Chapter Eleven is heree :] Sorry it took me so long to update, but things have been CRAZY! Me and alice-cullen1210 declared war on our physics teacher, I've got English coursework to do (eep!) and half a tonne of homework to take care of :/ BUT. The Easter Holidays are coming up soon, which means 2 weeks off, so I'll try my best to write like crazy for you guys! ^^ A HUGE thanks to all my reviewers! Your reviews from Chapter 10 were all soo lovely & you have all stuck with me despite my horrible updating schedule. I really wish I could somehow thank all of you individually but then this author's note would be too long :L Chapter 9 and 10 were shorter than the others, so I've tried to write more on this, but it seems that every chapter gets harder to write :/ Don't panic because I'm going to keep writing! I'm just going through a bad patch, I think :L

Okay, so. I'm babbling :L

Bear with me people, and I hope you enjoy this chapter :P

Em xx

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"'Cause all I want you to say is something real,

And all I want you to know is how I feel,

All I want you to give is your heart,

But we're stuck here at the start."

Colbie Caillat - What I Wanted To Say.


"Jake?"

"Yeah?"

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah Lee, I'm fine. Just tired." Leah let it go at that.

Jacob was sprawled on the grass next to her, arms behind his head and eyes shut, enjoying the weather. He'd reverted back to cut-offs for the day. The sun was shining even brighter than it had been for the past few weeks, making everything appear happy and the forest behind them come alive. The cool breeze had disappeared and been replaced with an unusual warmth. Even Leah herself found it hot, which was why she was only in a pair of dark denim shorts and a red bikini top. She stood on the cliff edge, wringing the excess water out of her hair from her last jump. As she grabbed a hairbrush from her bag and attempted to get her hair under control, Leah tried to study Jake carefully without actually making it look like she was looking at him. He seemed a little off. A couple of times she'd turned around and caught him watching her with a confused expression on his face, which only puzzled her more. He hadn't jumped yet either, even though it was his idea to come here in the first place.

In reality, they were both studying each other. Jake felt dazed by the amount of thinking he'd been doing lately: for the past few days he'd been constantly replaying the interrogation he underwent when Seth phased in on his thinking session – which he'd also been going over. Sam had said one simple thing, and now all of a sudden everything had changed. When Jacob looked at Leah now, he didn't see just Leah, he saw....well. He didn't know what he saw. He saw Leah, but....differently. He'd started seeing all these new, little things about her that he hadn't noticed before, and it was really messing with his head. Like how when she smiled her whole face lit up, or how she would try to pretend she was pissed at you for something but would always wink or laugh to let you know she was just joking. Or how her eyes were a certain shade of dark brown, like molten chocolate – GAH! JAKE, SHUT UP!

Jake wanted to slap himself. This wasn't the first time he'd caught himself thinking about her like that. Each time he grew more annoyed with his head, and with Sam Uley. Why couldn't Sam have just told Jake what he meant without being deliberately confusing? Jacob knew what he was trying to do – he wanted Jacob to know something, and had phrased it so that if Jake knew what Sam was on about he would understand. If he no idea what Sam was talking about, it wouldn't matter what he said. Only, it did matter. Jake did understand, but....why did Sam think that? There was Jake, and then there was Leah. That was it.

Well, unless you counted the times they hung out together, like now. Then it was "Jake and Leah." But it still wasn't anything like "Jake and Leah".......Jacob sighed. He wasn't making any sense at all. That wasn't going to help when he told Leah about Sam's decision to step down. They had agreed not to tell the other werewolves until Sam decided he wanted to, but Jake felt Leah should know. Besides, although he'd rather not admit it, he wanted to see what her reaction would be.

"Okay, Jake." Leah interrupted Jacob's thoughts, sitting down on the grass next to him. "You're not 'just tired'. What's up?" Damn it. Leah knew him too well. With another sigh Jake sat up.

"I went to see Sam the other day," he said, tugging at various blades of grass so he didn't have to look at his Beta.

"Right...." Leah raised an eyebrow. "What's Sam done to get you all worked up?"

"He was saying....well. He said he doesn't really spend much time with Emily anymore, because of pack stuff. So, he was kinda hoping that after their wedding we could....kind of put the packs together again." Jake looked up as soon as the last words left his mouth, carefully examining Leah's face for any reaction.

