-Demi-

Mike wants me to choose a song for this small show were playing, but it's a lot harder than I would have thought. I want to play something based on how I feel, but that's so hard for me. I honestly am not sure how I feel any more. If you want complete honestly I think I'm afraid to feel. I don't want to get sucked back into how I use to be. I don't want to be lonely any more, not just in a someone to hold me kind of way more like someone to talk to kind of way, but I cannot be dependent. It's how all this started. I can't break myself like that. So yes my mood does flip a lot but, let's be honest for being bipolar I feel like I'm doing pretty good. Well at least I'm trying. You know what fuck all this thinking shit. I can hear myself thinking way too clear... Wait, way to clear! Now I know what song I should do!

By the time I get out of my room Selena's walking off stage, she's finished practicing her set. I must have been in there forever! When I get on stage I look over for her, but she doesn't stay, she walks away. I wonder where she's going. I don't worry about it, I just need to practice.

I can hear screams of the fans when Selena hits the stage. I'm in my dressing room. This venue has terrible "sound proofing." I do have to say it's kind of nice to hear it all.

Selena's songs are catchy and the crowd is loving her. It's her last song of her set do I begin to walk towards the stage. I hear the beginning of A Year Without Rain. I use to love this song. How her voice starts off low and sexy. It really grabs your attention, especially coming from those lips... Demetria knock it off!

I rub my temples and start humming do I don't hear her voice. When I look up and see her drummer stop playing I put my hands down so she doesn't see me. Selena half skips/walks off of stage as happy as could be. The fans adore her.

I enter the stage and the screams take me back. There's not many people in the venue but they have a huge voice. I play my heart out and don't know how I'll do on my performance of quiet, but as soon as my band starts playing I feel as if this is my first song. I let out all my feelings and it feels so good.

After the concert I feel better. My head is clear and I just want to jump and screams. I don't show this though. I keep it hidden away. I walk to the bus and I can feel Selena trailing behind. I stop before the bus so she can catch up with me and say, "you did amazing tonight. I liked that you picked A Year Without Rain. That was one of my favorites of yours."

I see a glimpse of a sparkle in her eye, but it leaves as quick as it comes. "I know. Why quiet?" She asks with her head cocked to the right.

As I begin explaining I open the bus door to go inside. I'm cut off when I see long legs sitting on the bus couch. Selena pushed past me to the legs.

"Taylor! What are you doing here?" Selena squeals after they come apart from their hug.

Taylor swift is in my bus and I don't know what comes over me, but for a split second I kind of want to SWIFTLY kick her knee caps in... See what I did there? Okay bad Demi.