

"What's going on here?" he asked, coming to a hault in front of us.

"Mr. Grayson, if I may?" he nodded stiffly at Hailey, "Kira and I were about to go for lunch when they showed up and just started yelling at her. They tried to force her out of the school-," Jared and Jake broke into jumbled up words that didn't make a whole lot of sense and when Grayson gave them a look to shut up they piped down. "They tried to force her out and Kira just reacted in self defense."

I'm really starting to like this girl. "You three, my office," he said, turning on his heel and making his way in the same direction he'd come from.

"Want me to come?" Hailey mouthed to me and I shook my head.

I needed to have a conversation with the principle anyways. If I wanted to be who I was just a few months ago, I need to be in the right setting. I needed to be dark. Take what I wanted and feel no remorse. That meant re-shaping everything I chose. Starting with the school. What better place to start then the principle, if we don't count Hurley that is.

The three of us walked on silently and both of them kept shooting me death glares, finally I hissed, "it's your own fault for attacking a younger female student in a high in the first place." They glared even more.

Fortunately they went in before me, and I could hear the principle shouting for about five minutes before he yelled that they were suspended for the next three days. Then he snapped at me to come in and close the door behind me.

"They tell me that they didn't mean any harm and that they apologize," he said, voice coming out a little harsh. "Are you aware that your brother was questioned by police this morning?"

"About that," I said locking the door now and turning back to him. "I expect that you'll keep the police away from my brother and I?"

"Miss. Elliot, unlock my door this instant," I just gave him a small smile in response.

"I told you to keep the police away from us," I said coldly now, and he paused as he stood up, becoming surprised and alert.

"Do you know something about the attack on Mr. Benson?" he asked, walking past me to the door. I reached out at the right moment, shoving him from behind and twisting his arm as I pressed him against the wall. He tried to get out of the grip and I only tightened it.

He grunted in pain, staring at me at an uncomfortable angle "I don't like being ignored Mr. Grayson. Now tell me, did the police inform you of the details of his death?" I asked sweetly, letting my sadism fall out in waves in both my eyes and voice.

His own eyes widened, and he shuddered a little, "I'll take that as a yes. Hard to believe someone could do something so horrid. Whoever committed such a monstrous act must clearly be out of their minds. Best not to upset them, I'm sure they have many friends."

He swallowed thickly, and I loosened my grip, as he slid down to the floor with a dazed look on his face. I knelt down to his level and gave him a devious smile, "don't piss me off, I'm sure you've seen our records and be sure to keep everyone in check, or there wont only be one dead body," I stood back up, going towards the door and opening it. "Oh, by the way, you have a lovely wife, nice talking to you Mr. Grayson." I closed the door, giving him some privacy to compose himself. I couldn't help the grin that grew.

Damn did I ever love being king.

Unfortunately, Sam showed up not five minutes after I'd threatened Mr. Grayson and for a moment I'd thought that Grayson actually had the balls to narc on me. That was not the case. "You got Jake and Jared suspended."

"It was there fault," I insisted, it really was. What idiot or idiots, attacks a girl two years younger them in a high school?

"We need to talk," he said, turning his back on me and exiting the building. Might as well get this over with now.

"Oh and I was worried we wouldn't get to talk," I said sarcastically as I joined him in the parking lot.

The majority of them were there at Sam and Emily's house. Leah included. I took a deep calming breath, didn't need another blow up like last night, before going in after them. "Did you get the police escort too?" I asked, plopping down next to my bored looking brother.

"Yeah, all the way down to the police station, even got to meet Chief Swan," I had been debating how to go about that. Maybe I could just bribe him or something. It wouldn't take long for Bella to figure out where he'd get an ass kicking from. Then again, Chief Swan was friends with the vamps and the the wolves. I needed a new plan for that one.

"Did you kill Gregory Benson?" Sam bit out, before I could respond.

"Now why we would we do such a thing?" my brother asked innocently, I just snickered a little. Too bad sniffing people out couldn't be used as evidence I thought smugly.

