Chapter 11

Maria felt like her head wanted to split in two while she was conscious enough to feel everything. Memories were being forced from her mind and she saw picture so old that she couldn´t even remember them. Her father holding her on his arms, glancing at her with adoration. Her mother tickling her until milk was shooting out of her small nose. Alex acting like superman and falling on his butt because he couldn´t fly, making her laugh. Liz and her dancing on the counter in the crashdown, amusing the people eating there. Holding Max while he was crying about his lost love. Isabel lengthening her hair, giving tips to drive men crazy. Michael kissing her after she had ranted and raved at him in the backroom, waiting for some sign from Max and Liz. At this point she stopped giving into Khivar, not wanting to share those memories with him. They were hers and nobody was allowed to take them away from her and especially not some bastard after her son, even if the bastard was in the body of someone she loved. Straining her powers she built walls around her mind, pushing him back in the process before he could see something that she wasn´t willing to show him. She noticed the moment he startled, not expecting her to fight back and then with so much strength, wondering if it was because he was in a human body or if she was simply stronger than he had thought. Pulling away from her he knew that he wasn´t a match for her like this and he wouldn´t get information out of her that way.

" Bitch, you´re not so weak like I thought you would be".

Maria pressed a hand hard on her forehead, trying to make the pain shooting behind her eye lids go away. It was so bad that she thought she might throw up every moment, heaving the chili dogs on the green carpeted floor. But then she heard his words with the familiar voice drifting through the cloud of pain. " Yeah, don´t underestimate us earthlings bastard. Next time try to mess with someone in your league".

Khivar stood up, feeling the person he was holding prisoner in his own shell trying to get the control back. But he couldn´t let that happen, not as long as he hadn´t his answer and not as long as there was still something he had to know. " Honey, you´re far from being an earthling. I sense something dark in you and I know that it´s not alien".

" Great, another person giving me cryptic messages. Can´t you people stop talking in riddles to me?", Maria massaged her temples, feeling the pounding getting weaker and weaker with the motion. She was so sick of the strange sentences she got thrown at her, not knowing what they meant and not being in the mood to get hunting for the truth.

Khivar saw her genuine reaction to his statement and he wondered how much she really knew about herself. He had touched a part of her that was purely evil, bordering on something demonic while the rest of her was disgusting good. She had more in her body then just a few cells from her lover, there was something else, too. Unfortunately he didn´t know what it was. " I think you have hidden something in front of your precious Rath, because I´m sure he wouldn´t have put one finger on you if he had known what you are".

Maria was about to ask what he meant when the door was kicked open and Sam stormed into the room with his gun drawn. He didn´t look exactly pleased to see them, his burning gaze was directed at the person making out to be his brother. " Step away from her and tell me what you´ve done to Dean".

" Fantastic. What is with you humans always travelling in packs?", Khivar was so sick of defending himself against a group of people while he only wanted one person. He had already hated it when he encountered Vilandra and instantly her brother and Rath had been there with her. It was getting more annoying the more it happened.

Sam didn´t waver for a moment, although he was sure he couldn´t kill that thing, fearing he could either lose the only source knowing what happened to his brother or it was a demon possessing the body, which would mean he would kill his sibling. " What have you done to Dean?".

Khivar turned his attention to boy, dismissing him clearly as unimportant and not in the least threatening. Flicking his wrist the small human was flung out of the room and the door was closing tightly behind him. Facing the reason for coming here again, he crouched down. " And you exchanged those nothing for Rath and Zan? You´re not the brightest spot, are you?".

" Shut up! You don´t know a thing about me or why I´m at this place", Maria tried to get back on her feet to give this scumbag something he would never forget. Unfortunately she was still weak after having healed her head. But she knew that she wouldn´t give him the satisfaction of winning this battle, one way or another.

Khivar bent down closer to her, getting into her face and seeing the emotions in the green pools staring back at him. For a moment he lost control and the person inside him wanted to touch her tender skin. But then he pushed the boy away. " I know a lot about you. I´ve been in your head and I saw some interesting things. Things like that you´re clearly attracted to this body I´m possessing right now and you feel guilty because you´re still pining for Rath. You could really fall in love with this human if you would let yourself, but you´re afraid to get hurt again".

