Chapter 11
SPOV
"Bella I need you" I told the love of my life. I needed to feel her close. Feel her body against mine. I know we had talked about waiting, but right now I needed to forget everything.
"Seth" She looked at me lust dripping from her beautiful brown eyes.
I know I was kinda being a prick about it. I always wanted our first time to special, not be done because of some sort of outside interference, but right now I just needed to feel. To be loved. I didn't give her time to think about it as I moved towards her and kissed her with all the love, sorrow, anxiety, and fear I had in me. I didn't know how she was gonna react when she pulled away. Bella could be a bitch when pushed too hard.
"Come baby. Let's go to my room. My dad and Jake should be at your house for a few hours."
She grabbed my hand as she led me to her room. I had acted as this was the first time I had ever been in her room before. I spent the nights there many times on the floor when we were younger, but this somehow was different. I could tell she was nervous. Shit she was leaving for school in two weeks. I hoped this didn't change our relationship.
We sat on her bed as she caressed my cheek with the back of her hand. "I love you so much Seth. If this is what you need, then I am here for you."
"I love you to Bells"
She leaned in and kissed me softly on my lips. It was one of the sweetest kisses we have ever shared. All I felt in that moment was that she loved me and everything was going to be ok. I knew Bella was my forever from the time we were six years old. This may not be how we had originally planned this to be, but in this moment things couldn't be more perfect.
I cupped her cheek and deepened our kiss. I licked her lower lip and she opened her beautiful mouth so our tongues could make love. Every move she made, even if she was just walking down the stairs turned me on. Our tongues didn't fight for dominance, they just danced together. Releasing my pain and letting herself absorb it and start to heal my hurt.
She broke the kiss to catch a breath of air as I moved my lips down her neck. She moaned as I licked and nipped her skin and as if I wasn't hard enough already, my little buddy let me know he was on board. I moved from side of her neck to the other and then grazed her earlobe as I whispered how much I loved her before starting to remove her shirt. As if she could read my mind, she let her hands roam down my body in a effort to remove my shirt too. Within seconds we were both naked from the chest up. Although I had seen my angel completely naked it was like I was seeing her beauty for the first time.
She surprised me by taking control and moved her lips to my neck, kissing me and making me feel things I have never felt with Bella before. She slowly moved her lips down to my chest and ran her tongue against my nipples. Bella has always been shy when it has come to us fooling around and this new Bella was more than I could ever desire.
She pushed me down on the bed and continued to move her tongue tracing each one of my abs. It was heaven. She got down the waistband of my shorts and just looked up at me like a deer caught in the headlights. I suddenly felt awful for what I had talked her into and decided that it was time to stop. She wasn't ready and I wasn't going to force her. I grabbed her arm to pull her up to me when she looked at with the most puzzled look on her face.
"Don't you want me to?" She asked
"Bella, its ok. You're not ready."
"Where did you get that from?"
"The look you gave me just now"
"Seth, I am not going to tell you I am not scared. I want this. More than anything I want this. I just don't want to disappoint you."
"Bells honey what are you talking about. You could never disappoint me"
"I have never done this before.""And you think I have? You know you are the only girl I have ever been with.""I know. But you are so good at what you do to me. What if I don't match that?"
"Really I am good at it?"
"Seth please."
"Bella. Just feeling you on me is heaven. No matter what part of you that is. I don't want to make you do something you don't want to do baby. I love you way too much for that."
With that she looked at me with the most seductive look and pushed me back on the bed as she wiggled her way down to my waistband and slid off my shorts. I could feel my heart pounding and I was sure at any minute it was going to explode. She looked at me in awe. I hate to toot my own horn, but I wasn't lacking in the dick department. I was pretty well endowed if I do say so myself. She had felt me before, I just don't think she realized how big I was.
She rubbed her hand on the head of my dick and stroked the length of mespreading the precum that formed there. My head flew back into her bed and I immediately bucked my hips forward. She gave a sly smile as she realized I liked it and continued to stroke my dick as if this was something she has done forever. Before I realized what was going on she had snaked her tongue out and licked me from the bottom of my shaft to the tip of my head. She then engulfed my dick in her mouth and I let a loud moan.
"Bells. God that feels so good"
She kept bobbing her head up and down taking more of me with every delicious part of her mouth. I had suddenly realized if she kept this up I was going to cum and I wanted to cum inside of her.