Leah simply looked at her Alpha. Sam. Sam wants to put the packs back together. One pack. In a pack with Sam. Okay. Right. Okay. "Who would be Alpha?" she asked after a few moments of awkward silence. "Because if I'm honest you're a better Alpha than Sam. And I really don't want to have to be controlled by him again. Nothing to do with the Sam and Emily thing. I'd just rather have you for a boss than him." Her brow furrowed. Follow Jake, with Sam? Sure. Follow Sam, even with Jake? No way. She had her limits. Jacob allowed a small smile to tug at the corners of his mouth.

"I'm going to be Alpha," he said. Leah nodded.

"Good. Well, guess I'm back to being 'one of the guys'. We really need some more pack positions y'know. What with Sam hogging Beta and all. Still, I bet Paul would find a way to snag that position....what are you laughing at?" She watched Jake with a look of confusion on her face. Jacob was chuckling away to himself, and it was slightly unsettling.

"Sam isn't going to be Beta, Lee. I told him I'd be Alpha, but that you would be Beta. Otherwise, I wasn't exactly planning on agreeing."

After a second, Leah grinned. Jake wants me to be Beta? Above all the guys? Oooh, that's gotta hurt. "Really?" she asked, just to be sure he wasn't joking. "You want me to stay Beta?" Jacob nodded.

"Of course. You're the best Beta we've got. The pack couldn't function without you." Leah's grin threatened to widen and she fought to keep it under control. She managed to turn it into a smile.

"Thanks, Jake."

"No problem." There it goes again. Her face lighting up. Wow, even her eyes are sparkli – NO, JACOB. Nooooo no no no! BIG no no!

"So....excited about Rose and Em's wedding?"

"Huh? Oh. Yeah. I actually am." Leah laughed, a sound that made Jake feel.....weird.

"Me too. And the dresses Rosalie's ordered are amazing. We need to go over there sometime soon for the final fittings." She paused, hesitating. "Did you tell Sam that he and the others are invited?"

"Yeah, I told him. He said he'd speak to Emily about going. He'll probably tell the others when he tells them about stepping down."

"I hope they do come. Esme says the Denali are arriving early in the morning and leaving later that night. Emily and Esme would get on so well. They could cook together or something." Laughing, Jake got to his feet.

"I wonder what Sam would make of that," he said, brushing grass off his shorts. Leah stood up too, checking herself for mud.

"We're kind of breaking all the rules, aren't we?" She smiled slightly. "Being friends with vampires." Jacob shrugged, smiling.

"You know what they say. Rules are made to be broken." He held out his hand for her to take, feeling an odd, little rush at the contact. He mentally shook it off, scolding himself again.

He made a mental note to kick Sam Uley's ass if this weird.....thing....didn't stop soon. Pushing it to the back of his mind he stood on the edge of the cliff with Leah, her grip on his hand firm. "Okay, so, I'm actually gonna jump for once," he laughed.

"On the count of three?"

"One."

"Two."

"Three." They both jumped at exactly the same time. The wind rushed through Leah's hair, making her exhilarated laughter breathless and strangely muffled. She tightened her grasp on Jacob's hand as they fell, letting go only when they hit the water and she had to push herself back up to the surface to catch her breath. When she broke the surface Jake was still laughing, water dripping from his hair into his eyes.

"I forgot how much fun it was," he said, smiling broadly. Leah was about to open her mouth to reply, but a flutter in her stomach stopped her. Okay....so....that was weird. What was that?! Instead, she just smiled and pulled her hair back from her face. She'd be dry soon after she left the water, so at least she didn't have to worry about walking home soaking wet. They swam back to shore and made their way back up to the top of the cliff in silence. Jake was doing his best to repel strange thoughts about Leah. Leah was thinking about the flutter.

She looked at the horizon as she walked. The yellow and golden colours of the day had given way to orange and pink, which was now slowly blending with a strangely mysterious navy colour. Why am I getting flutters now? Or maybe...maybe it was just a one-off? Like...passing indigestion? She fervently hoped it was. Otherwise, she wasn't sure she wanted to know what could make her feel that quick yet intense little feeling.


Soooo......Jake and Leah are starting to feel weird :D As usual, love it? Like it? Hate it? Review and let me know, because it's your reviews that help me keep the chapters coming even when I'm lacking inspiration ^^ Right, I'm off to do German homework. But just so you know, I completed my Epic Quest for a Bagel :D xx