"I heard he'd been giving you a hard time in school, just tell us the truth," Emily said in placating tone, mostly to Sam then us.

"I didn't even know his name was Gregory," I admitted thoughtfully.

"As your alpha I demand that you tell me the truth, did you kill Benson or not?" Sam said, so loudly and unexpectedly that I'd jumped in surprise.

"You didn't need to shout," I said in disbelief, but no one was really paying attention to me. Then it clicked in. Sam had pulled rank, I turned to my brother, suddenly very worried. My brother had a passive look on his face, but I could see it in his eyes, he was fighting with something. He was fighting the orders of his alpha, and he wouldn't look anywhere but at me. I held his gaze, keeping mine as calm and as trustworthy as possible. He could beat whatever it was that made him want to betray us, supernatural or not, right?

Finally, he spoke, gaze still holding mine, "No Sam, I did not. I overheard him make a comment about Kira yesterday and ignored it. We were running last night and Kira ran into him. When we caught up, he'd tried to touch her, we got angry, roughed him up a bit. So no, it wasn't us. Maybe you should ask the woman he was sleeping with."

"What woman?" Sam asked confused.

"Did you not sniff her out all over him?" Caleb spat in slight disgust, "Kira insisted we make sure he made it somewhere he could get cleaned up and he went straight to some womans house."

"I didn't know that," Sam admitted frowning. Even the rest of the pack looked a little guilty for jumping to conclusions.

"Clearly, if you'd done your job properly rather then jump to the conclusion that we had something to do with his death just because we have some issues we wouldn't be here. Now can we go back to fucking school now?" I asked coldly, taking my brothers hand and tugging him out the door.

I ignored Jake's call to wait and just got into Caleb's car. I felt bad for ignoring Leah, but again, I still hadn't apologized for nearly going off on her last night and to add to that, I didn't want to have some big apology with my brother watching.

"Close call," he muttered, looking a little disoriented.

"Should I drive?" I asked eyebrows raised, "hey, how'd you do that anyways? I thought Sam's word was law or some crap."

He turned to me, giving me an utterly serious look, "Sam may be pack leader, but he isn't family and he sure as hell isn't my brother. My loyalty is to you and those other four nutjobs. Besides, were not like them anymore then they're like vampires."

"Good point."

-xxxxx-

My apology to Leah was rather lame in my opinion, but they weren't exactly my strong suit. I told her we needed to start sleeping in separate rooms because Caleb kept smelling her scent all over the place in my bedroom. That wasn't true, or at least, Caleb hadn't mentioned it. She'd agreed, thankfully, but she wasn't pleased about it and we even spent most of the evening together. Caleb almost made a comment until I shut him down with a look, he hadn't been aware of my first step but I'd already taken it.

Training with Bella had gone well and with the weekend approaching we'd had a decent couple days. We hadn't heard much from our other brothers aside from texts and they said they found something odd about Gabriel's recent history, but they also hadn't elaborated. I knew they'd tell me the truth, but they also wouldn't bother with details until they knew for sure that it was the truth.

I spent lunch with Hailey and her friends the next few days, and I avoided the pack. Caleb said they thought it was because they'd blamed us for the death of Benson. Amazingly, they still hadn't figured it really was us. Sam also couldn't seem to find a way to put Benson at his mistresses place other then his scent being there, so the case more or less went cold.

The day after my not so subtle threat to Grayson, I was pulled out of ISS and even got Hailey excused just by suggesting it in passing as he guided me back to my biology class. The man was scared of me, and if it weren't so pathetic, it'd be comical. It was always was, the fact that a grown man twice my size was scared of someone as small as me was unbelievable.

"Will you be going to the festival tonight?" Hailey asked curiously, both of us exiting out of the gym.

"Yeah, I'm going with my sister," Leah had been pushing for me to join her all week. We'd already discussed going, and it would be public, so I figured it wouldn't be such a bad idea. But I'd also said we'd only be going a short while, and she'd said it was fine, not that she had a choice, she had patrol this evening.

