Matthew opened his eyes once again, this time he got out of bed. He could hear voices in the living room. He reached the doorway leading into the living room, he could someone talking to Gilbert. "Gil…? He said softly, but the Prussian heard him and smiled.

"Hey Mattie!" Gilbert said standing up and walking towards him, he pulled the Canadian into a large bear hug "I went back upstairs but you were asleep again, you've been sleeping a lot more then you should be"

"I've been tired" Matthew said smiling as he hugged the Prussian back "Who's your guest?"

Gilbert turned "you remember Tony and Lovi right?" he said motioning to the two people who were now looking at the Canadian

Matthew tilted his head "No, I don't" he said looking at the two guests "I don't remember them"

"come on, Matteo!" Lovino said putting his hands on his hip "you me and Feliciano would always hang out at the ice cream parlor every Saturday"

Matthew looked at gilbert "I-I don't remember" he repeated before looking down

"that's ok, Mattie" Gilbert said ruffling the Canadians hair "Yeh, I didn't tell you guys this but during the time Matthew disappeared. He lost his memory, he doesn't remember anything after he turned twelve until the day we found him"

"that's fourteen years of memory that just vanished" Antonio said crossing his arms "He doesn't remember anything?"

Gilbert shook his head "nothing" he said draping his arm around matthew's shoulder "but we'll get it back"

"won't don't you just do stuff the two of you did together?" Lovino asked watching Matthew with careful eyes, even the posture was different from what he remembered "you're standing differently Matthew"

Matthew looked at Lovino, his hands were in his pockets and he was leaning carefully on his right leg "What do you mean?" he said his head tilting to the side "This is how I always stand"

"No, It's not!" Lovino said storming towards him "Gilbert move!" once the Prussianed moved he grabbed Matthew's hands and folded them behind his back before tapping the back of his left leg and straightening the right leg "that's how you stand!"

Matthew laughed before going back to the other position "that's uncomfortable" he said leaning on his right leg once again

"no! You injured your right knee in hockey tournament and it never fully healed!" Lovino said putting his hands on his hips "you can walk without a limp but you can't put pressure on your right knee cap for an extended period of time, that's why you switched from leaning on your right to leaning on your left!" he smiled at the look Matthew was giving him "you have to remember Matthew, We went to that game"

Matthew's head tilted to the side "My knee healed perfectly fine" he said crossing his arms "I don't know what you're talking about by not healing completely"

"you're going to have a limp for the next three days if you keep leaning on that leg" Lovino said frowning as his brown eyes met violet "I can tell how much it's paining you to be leaning on that leg. You can switch, it doesn't matter"

Matthew gulped 'how does he know so much about me?' he thought as he walked towards the couch, he sat down and started rubbing his throbbing knee cap "I don't know how you know so much about me" he whispered, look up at Lovino "but It's creeping me out, please stop"

"not until you tell us what you truly remember, and why you're afraid of your brother" Antonio said walking towards the shocked Canadian "Francis told me how you looked afraid of your brother yesterday, you seemed reluctant to let him near you"

"what are you talking about!" Gilbert said pushing them away from Matthew before hugging the Canadian "why would he be afraid of his own brother"

"Open your eyes, Gilbert!" Lovino snapped "Matthew remembers everything that happened the him, he hasn't forgotten everything! He's playing you for a fool because he doesn't want to remember"

Gilbert looked at Matthew who wasn't look at any of them "Mattie?" he said standing up and stepping away from the Canadian "Is it true?"

Matthew gulped before hanging his head "I'm sorry, Gil" he said standing up and facing them "I remember a lot, but not everything. I do have holes in my memory, but not as much as I was telling you guys. I pretended not to know Feliciano because he was one of the people torchering me, Alfred raped me three weeks into the torcher then persisted to rape me three times a week" he bit his lip before looking away "I pretended not to remember because I was hoping that if I forced myself to believe I didn't remember I wouldn't. It didn't work, the memories of my torcher will forever haunt me in my dreams. I can't close my eyes without feeling the pain of those dreaded ten years" Matthew let out a shaky laughed before turning "I'm sorry"

"Mattie! Wait!" Gilbert said running to the Canadian, his arms wrapped around Matthew's waist. He pressed his face into the Canadians soft hair "you're back now, I don't want to lose you again"

"I'm going to lose myself to this madness, Gil" Matthew whispered tears filling his eyes as his voice cracked "I can't face Feliciano or Al anymore without feeling the pain they put me thought. I might just disappear again, it'll be better. That why I can suffer alone and not bring anyone else down with me"

"Don't leave, Mattie!" Gilbert said his grip around the canadian's waist tightened, he could finally hold Matthew and not be afraid that he doesn't remember him "It's been fursterating thinking that you didn't remember me!"

Matthew turned in the Prussians arm so he could face him "I'm sorry, Gil" he said cupping Gilbert's cheek "I didn't mean to hurt you, I just didn't want you to feel the pain I'm going through. I thought pretending would make it better, but I guess I'm not as good of an actor as I thought I was"

"We stated that not to make you leave Matthew" Antonio said as the Prussian turned to glare at them "We could see how much it pained you to pretend not to remember Gilbert. This can stay between the four of us, that way it's not hurting you or Gilbert by you pretending not to remember"

"I guess, I could do that" Matthew said smiling "I'm just afraid that once Feliciano and Alfred find out that I remember they might kidnap me again"

"Don't worry, Mattie" Gilbert said pressing his lips to the Canadian's head "I won't let them take you away again"

"Merci, Gil" Matthew said before Gilbert attacked his lips. He smiled before opening his mouth to the Prussians proding tongue.

"Mathieu!"