Hi, everybody. Thanks for the reviews; they were like my Christmas presents from you! This may not be a good chapter because I don't have music....I'll explain the end of the chapter if you guys care. Um, Ed is in this chapter, but I wont say anymore, so you'll have to read on to find out what happens. =] Now read on! Oh, wait recap.
Recap!!!!!:
"Well, Jake. We have a new family, how do you like them? Aren't they perfect? Cause I really like them, they're the kind of family that people die to have and I'm in it," Jake snuggled up closer next to me, I smoothed the hair on his head and I let my head fall back, "I love them, I wouldn't know what to do without them. Now I have a sister I can shop with, and a brother to do sports with, and a mom who will not take the place of Renee, but will do some much more. And most importantly, I have a dad that cares, one that will respect me and be fine with my flaws. This is the most wonderful family in the whole wide world and I get the chance to take part in it. God I'm lucky." I heard the door open and a group of people surrounded me, some hugged me, other kissed me.
"We love you too, Bella. With all our hearts," I recognized it was Esme' voice.
"Yup. And we won't ever let you get harmed," Emmett.
"Because you're the best thing in our lives, too," Alice.
"And you're apart of this family, no matter what," Carlisle.
And I started to cry, I was surounded by the most perfect family.
Now you can read on!
"Final Good-Bye"
Chapter 11
Bella's POV
A week has passed since I bumped into Edward at the mall, 2 weeks passed since mom had died, and today was her funeral.
You'd think that I would be down and all I wanted to do today was crawl in a hole and die a slow and unmeaningful(I don't know if that was a word or not) death, but no, not me. I was grateful that mom was going to finally be able to rest in peace and not be a part of this world. Mom had gone through a lot of crap on her life and I knew she was going to be able to get away from all of it, forever.
I had set my alarm early so that I would be able to get up, Alice was doing my hair and she insisted that I get up early for her to get it done and be able to do her own.
I was still sleeping in Alice room, both of us sharing the bed, we would talk about nothing. Like regular sisters would, sisters, once we talked about how the worst way to die was. I remember every word we spoke.
Flash Back
I was getting ready for bed and I was heading for the bathroom when Alice asked me, out of the blue, "What do you think is the worst way to die?"
I turned around and made my way to the bed and stared at her, "Why do you ask?" I said sitting down next to her.
"No reason, it just popped in my head," she frowned.
"For me, I would say, loving someone with all your heart and have them taken away from you. To not know where they were and how to find them," I whispered, smoothing Alice' spiky hair.
"That is scary. I would say, getting kidnapped and not have anyone know where I was, like I just disappeared, never to be seen of again," she dropped her head onto the bed and lay there, staring up at the ceiling, "What if that really did happen? To have the love of your life get taken away?"
"I don't know what I would do, Alice, honestly if I did one day fall helplessly in love with someone I would probably die to be with the person," I sighed and got up, "I need to go pee,"
End Flash Back
BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!
"Ugh," I kept my eyes closed, and searched for the SNOOZE button, but Alice beat me to it.
"Come on sleepy head, you got to get up so I can do your hair," she said in a groggy voice.
"Why cant I stay in bed?" I said turning away from her.
When she didn't say anything I groaned and started to rub my eyes, "Fine," I muttered and got up.
"Thank-you, now I'm going to go take a shower, so I can start on my hair, then when you finish taking a shower I'll do your hair. Okay?" she was already walking to her closet.
"Whatever," I mumbled and went out to the kitchen, "Come on Jake, let feed your gigantic stomach of yours," I laughed and walked at the room with Jake by my side.
Esme was already there and dressed in a black ensemble, she had on a black dress and a matching over coat that went all the way to her knees, "Good morning, sweetie. How are you today?" she said turning around to face me.
"Fine, I guess," I shrugged, "Why are you dressed up already? Isn't the funeral until 12 p.m.?" I asked confused.
