Can You Look At Me Now?

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Bpov

I walked in the house the only light coming from inside was the flicker of the TV but the sound was down to a low mumble, and I noticed what was on, he was fucking watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer, I groaned a little and walked the rest of the way in dreading this coming conversation. Jake was flopped across the whole damn couch, and most of the time I would just sit on him but this time I opted to sit on the floor in front of him and I reached over to snatch the remote, but he was just a little quicker. "Damn Bells.. I am watching some educational programming here", I just rolled my eyes I knew he was pissed.

" Look Jake I know your pissed, at me right now, but if you care about me you are just going to drop this. I need them. " I felt the couch start to shake, but stayed right were I was with my knees to my chest holding them close to my body, I don't like hurting him so much. " why am I not enough for you Bella, what can I do to make you see how much I love you, and how badly they fucked up" . I winced little at his harsh tone.

"Jake, you were there for me when I needed you most, I do love you but ….you knew from the get go it was not like that and it would never be like that". All I felt was a gust of wind blowing my hair and I looked up and he was standing in front of my now, his whole body tense ..this was not going to be good.

"Marry me Bella" I just rolled my eyes "can you be serious for once please" I look up at him and the look on his face told me everything, shit. "Bella, I have never ever been more serious in my whole life, marry me I love you" I pulled my fingers threw my hair and sighed I stood up and looked him right in the face " I just.. I cant deal with this no I'm not going to marry you…ever…and I am done with this conversation now… and I am going to take a shower and go to bed and forget this happened" .

I headed for my room and I heard him smirk, " want me to come help you unwind in there" I stopped and turned to him "Jacob Black!" " what ….its not like I haven't done that for you before, and if memory serves right from just last week you enjoyed it". He had a cocky ass grin on his face I swear if I had a bat or something I would have cracked him upside his fat head. I rolled my eyes again and headed for my bedroom door "good night Jacob" . "hey Bells" he was using that sweet tone with me again " am I sleeping in my bed tonight?"

"yes Jacob, your sleeping in the dog house" I smiled and went in my room and shut the door.

As I was in the shower, I kept replaying everything that happened today, I felt like I was starting to lose my grip, I got out of the shower, I wrapped my hair up and wrapped myself up in a overly fluffy towel, and went to sit on the edge of my bed and out of nowhere I just had the biggest smile on my face. I turned on my ipod I keep it on shuffle and when the song started I looked at it like it was telling me a bad joke, but then I just laid back and let the words of the song filter into my head I was asleep fast. (A/N, the song that is playing, is Forever by Papa Roach). We were together standing at our spot, his cold smooth hand wrapped around mine. We stood with out a word but I knew this time, he was not going to leave me, I felt so secure.

I woke up still in my towel, but the one from my hair had fallen out sometime in the night, I rolled over but noticed there was something heavy on me besides the towel. "Damnit Jacob!" I threw his arm off me and sat up holding the towel tightly, he stirred a little I knew he was awake just acting like he was still asleep. "I thought I told you to stay in your own damn bed". He just rolled to his back and smiled his bright toothy smile " I got lonely Bells". Argh....I got up and grabbed my clothes and stomped off to my bathroom and I slammed the door for added effect.

When I came out of the bathroom he was laying on my bed still his hands behind his head, he was the picture of laid back I suppressed a growl, I just walked out of the room and I went up to his room I stomped more making sure he would hear me in there and went to his dresser and grabbed some clothes for him and went back to my room and threw his clothes in his face. "Get dressed and get out of my room Jake" I folded my arms and glared at him. " but Bells, can you blame me for wanting to cash in my quality time with you".

I walked out to the kitchen and got made myself some toast, as it was toasting I looked at the clock and it was 8:12 am, I slumped into the chair. Little less then four hours till he gets here, time is going to drag and I am stuck here with a cocky wolf and no truck. As I nibbled at my toast I looked out the window and my heart jumped I stood and leaned closer to the window, sitting in the driveway was my Durango.

