Lemon warning people. If you don't like it, don't read it.

I do not own Hellsing at all, nothing, Nada.


The next night was not any better for him. His want intensified and although he did his best to ignore it, he cold not push the wanting and needing away. There was no mission tonight, it seemed that the freaks where taking a break. It was December 24th, Christmas eve. Shayne was skipping about, happier than ever. Tomorrow was Christmas! She danced around her room to the Christmas music on the radio as she cleaned the room up. She had been very neglectful lately with so many things going on. Seras showed up and helped her rearrange her room so that the bed was facing the door. Shayne wanted to be able to see who was coming in her door right away. Alucard watched them from the shadows, still lost in his thoughts. When Seras suggested that they go into town, he appeared to interject.

"No. It's too risky." He said, startling both girls.

"Oh, come one! If you go with use, Gadivia won't bother me, you said so you're self." Shayne pleaded, pulling out the puppy eyes.

"No."

"Please?"

"No." he said, his resolve weakening as both girls started giving him puppy eyes.

"Would it really kill you to go look at the lights for once in your life?" Seras asked.

"It might, besides why in the world do you want to see the lights?" he asked.

"Oh, please master? I always go and see the lights every year! Maybe Walter can go too. He is able to walk with a crutch now and has been kind of board lately or so he tells me. Please?" Shayne begged.

Alucard threw up his hands in defeat and both girls shouted in rejoicing. He followed them to where Walter was sitting, reading a book and watched the traitor agree that it was a wonderful idea. Integra also agreed that it would be okay and sent them on there way. They drove, with Shayne at the wheel to the local town square where they where having a walk thru "winter wonder land". There was very little snow that year, but there was enough to make it look realistic. They followed the trail that was set up and looked at the exhibitions and lights on display. Alucard stayed close to Shayne the entire time, looking around for threats.

"Relax dude. It will be fine…oh look at the train!" Shayne laughed.

The large Christmas tree in the center of the town square had a 1/3 scale model of a train and it was going in circles around the village at the bottom of the tree. Each little box car was filled with present boxes and candy canes. The little children laughed with delight as a man who was standing near it handed them each a box and candy cane. Alucard looked on, uninterested in what was going on around them. Walter and Seras were farther ahead looking at the live manger scene. They continued to walk thru the stream of people and ended up back on the trail.

"This is so cool!" she exclaimed as she looked at the moving lighted dear by the very life looking lighted stream.

"I don't understand humans. Why do you decorate for this holiday? What makes it better than any other day?"

"The birth of Jesus Christ of course. That and good will to men, but I suppose that for most people it is a time of giving. For the children, it means present time. Didn't you ever get presents for Christmas?" she asked.

"Not really. My family celebrated Christmas, but at that time it was not commercialized like this. As I have gotten older, this day just became like any other day to me. I don't get gifts and I certainly don't give them." He said.

"Awe, that's sad." She said.

"Why?"

"I don't know, it just is. Can't you feel it in the air? Doesn't it make you want to be a part of it all?" she asked, looking at him for his answer.

He grunted in response. He certainly did feel it in the air, but not what she would expect. He did want to be a part of ALL of it but he kept himself away for a reason. Wanting someone and loving them was a good way to get hurt when they left or where taken away from him. So he continued to put up his guard and ignore it all. They stopped again as Shayne was looking at the map in her hand deciding where to go. A shrill laugh made Alucard look up from the map to see Seras and Walter laughing and pointing. Both he and Shayne looked up to see that they where under an arch way with a ball of mistletoe hanging down. She looked a little mortified and was about to step away when she looked up at Alucards face. He seemed to be having an internal conflict and all of Walter and Seras teasing was not helping him any. She smiled, reached up and grabbed his collar. He was too surprised to protest and she pecked him on the cheek.

"Happy now?" she called to them.

"Oh come on, you can do better than that!' Seras teased.

Shayne just laughed and began to walk away when she was pulled back by the sleeve. She looked back at him and was scared out of her wits by the look on his face.