Maria shook her head, although knowing that this creature was right. She did have deep feelings for Dean, more than she wanted to admit. But she would never act on them, because for one he wasn´t interested in her like that and two she was still hurting from Michael, which meant there were still feelings involved. " You´re wrong about that. There´s nothing going on between me or Dean".

" Oh, then everything is just in his imagination", Khivar put his face close to the hollow of her shoulder, sniffing her skin before licking it. For a moment it appeared like he wanted to get physical with her. But then he pulled back, staring at her again. " Because he yearns for your soft tight body under him, moaning in ecstasy and letting him ride you until you´re wasted".

Maria felt lust exploding inside her at the picture floating in her mind, realizing that the thought was more than appealling to her. But that didn´t mean anything at all, she was lusting after guys constantly, it didn´t mean she was loving them. " He´s a man, he´s getting hard by watching paint dry and I´m a girl. Sexual attraction isn´t anything unusual on this planet".

Khivar bent closer until he was almost kissing her, feeling her warm sweet breath blowing in his face. He wanted to test her, seeing how much she would be taking before she lost her control. She had already lasted longer than he had thought and that was pleasing him more than he had hoped. " I know, but this shell isn´t just after pleasure or shooting his load. He´s after your heart as well. Too bad that Rath´s shadow is still in his way".

" Don´t talk about things you don´t know nothing about", Maria pushed him away from her, finally finding the strength to get back on her feet. Noticing that her legs were stable she grasped Dean´s shirt and lifted him from the ground with supernatural force and lifted him off of his feet. " You want to fight me, than do it yourself. Don´t hide behind humans".

Khivar was thrown for a moment, not having expected her to do find the gut to stand up against him. But then he smiled down at her, knowing another way he could break her spirit, namely making her kill this shell and watch her suffer from the knowledge to have killed an innocent in the process. " Who´s saying anything about hidding? I´m just using the opportunities and you know what? I will use everyone you love until I know where your son is and then I will kill him painfully slow, letting him feel every injury I will inflict on his sensitive body".

Maria´s eyes turned to a dark green at that, sensing something huge and powerful building inside her wanting to break free. The blood was pumping strongly in her veins, making her forget that she was holding Dean and not some monster. She just saw a threat to her small family and her son. She would do everything to prevent them from getting hurt or possessed, even if that meant to kill her way through every person crossing her way. " You let your dirty hands off of my son. As long as I´m breathing you won´t get near him without me noticing and believe me, you don´t want to mess with me".

" Right, I´m frightened", Khivar knew that it wouldn´t take much more before she would let go of her powers, frying this human without mercy. And he would be gone at the time she would kill him, so the only one she would be hurting would be her companion and not him. " You won´t stop me from torturing your half breed son. I already killed Ava and her bastard without problems, so you won´t be a problem for me at all".

Maria was just in the process to blast him into million little pieces when his expression changed for a second and he mouthed something like kill me to her. She knew that it had been Dean contacting her and all her senses came back to her. Putting the body back on the ground she pulled her hands back from him. " If you think so".

Khivar was surprised about her cool reaction, wondering what happened to her to make her so calm again. Before he however could do anything, something hard hit him on the back of his head and darkness engulfed him.

" Don´t piss me off, Dude", Sam stood over the fallen form of his brother, holding his gun the wrong way around, making it obvious that he had knocked his sibling to the ground with the handle. Turning his eyes to the shaking girl he stepped over the body and embraced her, pressing her tightly at his body. " Did he hurt you?".

Maria shook her head, feeling all of her nerves acting up at the same time. Tears were shooting in her eyes and sobs seemed to wreck her entire being. Now that everything was over she was relieved and worried, because her son was still gone. " No, he wanted to know where Alex is. But he just disappeared and I don´t know where he is. We have to find him".

Sam stroked her head reassuringly, trying to get her to calm down. She had no need to be scared or worried at all. " No we don´t. He´s outside in the Impala, waiting for his mommy to get him".

" What? Wow", Maria was so glad to hear that sentence coming from Sam. One of her problems was already out of the way and she could concentrate on the other one. Pushing herself away from her saviour, she stared down at motionless form lying at their feet. " What should we do with him?".

