Chapter 11
Aria's POV
Today's the day of my first scan. Me and Ezra are going to the same doctors that we went to before, that way he can be at my first scan without it seeming strange. I will have another 'first scan' that my mother and Wes will come too at my regular doctors.
We had to schedule it for after school so my Mom doesn't question why I had time off school. We were due there at 4pm so we had to leave straight after school.
I hate having to lie to my family but I know what will happen to Ezra if they find out and I know how they will look at me over the breakfast table every morning, I could live with the looks but I would never be able to live with myself if Ezra got taken to jail because of me.
I hear my Mom calling me and look at my clock. Its 7.30 already, crap, I gotta get up.
I decide on a pair of black jeans, a white top with black stripes and a pair of black boots.
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I pack my bag and head downstairs.
"Morning honey" my Mom says.
"Morning Mom" I say with a yawn.
I start to pour myself a cup of coffee.
"No, no, no" Mom says "you can't have coffee, your pregnant Aria and you need to avoid certain things. Here, I bought you some decaf coffee instead", she hands me a jar.
I look at my Mom, "are you serious? What's the point in decaf coffee anyway?".
"Yes I'm serious Aria, caffeine is really bad for the baby. This tastes just the same as normal coffee it just has no caffeine".
I groan. How am I going to get through the next 7 months without proper coffee? Its what makes me human in the morning. I tip the bit of coffee I got in my cup down the sink and make a fresh cup with the decaf.
"Do you want anything for breakfast?" Mom asks Mike and me when my brother eventually crawls out of bed.
"No, I'm good" I tell her, "I feel sick".
"That's what being pregnant does to you" my brother says with a smirk.
"Oh yeah, you'd know so much about being pregnant wouldn't you Mike?" I snap.
My brother looks vaguely hurt. I mumble an apology.
"Aria, your first scan is next week".
"Awesome" I smile.
"Who are you going to take with you?" Mom asks.
I laugh a little. "Uh, well Wes obviously, I was gonna ask if you want to come too".
My mothers face splits into a massive smile. "Of course I will honey".
My mothers smile must be infectious because me and my brother seem to catch it.
"I got you a few other things from the store this morning".
I look up with interest and Mom brings a bag over to the table and hands it to me.
I pull out a packet of tablets, a book, something that looks like a bottle of perfume, dental floss, a box of 'Tums' and a tub of cocoa butter.
"What is all this stuff?" I ask her.
"The tablets are prenatal vitamins, a pregnancy manual, a bottle of citrus scent which will help you stop feeling sick, dental floss because when I was pregnant if the smallest thing got between my teeth it would irritate my gums, the 'Tums' are for heart burn and the cocoa butter is for when you start getting stretch marks".
"Stretch marks?".
My mother laughs at me. "Oh sweetheart, you have so much to look forward to" she says mockingly.
I glare at my mother.
"Well, thanks Mom. Hey, where's Dad?".
"Oh, he had to go to work early".
My skin prickles at my mothers words, the last time he started 'going to work early' was before we spent a year in Iceland and he was seeing Meredith. I hope that hasn't started again, I know that it would really hurt my Mom if he was and she definitely would not forgive him again.
If he is seeing Meredith I sure as hell won't make the mistake of not telling my Mom again.
"I'm off to school, Mike do you need a lift?".
"Uh, no its alright, Hardy is going to swing by and give me a lift".
"Okay, see you later".
I grab my car keys and leave the house.
The drive to school is quite nice, there's barely any traffic and its a lovely day.
When I get to school I find Hanna, Emily and Spencer.
"Hey Aria, god you look peaky" Hanna says and digs around in her bag. "Here" she hands me a tube of foundation.
I laugh, "thanks Han" and put the make up on the table.
Emily hasn't said anything the whole time I've been sat at the table. Spencer's been a little quiet too.
"Hey Em, you okay?" I ask a little concerned.
I always worry about Emily the most out of everyone in our group, she's been through the most, I mean we all have been through a lot but Emily has had 2 people that she loves killed, Maya's death wasn't because of 'A' but that didn't make it any easier, her parents have moved away and she had to go through her Mom hating who she was for a little while, their fine now of course but I know that it hit her hard.
