Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto
Pairings: Sasuke/Naruto, Iruka/Kakashi, Deidra/Itachi, and probably more
Warning: Language, sexual activities, rape, abuse, slash, and blood
Sai: Callista just wants to say sorry for the delay and she hopes to be forgiven. Now on with the show! oh and Also this has been revised!
"So what is it you want to talk me about Naruto?" He asked, seeing right through me and just getting to the point. I sighed heavily and looked down at first then back up at him with a serious look on my face.
"Iruka...I respect you, I love you and I value more than I do most other people. So please just...don't take this the wrong way, but I really need you and Kakashi to just stay out of my love like ok?" I say looking down.
"Naruto what do you-"
"The other day Kakashi asked about me to Itachi, and now he's going to be watching me and I just don't need that right now ok? My relationship with Sasuke took a turn southward for a while and I know that! We've worked through it and things are already getting better. I'm not saying I don't appreciate you trying to help me I do! I just want to handle things on my own now. I'm supposed to be an adult and I plan to be hokage, the least I can do is prove I can handle my home situations at least ok? I know you to want the best for me, but...just don't worry over me ok 'cause things are just fine!" For a while Iruka just looked at me. Then heaved his shoulders and sighed.
"You're still scared of him." I tensed up at that.
"You scared, and in love and you're struggling to keep the balance as to whether you stay or go. I won't butt in, I promise, and I'll tell Kakashi to stay out of it as well ok? I can't make you understand the danger you're in and how the longer you stay the worse it gets, I can only tell you to be careful, and that when it's time to go hopefully you'll go. I look into your eyes Naruto, and know that even now, that what you told me probably isn't even the worst of what Sasuke's done to you." I became angry.
"What do you know Iruka!" I shouted at him, standing up and looking down at him. He jsut pinned me with a hard stare, truly glaring at me for the first time since my days in the academy.
"Naruto, shut up and sit down!" He said harshly, the first time he ever really seemed upset. Though I had more to say I sat and listened to Iruka.
"Naruto. Do you really think I don't get how you feel? That youre the only person to have ever been so abused yet in love? I would never be so hard pressed and on your case if the same thing hadn't happened to me. I know I can't force you away from Sasuke so I don't try, 'cause I was in love with Mizuki just as strongly as you are with Sasuke."
"Wait what! Mizuki! That bastard that tried to kill you and me!" I asked leaning forward and staring wide eyed with my mouth open. He just nodded his head gravely.
"Mizuki was the sweetest nicest and most intelligent person I had ever met. He did everything for me and always made sure I was happy. The only thing was that he was both a jealous and vengeful person. I didn't even notice how he held a grudge against everyone who wronged him in the smallest way, or that he managed to completely box me off from all my closest friends." I thought back to sasuke, he didn't really box me off did he? He just didn't like sai and that was the only thing I really noticed.
"It wasn't until the day I found out about my best friend was getting married did I realize what was happening. I was walking down the street when I saw one of my old friends from school, we talked for a while and as we began to split ways she said how sad she was I couldn't go to her wedding. I didn't know a thing about the wedding and when I went home I found that Mizuki had been hiding letters and phone calls from me. As I went to confront him about it we began to argue. He had hit me before, but I always ignored the threatening signs until that day. Naruto...he...that day he beat and raped me to the point were I almost died on his living room floor. I managed to crawl out the door the next morning after he left as a neighbor was passing by which was really the only reason I survived the whole ordeal. I had get a restraining order against him just to make sure he didn't finish me off, but as you know he tried once again to do so the day I found you in the woods.
I stayed silent, lowering my head. I couldn't think of anything to say to prove my point, but I couldn't leave sasuke he was everything to me.
"Iruka I...understand it's just that well..."
"you're still in honeymoon aren't you(2)?" I nodded, slightly ashamed, but unable to help myself.
"Even if I tried to leave I know I'd still go back at this point, it'd be wasted effort. I still believe things can get better!" I said, looking back up at Iruka, but he nodded understandingly.
"It's ok Naruto I was the same way, I just don't want you to have to get to the point I did before you leave, because you may not make it out alive." He said, fatherly concern written all over his face. I nodded in understanding.
"I understand Iruka, but you know how i think and feel now, it will be pointless for us to continue to argue this." He sighed and nodded his head, agreeing with me.
"Well I guess that's all I can really say Naruto, I'll tell Kakashi to stay out and I'll stop bothering you, just remember I'm here for you, I won't ever abandon you ok?" He said, his eyes still pleading that I listen, but I knew I wouldn't.
"I understand Iruka-sensei. Well I guess i'll take my leave now ok?"