Sam turned around, eyeing the lifeless body of his brother and hoping that he hadn´t killed him. But he was sure that Dean would want him rather dead than hurting someone he loved, especially Maria. " I´ll take care of him and you´re checking out Alex".

Maria smiled, grateful that he was feeling that she needed to be with her child right now. Squeezing his arm she glanced for the last time at Dean before she ran out of the room, realizing on her way that they had to do something with the broken door. Spying the black car standing in front of the motel she stormed towards it, ripping the driver door almost out of its hinges and took Alex in her arms. " Oh baby. Don´t scare mommy like that again. I almost thought I have lost you", pressing the small boy tightly at herself she was so happy to hear him gurgle at her. Looking at him she saw for the first time his father staring back at her, like the little one wanted to say to her that he was up to no good. " How could you make yourself disappear?", realizing her son reaching for something behind her she turned around and gasped. For a moment there was a person bathed in really bright light vanishing into nothing.

" Hey, can you get the ropes from the back when you´re coming inside?", Sam stretched his head out of the window, his face appearing a little flushed.

Maria needed a moment to notice that someone talked to her, still a little out of it she turned to him with wide eyes and her mouth opened in shock. She had always believed in angels, but she had never seen some. Until now. " Have you seen that?".

Sam gazed at her, clearly not having a clue what she was talking about. Scanning the area around the motel he couldn´t see anything, outside from cars passing on the road and people walking by. Seeing nothing else, he was sure that her mind had just played tricks on her. " No, I haven´t seen anything. Are you feeling okay?".

" Yeah, just imagine things", Maria was sure that it had been something, but maybe the day had caught up with her and made her brain a little mushy. Looking at her son, she saw that he was still staring at the spot where she had witnessed the strange spectacle, which made her realize that it really had happened.

Sam shook his head while he pulled it back inside, noticing that he still had something to do. Kneeling on the ground he turned the body from his brother around, checking if his sibling was still alive. Seeing the chest moving he was relieved to know that he hadn´t killed anyone. Lifting the form up, he sat Dean on the thankful solid looking chair standing by the window. " Man you´ve gotta stop eating this shit. You weight a ton".

Maria choose this moment to step through the partly damaged door, holding Alex in her right arm while a thick rope was dangling from her left hand. Glancing a little amused at the picture both brothers were making, she went towards them. " Don´t let Dean hear you saying that or he will be very pissed at you".

" He heard worse coming from me", Sam took the rope held in his direction and got to work, tying his brother to the chair while keeping an eye on him. The last thing that they needed right now was this thing waking up and start throwing them around.

Maria meanwhile put Alex back in his makeshift bed for a moment and walked back to her companion. On her way there she saw the dent in the wall where her body had connected and she was sure that anyone else would have either been killed from the blast or would have at least been knocked out. Thankfully she wasn´t like that and for the first time she was glad about the fact. " Hey Sam, you need help?".

Sam glanced up from pulling the ropes tight on the legs of his brother. He needed indeed some help, a little busy with his task. Pointing at the black book from his father he wanted to show her what they would need. " Take the journal. There´s a drawing about binding a demon. Paint it on the ground".

" Okay", Maria went to the spot and got the mention object. Looking at the pages she stumbled across the one Sam had been telling about. Unfortunately it just had an effect if it was on the ceiling. Still feeling the tingling from the use of her powers she wondered if she could project this picture on the ceiling. Mesmorizing the painting she stretched her right arm up and concentrated. Imagine how her work should look she strained every last strength she had in her body, feeling something warm flowing through the tips of her fingers. Seconds later the sign to bind a demon was on the ceiling exactly the way it had been in the journal. " Ha. Finally this alien powers do what I want".

Sam stared at her wondering how she could be so joyful after the things happening. But that was probably the reason why his brother was so attracted to her, her ability to going through everything without breaking. She had been through really bad things, which most of the people wouldn´t have beared that long. But she was a fighter and she held on, just to laugh at all the evil. " Hey Pepper Anne, can you take care of the door? I don´t want anyone to see what we´re about to do".

Maria winked at him, almost skipping to the damaged door. She was feeling a little strange after having seen that bright thing, something in the direction of happy and lighter. It was like the incident had given her some of her hope back, however weird it was sounding. " Sure thing boss".