"Uhm, not really. Melissa's left".
Me and Hanna look shocked.
"What? Why?"
Emily's eyes filled up with tears.
"We aren't totally sure, she just said that she needed a break in her letter" Spencer said after Emily didn't answer.
"God Em, I'm so sorry, you too Spence. I know that she has been awful in the past but she really did seem like she had turned a corner" I say and Hanna nods.
Emily smiles weakly. "Thanks guys. She also wants me to adopt Taylor, it doesn't look like she's coming back, or at least not any time soon".
"Guys, we have to get to class, talk later?" Spencer suggests.
I see Emily relax a little when the conversation about Melissa comes to an end.
We all go our seperate ways. I have A.P psychics so I head there.
Hanna's POV
I am so bored. I hate chemistry, I really try to understand it but it is impossible.
I keep trying to focus but my mind keeps slipping back to Caleb, something is up with him but I don't know what, every time I ask him he just says its nothing and smiles that oh so adorable smile.
I can't even put my finger on what it is that is worrying me about Caleb, he's been a little distant but there is something else too but I just can't figure out what it is.
"Miss Marin?".
I snap my head up. Crap.
"Uhm, yes".
"Can you answer the question please".
"Uhm, uh, sure, what...what was the question?".
The teacher repeats the question and I answer quickly. She rolls her eyes at me but thankfully leaves me alone for the rest of the lesson. I make more of an effort to stay on track but there are a thousand things going round in my head right now.
I am so glad when lunch time rolls around. I meet the other girls in the cafeteria.
Emily and Spencer are still really quiet. I guess they are worried about Melissa and I get that but it was her decision to leave the two of them and her 5 week old daughter.
"Hows things with you and Ezra?" I ask Aria in an attempt to lighten the mood.
"Really good" she says with a huge smile and a twinkle in her eye. "We have the first unofficial scan tonight".
"Unofficial scan?" Spencer asks.
"Yeah, as far as my Mom and Dad know the first scan isn't until next week where Mom and Wes will be coming along but me and Ezra are going to a different doctor so it can just be me and Ezra for the first time" Aria explains.
"Okay, that's a little confusing".
"Yeah but its sweet though" Emily says. "The first time anyone sees the baby it will be just them".
"So what's your plan again, you know, for when the baby arrives?" Spencer asks.
"Ah, in a few months me and Wes are going to move in with Ezra when he gets a bigger house and as far as my Mom knows its me and Wes who are the couple but obviously it'll be me and Ezra, then when the time for Wes to go to college comes around he's going to want to go to college and I'm not going to stop him, after a few weeks apart me and him split up because he says he doesn't want a baby right now but I stay living with Ezra, then we get closer and eventually get together, he adopts the baby as his and the truth comes out".
"Now I really am confused" I say and we all laugh.
Behind us we hear a familiar voice.
"That bitch can keep a secret. I respect that" the voice says.
That sounds just like Mona, I turn around half expecting to see my old best friend.
The other three girls turn round too.
"Is it just me or did that sound like..."
"Mona?" Aria cuts me off. "Yeah it did".
My chest aches, I have been missing Mona more and more lately.
"I really thought it was her for a minute" I say barely above a whisper.
Aria rubs my back slightly. No one says anything.
Its weird even though Mona was 'A' for a little while she helped all of us a lot toward the end, she and I reconnected and it was like old times. I wish I could have her back, I know it sounds crazy but I would even have Mona back as she was before she got carted off to Radley.
I take a deep breath and compose myself before the tears start flowing.
We all finish our lunches and head to our English lesson.
I cannot wait for school to be over, not just for today but for good. When I finish school me and Caleb are moving near Brown College.
He says its what he wants but I'm not convinced. I'm worried that with everything that has happened Caleb will leave me, I know he is trying to find out who 'A' is but I think its already getting too much for him and eventually he will just run off into the sunset, he has done it before and I have no doubt he can get away again and this time he won't be found.
