Author's Note: Hope you guys would enjoy this last chapter. I'm not sure but you might want some tissue by your side just in case. ^_^

Disclaimer: I do not know any of these people.


Marissa's POV:

Dear Diary,

It's been days since the grand reunion, but it seems like I still can't get over it. I was really happy seeing everyone again, Alex, Emily, Hannah…and the rest of the gang. It was a bittersweet experience, they made me reminisce about the happy times we had together, but it also made me sad knowing that it all had to end; especially the thing that I thought was real, it was so obvious, but ultimately, all of it was just a mere trick played by my foolish mind. These memories, no matter how happy or painful they are will always be a part of me…come to think of it; I haven't written an entry about it yet. Maybe I'll put something in later once I remember all the details that I had during The Glee Project, but for now, I'll stop writing here.

I gave out a hefty sigh as I closed my diary. It was a rainy day; days like these bring back memories from the past, and because of the mood of the weather, I decided to reminisce on the days when I was still a contestant in the glee project, where I was being very competitive and my only goal was to win a guest starring role in glee, and in the end, how I ultimately fell for the boy who changed my perspective on the whole competition.

Six months ago, I auditioned for a competition where the grand prize was a guest starring role in Glee. Being the opportunistic person that I am, I just can't simply let that opportunity past without trying out. There were tons of people who auditioned, but fortunately, I got a call back with 82 other kids telling us that we were one step closer in winning the ultimate prize.

During the final auditions, a random guy decided to dance beside me after Zach Woodlee instructed us to perform the routine that he choreographed for us. I can see from the periphery of my eye that he was staring at me. When Zach called for his attention, he stopped staring at me and apologized to Zach for his lack of focus and concentration. From that moment, I deduced two conclusions. First, he is definitely a foreigner because of his very thick accent, I'm guessing Irish. And second, he is a BAD dancer, I mean really bad. Poor guy, but I do hope he makes it to the final 12, he is kind of cute after all. A little eye candy wouldn't hurt right?

Marissa, you have no idea on how wrong you are when you thought of that. I mockingly told myself, momentarily stopping my reminiscing moments in order to give out a soft chuckle.

When the final 12 was announced, I was ecstatic to find out that Irish boy was included, and I noticed that during the entire make-up session of the first week, he was subtly flirting with me! He was following me wherever I go, and I noticed he placed his hands closer to me when Erik was interviewing us on what we were most likely to be, and if that wasn't enough, he tried to play cute when he was talking to me about how he wanted to become a soapstar, whatever that is.

Well, two could play that game Irish.

I also subtly flirted with him, of course not revealing anything, since it might jeopardize my future plans for my career. But as the weeks went by, I found out that his name was Damian McGinty. Our bond grew stronger, and dare I say it, I think I was starting to fall.

Apparently, I thought he was going to confess anytime soon because it seemed like his actions were more of a boyfriend's than a typical boy friend, but to my dismay, it never came. I was really infuriated since I want to confirm his feelingsfor me, and it would be really embarrassing when I confront him with it only to find out that I was only assuming things. When dance week came, I was delighted when he showered me with praises when I did the booty pop.

"Unreal! Incredible!" Damian shouted.

I felt like, in those words, he was telling me that he liked me too. So what better way in giving out a response than to return the gesture, right? When we were the only ones left, I confronted him about it and his cheeks flushed so hard that he looked redder than a ripe tomato. He stuttered a lot and cannot look me in the eye. I was laughing inside my head, at the same time I refrained myself from hugging his cute, adorable, leprechaun face. When he apologized, I gave out a small laugh and told him that he was really cute and I wanted to kiss him. I left him afterwards, hopefully he was able to internalize and process the meaning behind my words. Sadly, the progress of our relationship still felt flat and it seemed like it left him unfazed. I was becoming impatient so I used my last resort, jealousy. It is the ultimate factor that will tell you if a guy likes you or not. No matter how much he'll try to hide it, once it is there, it will definitely show.

During pairability week, I did my best in order to win the challenge since the winner will be awarded in choosing their partner for the music video. When Darren finally chose me as the winner, I proceeded with my plan and chose Sam as my partner. I immediately looked at Damian's face and there it was; that jealous look that he's trying so hard to conceal finally showed. I was screaming inside my head but I shouldn't be obvious, after all, he hasn't confessed anything yet. Disappointment came when the week ended and still, nothing happened. I'm starting to wonder whether it was really there, or I was just being delusional.

Tenacity week came and I never thought it was the week that I'd be eliminated. I thought I was doing extremely well, and then suddenly, out of the blue, I was told that I'll be doing a last chance performance. After their deliberation, I was shocked to find out that I was the one eliminated. So much for finding true love. It was funny since I was more disappointed in not finding out how Damian really felt about me, than winning a guest starring role in Glee. After everybody gave me a hug, Damian stayed and decided to talk to me.

