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Chapter 10: LA
While my alias as Buffy was dead, the power's managed to make sure that my astral projection power made my other self's safe. They continued their journey. In fact my death happened weeks after everything happened here. During the last few weeks a lot has happened.
I ended up discovering a karaoke bar that has demons. Luckily there is a sanctuary spell which causes no violence. The host Lorne can read people by singing. Lorne is from Pylea. The readings can help problems be solved. He and I became friends. He also became close to Spike. I ended up buying the Hyperion hotel which is an old abandoned hotel that I learned Angel stayed at. The hotel I bought to serve as our new headquarters. Spike told me he's been dreaming of Darla.
I ended up dating Lindsey surprisingly due to the fact the he hasn't been around as much around lately sense Wolfram and Hart brought something back. He tells me that he isn't safe because he is being watched. Most of the time, I'm at his apartment or he's in my room. However it started to change. Lindsey wanted to be out more and decided that we should be in secluded spots in order to do so. As of lately he has been incredibly busy. We have been hanging out less but at least we go on a date once a week. We got together after I confronted him….
We had just lost our headquarters and I had no idea where we were going to settle. I had to come with an answer fast. I decided to rent a motel room because of the short timing. It took awhile to figure out where but it was under control. I then had to think where I wanted the business. I decided that we should rent another room that way we can be sure that my living space was fine. The motel room for the business was a tight fit. It was the best I could do under the circumstances. I spent a few days decorating the small space. I tried to make it the best I could. It was hard to figure out what would be the best arrangement. I tried various one's until I got settled with my last arrangement of moving the furniture around. I put the unused furniture in a closet. I created two few couches. I also had two comfy chairs. I also added a desk and a small kitchen. It was pretty good but it was a strange arrangement. I put our flyers around town with our new location that I added was temporary.
In cleaning up the pieces, I realized that I missed Lindsey. I wondered why he wasn't around. I came by his nice expensive apartment. Luckily I remembered where the key was because he wasn't in. I knew because I knocked and waited for a few minutes. I've had the privilege of coming here a few times. There is a bar. There's a kitchen. There's a laundry room. There are two really nice comfortable sofas set up for the flat screen TV. There also are two comfortable leather chairs. There is an amazing view over the city. There is a balcony. There are two bedrooms. One is the guest and one is his own.
The guest bedroom is a tan color because it is gender neutral. There is a desk and a walk in closet. However since he doesn't have many guests he puts his books and weapons in there. The guests all know of the supernatural. I have slept here before. There are also are two twin bed and between the beds there is a bedside table. There is a comfy leather chair for the desk. There is a bookcase. There also is a bathroom. The bathroom has a shower, tub, sink and a toilet. There also is a door dividing the bathroom and the bathing area. That way some one could go to the bathroom and use the sink without dealing with not being able to use that bathroom due to the usage of the shower. However that part doesn't matter as much because Lindsey doesn't usually have many guests here. It's understandable because Wolfram and Hart is a constant competition and not to mention Lindsey shouldn't been seen around us. He also has a security system but thankfully it didn't go off when I entered.
I sat down in a leather chair by the television. I waited. I didn't want to disturb or make a sound because I didn't want to risk Lindsey walking out on me. Thankfully I didn't have to wait to long. However I had no idea what I was going to say to him but I'm good with improvising.
"Why haven't you called" I asked. I felt like I was being one of those annoying girlfriends but I couldn't help my accusing tone or at least it sounded like it to me. I was worried sick about him since Wolfram and Hart brought something back. I wasn't even thinking about him obtaining information.
"Wolfram and Hart has been very busy" he said.
"I've tried to reach you" I said.
"I haven't had much time to return any calls" he said.
"You could've texted" I said.
"It would've been too risky" he said.
"That's exactly why you should've checked in" I said annoyed.
"That would've risked the operation" he said.
"Did you find anything useful?" I asked.
"Wolfram and Hart brought something back to mess with Spike" he said.
"What? Why" I asked.
"They are worried about the prophecy. They are trying to make sure that one of the potential targets is evil" he said.
"That's crazy. It's not like he could be evil again. He's not like Angel" I said.
"That's why they are afraid. It was so inconvenient for them when Angel didn't move here" he said.
"Yeah and on top of that Spike is so unpredictable" I said.
"True and they are happy that a good vampire is here that way they can do damage control" he said.
"Why did you come here to confront" he asked.
I felt so embarrassed and stupid. I couldn't' tell him the truth without possibly giving myself away. It was odd how scared I was of my feelings. I haven't ever really been in a situation where I've had to risk the friendship. I should say something quickly that way it wouldn't be suspicious.