Spencer's POV
I am so glad that school is over for today, I have so much studying to do it is unbelievable. I wish Melissa were here to help me with it. Recently she's been sitting with me for hours in the evening helping with homework, now I don't know if its because she really wanted to help me or because she wanted to get away from looking after Taylor.
In spite of everything that my sister has ever said and done to me and my friends now that I know I'm not going to be seeing her for a long time I miss her more than anything, since Wren went to prison she has been the big sister that I always wanted. It has only been a month or so since he has been taken away so I didn't get to experience it for long but I didn't want it to end. She helped me with homework, gave me advice, we swapped clothes and spent time together, just like sisters are supposed to.
I just want her back, even if she goes back to how she used to be I'd take it just as long as she was here.
I hope Emily will be okay, her and Aria have always been the two friends that I worry about the most but since Paige its been Emily that has given us all cause to be worried for her.
I get myself together and get on with my homework, I'm a Hastings, we don't feel sorry for ourselves.
I chuckle humorously at that. All through out my childhood being a Hastings has meant there has been so much pressure on me to succeed, I've snapped under the pressure a couple of times. I always felt that my parents were harder on me than Melissa, I guess it was Melissa who set the bar and damn, did she set it high.
I feel like I'm getting back to the place where I'm going to snap again. I am sick of someone else taking A's place every time that we unearth who they are and get rid of them. It is unrelenting and I don't know how much longer I can take, with that on top of all of the past 'A's', Ian, Wren and everything else in between and since I am once again at the end of my tether and I don't know how long I'm going to last before my fuse blows again.
I do my homework right up until dinner, after that I give up for the night, my brain is numb. I can barely think. Senior year is really taking it out of me. The only time that I can really relax is when I'm cuddled up with Toby but that doesn't seem to happen very often these days. Toby, Caleb and Ezra have become obsessed with tracking 'A' down which obviously is good but it sucks not getting alone time with Toby sometimes.
Aria's POV
Me and Ezra are on the way to our first scan. . I am so excited to see our baby for the first time that I have butterflies.
For the entire journey I sit and stare at Ezra, he's a magnificent sight. I think about our future, me, Ezra and our baby.
I know that we might not be starting our future being completely honest with everyone but it won't be long until we can right that and start our lives properly. Thanks to Wes, me and Ezra can live as a proper family. Me, Ezra and this baby will be our own little family, and Wes of course, none of this could of happened if it weren't for him, I owe him everything right now and I intend to pay him back by always making sure that he is looked after and has everything he needs.
We pull up outside the doctors surgery.
"You ready to go in?" Ezra asks as he kills the ignition.
I nod and we get out the car.
I grip Ezra's hand and we walk in.
Ezra takes a seat and I go to the receptionist desk to check in, there's a couple of people ahead of me and my mind wanders, I picture me and Ezra with a little girl between us, we are laying on the bed talking to our daughter and talking to each other, in my day dream we are in Ezra's little apartment and its just the three of us and its absolutely perfect.
"Miss, Miss, can I help you/?" I hear the receptionist call and I snap out my daydream.
"Uh, yes, sorry", I walk to the desk. "I have an appointment".
"Okay, what's your name?".
"Aria Fitz". I love the sound of that.
"Okay Ms Fitz, please take a seat and the doctor will call you".
I nod and head to where Ezra is sitting.
"Looked like you were in your own little world over there" he says and pushes my hair out of my face. "Where did you go?.
"I saw me and you and our baby".
"Sounds nice. Boy or girl?".
"Girl".
"Aria Fitz" the nurse calls.
Me and Ezra walk over to hear.
"In here please, we're ready for you now".
The doctor that I saw last time is waiting for us.
"Hello Mrs and Mr Fitz".
Me and Ezra beam at each other, we don't correct her, we can't really say anything as I'm registered under 'Fitz' not that either of us are complaining about it.
"Aria, would you mind taking a seat on the table?" the sonographer said.