"We have to leave, now." He said a hint of a growl in his throat.

Seras and Walter saw what he saw and move quickly over to Shaynes side. Then she saw the penetrating eyes of Gadivia on her. He was walking to them thru the crowd, smiling at her. She couldn't look away and a warm feeling washed thru her. She rocked with the force of the charm he was emitting and even Seras was having trouble not looking at him. Alucard roared at him in a very dog like way and that was enough to break the spell for a moment. He grabbed Shayne up in his arms and barley waited for Seras and Walter to grab his arms before he transported them back to the manor. Integra stepped into the foyer to see them standing there, Alucard enraged.

"Was he there?" she asked, not really asking.

"Yes. No more outings. You are staying in here from now on." He said firmly to Shayne.

"Okay." She sighed "You can put me down now."

He put her down on her feet a little harder then he meant to and winced when she gasped. Shayne retreated up the stairs to the library with Seras trailing behind. Once they where in the library, Seras began chattering at her.

"I think he likes you." She teased.

"Who?" Shayne asked.

"Alucard. I have never seen him more protective of some one than he is of you. The look that was on his face when you kissed him was…strange. A combination of longing and repression."

"I don't think that was it." Shayne said blushing.

"Oh, you like him to don't you?" Seras was grinning from ear to ear.

"I…no…shut up."

"You do! You do!"

"Alright…alright! I do like him, happy?" she asked baring her face in a book.

As Seras continued to make Shayne blush, Alucard stopped in mid stride just out side the door. Well, I never expected that. I have no idea what to do. Of course he knew what he wanted to do, but he couldn't bring himself to do it. He was about to reverse his direction when Shayne voice made him stop.

"He doesn't like me that way! Don't you dare tell him about this." She warned.

Naïve little girl. He thought as he transported himself to his room. He sat in his chair and poured a glass of wine. As he drank it slowly, he tired to focus on anything else but her. It didn't work, and when he heard her coming to his room, he almost panicked. Almost was the key word. He composed himself and by the time she knocked on his door, he was almost back to normal.

"Enter." He said.

She walked in a little shyly with her hands behind her back. He raised his eyebrow and waited for her to speak. He could have just read her mind, but it was more fun this way.

"Remember when you told me that you liked to read all the books people put out on your…life?" she asked.

"Vaguely, yes. Why?' he asked.

She walked to him and held out a book. The cover read "The Diary of Van Hellsing." He laughed when he read the title.

"Where did you get this?"

"Borders. It was right before I met you actually. The day before to be exact."

"Have you read it?" he asked.

"Nope, but I thought you might like to read it. Merry Christmas by the way." She smiled as the clock struck midnight.

"A present huh? I still don't get the tradition, but thank you."

"Sure. What in the world is that?" she asked pointing to his glass.

"Wine of course." He took a sip.

"Yes, but what's in it? I have never seen wine so dark before." She said.

He laughed at how naïve she was and held it out to her. "Try it and see." His eyes twinkled a little bit.

"Blood." She said after she tried it "That's an interesting combination."

She tired to hand it back, but he waved her off and filled another one with out touching it. She sat down on the floor in front of him and hesitated.

"What?" he asked.

"Will I be able to do everything that you can do? You know, like move things with out touching them and phasing through walls."

He looked thoughtful. "If you practiced, I am sure you could do it eventually. But like I said before, you are not supposed to be able to access that power until you are freed from me…do you want to leave?" he asked suddenly.

"What? I…I don't think I am ready for that yet. At least not until Gadivia is gone for good." She blushed a little, but ducked her head so he could not see it.

He was secretly pleased but made sure not to show it on the out side. She had finished her glass and he refilled it with a wave of his hand. She jumped a little, but then shrugged.

"Well, if Hellsing ceased to exist, you could always be a magician." She said brightly.

"Maybe." He smiled crookedly.