" What has gotten into you?", Sam pushed the chair together with his brother towards the spot where the painting was. Checking if he had choosen the right place he went to his backpack to get his salt, wanting to add more safety in everything and sprinkling it in a circle around Dean.

Maria waved her hand over the broken hinges and put the door back in place, closing it tightly and securing it additionally with her powers before taking her son. She wanted him out of harms way, because she didn´t know if it was Dean they would be encountering or if it was still Khivar. " What do you mean? I´m always like that as soon as the worst is over. Besides I have my little angel with me, everything else will be taking care of itself".

Sam was usually in awe how much she could take in and how much he and his brother were relying onto her to be like she was. They wondered most of the time how they had managed the time on the road without her. " You´re really odd".

" Tell me something new", Maria stuck her tongue at him before carrying her son into the bathroom and sitting him in the bath tube. Making sure that he couldn´t crawl out of it and that he would be comfortable for the time he would be in here, she bent down to his level. " Be a good boy and stay there, until I got you again", kissing his head quick she stepped out of the room again and closed the door tightly behind her. Seeing Dean tied to the chair standing in the middle of the room with a circle of salt around him, she walked towards Sam and joined him in front of their prisoner. " How you wanna do it?".

Sam stared at his brother with his arms crossed over his chest, debatting with himself what he should do now. His sibling would know that and wouldn´t even hesitate to pull through with it. But firstly he wasn´t Dean and secondly the situation was different. " What can we do? If he´s possessed we have to get the demon out of him. If it´s a shapeshifter we have to find out where Dean is".

Maria put a hand on his arm, giving him some of her strength. She knew that it had to be hard for him as the brother. But she was glad to take some of the pressure right off of him in that matter. " It´s no demon. It´s Khivar possessing your brother. The only thing we can do right now to make sure if it´s Dean again is to wake him up".

" All right. Then let´s do it", Sam stepped closer to the tied man and slapped his cheek loudly, which made the head from his brother fall to the side. But didn´t exactly get him awake, which in return brought Sam to slap a little harder with the same result. Just after the third real hard slap something happened.

Dean opened his eyes, his head feeling like it wanted to explode and pain shooting up and down his cheek. Glancing up he saw his brother staring angrily down at him while Maria was a little in the back, chewing on her lower lip. " What is going on? What happened?".

Sam threw a confused gaze over his back at Maria, hoping that she had more experience with possession from aliens, with her being from Roswell and involved with martians. But she seemed to be as clueless as him in that area and not a big help. Turning back to his brother he tried to see something in the other man´s eyes, which was a bust, too. " What are you remembering last?".

" We had been in our old house and we saw Mum again. She went up in flames in front of our eyes and disappeared in the ceiling to save our lifes. And then we drove to the motel to check Maria", Dean squinted his eyes when he noticed that his hands were bound behind the chair and the rope was cutting into his flesh. He wondered what he had done to deserve this treatment. He couldn´t remember exactly anything and that scared him. " After that there´s absolute nothing".

Maria finally came forward, wanting to make sure that it was indeed the person they thought it was and not just someone else pulling a trick on them. Eyeing him closer she tried to find some indication that would tell them that Khivar was still inside the body, which was harder than she hoped it would be. Sighing she knew that they had to do something differently. " Can you remember the kiss we shared?".

Dean glanced at her with a mix of surprise and disappointment. Thinking hard he made an attempt to get that memory back, cursing his mind for letting him forget something so damn great like that. But all the tries didn´t get him nowhere, there wasn´t anything. " No. It´s gone".

" Then I have to help you remember it again", putting her legs on either side of him she slowly sat on his lap and cupped his face with both of her hands, pulling him towards her. Tenderly and a little hesistantly she kissed his soft lips, waiting for a reaction. Closing her eyes she forgot for a moment that they weren´t alone and that they weren´t lovers. But he freaking knew what a woman wanted. Letting her hands trail along his head she was messing his hair a little up before parting from him and standing up. " It´s Dean again. We can untie him now".

Sam stared at her slightly redder lips and he wondered why she had done that to his brother. The show had made even him slightly uncomfortable in his pants and he didn´t see their added member as a sex object. " How do you know that?".