"Alright Naruto. Please take care ok?" I nodded, then gave my old teacher one final hug before taking my leave. For the rest of the day I just wandered around the city. Again Iruka was trying to get me to leave Sasuke, but I couldn't force myself to get mad, because the part of me that was logical agreed. Still I'm largely ruled by my heart. I can't really see myself leaving sasuke for any plausible reason, so at this moment I was just going to end my musing so I could get home to cook. As I walked into the quiet manse, I took a turn straight to me and Sasuke's room. As I walked in, the soft blue's and browns mixed with the comforting black made the whole room look innocent. As of late I began to hate this room. I couldn't walk into it without fear at night lately. Never knowing when the next beating would come. I stayed in the room for a while longer before turning to leave. As I made my way back out and to the kitchen, I smelled some kind of meat cooking in the kitchen.
'Deidara is home?' "Is that you Deidara?" I asked aloud while pushing open the kitchen door. I entered to find the long haired blonde standing in front of a large pot as he turned around to look at me with a smile on his face. It smelled like a stew. Was it Gumbo? After taking a mission out of the country, Deidara picked up a couple of recipes, one of them what he was cooking now.
"Yea! I decided to cook dinner to day hun. Give you a break for once, especially with your full schedule hun." He said, smiling sweetly, which made me feel kind of guilty for lying about working, but I was very reluctant to let anyone know out of fear of having to spend more time with sasuke than necessary, not while I was still in limbo with my emotions. I just smiled and let him continue on, talking with him until dinner was served. We ate in silence and then afterwards I helped Deidara wash the dishes and then returned to my bedroom Sasuke looked to be going over the last of some papers. He smiled at me briefly as I did the same before going into the bathroom, taking a nice hot shower before finally returning to bed to see Sasuke turned on the side, probably still awake, waiting for me to get to bed.
As I climbed into bed I felt Sasuke shift in the bed. I first turned to face away from him only to have him grab my shoulder and turn me to face him. First he just stared at me, lust in his eyes before grasping my chin and pulling me in for a tender kiss. I nearly tensed up, but forced myself to calm down. Taking in the feeling of his lips on mine and just letting my mind go. I actually enjoyed kissing sasuke, his tender actions something I missed since our ordeal.. I was still scared of him, the incident much to fresh on my mind for me to really enjoy what he was doing like I was used to though. So distracted with my musing, I didn't notice I had pushed him away once his tongues tried to get involved. It was then I heard him voice his concerns angrily.
"Naruto, what the hell?" He said quietly, making a shiver of fear go up my spine. I looked down, staring at his neck so I didn't have to see his eyes.
"I-I'm sorry Sasuke it's just…well…"
"It's just what!" He began to yell, getting frustrated.
"I'm still scared ok!...I haven't really gotten over the…incident from before." I said, finishing quietly.
"Still!" He said, no longer yelling, but exasperated. My eyes snapped back up to him, annoyance most likely written all over my face.
"Sasuke my body is still healing from what you did! I still ache in places by doing normal stuff like stretching! How can you expect my mind to be fully healed if my body isn't?" I asked, raising my voice a little as Sasuke sighed, at least having the decency to look guilty.
"You're right Naruto…I'm sorry I'll wait for whenever you're ready ok?" I nodded my head, turning over and closing my eyes, until Sasuke began to speak again.
"I just miss touching was all, making love to you…" I wanted to turn around and scream at him. Yell at him, asking how he missed making love if all he had to do was force me like he did last time. If he missed touching me then why'd he hit me, so I was too scared to love his touch? How could he even complain about me taking my time to heal if he loved me so much? I wanted to scream, and cry and hit him so he'd really understand how I felt lately. But all I did was choke out an 'I know' before going quiet and trying to clear my mind for the night and sleep.
As I woke up in the mornin, sasuke was already gone, so i took my time getting dressed before getting a small bite to eat and leaving for the day. As I walked around I tried to find a place to go where neither, sasuke, Itachi, or deidara would be. Sonn I found myself walking towards the training center, where Rock Lee wouldgo when he didn't have a mission to go on. He would often help the young genin and chunin with free taijutsu lessons. I hear that he was well loved there b ythe kids because he never became upset when they wouldn't pay attention or took to long to understand something.
As I walked in I saw Rock lee standing, apparently giving the kids a lecture while they sat in a semi-circle around him.
"You see children, the thing about taijustu is, it isn't as structured as the lessons i've shown you are. Taijutsu doesn't have to be as form fitted as it's made out to be. The thing about taijutsu is you have to make it work the best for you while still being effective. So the defensive taijutsu can fit you still correctly for your height or say a disability...aw geez, i wish i had a partner to show you what I mean." He said I finally he looked aroundto seem me walking his way.
