Merry christmas to all of you! i mean, i know there are a few days before it's actually christmas but hey, here is my little gift for you all! :)

The day had finally come. After a long wait the bachelor party was over and the wedding day had arrived. He was hoping there wouldn't be a problem. He wasn't a huge fan of weddings but the meaning of it, the promise two people made to each other, it meant everything to him.

Again the thought of a certain girl appeared in his mind. She was so perfect.

It would be the perfect day if she was here. But since he left New Zealand, they haven't talk. He tried to call her once but sadly realized he had not her number. How stupid could he had be not to ask for her number. He hadn't Ty's either and the hotel he spend the last 5 months said they'll try to get it for him but a week later, there was none.

She would not come. He knew that. She was afraid of flying. She hated flying. That's why he was almost sure she wouldn't come. He gave it a thought. It was not the fact that she was afraid of flying but she was afraid; afraid of him. He knew she was afraid of getting into some kind of relationship, but they were something, something they couldn't ignore. Maybe the reason she was not here is that if she comes that would mean something serious. That would mean that she thinks of them about something serious with potential to be an 'us' in a very soon future, maybe a few hours. She might be afraid of that. But he was sure of something. If she did not come, he would go after her. He promised himself.

He looked at the window and sighed heavily. His brother was getting married today. A smiled was drawed on his lips.


"But what if he does not come?" Kari asked his husband to be on the phone.

"Sweetheart, stop being paranoid, he will come. He is my best man, he is my brother. He wouldn't miss the most important day in our lives." TK assured his wife-to-be. He really loved that women but he was running out of ideas of how getting her relax before he started getting his doubts about his brother mental state. He knew he could trust him with his live. But did that girl really exist? Maybe he lost it in New Zealand and started hallucinating about some gorgeous girl who saved him from his own drowning in misery. If you just think of it, it made sense.

His hallucinations could have be the reason he was being so damn mysterious since he got back home. A few meetings with his company, he never, ever arranged meetings unless something had gone really wrong or big changes would be made. It only happened twice. He knew that. He worked in that company; he loved that company with all his being. He had been in charge of it while Matt was gone.

He talked constantly with himself about this not-know-if-she-really-exist girl; one time when he was on the kitchen making dinner for the three of them, another time while he slept.

But maybe he was being just a bit paranoid. Matt couldn't have gone crazy or lost because of Sora. He was a healthy man, his mind was just fine. He wasn't doing drugs or an alcoholic. He couldn't let her paranoid fiancé convinced him that everything they thought that was fine, really wasn't.

She must just be nervous and stressed up because of the weeding and the pregnancy. He heard pregnant women could be a pain in the ass but kari was just getting more paranoid than usual, but he loved her that way.

"Are you sure?" she asked worriedly.

"I love you sweetie, trust me on this"

"Ok" she breathed in relief. "So is he picking you up?"

"Of course, no, babe. I'm picking him up" he smiled to himself. He heard her soft giggle.


It was already time to leave. TK was waiting in the living room for me. I was staring at myself in the bathroom's mirror. I took a deep breath and suddenly felt nervous. Would it mean, if she didn't come that she doesn't believe in us? We have something real, don't we? Or is it just me? No, no. it would mean she is just scared. I can show her that there's nothing to be scare about. It's just me. And I'm me with her. So, there's nothing to be afraid of. Was there? I fought the urge to call the airport to check if she had gotten into the plain. But when I unaware grab my phone I dialed the airports number my door bell rang. I instantly canceled the phone call while hearing TK answering the door.

"Matt! There is someone here for you!" my pulse raced up and suddenly I felt nervous and excited. Could she be here? Already? Here? Now? I run to the door and found the doorman standing there.

"I'll be at the car downstairs ok?" Tk told me. All my sudden excitement was gone and I looked at Martin. I nodded to my brother and he was gone.

"Hey Martin, what bring you up here?" I asked him. He never came to any apartment unless the users had call him for something, and if I recall, I haven't.