"We have some friends coming to the funeral with us and they are coming early so we can all go together," she explained while pouring herself a cup of coffee, "They'll be here any moment know,"
"I'll grab a granola bar and head back to Alice' room then," I walked over the kitchen cabinets and pulled the box of the chocolate covered granola bars. I grabbed one and put the box back in the cabinet. Then I went to a cabinet under the kitchen sink and took out a can of dog food. I took out Jake's food bowl and set it on the floor, I poured him the whole can since he actually has the stomach to eat it all. I was making my way to the stair case to ask Emmett something when the front door bell started to ring.
Ding Dong! Ding Dong!
"I'll get it!" I heard Emse yell as when half ran to the door. I turned around to continue my journey up the stairs when Esme called me.
"Yes, mom?" I grabbed the rail when I turned around so I wouldn't lose my balance.
"You know you can't go up stairs, you'll fall," she came up to me and helped me down. So caring. I smiled at her generosity.
"I needed to asked Emmett something..."
"Then call him down stairs, you know he'll be there to help you with anything," she lead me into the kitchen, leading me with her hand on my shoulder.
In the kitchen there were three people standing in formal clothing, two were wearing black suits and the woman was wearing a black skirt suit, two of the beautiful people turned to me. One, I suppose was their son was standing behind them.
The man looked at me and took in a breath, as if seeing a ghost, the woman gave me a warm smile and extended her hand.
"Hello there, I'm Elizabeth Mason," I shook her hand.
"I'm Edward Sr. Mason," said the older man told me, I shook his hand, too.
"Hello, I'm Bella Swan, well actually, Bella Cullen now. Since the Cullen's adopted me a couple weeks ago," when I said that the boy's head snapped up, looking me up and down.
"Bella?" he asked confused to see me.
"Hello, Edward," I waved at him and he smiled.
"I'm sorry to be rude, but...," he was hesitating, as if he wasn't sure if he should say anything, "Do I know you from some where?" Edward Sr. asked.
"I...?" I went through all my memories when I suddenly stopped at one memory that would never escape my mind. I shuttered.
Was it him that saved me? "Well, your voice sounds very familiar... I remember," I frowned, "Hospital. Hospital. Please take me to the hospital," I whispered, giving him a clue of the memory.
His eyes widened and so did Edwards, "You... It was... you?" Edward asked looked at me suddenly shocked.
I nodded my head up and down, "I'm sorry, I need to get ready," I smiled my best fake smile and started to walk away. Jake was right behind me playing body guard again.
I was down the hall and I was about to open Alice' room when someone tapped my shoulder. I jumped a little and looked to see who had just scared the crap out of me. Edward was standing behind me, I guess to keep me from stumbling back and falling.
"Oh, it's you," I grabbed my heart, trying to steady it.
"Sorry for scaring you, I didn't mean to," he was frowning.
"Oh, uh, you didn't scare me. I was just... um..." he smiled at me and looked at my hair.
"Your hair is kinda messed up," he chuckled.
"Gee thanks, that's what every girl wants to hear in the morning," he chuckled some more at my sarcasm.
"Sorry, I didn't come to make fun of you,"
"So... why did you then," I was confused.
"Well I was going to ask why you were on the road, when we found you?" his little laughing fest stopped when he asked, he was General Serious at the moment.
"I was going to go and see my mom... because she was in a car accident," I paused taking in a deep breath, "I was running to the hospital and I guess I just fell," I tried to keep my eyes from filling with tears, but they betrayed me, I felt tears running down my face, dropping onto my tank top. The memory stung like it did the first time I remembered it. Jake was at my side whining and looking at Edward at the same time.
"I didn't mean to make you cry, I'm so sorry Bella..." he held his hands up in front of me trying to decide what to do to keep me from crying some more. Edward looked sad, but I didn't know if he was feeling bad for me or that he made me cry.
"It's okay, it isn't your fault," I wiped the tears from my face and opened the bedroom door, "I'll talk to you later,"
"I'll be here," I smiled a not-so-happy-fake-smile and walked into the room, I waited for Jake to come in and shut the door.