"Hello there Naruto!"He said, smiling and waiving over at me enthustiastically.
"Hey Lee!" I said, waving back at him.
"I am glad that someone as youthful and powerful as you showed up at just this moment. I need help with demonstrating a situation so these bright and inspiring young kids so they can further there taijustu skills! What do you say Naruto.?" I though about it decided that my body had heald nicely. the part of me that still hurt ws inside me and i doubt that anyone was going to touch that so I decided what the heck and agreed with a big smile on my face.
All the kids giggled and gasped, excited to the one of the villages strongest ninja's and the hokage's son helping them to prepare for battle.
"Alright Naruto this is strictly a taijutsu on taijutsu situation alright! Ok umm...let's say that your left arm is injured and you don't want your enemy to know about. I'm the enemy ok you got it?" He asked backing up I nodded my head. Then I got down into a low postion, my arms out in a grappling position as I spread my legs in a wide stanc, waiting for Lee to get ready. After just a moment of silenec Lee began to run toward me and leap into the air, kicking out his right leg, descending almost like a crane. Rememeber what my role was, I dropped down onto my right knee, leaned into my left leg and put my left arm out first , putting my right arm behind it, grasping on to fold between my forearmand upper arm. Then I flexed my left hand back over my right elbow. As Rock Lee made contact with arm, I began to push of on my right leg, forcing Lee back. BE]ecause this was just an example, Lee did a back flip to land solidly on his feet while I dropped my stance to stand up straight. As Lee was walking back towards us he asked.
"Ok who understood what jsut happened?" It was quiet for a while until a teal haired girl with deep brown eyes raised her hand.
"Yes Hishana?" he asked
"He put his weakness forward to make it seem like it wasn't a problem so that his enemy wouldn't really pay attention to his later on?" She said, questioning her towrds the end, but when Rok Lee held up a thumbs up, she smiled brightly.
"That's correct! By putting his flaw out there as if it didn't matter, he was able to mask it from being singled out and picked apart. While we're sitting here, it's obvious to tell that sort of thing, but when you're on the offensive you don't really think to much about that. When you're on the defensive you have to think about all these things to have a leg up on your oponnent. Let us run through a few more example while we're at it of defensive Taijutsue." Me and Rock Lee did that for about an hour and a half to two hours until we dismissed. With nothing else to do, me and Lee went out to eat and cath up with each other, talking about random things and just having fun, It wasn't until me and Lee started to part ways that I really realized just how little i'd been hanging out with my friends.
"Have you been ok lately Naruto?" He said. 'was it really that noticeable?' I though
"I'm fine, i've just been really busy lately that's all."
"Oh well don't get to busy later ok! I don't want to lose contact with such a youthful and powerful friend, he said as I chuckled.
"Don't worry Lee, I don't plan to lose contact at all."
"By the way Naruto, me and Hinata have decided to get the rookie nine together for a party in a few weeks, would you like to come?" He asked hopefully
"I would love to come Lee, I miss hanging out with all you guys." I said smiling.
"Good! the plan isn't officialy yet, but we'll let you know when it is and then decide then alright!"
"No problem. See you later Lee!" I said as I was walking away waving, him returning the guestrure as he walked the opposite way.
It felt good to reconnect with a not so long lsot friend. it made me feel like finally I was reconnecting with the world. As I walked downthe street, trying to decide were to go next, I saw Sai coming my way, holding scrolls in his hands. Once he noticed me he broke out into a grin, stopping in front of me so we could talk.
"Hey Naruto how are you?" He asked.
"Just fine and how are you?"
"I'm doing good. the mission was easy and now i'm going to go drop of these scrolls for the mission report." I looked at them questioningly.
"All of those? that sure is a big report." I said, the usualy mission repot was abouth three scrolls, Sai had five or six.
"Yes well I had to get the the mans mediacal history and do a recent evaluation of his stae of mind before finishing the whole report." He said shrugging. I just nodded.
"Well ok that makes sense, glad the mission went accordingly!" I said. Said nodded his head, smiling a small smile.
"Well I have to go. See you later Naruto?" He asked. I shook my head.
"More like see you tomorrow! I'm coming over to spend time with you Sai." I said, loving the way he smiled enthusiastically at me.
"That's great new Naruto!" He said, clearly excited to spend sometimes with me.
"Then i'll see you tomorrow then!" He said as he began to walk away as I nodded, looking at him until he turned around. After that I continued my walk, feeling so good about how today turned out.
1: sorry about the name, i couldn't think of anything else at the moment!
2: we all know what honeymoon is right? that part of the relation ship were everything is ok and you're completely in love despite everything.
