Chapter 11:Falling Apart

Bella's POV:

"Explain again," I asked Carlisle for the tenth time.

"Your some-what of a psychic. You... how can I better put this? The simplest way to say it is you feel the future happening. You can't feel anything too specific, but you can feel the main details. Such as you had a feeling that I would be crushed. I wouldn't have been, by the way. Your mind has something of a sixth sense. Your feeling stretches into the paranormal and supernatural realm, causing you to feel the time of future and the actions that make it up.

"Huh?" me, Jasper and Alice said together.

"You feel the future." he repeated. My eyes widened and my mouth dropped.

Not fair! I want a power! Elizabeth shouted in my head. I rolled my eyes and exhaled heavily, falling back into my chair. "I knew something was weird about me," I said. Jasper suppressed a laugh and Alice giggled. I looked down, embarrassed.

Jasper's hand rubbed soothing circles into my back. I suddenly noticed his hand moving lower and my eyes flew wide open. My body went stiff in a rigid position. I noticed I felt something happening because of that later; as I felt this, his rooms presence became more dominant. I was so not ready for that...

He noticed my tension and his hand froze. He leaned into me, "I'm sorry." he breathed into my ear, sending shivers down my spine which I had to fight against.

"It's okay," I said back to him so low no one else would have heard. He smiled and his hand continued to rub my back, moving lower and lower.

It was a nice sensation of ice and heat from the rubbing motion. I suppressed a slight moan and tried to pay attention to the conversation.

Jasper's POV:

As her rigid pose loosened I continued to rub my hand against her back, moving lower slowly. She had just stopped me and was now letting me continue with what we both knew would happen.

What would happen was coming soon. Or at least I hoped it would...

Mary Alice's POV:

I was watching Jasper and Bella from the corner of my eye and saw her go still. Jasper told her something and she replied, a small conversation I missed, and then he continued to rub her back. I could only guess what he was doing while rubbing her back... I slightly shuttered and got a vision.

Jasper... Bella... Jasper's room... "AH!" I screamed as I saw something I did not want to see. Every head flipped to me and Bella looked at me with pleading eyes.

"Mary Alice?" Carlisle asked me.

"I... um... slipped out of the chair..."

They all turned back into each other and I heard Rose say, "Crazy.." under her breath and I threw a vase at her head. She caught it. I grumbled a bit and slumped back into my chair. Jasper laughed at that. I glared at him and Bella coughed to remind me of her presence.

"Sorry..." I mumbled.

She smiled as an answer and her and Jasper went back into a conversation. I sighed and wished I had someone to be like that with me. I saw Rose doing the same thing and she smiled at me.

I smiled back.

That could be a good friendship...

(A/N:I was going to leave it here, but decided to make it longer)

Bella's POV:

Jasper turned to me after Alice's explanation and started whispering in my ear. "What do you want to do now?" he breathed in my ear; I knew very well what he wanted to do, but I still wasn't sure if I was ready.

I knew I wanted to eventually, but I didn't know if I wanted to yet.

"I don't know, I'm still not ready." I said and he frowned slightly.

"Please?" he asked. I couldn't believe he was actually begging me.

"Not yet," I said. He sighed and gave up. Once people started leaving we went to his room. We weren't going to be doing what you'd think in there.

I walked in and he shut the door behind me. I checked to see if anything felt odd in the near future.

Nope. I smiled and he showed me around. It was rather large. He told me that this was the second largest room because he was the first 'child' here.

My throat grew more and more hollow with hunger. I ignored it as best I could and followed him around the room. He had a small couch that had red velvet cushions and ebony wooden arms on either side covered in spiraled red velvet such as the cushions. We sat there and he picked me up and placed me in his lap were he nibbled on my neck, I closed my eyes and leaned my head back against his shoulder.

He kissed my lips just ever so lightly and it made my dead heart soar. His toung slid against my lower lip and I let it enter. I felt venom flowing through my mouth. I think that turned Jasper on slightly. I wondered why.

I soon shrugged off that thought as Jasper moved so we were lying down. I saw were he was going with this and whispered into his ear, "Jasper, not yet."

He pulled back and had a frown on his face. "Why." he demanded.

"I'm not ready." I said for what seemed like the hundredth time. He sighed and got off of me. The thing that he said is what hurt the most.

As he walked away I heard him huff, "The old you didn't wait this long."

Hearing this broke my heart into a million pieces. It shattered like glass on linoleum. I felt tears well behind my eyes that I couldn't cry and never would.

I wanted to run away but was too afraid of smelling the humans and going into town... I had to stay in the house with the man that broke my heart. I would have to pretend like nothing was wrong when it was falling apart.

My broken heart wouldn't mend. And I didn't know if everything else would either...

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Okay, I got it up!! No one guessed her power. One person, Sheena Is A Punk Rocker, got closest with the answer: Is she psychic like Alice?? yes. she is, but she doesnt see the future. :) its a wierd power, I know, but whatever. Thank you for all the reviews. :)) and, apparently, I am the only one in FanFiction who has writen a JasperXBella in the 18th century!! in fact, I could only find one fanfic from the 18th century period. lol and, the ball gown was hard to find, and it still isnt exactly how I pictured it. imagine that with a little more puffed out waistline to make it more ballgown-ish. :)) and, Im sorry Jasper lovers, but I had to give tthem some kind of trouble in this, it was turnng into a, 'every-things-perfect-lets-make-it-all-great-and-end-all-crapy-like-that' story. I didn't want it like that, and I wanted to make the same chemisrty as Edward and Bella had in Twilight, hard to do considering Stephenie Meyer is an awesome wrter, and I think I've had some kind of luck there. :) anyways, vote on the poll and review. thus ending my chapterly rant. :))

PS: yeah, they're random rants. whatever, they're just cool like that. :)