A/N:Okay, if you don't see that I've updated in like days don't worry...I'm far into this as I liked to be I'm spending more time on the chapters. :3

Chapter Eleven-

"A new begining"

"Okay Mr. Goldsworthy this is your new room for now. Treat it well." The nurse notified. I walked into the room, fear crippling inside of me. What if this new 'Brook' tried something. Something I wouldn't like.

When I first walked in I saw a girl with faded out blonde hair lying on the bed farthest to the window. Her eyes were shut and I saw bruises on her neck that made me wince at the familliar pain I had brung to my self not even a year ago.

Her eye makeup was smudged and her face was a bright, flush red. I could tell she was depressed.

"Around two your gonna be meeting up with Dr. Greggory. She's a phsycatrist and will help you solve your problems. Okay?" I nodded and sat my stuff down on the bed nearest to the door.

Once the nurse left I plopped onto the mattres and listened to the sound of muffled talking coming from down the hall, but loved the sound of no talking at all from the dorm mate that acompinied me.

The room itself creeped me out. The only light source right now was the window's rays seeping through and the little window carved into the door. Just a few weeks. I thought to myself. Than I could have a new beginning with Clare and put my past behind me. No more crushal cuttings or suicide attempst. It was time for a change.

"Why are you in here?" A weak voice asked. I turned my head to the girl now sitting up and clutching her legs to her chest. I was afraid to answer back. Beyond afraid.

"I was here last time. Personal reasons." She nodded slowly, grinning to her self.

"I'm in here becasue I feel the need to die everyday. I don't eat, never really sleep...I do cut though. I see Dr. Greggory too." And I thought I was messed up. Brook got out of the bed and approached mine. She harshly grabbed my hand and focused on the huge gash on it. A smile beckoned her face.

"Nice, why do you cut?" I tried to pull back but couldn't. Her hold was to tight on me and it made the cut sting even more.

"It's really a long story."

"I'm not going any where anytime soon. Talk." She let go of my wrist and sat on her knees waiting for me to talk.

And I did. I was gonna tell her the right story. The one where this whole tradgedy all began. Why it began...

I fondled with the cord on my headphones. To scared to move or do any sort. When I heard that Julia...My Julia betrayed me for my own bestfriend I didn't want to believe it. I just didn't. I layed on my bed, glaring at the ceiling waiting for some movement, some sound other than my I-Pod to be put in effect.

And that's when she walked in with that lovely smile that sent shivers down my spine.

She walked over to me and kissed my cheek gently. Really gently. Oh I hated her. When she turned to pick out her bed clothes that's when I pulled my earphones out and began by ballistic yelling at her.

"WHY? WHY DID YOU DO IT?" I screamed. Julia flinched at my tone and her eyes went into wondering. "Did what? You need to relax! Did you take your meds this morning?" I didn't answer her back. I was to enraged to.

So instead I through the closest thing that was near me to the ground and it shattered. It was the picture of us at a Dead Hand concert.

"STOP IT!"

"You betrayed ME! With my own BEST FRIEND!"

"WHAT? Eli no I didn't. Why do you belive everything Andrew ever says? You always put him first!" I threw another picture frame at the ground and it shattered into more pieces this time.

"I hate you! I never loved you! It was all of FRICKING CON!" And that's when the tears began to pour down her face. She quickly moved to my bed and stared at me like I was insane. I was insane.

"Eli! You need to understand-"

"Understand what?" I spat at her. "You cheated. Andrew told me everything." Julia was on my bed and crying. I wanted to believe her side of the story. The part where she said she never cheated. But couldn't.

Andrew was my best friend. He told me everything.

"So what does this mean? Hm? You don't believe your own girlfriend, of course! That's just like you Eli!" She sprung up and grabbed a hold of her shoes.

"Where are you going?" When she was about to exit the door she turned and said,

"Away from you!" And with that last remark she escaped my room and left into the night. On her bike in the bitter air. She wasn't mine anymore.

Weeks later I found out that Andrew was just lying. That he was just jealouse. That's when I began to cut my self. Did suicide attempts. Made my self...

Weak.

Brook's face was irrationally scared and when I was done talking she hugged me. She smelt like honey and medicine.