I smiled big, and I threw my half piece of toast away and got a bottle of water, Jake was standing in the door way of my room, I looked over at him. "yeah they brought it back around three o'clock this morning, your going aint you?" the look on his face told me he was hurting I just nodded and he walked up to his room and I heard his stereo blast. I slipped my shoes on looked over my clothes once more to make sure yesterday was not repeated, and I headed out the door got to my truck I opened the door and there was a note on the center armrest with my keys. The hand writing was smooth but still guy'ish ' Darlin I thought you might be needin this I will see you around noon, Jasper.' I laughed to myself as I got in and started the truck ' your gonna see me sooner then that' I headed over there.

I no longer drove like a little ol' lady so I was there in no time, once I pulled into the clearing that was their yard, I saw Alice sitting on the steps fondling a flower she looked up at me as I got out and the smile on her face was one I knew well.. She knew something and was not going to share it. I walked over to her "Bella, its not noon yet, I would ask you what brings you buy but I already know the answer that" she giggled. " hi Alice, is Jasper home ?"

She looked me over a little bit before she answered me " yes Bella, he is here, and we really need to plan a shopping trip" she stood up and went to the door opening it and stepping aside for me to come in. " He's in his room go on up". The look on her face worried me slightly but I headed up the stairs. Once more I had a tight feeling inside as I walked past 'his' door, but then I thought of the better place I am going to, as I passed the door I flipped it off, childish I know but it made me feel better, as I got to the bottom of the stairs to Jaspers room, I heard a guitar and singing, the boy likes his music loud, I can deal with this, I smiled and softly went up the stairs thinking just maybe I could surprise him.

I got to the second step from the top and saw him with his back toward me, it was him that was playing and it was him that was singing, I stood there and listened taking in his words.

Hello I'm your martyr, will you be my gangster

Can you feel my trigger hand, moving farther down your back?

When you hide, hide inside that body, But just remember that, when I touch you

The more you shake, the more you give away.

Cold, but I'm still here, blind, cause I'm so blind,

Say never, we're far from comfortable this time

Cold, we're so cold, mine, and your not mine, say never.

We're far from obvious this time.

Wait another minute here, time will kill us after all

Now you can feel its second hand wrapped around you neck

So Fall into my eyes, but don't you forget.

The more you turn away, the more I want you to stay.

Cold, but I'm still here, blind, cause I'm so blind,

Say never, we're far from comfortable this time.

Cold, we're so cold, mine, and your not mine, say never

We're far from obvious this time.

Your so endearing, your so beautiful,

Well I don't look like they do, and I don't love like they do

But I don't hate like they do, am I ever on your mind?

Cold, but I'm still here, blind, cause I'm so blind,

Say never, we're far from comfortable this time.

Cold, we're so cold, mine, and your not mine, say never

We're far from obvious this time.

Cold, you broke me from the very first night,

I'd love you till the day that I die

I'm far too comfortable this time

Cold, I loved you from the very first night

You Broke me till the day that I die

I'm far to obvious this time.

Jpov

I knew she thought she was being sneaky, and once she was at the top of the stairs she felt excitement, and I picked up a slight hint of love, this made me smile luckily my back was to her, I kept going knowing my words were getting to her. I got done with that song I quickly went to another one that was floating around in my head all night, I wanted to have her hear it.

We love our tragedies, we are both broken in our own little ways

We're broken, but we fit together just right

You know I saw the black inside your eyes

I saw they were eclipsed by mine, and they looked just right

When our lips meet, will you know me then

And will you want to know it?

It feels I have known you for so long

When our lips meet, will you love me then

And will you ever know it ?

It seems like you have known me so long

I love your analogies, we're both crazy in our own little ways

We talk about the future and our past lives

I know I loved you then, I know I'd love you now, I know I'll loved you then, I know I love you now.

When our lips meet, will you know me then

And will you want to know it?

It feels I have known you for so long

When our lips meet, will you love me then

And will you ever know it ?

It seems like you have known me so long

But you cant have everything you want, when you want it

I'll be everything you want, when you want it

Wait for me . Just for me .Fall for me .

