Nick,

If you're reading this, it shouldn't be a big surprise that i got a one way ticket home. Some one told me once that I didn't know when to quit, but don't worry after this i'll quit. i know you probably don't want to hear from me, but i just wanted you to know how sorry I am for hurting you and betraying your trust like that. i never wanted to hurt you in any way, but that doesn't matter now. You probably hate me and I don't blame you. Sometimes i can't stand my own existence. I've decided that i'm going to fix this, if it's the last thing I do. I've messed up this world enough, so as soon as i fix this i'm going to quit perminently. you've moved on already and I can handle that, but i can't handle the guilt of hurting you. whatever happens i hope this letter finds you living in a better world. Please know that I love you, and i just wanted to make the world a better place for you. i hope you're happy, i hope you're safe, and I hope you can forgive me for all the pain and suffering i caused you.

Forever Love,

Judy