Maria licked her lips, still tasting Dean´s unique scent there and asking herself why she had waited so long to kiss that man. Shaking her head she tried to get her mind out of her gutter and start thinking rational again. She hadn´t kissed him for the fun of it, she just had done it to distract him from the scan she wanted to do. " I looked inside his head and there wasn´t anyone else. Just him and some disturbing fantasies about me and Carmen Electra".

" Hey, you stole my dream", Dean was finally able to form a complete sentence and he was more than just pissed that she just had kissed him to get information. That was way uncool to lead someone on like that. And he couldn´t do anything right now to get rid of his slight problem in his pants.

Maria smiled at him while she patted his head like he was a child, doing everything she could to think about him like a good friend and someone she wanted to jump. She had to finally start looking for somebody who could scratch her itch without expecting more from her, which wouldn´t be so hard to find. " Don´t be such a baby. I had to make sure that you´re really you and not some alien trying to trick us".

Dean glared at her, not finding this situation funny at all. He was tied to a chair, he was so hard that he was close to blow his pants apart and he had no feelings in his legs anymore. That didn´t make him exactly happy. " Yeah, but now that you know I´m just me you could finally take this ropes off of me, these things are cutting my blood circulation off".

" Oh, sorry", Sam went immediately to his brother to get everything off until he would kill the guy. He didn´t want to tell their father that there had been a small accident, well as soon as they would find the man that was. Pulling the ropes away he saw the red welts left on the skin and he felt bad about having been a little too rough.

Maria meanwhile had made her way into the bathroom to look after Alex, who was still sitting in the bath tube glancing around curiously. Bending down besides him she was so stunned about him and his way to know when he had to do at what time. That was probably his father´s side or maybe it was just naturally for him. " Hey, big fellow. You´re such a good boy", wrapping her arms around his soft body she lifted him from his place and put him on her hip. " So now we see how Dean will handle the fact that he had been possessed", walking outside she was amazed about how quickly both brother´s were getting back into her roles. Seeing Sam trying to defend himself for his actions, she knew that she had to interfere before they both would knock themselves out. " Hey guys could you keep your pie holes shut for a moment?".

Dean stopped in his tracks to put his brother down and let his eyes travel to her. Swallowing the nasty reply he wanted to throw at his sibling he remembered that a child was present and he didn´t want to get the little guy to be like him. " Sorry. But I have a right to know what happened, which little Sammy won´t do".

" Khivar has taken over your body to kill Alex", Maria didn´t see anything bad to say it like it is, hating people who were holding a speech before getting to the point. She liked it better to come straight out with whatever she had to say.

Dean´s expression turned serious all of the sudden, the color draining from his face and his eyes glittered afraid. Confronted with his worst nightmare he felt like putting himself away and throw the key in the deepest hole they could find. " Oh god. I didn´t hurt him or you?".

Maria stared at him stonily for a few seconds before her mouth curved into a smile. She was so moved that he thought about them at first and not himself while he should be more worried about the fact that some evil had taken over his body. She wondered if Khivar had been honest about the things he said to her or if he had wanted to distract her. But either way it wouldn´t change anything between them. " No, we´re fine. But what about you?".

" I´m good, I think. I feel a little strange but otherwise fine", Dean had a feeling that he had done something bad, but was too drunk to remember it. He hated to feel that way and he didn´t want to feel that way again in a long time. The only bright spot was that he hadn´t been getting to hurt Alex or Maria and that made him glad that she and the small one weren´t so normal.

Sam was relieved to hear that and it was good to know that nobody had been harmed this time. Well aside from the goose egg his brother had given him when he had been hit with the heavy flash light on the back of his head. But other than that there wasn´t blood anywhere or severed limbs lying around, so it was just an usual day at the office. " That´s a relief", turning to the only female in the room he was curious about one thing. " How can we prevent the same from happening again?".

Maria had already expected that question and she already had thought about a solution for that problem. Now that she knew how she could activate her powers and even knew how much she could do with them, she was sure that she could help in that area. " I´ve built a mental wall around Dean´s brain to hinder from anything getting through. He won´t be used like that, not anymore. I could do the same to you?".

" Does it hurt?", Sam didn´t like the sound of walls in his head and it made him quite uncomfortable to think about something like that in his mind. Shuddering at the image he was making a pro and a contra list. Either he was risking a possession and with that maybe the life of his brother, Maria or Alex or he could let do her magic, take a little pain, but with the knowledge that nothing could get inside him. " Screw that. Do your thing".