They sat in silence for a while, each sipping the wine. Shayne began to feel a little light headed.

"Buzzed already?" he asked.

"I have never been much of a drinker." She admitted.

She stood up to stretch her back out, but slipped and fell because she was so dizzy. Alucard caught her and set her on her feet. She out her head on his chest for a minute and he stood stock still. Don't even think about it. He told himself. Pulling away, she looked up at him and gasped.

"What's wrong?"

"I think you should leave." He said, closing his eyes.

"What's the matter? Are you okay, you look like you are in pain."

She reached out and touched his face. He rocked back like he had been hit and spun away from her. She was not making this easy on him as she reached out to him again, her hand on his shoulder.

"go." He commanded.

"No. not until you tell me what is wrong."

"Go, now."

"Did I do something wrong?" she asked.

"No…yes…I don't know. Please leave." He pleaded.

"Why won't you just tell me?" she asked, not making any move to leave.

"I heard what you and Seras where talking about in the library," he began, "and all I can say is your wrong. Very wrong, that is why you need to leave."

"You're afraid of hurting me?" she asked.

"No."

"Than what?"

"Go away now, before I lose control."

"Not happening buddy. This won't go away you know, so you might as well talk to me."

"If you knew what I was thinking about right now, you would leave." He said.

Her hand dropped off his shoulder and hung to her side. But she did not leave. Suddenly he spun around and pulled her against him. She could now clearly feel what he was thinking.

"You don't want this." He said.

"What if I do?" she said defiantly.

"Don't say that unless you mean it. I am at a breaking point, a point of no return."

She stood there, looking up at him. He couldn't resist any long and bent down. His kiss was like nothing she could have imagined. It was slow and deep and he gently coaxed her lips to open, when she did, his tongue darted in. she almost gasped in surprise. This was her first official kiss and it felt wonderful. The floating sensation started as he deepened the kiss further. He certainly knew what he was doing, but Shayne felt inept. He felt her hesitation and broke the kiss, looking down at her. She smiled at him and pulled him back down for more. He was more than happy to oblige. Slowly, so as not to startle her, he worked his hand up her shirt. His other hand joined in and soon it fell to the floor. He reached around to the front and unsnapped her bra and it too fell to the floor. He was moving with increasing speed now and in the blink of an eye, he had all her cloths off.

She felt the familiar feeling as he transported them to her room. In one swift movement he locked the door and laid her down on the bed. It did not take him very long to undress and before she could get under the sheets, he was on her again. His kiss seared her from her head to her toes and she did not move, so that the spell would not be broken. His legs parted hers and as he slide him self in he spoke in her mind. This will hurt. And boy was he right. Tears formed in her yes and he licked them away. She felt the pain ease a little.

"Are you ready?" he asked.

"Yes, now!" she exclaimed, biting him hard on the shoulder.

He jerked in surprise, and then began to move, gently at first, but as her moans grew louder, he moved faster and harder. The bed was creaking under them and Shayne had a brief thought that it would break. But that fear was drowned out by the incredibly wonderful feeling that was blossoming in side her. Her eyes where closed as she felt the build up ready to explode. In the moment of her climax her eyes flew open.

"There you are." He teased "so shy." He said when she blushed.

Her cry of pleasure echoed in the room. His teeth were at her throat and she moaned. He bit down as he climaxed and a purr escaped hit throat. They lay there for a few minutes, her body trembling with the after shocks. He was no longer biting her but his face remained on her neck, breathing in her scent. He moved off of her and laid on his side, looking down at her. She stared at his chest, not sure what to say or do. He chuckled and pulled himself under the covers. She moved closer to him and placed her head on his chest.

"Are you going to stay with me?" she asked softly.

"Of course I am. And don't worry I don't kiss and tell. Although I am sure someone must have heard you."

"I hope not." Her face grew hot.

"Relax, go to sleep Shayne."

With his arms wrapped around her, she fell asleep and not to long after that he followed suit and they both dreamed pleasant dreams.