"Hey Marissa, can I tell you something?" he asked a bit nervously.

Yes! Yes! This was definitely it! I was screaming at the back of my mind, waiting for him to utter those three simple words that I've been longing to hear.

"I…I-lo..lo—" suddenly he was cut off by Zach and Robert.

So much for my happy ending. Sigh, the duo requested him to leave so that they can talk to me personally. I did not really listen to them as I lingered on the short lived, albeit blissful moment I had with Damian a few minutes ago. But I was still sad since he was not able to fully tell me that he loves me. I hope when all of this is over, he'll finally have the guts to tell me.

Three weeks later, during the finale of the competition, we surprised the remaining contestants as we returned to the studio and had a mini reunion with them. I was really happy to see Damian again and we hugged each other after their homework assignment. He told me he missed me a lot and I told him that I missed him too. I became sad when Sam chose me as one of his partners in the final video since I really wanted to do it with Damian. During the final performances, Damian dedicated his song to Cam and Hannah. I admit, I was pretty jealous, since I had a feeling that the meaning behind the song was directed towards to me, but oh well, as long as he's having fun I'm okay with it. During the announcement of the winners, I got a text from my mom telling me that I needed to go already since someone special is waiting for me outside, and it would be embarrassing if I kept them on waiting for me. I replied an "ok" just after Ryan announced that Damian also won the glee project. I really wanted to go down and congratulate him, but I really needed to go. I asked Cam if he could usher me out, telling him that I needed to go since my mom told me that there was someone special waiting for me outside. He nodded his head and ushered me out of the building.

I could not believe what I saw, or rather who I saw! It was my elder brother who hasn't come home for five years because of his work in Canada! I quickly hugged him and gave him a kiss on his forehead. It was definitely one of the happiest moments of my life, and the only thing missing was Damian.

Weeks had past after the competition, and I felt like our connection was suddenly cut. He did not reply to my messages on Facebook, calls on Skype, he didn't even follow me back in Twitter. There were days that I just cried and cried, not knowing to do anymore since the person I love the most was suddenly feeling cold towards me. Was it because I didn't congratulate him personally? No, that couldn't be it. He isn't that petty.

When Robert told us that we would have a mandatory reunion, I felt really happy since I'll see him again and finally straighten everything out. During the day of the reunion, I finally saw him, and I noticed he saw me too, but he quickly removed his gaze from me. Irritated, I decided to ignore him and confront him later about it. When he spilled some juice in his shirt and needed to use the comfort room, I seized the opportunity to find out what's really up with him.

When he left the comfort room, I confronted him, and poured all of my emotion into it. He looked guilty and apologized for his actions, and I quickly forgave him. We bonded the whole day and this time, it was really the best day of my life. It was already night time when we finished, and I felt that familiar warm fuzzy feeling I had back then during the competition.

The next day, we had an interview with Tiffany regarding our experiences about the competition. Everybody was having a great time and the questions were really not that hard to answer. But later on, Tiffany asked a question for Damian that caught everybody's attention, especially mine.

"So Damian, who was your crush among your fellow cast members?"

He looked at me for a while, and my heart skipped a beat. He was definitely going to say my name. I thought of how romantic it would be, but his reply broke my heart into a thousand little pieces.

"All of them looked really beautiful, but I didn't have a crush"

Tiffany laughed. "What a politically correct answer" and then she laughed once more. Hurt, anger, embarrassment, I don't know which emotion lingered more, but they were all there. And to add insult to injury, I found out who his crush really was.

"It's Lindsay!" Cameron shouted.

"Yeah!"

"It was definitely Lindsay!"

"I knew it!"

The other cast members started to react but I just kept silent. So it was Lindsay all along. I felt really stupid thinking that somebody would ever love me. What a silly thing for me to do, I used to be a very independent young woman with a high regard to myself, but I never thought a funny thing called love could break me apart. I guess…I guess I'll never be good enough for anyone.

Damian. Am I not beautiful enough?

Oh well, if it's any consolation, at least nobody will ever know.


Author's note: So Marissa also had feelings for Damian. I'm sorry if this can't be a happy ending like some of you requested, but I'm planning to make a sequel regarding their lives post-show and it might have a happier ending. So what do you guys think? This was really hard to write, I had to ask one of my friends about it since it's really hard to understand what's going on inside a girl's head. So please review :D

P.S. This officially ends the story, thank you guys for your continuous support. Also, I did this fic for a reason. A lot of people kept on bashing on damrissa so I want to conclude with a quote that was once said in the show:

"But to me, when somebody's more subtle, it comes across as more real and more genuine" – Dot Marie Jones

Because if you look at the links of the videos that I posted, there were glimpses of Damrissa. They may not be obvious, but nevertheless they were there.