I dropped my crutches on a near by bean bag chair and hopped the rest of the way to the bed. I let my body fall onto the bed and I sobbed, not feeling the need to hide my feelings in my room, I was just doing what anybody else would do, I was mourning moms death. Alice came out of the bathroom and saw me crying, she ran to me and patted my back, "It's okay, Bella. What happened?" she asked.
"Just mourning Renee," I tried to stop the sobs by breathing slowly in and out, but it wasn't working. Instead of stopping my tear parade I started to cry harder.
"Will you take a shower to calm you nerves?"
"Yeah, I need a cold shower," Alice, being the best friend in the world, helped me to the bathroom door and laid my outfit across the sink counter, "Thanks, Alice. You know I love you, right?"
"I love you too, with all my heart," she giggled and left the bathroom to give me some privacy.
The cold water came from the facet in a hurry, quickly wetting every part of my body. I let the tears that were being held in pour out of me, I felt better. I relaxed against the tile wall and massaged some shampoo into my long brown hair, then the conditioner. I washed the remains of the conditioner out of my hair after shaving and just stood in the middle of the bath tub, staring at nothing, yet everything. Mom was getting buried today, I was now and official Cullen, and I was living happy... almost.
I sighed and decided I was in the shower long enough, and sure enough when I stepped out the shower I was relaxed and calm. I carefully changed into my outfit and walked out the bathroom and walked into the hall to get to Alice's room. Jake was sitting right by the door and had the deadly glare I had every seen on him, I followed him glare and my eyes stopped on Edward. He was standing at the end of the hall, admiring some pictures on the wall, then he turned to me. He looked my up and down, which caused me to blush furiously. I looked down at my feet and made my way into Alice room with Jake on my side, the second I stepping into the room Alice attacked me with the hair dryer, drying my hair and putting into clips to straighten it.
Edward's POV
"Mom? Why are we leaving so early?" I said as I put on my tie.
"Oh, because my friend invited us to got to the funeral together," She explained as she applied her make-up.
"Are you ready dear? If we want to make it to there house in time then we need to get going," Dad said taking a bite out of his cerael.
"I'm almost donee, let me just apply some lip stick, there, ready to go," mom smiled and put her lmake-up back into her cosmetic bag.
"Lets get this show on the road then!" dad smiled and grabbed the keys to the Volvo.
The drive wasn't far, I realized we were heading to Forks and groaned,"We're going to Forks?" I asked.
"Yes, Edward. They are burying the body in Forks, do you have a problem?" Dad asked looking at me through the rear view mirror.
"None at all," I fake smiled and tuned out the conversation he and mother were having.
We pulled up to a house about an hour later, mom climbed out the car and practically ran to the front door.
Dad and me walked calmly to the door.
Mom pressed the bell twice and waited about a couple of second before a woman about moms age answered the door.
"Hello, there! How are you guys?" the woman asked.
"Hello, Esme, my family is doing great, yours?" mom asked.
"We are spectacular and we have a special addition to the family," Esme was almost jumping up and down with all the excitement.
"Really? We would love to meet him," dad spoke this time.
"Actually its a girl. You know the mother had a daughter and we were very close to them, then Alice came up with the idea of adopting her. She seems very happy with us, let me get her," the giddy woman said. She walked around the corner and I stepped behind my parents.
"Hello there, I'm Elizabeth Mason," mom said in a warm voice.
Next dad, "I'm Edward Sr. Mason,"
"Hello, I'm Bella Swan, well actually, Bella Cullen now. Since the Cullen's adopted me a couple weeks ago," I shot my head up and I saw the pretty Bella standing in front of me, I looked her up and down to make sure I was actually seeing her in front of me.
"Bella?" I asked.
"Hello, Edward," she waved at me and I smiled.
"I'm sorry to be rude, but...," dad hesitated, before he said something, "Do I know you from some where?"