"I was worried about you" I said.
"Now, now was that hard" he said.
"I only was concerned due the information" I said because I was trying to play it cool.
"That's a shame and here I thought you had more feelings than that" he said.
It kind of hurt me even though he was being sarcastic. He turned away from me. I saw a flash of something. I couldn't tell if it was hurt or disappointment. I felt bad. This is how it's been with us for awhile now. But for once I wanted to ask how he's doing because every time he's ended up looking away from me I've never asked. I wanted to break that starting today.
"Are you okay" I asked.
"Yeah fine for someone whose been trying to get you out of your shell. Lately it's been like you are unfeeling around people close to you. Your fine when you're around stranger but not as much when it comes to friends. It's like you are closed off and are refusing to let anyone in who's tried to get close" he said.
His revelation has really sunken in. I have been awful lately. I have been so focused on demons that I have almost forgot to feel. Doyle's death brought me to a depression. Before he died, I was closer to people. I guess I was afraid of the hurt and I wanted to protect myself. Lately he's been the only person to make me feel things. I feel like I've been numb in some ways but he's made it better. He has hurt me with his words even if I have played it off. Maybe it's worth the risk. During the days of silence I realized, that I have feelings for him. It scares me especially considering what has happened last time. Its time that I should move on.
"You are right. Ever since Doyle died I've been so dedicated to hunting demons to the point where I've shut a lot of people out because I was trying to make it less painful to me due to the possibility of death. I know its ridiculous considering the short time life expectancy due to this occupation. I'll try to work on it. Despite what you think you have gotten through my shell.
He appears to be deep in thinking and he moves closer. He pulls me to him and kisses me passionately. I hesitate wondering if this was real for a few seconds but then I kiss him back. We break apart due to our need for air. I wanted to confirm the realness by pulling him in for another kiss.
On one of the evenings, he tells us that Darla has been brought back and that she is human. I guess Spike was right. I'm glad that Lindsey has brought me out of my shell.
Darla begs Spike to turn her. He doesn't because he believes it's her second chance. However it turns it Darla is dying from the same disease she had last time when she was human. Spike and I fight in some trials to save her life but it turns out she can't be saved. I fought for her because Darla and I became friends. Just as Darla is accepting her fate Drusilla comes and turns Darla. Spike has become darker. I think that he grew feelings for her. He even lets the lawyers die in a room and among them is Holland. Luckily Lindsey wasn't in the room. Lila was and she survived. With Spike's growing darkness I told Lindsey to be around less around Spike. Lindsey agreed but then Spike bails on us. Spike tried to fire us but it failed with my logic. I guess he felt charge with what was going on. However we continued our business. The group looked up to me to be their leader. I felt honored but I guess even more so sense I brought everyone together.
I also ended up discovering that Anne built a teen shelter. I was so proud at what she has accomplished. She's gone a long way since I last saw her in LA when I gave her my job and identity. We had to help her with demonic problems and she decided to teach the teens on how to defend themselves after the demonic problem. I could see potential sparks between Gunn and Anne. Kate I heard got fired. I haven't seen her in a while. Not long after Spike comes back after he slept with Darla. Darla and Dru skip town. However our crew has a hard time trusting him until Gunn, Cordy and Wes are being hunted down by the three eyed demon clan. Wesley has become a strong leader. He uses a shot gun to kill demons. He's taught me to use one but I prefer swords. Harmony comes to visit and lead us to a trap. She got spared by Cordy but she got told to never come again. Soon after Lindsey loses a hand and got a replacement of a killer hand. Lindsey comes across Spike because of an investigation of the clinic. Spike hasn't seen Lindsey since he turned darker. He works with him. Lindsey calls me with concern. I join to try to help the tension. After the investigation is solved, Lindsey gives up his position at Wolfram and Hart. I could care less because I'm concerned about Lindsey's health. He decides to skip town. It was hard when he had to say goodbye…..
It was hard when had to leave. I was being reminded of Angel again but this time the circumstances were different. It was unexpected. Lindsey stayed an arms length away from me. I understood but it hurt. The silence felt comfortable.
"I guess this is really it" I said.
"Yeah who would've thought that I would have to leave town" he said.
"Are you sure it's really necessary" I asked hoping he would change his mind.
"Yeah I've never been more positive than anything in my life" he said.
"How can I forget about you" I asked.
"You will learn to It will be easier with time" he said.
"Who would've figured that our first meeting would've leaded this importance" I said.