Bella had asked me what I was doing as well, something about preferring to hang out with me rather then some girls at school and Alice and Jasper. Which kind of made me wonder why she suddenly wanted to avoid the pair, and then just assumed she just didn't want to be third wheel, because her own boyfriend was gone all weekend.

"Maybe we could hang out," she suggested, "the parties right after anyways." I'd forgotten about the party. It was perfect, party, relax, drink, maybe find some coke. I was kind of stressing and I'd been endless relentlessly the last few nights, the anticipation of breaking up with Leah was driving me nuts. And it had only been a few days.

We entered the main hall and I noticed a group of people rushing for the doors excitedly. I heard the words 'Caleb' and 'fight' and then tensed, "oh shit." I took off running, and shoving people out of the way, Hailey close behind, looking more worried about me then anything. She probably hadn't heard the other students, whenever things got exciting around us, our senses tended to become very much alert.

We got out into the parking lot, and before I could move forward someone grabbed my arm. I turned to Seth who was gripping my arm tightly. "Don't get yourself into trouble too."

"What's happening?" I asked, glancing back at the four boys fighting. I could see Caleb, but I didn't know the other four boys, but they all looked much strong then them. But Caleb on the other hand looked pissed.

"They were talking about you, Caleb didn't like that much, especially when they made comments about how fuckable you were," Collin explained, not liking that anymore then the others boys seemed to. They didn't look murderous, but they also didn't look pleased.

"How long have they been fighting?" I asked frowning even more. If Caleb didn't calm down, he was going to get arrested. The long the fight went on, the angrier he would get. Especially if it was about me.

"Not long, as soon as he heard your name he hit Kyle over the head with his own guitar," I cringed a little. I rushed forward, shaking off Seth as he gripped me even tighter.

"Kira no!" Hailey shouted after me and I grabbed the back of the head of the boy leaning over my brother, who'd managed to hit him twice before I got to them. He froze and then turned back to me and I struck out hard and fast. The blow sent him flying off of Caleb and I stepped over my brother to the boy who was jumping back up.

Then several teachers showed up to break up the fight, separating everyone. When the principle appeared on scene we got off Scott free. I'd just let Hailey know if I had time to hang out.

-xxxxx-

I was waiting for Leah to show up, and for a moment I got a bad feeling. I heard someone shout my name and I glanced around to see Bella, along with two other girls. She threw herself at me and hug me tightly. I could smell vodka on the group. "I'm so glad your okay," she called over the crowd and I gave her a smile. A little worried she'd say a little too much.

"You look beautiful," I said, nodding at her simple blue strapless lace dress, a white ribbon wrapped around her waist and tied at her back.

She gave me a wide flushed smile, "Alice picked it out."

"Of course she did," I said unsurprised, I glanced at the two girls looking at me weirdly and I quirked an eyebrow, displeased with the judgmental staring.

"Lauren, Jess, this is Kira, she moved to La Push a few weeks ago," Bella said, and then frowned when she sensed my obvious dislike for them. She had such a short amount of training, I was surprised she was so in tune with her intuition while she was drinking. That had taken me at least two months.

"Nice to meet you," the moment Lauren spoke I knew why I didn't like her. She reminded me of the cliche's that take high schools by storm. Popular, pretty, almost always liars and manipulative. Of course I was the same, but I didn't back talk people and I didn't pretend to like you. Jessica looked like runner up by the looks of it.

"Nice friends Bella," I commented, not hiding my disdain. The pair glared at me, as if that would scare or intimidate me.

"What's wrong with them?" she asked, pouting a little.

I shrugged, and just lifted my own beer and took a long drink from it. "Where you from?" Jessica asked, and I was surprised she was still here. Normally people try to insult me and then storm off when I make it clear I don't like them.

"Not here," was all I said. I don't trust anyone, and that included people who seemed to want to know things about me.

"Whatever, let's get another drink," Lauren said, grabbing Bella by the arm and moving to drag her off. Bella opened her mouth to pull away, but I'd already intercepted them and removed her from Lauren's grasp. Bella had tried to pull away and she was still pulling when I'd separated them.