Even when you don't know your falling for me.

When our lips meet, will you know me then

And will you want to know it?

It feels I have known you for so long

When our lips meet, will you love me then

And will you ever know it ?

It seems like you have known me so long

When our hearts meet, will we make it then?

Will we even notice, that they are eclipsed?

As I was setting the guitar back into its stand "you can come in now" I said, she was throwing love at me in waves now I smiled ear to ear as I turned and saw her come up the last few stairs her cheeks bright red, as I looked at her I felt her defeat, I am sure it was cause she did not get to sneak up on me, she moved closer to me, and I closed the gap and took her in my arms. I kissed the top of her head and she looked up at me, and I felt want and a hint of lust. "darlin" my voice was low "you might want to take a big breath" as soon as she did, my lips crashed to hers with a deep need.

I held the back of her neck with my left hand and her lower back with my right, and I passionately kissed and dipped her at the same time. Her arms held me tightly to her and her lips parted slightly as I grazed her bottom lip with my tongue, her heart rate went nuts at this point, as she opened her mouth a little more and our tongues twisted together. She yearned for more, my fingers tangled into her hair still keeping her locked in pace, but after a few more seconds I gradually broke the kiss for her to breath.

I stood her back up right and smiled at her, her cheeks were flushed." You're a little early aint ya angel?". It took her a second to regain a normal thought pattern, damn I liked havin this effect on her she blinked a few times. " yeah well, I um, I thought I would surprise you sense you brought back my truck, thanks." It seems her thoughts were still scattered, hell yeah. "No problem darlin Emmett took care of it for ya", she looked over her shoulder toward the stairs and called out just a little louder then normal speaking voice " Thanks Emmett".

"Well, what would you like to do now, I mean I was not planning on you bein here till noon, so I got nothing ready." She smiled at me and walked over to the loveseat sitting down she asked me "well Jasper, I would love to hear you play some more, would you mind", I thought for a second and smiled knowing the perfect song "I would love to darlin", I picked my electric guitar up and pegged everything in and started with a heavy riff.

Caught up in this madness, to blind to see

Woke animal feelings in me, took over my sense and I lost control

I'll taste your blood tonight

You know I make you wanna scream,

You know I make you wanna run from me, baby

But no, it's to late, you wasted all your time

Relax while your closing your eyes to me

So warm as I'm setting you free,

With your arms by your side, there's no struggling

Pleasures all mine this time

Ooh, you know I make you wanna scream

You know I make you wanna run from me, baby

But no, it's to late, you wasted all your time

Cherishing those feelings, pleasuring, cover me

Unwanted clemency,

Scream till there's silence, scream while there's life left vanishing

Scream from the pleasure, unmask your desire, perishing

We've all a time where we lost control

We've all had our time to grow

I'm hoping I am wrong, but I know I'm right

I'll hunt again one night

Ooh, you know I make you wanna scream

You know I make you wanna run from me, baby

But no, it's to late, you wasted all your time

Cherishing those feelings, pleasuring, cover me

Unwanted clemency,

Scream till there's silence, scream while there's life left vanishing

Scream from the pleasure, unmask your desire, perishing

Scream till there's silence, scream while there's life left vanishing

Scream from the pleasure, unmask your desire, perishing

Some live repressing their instinctive feelings

Protest the way we're built, don't point the blame on me,

Scream! Scream! Scream!

The way you would if I ravaged your body

Scream! Scream! Scream!

The way you would If I ravaged your mind

Cherishing those feelings, pleasuring, cover me

Unwanted clemency,

Scream till there's silence, scream while there's life left vanishing

Scream from the pleasure, unmask your desire, perishing

Scream till there's silence, scream while there's life left vanishing

Scream from the pleasure, unmask your desire, perishing.

A/n~~

Songs in order of appearance

Evans Blue - Cold ( but I'm still here )

Evans Blue - Eclipsed

Avenged Sevenfold - Scream

Also… pics for chapter 8 have been added to p/f .