What Have I Done-Ch 11
Fran helped Penelope up off the floor and said, "what happened to Derek wasn't your fault", she looked up and said, "how can you say that I pulled the trigger not once but tw tw twice". Sarah brushed the hair away from her face and said, "you didn't do it Penelope, you were forced to do it against your will, we all know that the last thing you would do is hurt my baby brother".
Penelope wiped the tears away and said, "you should all hate me for what I did", Desi said, "we don't hate you Penelope and we don't blame you", she said, "I don't deserve your forgiveness, not a bit of it". Sarah said, "now I see how right my brother was about you", she said, "what do you mean"?, she said, "he has told us over and over how strong and stubborn you are and now I totally see why he fell head over heals in love with you".
Penelopes mouth flew open and she said, "whhhat"?, Fran said, "my son loves you Penelope, just as much as you love him", she glanced over her shoulder and said,
"if he loved me before he won't when he wakes up". Desiree said, "yes he will, he will always love you Penelope, always", their heads turned to Derek when his heart monitor started going crazy.
Several doctors ran into the room and Penelope, Fran and the girls were escorted out into the hallway while they worked to stabilize Derek, when they got into the hall Penelope said, "he is going through all of this because of me, because of me". Fran said, "Penelope you", she held up her hand and said, "no Fran this is my fault and there is nothing that you can do or say that will convince me otherwise", she reached for Penelope but she pulled away and ran down the hall toward the nearest exit.
Desiree started to go after her and Fran said, "maybe she just needs some time alone", Sarah said, "do you think she will ever forgive herself momma"?, Fran shrugged and said, "I hope so baby, I hope so". They stood there listening as they heard several monitors in his room blarring, Sarah said, "what do you think is going on in there momma"?, she looked at her daughter and said, "I'm afraid to guess sweetheart".
Penelope ran outside and across the street barely dodging several cars in the process, she ran until she got to the fountain and then she sat dropped down to the ground. She got on her knees and said, "why me, why did this have to happen to me", she closed her eyes and saw the smiling face of her best friend on what was one of their last movie nights.
He was so happy that night and now because of her he was in the hospital fighting for his life, she said, "maybe it would be better for everybody if I just,
if I just". She felt a hand on her shoulder and she looked up to see Reid standing there, he said, "maybe it would be better for everybody if you what Garcia,
packed up your things and left us"?, she said, "how long have you been there Spencer"?, he said, "I saw you running across the street and decided that I should follow you".
He then got on the ground beside her and said, "you can't leave Garcia, I can't lose you to", she said, "awwww Reid I", he put her hand in his and said, "no Garcia, you need to listen to me okay"?, she nodded her head and said, "okay". He took a deep breath and said, "growing up all I had was my mom but then I was put on this team, this wonderful team and you are all my family".
She opened her mouth and he said, "no, wait", she nodded her head and he said, "Dave and Hotch are my father figures, Morgan is like my brother and you and Em are my sisters, we are a family Penelope". She looked down to the ground and he put his finger under her chin and slowly raised it up and said, "do you hear me Penelope, we are a family".
Penelope said, "but I shot him Spencer, I shot the man I have loved for years and", he said, "no Penelope, you didn't do it of your own free will, you were forced to do it". She sighed and he said, "you were given drugs and when you were in a highly suggestive state he made you Penelope, he forced you to do what you did".
She said, "Spencer I don't know if I can live with myself knowing what I did to Derek, don't you understand"?, he nodded his head and said, "of course I", she looked over at the hospital and said, "Fran and the girls don't blame me for what happpened Spencer, can you believe that, they don't blame me for any of it but right now my best friend is upstairs fighting for his life".
Reid cupped her face in his hands and said, "Derek is a fighter Penelope and he will come back to us, he will", she took a deep breath and said, "we were in his room and suddenly his heart monitors started going crazy and we were escorted to the hall". Reid said, "his body is in shock Penelope from the blood loss but he will be fine, I just know he will".
She smiled at him and said, "I love you Spencer Reid", he laughed and said, "I love you to Garcia", they were pulled from their conversation by a beeping to his cell phone. He took his cell off his side and said, "it's Morgan, we need to get back to the hospital", she nodded her head yes as he helped her up off the ground and they hurriedly made their way back to the hospital.