I hopped up onto the table as she had asked and scooted right back, Ezra sat on my right and the sonographer was on my left, the doctor was stood at the other side of the room, I guess she wants to oversee it or something
Next to the doctor there was a screen on wheels looking thing with wires coming out of it and leading to a wand that was clipped to the side of it.
"Okay Aria, I'm going to put some of this gel on your stomach, it might be a little cold" the sonographer said.
I pull my top up to give her access to my stomach.
I jump as the gel is applied to my stomach, she wasn't kidding about it being cold. I grip Ezra's hand, in a few minutes we will get to see our baby for the first time.
"Okay, are you both ready to see your little one?".
Both Ezra and I nod hastily.
The sonographer puts the wand on my stomach and a picture appears on the screen.
My insides look weird. In the middle of the screen is a tiny little alien looking thing.
"That's your baby" the sonographer says pointing to the alien.
My eyes fill with tears, that is our baby. I can't believe how tiny it is.
"Wow" I hear Ezra say softly next to me. "That's amazing".
I turn to look at Ezra, his eyes are fixed on the screen, his mouth dropped open and he's tearing up too.
"That's our little alien" I tell him and kiss him.
The sonographer gives us a minute to take the picture of our unborn baby in and then starts telling us where the various body parts are.
The sonographer starts clicking and drawing lines on the screen, over Peanut. We watch what she is doing.
"You are measuring at 2 months pregnant Mrs Fitz, congratulations both of you".
I make out the head and the feet I think but I have no idea how they can tell what everything else is.
I'm handed some tissue paper to wipe the gel off with.
"Here's your baby's first picture" the sonographer says to us and hands me a tiny scan picture.
I kiss Ezra again, until now it had seemed all a little unreal but now that I've seen our baby I understand what all the fuss is about.
We thank the doctor and sonographer and are soon on our way out of there.
"That was amazing, wasn't it?" Ezra says when we are back in the car.
I nod, I can't find the words to speak, I can hardly believe that in just 7 months times that the thing that resembled an alien that was on the screen is going to be in my arms. My heart feels like it constricts a little but I just realise that the feeling is the love I already have for my unborn baby.
"I can't believe how tiny our little Peanut is" I say staring at the picture as Ezra drives us back to Rosewood.
We talk about our baby and our future for the rest of the journey.
I always dreamed of going to college and having a career before starting a family but with how I'm feeling now I can't for the life of me remember why that was.
Ezra parks his car and we walk to his apartment. I feel like I'm on cloud nine, I rub my stomach protectively and silently vow to my baby that I will not let anything happen to them.
"Hey, your back" Wes said. "How'd it go, is my little niece/nephew okay?".
I grin at him. "It was perfect, amazing".
Ezra says something to the same effect and shows his brother the picture.
Wes is just as awed by it as we were.
The three of us have dinner and spend the evening watching a film, me and Ezra cuddled up on the sofa and Wes sitting on the floor.
It kind of sucks that me and Ezra won't get alone time anymore but its worth it for what Wes is doing for us.
Hanna's POV
Where is he? This sucks, Caleb was meant to meet me at my house an hour ago, I had planned to surprise him by taking him to his favourite restaurant, I had been hoping that we could reconnect tonight but he hasn't even turned up.
I dial his number on my phone but he doesn't answer.
"Caleb where are you? You were supposed to be here an hour ago, screw you Caleb. I am done, I don't know what's been up with you lately but I am done playing second fiddle to whatever it is. Do not call me, do not come to my house and do not talk to me or my friends. Goodbye Caleb" I end the call and wipe away the tears that had fallen down my cheeks.
I fall to the floor, I can't believe I just broke up with Caleb, I love him so much but its as if he's not with me when he is here and I can't be with someone like that.
I stay where I am for what feels like hours sobbing. I half wish he'd come to my house to beg me not to do this, or even to yell at me, I just need him to come and hold me and tell me he'll be different or will change or explain what has been going on but I know, deep down that he isn't coming.
Emily's POV
She knows, she knows her Mom is gone and that she is left with me and she knows that I have no clue how to carry on.