"Leave," I said to the duo coldly. I let my eyes shine a little, showing them the violence and rage that people were weary of. I was pretty good at hiding it away, it had been difficult after my other brothers had opened my eyes, but now I had good control of that kind of thing. They practically ran. Even drunk or stoned people know when someone is dangerous. Especially when they showed just how much in a look.

I turned back to Bella and helped her back up, "where is everyone?" Everyone meaning your boy toy and his family.

"Hunting," she said, frowning at her dropped and now spilled out cup.

"They all left you here?" I asked in surprise.

"No, Jasper and Alice are here somewhere. Jasper got all spastic and Alice went to baby him," I blinked, taken aback with her sudden switch in personality. That seemed a little harsh.

"How much have you had to drink?" I asked her eyebrows raised.

"Not much apparently," she said frowning at her now empty cup. Then she just gave me a big smile again, "wow, you do care about me. Your such a good person Kira, you act all big and bad, but you have this big heart. You should fall in love, it feels great," she said giving me another hug and then kissing me on the cheek. At least she wasn't an angry drunk. "Thank you so much for what you've done for us." Then she just disappeared into the sea of faces.

I stared after her, mildly startled with the odd display of affection. I glanced down at the beer in my hand and then shook my head, amusement filling me. Then I got that feeling of being watched. I frowned again, and then searched the crowd.

My eyes landed on a man watching me, leaning against a wall. He had that look about him. He was here for Gabriel, as soon as I realized that I made my way towards him. A group of people moved into my line of sight and when I finally got a look through the crowd again he was gone. Of fucking course, I thought as I looked around, gut clenching, but he was already gone.

"Shit," I muttered and pulled out my cell phone to call Caleb. Whoever that was, had seen me with Bella, regardless of whether or not he'd known she was drinking didn't matter. Bella appeared to have some sort of care for me and he'd seen it. He'd also seen the somewhat protective look I'd gotten. If I didn't handle this properly, Bella may become a casualty and if she was like the rest of us, I couldn't allow that to happen.

"We have a problem," I said, searching for Bella now.

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah, look, I ran into Bella, she hugged me twice, and one of Gabriel's saw a bit of my territorial side when her friends were with her. I lost him."

"Lost him?" he repeated, as if the words were foreign. They kind of were, it was rare for us to loose someone when we follow them. But he knew I was searching out for him and he had the advantage of diving into the crowd of people.

"Yes, I lost him," I said impatiently. "It's crowded as hell out here."

"Why you in such a crowded place anyways?" he asked, clearly unhappy with my lack of sharing my plans for today. Caleb liked to keep tabs on me, especially since we'd moved here. He worried about twice as much as when we lived in the city.

"Leah's meeting me here. I can't find Bella now either."

"Alright, call Brandon and tell him to meet up with you. I'll check in with Sam and see if anything interesting is happening. He wants me to report in daily, says it's weird that I phased back to normal so quickly but my guess is he's hoping I'll slip up over Benson."

"Is it just me or does nobody understand the word 'evolution' anymore?" I retorted frowning.

I called Brandon still looking for Bella, and when I mentioned the party Hailey had invited me to, I figured that was as good a place as any to take her. There wasn't really anywhere else to take her in the first place.

I wouldn't take her home, because that was like a big green neon sign that said 'attack Kira's new friend here'. I wouldn't take her back to my place, that would only result in the pack showing up and asking questions, and same went for Emily's place. Plus I'd been avoiding her house for days. So that left a party. It was a good a place as any, crowded, there would be enough brunette's there that she'd fit in and even Gabriel's people weren't stupid enough to attack such a place. They'd wait to get me alone. And until my brothers reappeared to take out our latest stalkers, this was the plan.

I felt bad for ditching Leah, and boy was she going to be pissed when she found out I bailed on her to party with Bella, she didn't seem to like Bella much already. Finally, I found her next to those two girls from earlier, shocking, I thought rolled my eyes. "What do you want?" Jenna, or whatever her name was, asked snarkily.