"I...?" she said and looked up at he ceiling, "Well, your voice sounds very familiar... I remember," she frowned, "Hospital. Hospital. Please take me to the hospital," was what she said next. My head started to spin at the memory of the rainy night. That was her?!
My eyes widened, "You... It was... you?" I asked stunned.
She nodded her head up and down in agreement, "I'm sorry, I need to get ready," she whispered and turned around, her dog following her.
"Where is the rest room?" I asked outta no where.
"Down the hall honey," Esme kindly told me. I smiled and followed her directions. Bella was about to open a door in the hall way when I tapped her shoulder. She jumped in the air and quickly turned around to face me.
"Oh, it's you," she grabbed her heart.
"Sorry for scaring you, I didn't mean to," I said frowning.
"Oh, uh, you didn't scare me. I was just... um..." I smiled at and looked at her hair. I wasn't completely massed up but I was knotted and undone.
"Your hair is kinda messed up," I chuckled.
"Gee thanks, that's what every girl wants to hear in the morning," I laughed at her tone and the look on her face.
"Sorry, I didn't come to make fun of you," I said quickly, I didn't want her mad at me. Why would I want that?
"So... why did you then," she asked confused, her eye brows furrowing on her face.
"Well I was going to ask why you were on the road, when we found you?" I immediately stopped laughing when I asked her that, this was serious.
"I was going to go and see my mom... because she was in a car accident," she paused to take in a deep breath, "I was running to the hospital and I guess I just fell," I noticed she tried to not cry at the memory, but her tears streamed down her pale face. Her dog was whining and looking at me.
"I didn't mean to make you cry, I'm so sorry Bella..." I brung my hands up to her, trying to find a way to sooth her of the pain.
"It's okay, it isn't your fault," She wiped the tears from her face with the hand that was in the braise and opened the bedroom door, "I'll talk to you later,"
"I'll be here," She smiled a not-so-happy-fake-smile and walked into the room, and waited for the monster of a dog to enter after her, then she shut the door.
I stood outside the door and I could hear Bella crying, I felt like comforting her, but I think she would have though I was a weirdo. Then someone called my name, "Edward?" I remembered the voice belonged to Emmett.
"Oh, uh... Hey," I said waving at him.
"What you doin'? he asked coming up to me.
"I was going to the bath room, actually."
"Oh, okay. So you comin' to the funeral?" he asked running a hair through his wet hair.
"Yes, Esme invited us, who died?" I asked pure of curiosity.
"No one has told you, man?" he frowned
"No," I shook my head.
"Well, okay, it was Bella's mom," he whispered as if Bella was near and she might break down.
"Oh, well that explains why you guys adopted her," I told him.
"Yep, but don't mention it, Bella looks tough as a rock, but she's really fragile and brakes very easily if anyone talks 'bout her mom," he imformed me. That explains why she tried to hold back her tears, "But Bella won't let anyone see those feeling cause she things she is a burden to us." he shook his head in disapproval.
"Mmmm..." was all I could think of saying.
"I'll let you pee, I gotta shower," he patted my shoulder and walked up a stair case.
I walked to where I left mom and dad and discovered they were talking about "adult" things, which didn't have any bit of importance to me at all, so I walked around the house.
I was wondering around the house when I came across a wall filled with pictures of everyone, even Bella. When I was looking at a picture with Alice and Bella hugging I heard a door open, I turned my head and saw Bella dressed in the suit she had last week at the mall. She looked goergose in it, and she added her own flare to the outfit and had on some matching Converses. I looked her up and down and her cheeks filled with the most beautiful shade of pink, an pink I'd never seen on a face before. She looked down to the floor, and I lost view of her face. She walked in her room with her trusty dog by her side.
Why do I get a feeling that that dog hates me?
Bella's POV
"Alice are you almost done," I whined when Alice stepped away to take a look at my hair.
"Wait a sec, Jeez," I rolled my eyes and so did she.