"I'm getting better.." I cried. "Clare's my only reason to go on." Brook pulled away and she wiped the tears running down my face away.

"Your lucky. You have a reason. My parents left me here and are never coming back for me. I have an interview for a family next week. I've been doing loads better." I got up and went over to my black bag and pulled out a picture of Clare and showed it to her.

"This is Clare... My Clare. The one I love."

"She's beautiful. Really beautiful." Brook took the picture from my hands and scanned the picture with her eyes.

"Do you miss her?" My back leaned onto the wall and I answered.

"Every second, of every day. When I'm away from her for only a couple minutes she's all I can ever seem to think about." A knock came from the door and Dr. Cory came in. Her black, soft skin glowed when the hall lights shimmered. And she spoke four words that brightened me up.

"You have a visitor."

Clare's head peeked through the door and so did Bullfrog's and CeCe's. Clare was the only one with some kind of smile plastered on her face. Dad and mom looked like they haven't slept in a week.

Clare hugged me and pecked my cheek. My stomach was now inflamed with butterflies.

"Thanks for visiting guys." CeCe hurried over to me and hugged the crap out of me. Nearly suffocating me.

"Eli, honey, I hope you get better. I know you will. I just know." It felt good having my mom hug me. It felt as if I were still the old, sarcastic me again. The one who wasn't afraid to be me. I liked the feeling.

CeCe pulled her warm arms away from me so that Bullfrog could take a spin on hugging me. Silence grew and he finally hugged me and I wrapped my arms around him hugging him so that I could show how much he means to me.

After minutes of hugging, CeCe gave me the estentials and gave me a last goodbye hug and left only Brook, Clare and I in a room...Alone.

Clare's stark eyes looked over the whole entire room in astonishment.

"Well, I have to say Eli...This is really nice. It's cleaner than your bathroom." I laughed alittle, remembering Brook was in here. I walked over to Brook and pulled her up off the bed, introducing her to Clare.

"Clare this is Brook. My room buddy." Brook extened her hand out and Clare and her shook hands.

"Eli's told me so much about you. He's so lucky to have a girl like you stay by his side. Ecspecially after the last." OH GOD! Rage filled inside and I was amazed that she was just like Adam. She blurted everything out.

Brook took the hint and grew nervous.

"I'm gonna go take a walk around the buliding. It will be good time for the two of you to talk." She walked over to the left side of her bed and slipped her slippers on and ran out into the halls wearing nothing but really short shorts a white speggetti strap shirt, a robe and slippers and shut the door behind her.

Clare's eyes were confused but mad. It was time to tell her.

"Who was your last?" I sat down and told her everything. From the beginning till now. When I finnished talking, Clare snuggled up to me and placed a gentle kiss on my neck.

"I'm sorry Eli. For everything."

"Hey." I said. "It's time for us to have a new beginning. I'm glad I told you. So there's no more secrets between us. A fresh start." She didn't say anything after that but slouched even more down into the me. It felt good restarting.

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I am so happy Eli opened up. But I was petrified to tell him the things I was planning on doing last night. He'd go even more insane. Maybe delaying the truth telling of every thing should be...Delayed. I mean what's the worst that could happen?

Once visting hours was over Bullfrog took me out for icecream after we dropped CeCe back at home.

He opened the door for the Icecream shack for me and we headed to the front counter.

"Yes, can we have one cookie doe on a cone and.." I zoned back in and answered. "And a mint chocolate chip in a bowl." The cashier went back to get the orders ready and Bullfrog and I went to find a seat.

When we sat down Bullfrog smiled at me.

"What's wrong." I asked jokingly.

"I'm glad your here. Eli's made so much progress." That's when guilt hit me. Instantly I excused my self and casually ran into the bathroom and locked myself in a stall.

I was joking Eli. He knew nothing about me. He knew nothing about my past. I calmed myself down and remebered.

Xavier was coming for me soon. There was only a matter of time before I'd be gone...

...Dead...

I had to make it right. But how?

A/N: Will Eli really make progress or crash down when the truth is unvealed. And is Clare really being this niave. REVIEW!

-Saphy :3