"I always knew that you were special from the moment we met and I knew that I would do whatever I had to protect you despite your record. I also knew that I you would be important to me even if you didn't feel the same"
"I'm shocked by this revelation. Meeting you has changed my life. You've given me hope and my life more meaning." I said.
"You've also aspired the same feelings in me and I'm sorry it came down to this" he said.
"Its fine after all saving lives from the supernatural can lead to things beyond control but I know you will master your new hand" I said.
"When I do I can try to come back" he said.
"Really you had to use that word" I said feeling hopeless.
"I will come back for you if nothing else in fact count on it" he said.
"Who would've thought that this would be the most painful heartbreak I've endured considering I've dealt with a lot" I said.
"Wow that sure is something. If that helps this has been the most special relationship I've had which makes it so hard to leave. I love you" he said.
I was crying. I was so tempted to say it first but I'm glad he did.
"Don't say that. You don't have to leave" I said.
"I love you and it's too dangerous for me to risk it" he said.
He comes closer to me and kisses me. I kiss him back. I saw him keep his uncontrolled hand by his side.
"See you can do this" I said.
"Maybe for now but it's too hard to rely on for demon hunting and not to mention when we would be ready to make love" he said.
"Fair point but you can quit demon hunting which solves a problem" I said.
"That's not really the point and it will be too hard later on" he said.
"I could create a spell or something" I said desperate for him to stay.
"I don't want any more magic involved" he said.
"I'm sorry for even suggesting it. I love you" I said.
"It's fine" he said. I could see a smile on his face for a second.
He kisses me with more passion and his hand is having a harder time. I kissed him back with as much passion. We break apart when it becomes a need to breathe.
I'm crying and he is as well. I'm grieving what we can't be and the loss of my lover and best friend.
He starts to walk away. He turns around.
"I'll come back for you" he said. He then walks away from my life. It took all of me to let him walk away.
I became numb but I'll not keep the distance around my friends for the past week. Wesley is my closet friend now. A few days later, Lorne's cousin from his home plant comes for help due to the fact a demon came through Pylea. After the problem is solved, a hitchhiker is obtained during Lorne's cousin's journey home. The hitchhiker is Cordy. We got to Pylea to get her back. Cordy is a "cow" and meets Fred. However she becomes the princess due to her visions. Gunn, Wes and I looked for a portal to get home. Lorne visited his family. Spike is popular with the locals and rescues Fred from death. But on the way looking for his friends he loses control of his vampire self. Wes, Gunn and I got thrown under attack. Lorne got arrested. In order to escape the dimension, Wes, Gunn and I join with the rebel forces. Cordy tries to save Lorne and Spike has to deal with trying to gain control of his demon. Thankfully he did. Spike ended up fighting Gru for Cordy. Spike won. Fred, Spike, Gunn, Lorne, Cordy, Wes and I go home only to hear about my alias's death.
I go to Tibet for a few weeks for no reason. Darla comes back to town due to a usual pregnancy. Daniel Holtz comes back from the past who is a demon hunter. He has been after Darla due to the fact that she and Angelus killed his whole family. Darla told me her history. Darla had gained a soul again due to the baby. Fred joined the team. She is a brilliant chemist and is super nice. At first she was stuck in her room but then she got out after I convinced her. Spike has been around less but that is totally understandable due to the promise of Buffy. Darla ended up killing herself in order to give birth to the child. The child is a boy. The boy got named Connor because Spike felt like he owed Angel that. Connor is an Irish name and since Darla sired Angel he named it Irish. Connor looked like Angel and Darla due to the fact that before Spike had sex with Darla Angel had sex with her. Angel's sperm was still inside her.
The gang and I cared deeply for him. When I was looking through the new books found an interesting book that interested Wesley. Wesley told me of the prophecy I feared it but I new I could help defy it but having a child around would make it harder due to the possibility of getting him kidnapped. Wesley ended up kidnapping the child and gave him to Holtz. But Wolfram and Hart end up trapping Holtz and his protégée Justine.
Holtz escapes with the child to a dimension. I felt bad for the kid that he wouldn't know more than the demon dimension odds were. Time runs differently. Connor's birth itself was a miracle because vampires can't have kids. It was a pity that this occurred. I don't know what's worse Wolfram and Hart killing the child or him growing up only around demons and Holtz. I think that if he manages to come back or if we get him back then the prophecy will now apply.
We have tried to get Connor back. Spike feels betrayed by Wesley and decided to try to murder him. It failed. He banished him from the gang but it didn't help that the other people members feel betrayed. Fred even feels his betrayal. I remained to be his friend.