"We're going to be late. If you don't hurry up I'm going to tell Emmett where all his Bratz Dolls went," I told her.
Emmett had this thing for dolls, a very weird thing. He has his own little hotel house thing for them hidden in his closet, he didn't anyone to know he had them do he actually made a secret compartment in the wall especially for the dolls. I thought it was creepy for him to be a wrestler who had Bratz Dolls hidden, but he said it was a hobby of his. Then yesterday Alice took his whole collection and have them to the hobos down my the river. I thought it was hilarious, you could laugh too, at the sight of hobos playing dolls. But when Emmett found out, Alice was dead.
After I said that Alice started to conb and style my hair faster, "Done! If you tell Emmett anything, I swear I'll tell him it was all your plan," she hissed the last part. I laughed at her.
"Finally! Jeez I thought you were never going to finish," I got up to look in a mirror, and I gasped at the girl in the reflection. My hair was tied back into a tight pony tail, with it curly. I had short bangs going across my forehead, but what caught my attention was that there was this special design, it was a crosshatch. The space between my bangs and the pony tail there was this cris-cross design that was sophisticated and lovely. I had a tear coming down my cheek, this was the best hair style Alice had ever given me. Even for a 13 year old, Alice was awesome with a brush and straightening iron.
"Oh my gosh Alice, it's so beautiful!" I went over to Alice and have her a tight hug, "What would I do with out you?"
"You would have to the funeral looking as if you came from a basketball game," she laughed.
"Rhetorical question, Alice," I rolled my eyes.
"Come on, lets go see if everyone is ready," Alice handed me my crutches.
"Lets get this over with," I mumbled, "Come on Jake, you still playing Body guard?" I could have sworn Jake had nodded his head up and down, "Well, up then,"
Alice walked with me and Jake, talking about how pretty I looked. But before I entered the kitchen she stopped me and turned the corner.
"Ladies and gentle men, I am pleased to introduce Isabella Marie Cullen," What?! Jake nudged my leg and forced me to walk forward.
I entered the room and every eye was on me, looking me up and down. All I could do was blush like a maniac, Emmet however thought it would be funny and started to clap, then before I knew it everyone was clapping, so was Edward.
"Come on, Bella, take a bow," Alice told me from my left. I rolled my eyes and did as she said, I bent the upper half us my body and waved. They could e so dramatic.
"Well since now everyone is ready why don't we get going?" Carlisle asked.
The room filled with "Alright" and "Okays" and everyone got up to go to their cars.
"Uh, Bella? Emmett? Do you mind going with Mr. Mason? There isn't enough room in the Porshe for everyone." Carlisle asked.
"No prob, Doc." Emmett said.
"Sure,"
Emmett helped me to the Mason's Volvo and helped my in. I sat in between him and Edward in the back, while Mr. Mason and his wife sat in the front.
The ride to the funeral home was silent, no one dared to talk about the dead of mom, and I was glad. Emmett held my hand for support, as any brother would do, and told me everything was going to be alright. I did my best to hold back the tears that were building inside my body.
When we entered the funeral home, the priest said she was in a casket in the other room, but I wouldn't go, seeing mom in a coffin would have made me brake down and cry for the rest of my life. No one wants to see their mother dead, motionless, in a box. Alice, Emmett, and Edward stayed with me when I told them that I wasn't going. They all comforted me, some hugged me, others held my hands, but they all stayed with me.
The next two days were a blur again, then a hearse transported mom from the funeral home to he church. We prayed, read from the bible, then Esme and Carisle were asked to give a eulogy. They talked about how they met, how there friendship sprouted and how Renee was one of a kind.
As tradition people were to go up to the decedents bosy and say a final good-bye, since mom was an only child and she didn't have any brothers or sisters, her parents died when I was twelve and Charlie died, so I was the first to go and say good-bye to my dearest mother.