"'I'm sorry to cause you any trouble Mr. Ishida, but I just received a phone call at the lobby. It was a woman asking for you. I asked her if she wanted me to give her you number to contact you but she said she would just leave a message for you" he explained slowly as he slowly looked up at me.

"And the message was…" after a long paused Martin seriously looked like spacing out.

"Oh, yeah the message… I wrote it down here so I wouldn't forget it." Then he handed me a piece of paper. I looked at it and unfolded it. I was about to read it but then I found it was just one word.

Sorry

Did that mean she wasn't coming? I felt my heart sank and all the hope I had just vanished in that instant my eyes run over that simple word. What did that even mean? I mean, I know there was a low possibility for her to actually jump into the plain and come here to the wedding. I wasn't expecting her to do that because she hated flying but I… I had hoped she would.

"Thank you" I muttered to Martin. He nodded and just disappeared while I stared at the paper not sure of knowing how I should feel.

I would go after her. I knew that. But this… made me uncomfortable. I mean. Maybe she does not feel the same way I do. Because I know that if I was in her shoes I would have take that plain and follow her over the world if necessary. But again, I knew she was scared about this, about us. So I would show her wrong and make it work for us. Because she made me feel alive and I was not going to give that up. No way.

I went back to the couch and grab my cell phone that was under a pillow. I walked back to the front door but remember that I just forgot to turn out the lights from the kitchen. I switched the lights off when a voice behind me caught me off guard.

"Matt" she said in a low whispered. I turned myself surprised; she couldn't be seriously standing in my apartment could she?

"What do you want?" I asked her coldly. I was not in the mood for this right now. Sora looked somehow hurt if there was such a feeling inside of her.

"Can we talk?" she asked nearing me.

"Yeah, whatever, I kind of can't right now. TK is waiting for me outside and it's his wedding, so I should not delay it."

"Please, just one minute" I sighed and nodded frowning. "I missed you Matt. I know I made a mistake but I really miss you. I… I love you" she whispered that last part as if she meant it. I couldn't hold it but crack a smile.

"Seriously?" I asked her. "You love me?" she looked up at me with w glow of hope in her eyes.

"I do, please take me back" she said suddenly wrapping her arms around me. I laughed. Hard.

"Sora, I don't love you." I meant that. I didn't. And curiously I felt relief about this. I wasn't mad at her anymore. I simple couldn't about it. I mean, I thought I was going to feel hurt again. To let misery take over me the next time o saw her or if she would say those three words to me again. But I simple didn't. I couldn't explain it but I just felt nothing and it felt actually good. "You should go back to Tai. He is kind of into you, so whatever I just…"

"No!" she exclaimed all of sudden. She did not look hurt anymore just pissed. I should have known better. She was just acting.

"Sure, no."

"I mean it Ishida. You are supposed to love me, to be with me. We are going to get married" Oh dear… this was insane.

"Sora… calm down." I said insanely calm. Why she did not affect me anymore, I had no idea. Before I would have do what she wanted me to but I was so over it that… well I really don't thing I have to explain it again, do I?

"Look me straight in the eyes and tell me you don't love me anymore" she said with a dangerous tone. I sighed and looked straight in her brown eyes.

"I don't—"but her lips suddenly crashed mine cutting me off on the middle of my sentence.


Shock much? LOL! sorry this is not the last chapter as i had plan it to be. i thought i would let you guys hanging on ther a little bit more! but i do swear!

NExt chapter it is the last one! and it's coming out before this years ends! new year is my dead line! seriously.. i have been thinking about this story and i know how this is oging ot end! :) i'm not sure about you but this chapter just felt right... ahah don't kill me! i swear you'll love the next and last one!

hope to know what you think :) i would really love reviews! i might update sooner if i get enough encouragement :)

Love,

-M

ps: if i don't get anything up before christmas, Merry christmas all of you :)