Taylor won't stop screaming, I have tried everything, I have fed her, changed her, bathed her, winded her and cuddled her but nothing I can do quietens her.
How am I going to do this, she doesn't want me, she wants Melissa and that is the one thing that I can't give her.
Right now I have no idea how I am supposed to be a Mom to this tiny human being when I can't even get her to stop crying on the first night that I have been entrusted with her. I am trying my best not to fall apart, I still don't understand why Melissa would do this to me and her daughter.
I am 17 years old, I am still in high school, how do I be a Mom when I'm still a child?
I take a deep breath, put Taylor in her crib and walk out of the barn. I may have all these doubts but I know I will figure out a way to do this, its what Melissa wants and I can't let Taylor down, she needs me. This is all really scary but the last two years have been really scary and I got through it with the help of my friends, this will be no different. That's what I'm telling myself anyway.
After a minute or two I go back in the barn and pick Taylor up, I cradle her to my chest.I whisper to her and tell her everything will be alright, I just keep talking to her and eventually she calms down and stops crying.
I kiss Taylor's forehead, we will get through this, me and my daughter. I look at my phone as it flashes and I see the date, Taylor is two months old today.
I spend the next hour or so singing to Taylor on the bed. When 7pm rolls around I give her a bath and get her ready for bed, Taylor falls asleep in my arms, baths always make her sleepy. I gingerly make off the bed and make my way over to Taylor's crib trying not to wake her, I lay her down and cover her with her blanket.
I sit on the edge of the bed and watch her sleep, mesmerised by her chest falling and rising, I can hear her soft breath.
I jump when I hear the door to the barn open. Aria pops her head through.
"Hey, can we come in?".
"Sure".
Aria, Spencer and Hanna come in and sit on the bed with me.
"How you holding up?" Aria asks me.
"I'm okay I guess, kind of have to be".
"We're here if you need us Em, I know that you can do this" Hanna says.
I smile at them, "I know guys, thanks".
"So how're things with you guys?" I ask.
I've kind of been out of the loop lately, wrapped up in my own issues that I haven't been able to concentrate on the girls.
"I kind of broke up with Caleb".
We all look at Hanna.
"What do you mean you broke up with Caleb? Han, you love him. What happened?" Aria asks her.
Hanna wipes the tears from her eyes.
"Uhm, I'm not really sure what's been going on with him but lately he's been really distant, he stood me up a couple of times and even when he's been there he hasn't really been there, if you kmow what I mean. I got sick of it I guess".
"Han, I am so sorry" I say.
I should have been there for her while she went through that.
"Is there anything we can do Han?" Spencer asks.
Hanna shakes her head. "I'm okay guys, I'll be alright".
Me, Spencer and Aria look at each other and all reach over and hug Hanna at the same time.
"What did Caleb say when you broke up with him?" I ask.
"I sort of broke up with him over his answer phone because he wouldn't take my call. I haven't heard off him since".
"Oh my god, what an idiot" I say.
Spencer nods. "He is so stupid for messing this up Han, any guy would be lucky to be with you and if he doesn't want to put the effort in then go find a guy who will be, you could get anyone in Rosewood".
Hanna blushes a little. "Thanks Spence".
"Ali called me earlier" Aria blurts out.
We all shut up and look at her.
"What do you mean Ali called you? She's in jail" Hanna said.
"Yeah Han but they have phones in jail" Aria said with a little chuckle.
"What did she want?" I ask.
"She wanted me to go see her" Aria says.
"Are you going to go?" Hanna asks.
"I'm not sure, she sounded different. She said she had something to tell me about A, she said she was sorry too".
"You believed her?" Spencer says. "Aria, this is Ali, she is the master of manipulation. It wouldn't surprise me if she doesn't have anything to tell you about A, its probably just a ploy to get you to go and see her, she'll try and reel you back in".
"What if she's not and she knows who A is?".
"How can she? I mean when she went to jail Wren was A and now he's in the same place as she is" I say.
Aria shrugs. "I don't know, maybe there's a way that we just don't know. How can we pass this up?".