I entered the room and took a deep breath, "Where to begin mom?" I half smiled, "Well, my life isn't completely ruined, The Cullen's adopted me, and I have a new family to take care of me," I began to cry, "Mom, do you know how much I miss you? You were my role model, my super hero, my mom. I really miss you, I miss the way you helped me when I was down, the way you would help me do impossible things that I couldn't do by myself, but I really miss haveing you as my mom," I wiped the tears that were now streaming out of my eyes as if I had sprung a leak.
"Why did you leave me? Why did Phil have to kill you? Why you? Why not someone I didn't know? Maybe some one from China. Why did Charlie abuse us? Why didn't he love us? What did we do to have him do that?" Why am I asking you all these questions? This questions will never be answered, especially not from you. "I hope you are living well up there, tell Gran and Pops I say hello,"
I tried to calm down, "Good-Bye, Mommy. I love you," I turned around and walked into the same room as the others, holding back the ocean of tears. Alice was the first to run to me, she and Emmett both gave me a huge hug, they helped my to a bench so I could sit down, while the adults said there good-byes.
Then someone held my hand, and didn't let go. I looked up and saw Edward smiling down at me, supporting me like Alice and Emmett. Then Edward hugged me and I couldn't hold back the tears anymore, I cried on his shoulder and let out all the frustrations that I had in me.
How could he comfort me? He barely knows me. But he's here and he's letting me cry on his shoulder.
About twenty minutes later someone called me, "Bella, they are going to bury your mom now, we have to go now,"Emmett whispered, as if speaking to loud I would break down again.
"Okay," I said, my voice hoarse from all the crying I had done.
Edward helped my up and held me with the help of Emmett. I wiped the dry ears from my cold face and walked with them to the car. I leaned my head against Emmett's shoulder and I felt asleep, I was so tired from crying most of the day.
"Bella, we're here," Edward shook my shoulder, I woke up and I was leaning against Edward, I blushed and got up. Emmett passed me my crutches and again helped me into the cemetery, where everyone was standing. The priest said some words and the pallbearers lowered the casket into the ground, I let some tears flow, not seeing the point in hiding them anymore.
The burial ceremony was short, the pallbearers filled up the hole and put up the tomb stone. I said a final, "Good-Bye," as everyone else and we left.
We had dinner at a fancy restuarant, the adults talked, while Alice, Emmett, and Edward, tried to bring me out of my mood. Eventually they got me smiling and I started to luagh with them when Emmett told this cheesy joke. The rest of the night went well, no one was frowning at the end of dinner, but then we had to say good-bye when Mr. Mason dropped me and Emmett off at the house.
"Good-bye, Mr. and Mrs. Mason. Thank-you for the ride," I said as I shook their hands.
"No problem, Bella. See you soon," Mr. Mason said.
"Bye, Edward," I said looking over to Edward.
"See ya, Ed," Emmett said after me.
"Bye, Bella. Bye, Emmett," Edward smiled at me.
We walked up to the front door and waited for Carlisle to arrive. When finally did I walked to Alice's room, Alice ran in front of me adn into the room, "Don't come in until I tell you!" she yelled and slammed the door shut.
"Emmett?" I said when I decided to go into the kitchen to feed Jake, "Emmett? You there?"
"Yo, sup sis. You called?" he asked poking his head into the kitchen.
"Yep, can I borrow a Bratz doll?" I asked smiling.
"Ah, sure?" he said confused.
I heard him climb the stairs and into his room, then his door flew open, "ALICE!" he yelled.
"IT WAS ALL BELLA'S IDEA!!!! I SWEAR!!!!!" I chuckled and made my way to the futon, having a feeling Alice wasn't going to talk to me in a while.
There you go chapter 11, hope you liked it! There was some Edward Bella things in it, some of you guys have been waiting for that. About the "No Music" thing, well I plugged in my iPod to a computer and the freakin' computer earased all my music!!!! Can you believe the nerve of the computer?!
Please review if you cried!!!! Or review if you didn't!!!! I want to knwo what you think about the story so far. =]