I turned to Bella, ignoring them, "how would you like to party with me instead?"

Her wide grin was all I needed for confirmation, and I texted Hailey to send us the address, then I retexted that address to Brandon. "So where's Caleb been?" Bella asked, as we drove down to La Push.

"With the pack mostly," I said shrugging indifferently. I wasn't great friends with them, so I didn't miss them much. Sometimes I missed Jake and Seth, they were pretty cool, but Seth and I still hung out at home. "Do you mind if we stop at my place, I need to pick something up," like half a dozen weapons, my mind added silently.

"Yeah, I haven't seen Sue in a while, I wonder how she's doing," I shrugged again. I wasn't really all that concerned with my fathers recent marriage. After a moment of comfortable silence she said, "It sucked when Jake phased, he never came around because Sam didn't want me to find out."

"Sam's kind of a tyrant," I said thoughtfully, and hear I'd thought it was just me.

"No, he's not. Sam's just worried about that word will get out or that someone human will get hurt, I can't blame him, especially after what happened to Emily," I glanced at her frowning expression. I hadn't thought she'd been that close to Emily or the others, in the short while I'd been here, she'd never actually visited. At least not while I was around.

"I dont care, he bothers me, all cops do," she frowned even more.

"My fathers a cop," she pointed out, as if I had offended her somehow.

"You dont think I dont know that?" I asked eyebrows raised, "I have nothing against them personally. Just bad memories of them, all of them actually. They either try to hurt or us, or get in our way."

"You think maybe that's because your a dangerous criminal?" she retorted with a slight smirk, which grew when I narrowed my eyes at her, "the Cullen's had a back ground check down on you and your brother. Edward showed me everything."

"Probably hoped you'd stay away from me if you thought I was-," she cut me off.

"Evil?"

"Exactly. Do you think I'm evil?" I asked, this time a little weary of the answer. I cared about Bella on a level that wasn't entirely normal for me, and not normal as in Random feelings normal. No, I cared about Bella, because she may be like us, and she proved she was more and more.

She contemplated this for a couple of minutes and we pulled into the driveway by the time she answered. Whatever alcohol she'd had either had worn off or she was completely serious, either way I got my answer. "I dont think your evil, at least, not from what I've seen. I get the feeling, there is a lot I haven't seen, but I also think whatever your hiding is as fascinating as it is dark."

I grinned, "ah, the allure of darkness, exhilerating stuff isn't it?"

"So I'm right then?" she asked surprised, as if she'd been guessing.

"You are. Though I should probably give you a heads up, were far more scary then a few vampires and werewolves," I warned, climbing out of the car and going into the house. As I'd guessed no one was home.

"Then what are you?" she asked, keeping pace with me as we moved up to my bedroom.

"If I told you, then I'd have to kill you," she raised her eyebrows at the cliche remark, then added, "or finish training you, either or."

"What if I wanted that?" she asked sitting down on my bed.

I paused, wondering if I'd heard that right. "You dont want to be what we are. It has caused far too many problems for me lately," I said shaking my head as I was reminded of Leah for the thousandth time today. I moved towards the closet, opening the door and then opening up the small portable safe on the bottom of the closet. It was about the size of a large mens shoe box or something, and I had three in my room.

"Because of Leah?" I sat up so fast in surprise that the back of my head smashed into the door handle of the closet. The closet door, which I hadn't opened all the way, then bounced back into the wall as I turned to look at Bella. She stared at the gun in my hands, "why do you have a gun?"

"Because I'm a dangerous criminal, why do you have my sketch book?" I grabbed it out of her hands, suddenly flushed as if I'd been caught doing something wrong. I shoved into the top drawer of my night stand, sliding the gun under my back waistband.

"It's okay Kira, it's not that big a deal, I get it," she said, frowning at my now frantic expression.

"Just keep it to yourself," I snapped, man I really needed to loosen up.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you."

"Can we just go?" I asked sighing heavily, running a hand through my hair.