"Why would you want to see her Aria? She killed Mona" Hanna says,
"Did she?".
"Yes, of course she did. Her DNA was found in Mona's house, at the crime scene" Hanna snaps.
"Haven't you thought that might an A move? Its not like A is above killing so why wouldn't they try to frame someone else to get them out the way? Wasn't that what Mona wanted?".
"Yes, when she was sick Aria, god!" Hanna yells and storms out.
We all stay quiet for a minute, unsure what to say.
"Aria, if you want to go and see Ali then you should go" Spencer says barely above a whisper.
Aria nods.
Taylor starts wailing, I get up to go to her and cradle her to my chest.
I lay Taylor on the changing table and change her diaper. When I dress her again she's still crying. I think she wants a bottle.
"Spence, can you take Taylor while I get her a bottle sorted?" I ask.
"Can I hold her?" Aria asks.
"Sure".
Aria gets off the bed and walks over to us. She gently slides her hands under Taylor's back and lifts her against her chest, she smiles down at my daughter. Its nice to see them together.
"You're a natural Ar" I tell her as Taylor's cries quietens to a whimper.
Aria grins.
"Are you nervous?" I ask her, "for when your baby comes along?".
Aria laughs. "Yeah, really nervous and terrified".
"You'll be fine" I tell her.
"I hope so".
I go to take Taylor from Aria and she moves slightly.
"Do you mind if I feed her?" Aria asks.
"Uh, sure, go for it?" I say and hand Aria the bottle.
Aria scoots back to sit against the wall and gives Taylor the bottle.
I look down at Taylor in someone else's arms and I feel a pang of jealousy. In that instant I know that I could never give Taylor to anyone else, she is my daughter.
I can't believe how protective I have become of her.
Aria's POV
I feel so bad for Hanna, I can't believe how Caleb treat her. It makes me all the more grateful to have Ezra, I don't know what I would do if he treat me like that. He did when we first got together but there was a good reason behind that, I knew that and it hurt so bad, if he did it now for no good reason I think it would kill me.
"I have to go" I tell Emily and Spencer.
Its 10pm already and I told Ezra that I'd be at his for 9 but I couldn't leave when Hanna was telling us about Caleb and then I spent time with Taylor and time just slipped away from me, I sent Ezra a text saying I'd be late, he said he didn't mind.
We all say our goodbye's and I text Ezra from the car.
My Mom knows that I'm staying at Ezra's but she thinks its because Wes is there, which of course isn't the reason. Wes is staying with one of his friends from school.
The drive to Ezra's apartment feels like it takes forever. When I eventually get there I lock the car and run up to apartment 3B.
I find Ezra's spare key under his mat and let myself in. I am greeted by the most incredible smells.
"Hey, you. This looks incredible". I say when I see all the food layed out on the table.
"Hey" Ezra says and places a kiss on my lips. "Thank you".
I return Ezra's kiss, make my lips move with his and let him take over. I press my body against his. I tilt my hips so my groin rubs against his and he moans into my mouth.
After a minute or two he breaks the kiss off.
"As much as I want to do...that, I spent hours cooking all this so lets eat" Ezra whispers in my ear, grabs my hand and leads me to the sofa.
He brings me a plate full of my favourite foods.
"Ezra, this all looks...amazing".
He beams.
I tuck in and demolish the whole plate within 10 minutes.
"Enjoy that?" Ezra asks and laughs.
I nod and smile at him.
Ezra takes my plate and dumps it in the sink with his and all the pots and pans.
I stretch out on the couch and Ezra joins me, we lay together in total silence for a few minutes. I like the feeling of having his solid body next to me and the weight of his hand on my stomach, it feels like home.
"Want to watch a film?" Ezra eventually says.
I shake my head and yawn. "No, I'm really tired. You watch one though if you want".
"Without you? Nah".
I grin and he leads me to the bed. I cuddle up to him and feel myself drift off into sleep.
Spencer's POV
I stay with Emily and Taylor for a hour after the girls leave and then leave the two of them to get some sleep.
