Shizuo had never liked the idea of children, probably one of the reasons why he had never tried to go for a serious relationship with anyone…and also because most women were afraid of him. The ones who weren't afraid were mostly just looking to see if he could put that brute strength to other uses, even though Shizuo never gave into any of them.
One of the main reasons why Shizuo never thought of himself having children was because of his strength, he had always worried to himself that if he were to have a child it would inherit his brute strength and possibly his temper which would just make it worse. He didn't want that, he didn't want someone else to be cursed with the same strength he had, especially his own child. Shizuo had never gotten into a relationship with anyone, not even in high school, although he would occasionally get a love note stuffed in his shoe locker.
The blonde didn't really believe in love anyway, or believe that he could ever fall in love with someone. He had never shown attraction to anyone or had cared for anyone dearly other than his younger brother. Kasuka was his own flesh n' blood little brother that he would do anything to protect, but even as they were kids he would get angry at Kasuka as brothers usually would. He had loved Kasuka, but he had also almost crushed him with a fridge for eating something that was his; he knew he had that same fire temper he had when he was a child, so if he couldn't control himself with his own younger brother how could he expect himself to control himself with his wife and children?
He couldn't let that happen, if they were to one day fight over something and he would get angry as he probably would, he might pick up their kitchen table or fridge and crush her by accident. What if she was pregnant with their child? What if their two year old son saw him kill his mother? What then? What if he got mad at their child one day and grabbed his arm to hard and broke it? No…no no that couldn't happen, he wouldn't let that happen. He didn't give a shit about everyone else, but he couldn't hurt the people he cared about, he wouldn't forgive himself for that, ever.
"What are you doing?" Izaya said in an irritated tone as he looked over at the blonde who was still sitting in the chair next to him; after what seemed like an hour of silence between them the informant had regained more of his strength and had sat up in the small hospital like bed, leaning his back against the head board. He had both hands placed over his baby bump and had his crimson eyes locked on the larger male, watching his chest move slowly upward and then downward with ever heavy breath he took.
"Shut up flea, I'm thinking." Shizuo answered, he was leaning back in the chair with his head tilted all the way back, his eyes glaring up at the white ceiling above them.
"Wouldn't you need a brain for that?" Izaya retorted, flinching when his bed was suddenly kicked by the blonde and moved a couple inches. He glared at the other as he sunk down in the small bed a little to get more comfortable; another long silence droned on between them and the one sound that filled the room was the beeping from Izaya's heart monitor.
"Do you know if it's a boy or a girl yet?" Shizuo asked, in an almost casual manor. He still had his head tilted back and his eyes glued to the ceiling; he thought if he wasn't looking at the male he would be able to keep a little calmness in his system.
Izaya was caught off guard at the question, he didn't think Shizuo would be the least bit interested in the baby's status; he also was surprised how clam Shizuo sounded. It was weird hearing him talk like that, but he didn't complain. "No, in another month or two Shinra will be able to tell." Izaya said, continuing to keep his crimson eyes on the other, so he would see if he made any sudden moves towards him.
A heavy sigh came from the bleach blonde before he let head slowly turn to look at the other; immediately he felt his anger start to boil inside of him. "Look, this child is still my child too, right?" Shizuo said slowly, already wondering if he was going to regret the decision he had internally made. "I want to be a part of its life, even if you're also the parent the kid is still mine, I at least want to be able to visit my son or daughter ever few times a week." He said, turning his head to look back up at the ceiling.
"What makes you think I'll let you anywhere near my child? I don't care if you're the father, you're a beast. You can hardly control that inhuman strength of yours; you'll just end up accidentally killing him because he might have similar looks to mine or might make you mad one day. I'm not taking that risk; you can just forget about all this. Just leave me alone until I actually give birth, Shinra had offered to babysit for me whenever I need so I don't need you for anything. I'll do everything I possibly can to make sure you don't come within one hundred feet of my child." Izaya said through clenched teeth; he was sitting up straight now in the bed with both arms wrapped around his abdomen protectively. He didn't trust Shizuo, not even a little, he wasn't about to let him try and become a part of his child's life only to end up ending it by accident.
"I would never hurt my own child, it might piss me off if he or she looks like you but I wouldn't hurt them." Shizuo snapped back angrily, his brow knitting together as he turned his attention back to the informant. They stared at each other for another long while with piercing glares, a telepathic argument seeming to go on between the two.
"I don't trust you, you'll hurt him." The raven finally said; Shizuo was surprised how protective Izaya was acting. He had never thought of the flea to be so protective over a child, even if it was his own. Izaya seemed to care about himself and himself only, he didn't think he was capable of caring about anything else. He could understand why the informant would be worried though, he hardly trusted himself as well.
"Alright alright…how about we make a deal? Let's say I help you through this weird pregnancy right up until you give birth, I'll even be there when you do give birth. If I can control myself around you then I'll definitely be able to control myself around the kid. "Shizuo said; he utterly hated the thought of having to spend time with the smaller male, but he did really want to be able to see his child…
Izaya sat there silently for a while, mulling over the blonde's suggestion. As much as he hated to admit it, going through all this practically alone wasn't exactly 'a walk in the park', but he thought it was still better than having Shizuo help him. Then again, Shizuo did seem serious about wanting to be able to be with his child, and with the way he was Izaya knew he wasn't going to give up on trying to see their baby. He bit his bottom lip hard as he tried to think of another solution to get the blonde to just drop it all and forget it…he couldn't think of one.
"….Fine…Fine I suppose if you can control your anger around me then you can control it around our baby…but I have a few conditions. First condition will be you living with me until the baby is born; you have to be able to stand the site of me twenty-four/seven. Second condition is the baby will be living with me, you'll be allowed to visit him or her whenever you have free time, I might drop the baby off at Shinra's if I have to meet with clients so you can go there to visit as well. Third condition is you have to help me clean out a room for the baby at my place, I'm already starting to slow down from having this extra weight on me and it'll be easier for you to move out all the stuff in the room I have picked out. Lastly, you have to go out and get me whatever I crave for, no matter what time of night it is. If I start feeling a craving coming on, you'll be the one to help me satisfy it."
Shizuo listened to all the conditions and let his face fall into one of irritation. "..Fine, how long are you supposed to be pregnant for?"
"I have about four or five more months, the pregnancy isn't a normal one obviously so it won't take as long for the baby to develop." Izaya answered, he watched as the other stood up from where he was sitting and walked over to where the brunet's fur trimmed jacket was folded up.
"Great, five months living with you." Shizuo grumbled under his breath as he reached into the brunet's coat pocket and pulled out his house key. "I'll go pack some stuff from my place and bring it over to yours; Shinra said you can't leave here until tomorrow so I guess I'll see you then." The blonde said as he shoved the male's house key into his pocket and swung open the door to the small operating room. "See you later, flea."
Once Shizuo had left Izaya laid back against the soft pillow behind him and let a hand run through his black locks, feeling a head ache start to come on. "This is going to be a mess…"
Author's Note: Sorry this chapter was a bit OOC, it was kind of difficult to write them really IC for this, I tried my best though, I hope you liked it. Thanks for reading!
Important News: I put a poll up for everyone to vote on the sex of the baby, just go to my profile page and vote if you want them to have a girl or a boy. Whichever one has the highest votes I'll use that one. Also if you guys have any cute Japanese names for the baby(or possibly babies) just leave it in your review! Thanks!
P.S. I'll be updating my profile today, if anyone is interested in reading it.
