"You've fucked up." Jack said coming into the front lounge and standing across from me with his arms crossed in front of his chest.
"I know. I know." I said groaning. I really did fuck up.
"You need to fix this." Jack said matter of fact-ly.
"First I need to find out IF I want to fix this." I said sadly.
"What? Are you fucking kidding me?" Jack almost yelled and I jumped.
"I think Alex is right, I love him, but I can't even tell people about us, I don't know if I'm scared or what but what if me loving him isn't enough."
"Carlin, it should be. You are both adult enough to fix this rationally." Jack told me.
"But that's just it Jack, I'm not adult, not at all, I'm sixteen. What were you doing when you were sixteen? Were you in this serious of relationship?"
"Well, no but you aren't like I was when I was sixteen, I was stupid, and what happened to you with Amy changed you and cut your childhood short, unfortunately you can't take that back but make the most out of it." he tried to convince me.
"I don't know," I said and left the bus leaving Jack there staring after me. I wandered around until I found Alex sitting up angst a tree. I sat down next to him in silence. He didn't move to look up at me and didn't move to leave.
"Is this working?" I said after awhile of silence.
"What do you mean by this?" he asked without looking to me.
"Us. Are we working?"
"Carlin, we were bickering. It's nothing to re-evaluate our relationship over." he said looking at me.
"I was thinking... maybe we should take a... break... a hiatus." I asked and I stood up, still not looking him in the eyes. Alex stood up too.
"What?" Alex asked not believing me but a few seconds later it clicked. "WHAT? We aren't Fall Out Boy. No. We aren't going on a break." Alex said
"I think it might be for the best. I'm so young, just a few months just have us see other people for while." I said and Alex kissed me.
"No. Don't. No." Alex said in between kisses.
"Alex please, stop. This is already going to be so hard." My eyes filling with tears.
"No Carlin I love you. Stop." Alex said and dropped to his knees and hugged my middle. "I can't live without you, without your lips, without your eyes." he said trailing off.
"Alex, I'll see you later, I'm going to find somewhere else to sleep tonight and move out of the bunk." I took Alex's arms off and me and wiped my tears. "I love you." I turned around and walked away. I walked like a zombie back to the bus. The band were chilling in the bus when I walked on.
"I uhm won't be sleeping here tonight. I'll see you tomorrow." I said and the band's mouths dropped.
"What did you do?" Jack asked madly.
"Alex and I are... on a break. I'll see you tomorrow" I said and packed an over night bag and grabbed my pillow from Alex's bunk. I walked out and walked around until I found a place to stay.
~*~Alex's POV~*~
I stumbled back to the bus my eyes red. I can't believe she broke up with me, or told me we needed a 'break'.
"Carlin told us." Zack said. "Jack's pissed at her." I nodded and went into my bunk. Her pillow was gone. I could still smell her on our sheets though. I curled into a ball and tried to fall asleep.
~*~ Author's Note:~*~
I'm on a On a Lonely Night kick and I have one more chapter pre written. I most likely won't update again tonight though because my bassist Abby is coming over and we are going to be recording.
LOVE.
Carlin.