Mom and Dad are either in bed already or out, I don't really know.
I don't see much of them these days, I hear them sometimes at night when I'm studying, they yell at each other a lot, I try not to listen most of the time but I've heard something about some other woman and my Mom threatening to kick my father out. I used to think that she never would give him the boot but I'm not so sure these days.
My father is a serial cheat, even when me and Melissa were young he'd be out with other women, we didn't know it at the time of course but I've come to learn a lot about my Dad as I've gotten older.
I remember when I was little and my parents were arguing Melissa would sneak into my room and we'd play games until they stopped or sometimes we'd build a fort and hide in it with a torch and a huge stack of books each.
I kind of wish she was here to do that now.
After I've been studying for about an hour I begin to tire, I really want to go to bed but I still have a ton of homework to do, I'm taking 4 more A.P classes than everyone else, I thought I could handle it when I started senior year but now I'm not so sure but I can't drop any of my classes, my parents would lose it if I did that.
After spending half an hour I sigh and get the pills that I bought yesterday out of my bag, I swore to myself that I would only take these when I really had to and it worked well to start with but I've been taking them more and more often in the past couple of weeks.
I tip a tablet into my hand, tilt my head back and swallow it whole. I have to find a better hiding place for these, there is no way that my friends or parents can find out I'm taking Adderall again, my parents would definitely ship my off to rehab this time and I'm not sure whether my friends would forgive me again. I'll just have to be more careful with it, last time I was taking them I ended up taking them just to get myself to school, this time it'll just be when I have too much homework to get done with out them.
After 20 minutes of sitting in my chair with my eyes shut I feel amazing, I feel like I can do anything and take on the world on my own.
I stretch my arms and roll my head and set to work. Within a couple of hours I have finished all of my coursework, I read over everything I've done tonight to make sure its flawless, it is of course. I save everything onto my USB stick and switch my laptop off.
I change into my pyjamas and slide into bed. I lay there for what feels like forever, I realise that there is no chance of me sleeping tonight, I walk over to my window and see that there's a light on in the barn.
I head downstairs and go out to the barn and give a quiet knock on the door. Emily answers and tells me to come in.
I sit on the bed while Emily feeds Taylor.
"Can't you sleep Spence?".
I shake my head.
"Me either. Taylor's been up and down all night too".
Neither of us says anything while she settles Taylor in her crib, then she joins me on the bed.
"I got a text off A a little while ago" Emily says finally.
"What did it say?".
"Cute baby girl you have there Em, wouldn't you hate if she went the same way as Melissa? Kisses A".
I gasp. "Oh my god. So...So A, A has my sister?".
"I don't know Spence, this might just be A trying to scare us but maybe, I guess" Emily says.
Oh my god. Melissa. She's in trouble. What do I do? What can I do? Crap, how do we find her. Is this real?
A million thoughts race round my head, I take a deep breath to try and calm myself down but its not working.
"Uh Em, I gotta...I gotta go. I'll see you later" I say and race out the barn.
I hear Emily calling my name and following me as I run down the drive but she stops, I guess Taylor started crying or something.
I run down the lane and then veer off into the woods. I run and run for what seems like forever. When I stop I find I'm at the kissing rock. The last place that Ali was seen before she went missing three years ago.
Oh god. Ali is in prison, she killed Mona. Did she really do it or did A? How can I find out?
I have to go see Ali in jail. I can't leave her there all on her own. She must be so scared.
I sink to the floor and cradle my knees. I can feel the tears rolling down my cheeks but I just leave them there.
I feel sick, how could I have left my friend in jail and not even have gone to see her. I try to remember the conversation I had with the girls when we all decided that Ali really was guilty but I can't, for some reason its just not coming to me.
All of a sudden it feels like I have only just woken up, my mind is clearer than it has been all night.
It is so cold out here. I sit here shivering, I vaguely remember getting here but its like it was someone else, not me.
I start the walk home, its a lot nearer than I thought it was, it felt like I ran for miles before but it only takes me ten minutes to get home.
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