Maria thrust her son into Dean´s arms, making sure beforehand that he was even able to hold the small boy. But thankful her worries were with no reason and she could concentrate on working her voodoo on Sam. Stepping close to him she felt like a dwarf, because the guy was three heads taller than her and she couldn´t put her hands on his head. " You have to help me. Can you sit on the chair, I´m not a giant like you".

Sam glanced down at her and he realized that she was right. Taking the place from his brother earlier he sat down and tried to relax, which he did as soon as Maria was standing in front of him and smiled reassuringly at him and he could smell her slightly sweet scent. For a moment he was reminded about the fact that Jess had been wearing parfume like that, too. Thinking about his dead girlfriend let his mind wander to the last minutes of her life, when he came home after he had been hunting with Dean and slumped a little wasted on the bed, just to feel something wet hitting his forehead. He would never forget the moment he saw her panicked face staring back at him from the ceiling, the middle of her torso sliced from side to side, her eyes widened and her mouth opened. Just seconds before everything went up in flames, just like the way his mother had died twenty two years ago.

" So it´s done", Maria had seen more than she had wanted from him, although she had known all about the incident having him lost the girl he loved. But to see it was quite different and she promised herself that she would apply extra attention to him, maybe cuddle him a lot more than she did already. The poor boy had been through so much, he deserved some loving.

Sam was a little confused, having not even felt her hands on his head. Looking at her he saw the concern and the loving in her eyes, knowing immediately that she knew what happened to Jess. He was really grateful that she didn´t give him the pity look everyone else had been giving him. " You´re pretty good. I haven´t noticed anything".

Maria wriggled her fingers in the air while a grin was crawling in her face. She had still to learn a few things concerning her powers, but she knew that she had enough time to discover everything and she was glad to have so good company with her. " Yeah, I´m the best baby".

" Great, now that this is cleared can we get something to eat. Being the puppy from evil makes me hungry", Dean complained from his spot by the window, having kept a glance to the outside while his brother was so intently looking at Maria. He hadn´t liked to see them both so close to each other, even though he knew that it wasn´t sexual or anything like that. But that didn´t mean he had to like it.

Maria chuckled amused, which Sam joined immediately. They both were always so amazed how the other man could get beaten up from monsters, threatened from lunatics or even getting put a gun at his head. But as soon as that was over the guy had to eat. Unbelievable! Maria instantly glanced at both brother´s knowing that it was her turn to buy the food. " Okay, I saw some restaurant down the road selling greasy burgers with fat dripping fries. I´ll get us something".

Dean didn´t exactly feel comfortable with her going outside at night alone. Being in the process to give the small cookie to his brother he saw suddenly a shadow hurrying past the window. Gazing at his two companions he noticed that they had realized the same, seeing as Sam was making his way to this bag to get his gun out of it while Maria was pulling her knife out of her boot. Sneaking quietly towards the bed he put Alex on the mattress, grasping on the floor for his gun. Turning around he was stunned to see Sam and Maria positioned on either side of the door. Nodding at them, he put himself in front of the door before his brother was opening it. " Hold it right there!".

" Yeah, I could say the same to you", the man on the other side had quickly drawn his own gun and pointed it at the boy in front of him. He wasn´t looking like demon, but he wasn´t exactly looking like a normal human being as well. He had green eyes, a slightly unkept beard and dark hair spiked with a few grey spots.

Dean smirked at the intruder, feeling his team at his back their weapon ready to use in their hands. But seconds later a strangled sound was coming from behind him, which made him a little uneasy, which intensived when he saw Maria walking past him, her arm hanging at her side with the knife in her hand, staring at the man like she knew him. " What are you doing, get back!".

Unfortunately she didn´t listen to him, which wasn´t anything unusual. She was never one for following orders. Instead she turned to both brother´s with glistening eyes and some expression they hadn´t seen at her in a long while. " Put the gun´s down".

" why?".

Maria faced the man at the door again, her posture losing the edge she had been having before. Now she looked like she wanted the make herself as small as possible and it was strange to see her like that. " Because he´s my father".

Dun Dun Dun

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