"Bella. You have to stop. I am gonna cum if you don't and I want to be inside of you."
She slid up my body kissing my lips. I thought I would be disgusted to taste myself on her lips, but the reaction had the exact opposite effect, but now it was my turn.
I flipped her over and attacked her neck, not being able to wait to full taste her. I was so aroused I wanted to ravage her, but I controlled my urges and took my time. It was important for this to be beautiful for both of us.
I slowed my pace and traced kisses down her neck to chest. I grazed my teeth on the top of her breasts and slowly moved down to her nipples. I took one in my hand and rolled it in between my fingers and she gasped in pleasure. While she was busy enjoying my fingers on her I took the other nipple in my mouth and she moaned louder than I have ever heard her. As I moved my mouth to her other nipple I slid my hand down her body to the waist band of her sweat pants. I had forgotten we were supposed to hang out tonight and watch movies.
I slid my hand under her sweats and rubbed her through her panties. She was so fucking wet. If I didn't know any better I would say I could smell he arousal, but that was not possible. I slipped my hand in her panties and rubbed her clit, applying just enough pressure to make her eyes roll back in her head. She grabbed my hand with hers and followed the movements I made while holding my arm. I slid my mouth down her body and slipped off her sweats and panties as my mouth reached her navel. I swirled my tongue in her navel and she giggled. I loved that sound almost as much as I loved to hear her moan my name.
I licked down her stomach to her clit and for the second time in my life tasted Bella's perfect sweetness. She breathed my name as soon as my tongue hit her clit and thrashed her head back. I continued to lick down the entire length of her slit and back up, remembering to always circle her clit every time I touched it. I slipped two fingers inside her and was assaulted again by her warmth, wetness, and smell. She smelled so damn good. How was it possible for me to smell her so strongly. I didn't spend too much time thinking about it and went back to licking her clit. I inserted one more finger inside of her and pressed her clit harder. I could feel her walls clenching as she began her orgasm.
"Oh God Seth. I am gonna cum baby. UGH!"
I licked her clean and moved back up her body kissing every inch of her bare skin as I went. I kissed her allowing her to taste her self on my lips and she moaned.
"Are you sure about this Bells. It's gonna hurt?"
"Yes baby I am sure. I'm sure it wont be that bad"
I kissed her again and positioned myself against her center. I pressed myself into her slowly as she winced in pain. I felt so bad I almost stopped. She nodded to keep going and I pressed further feeling her barrier. I gave her a small smile as she smiled back at me and pressed harder breaking her barrier and taking her innocence as she screamed in pain. I felt like the scum of the earth. Her she was trying to comfort me from losing my father and I was causing her pain. I kissed away the final tear that fell down her cheek and then kissed her softly.
"I'm sorry baby. I'm so sorry"
"Seth, I am ok. Keep going"
I didn't hesitate and started moving slowly in and out of her. She was so tight and warm. I knew with it being my first time I wasn't gonna last long, but I wanted to make it as pleasurable for her as I could. I slid in and out of her continuously as she moaned my name.
"Harder Seth. Faster baby. I need to feel all of you"
I smiled at that and thrusted inside of her increasing my pace. I couldn't believe how good this felt. Bella and I were finally completely each others. I always knew like I said that she would always be mine, but being here, sliding in and out of her sweet core just made it that more real. Even with her being in Seattle next year we would always be Bella and Seth.
She started meeting each of my thrusts and she sat up and rolled us over. Without breaking our connection she began riding me. Every time she took more of me inside of her I got a new feeling of bliss. This had been the worst day of my life, but Bella has made it better. She placed her hands on my chest as she continued to ride me and I massaged her breasts. Just as I could tell she was starting to cum I took my thumb and started rubbing her clit bringing her orgasm that much closer.
She screamed my name and clenched her walls down on me as we both came together. I bucked my hips into her as I finished riding out my orgasm and held her tighter than I have ever held her before. We snuggled together for a little and decided to take a quick shower. She was sore so I didn't even suggest a round two even though I could make love to her all my life.
We got back in the bed and I grabbed her against my chest spooning her as we laid there relishing in our love. I hadn't intended on staying and sleeping at Bella's. I knew my mom and Leah needed me at home, but I was so comfortable I fell asleep. I was woken the next morning with Lorina knocking on the door.
"Bella? Honey? Have you seen Seth? We are all really worried about him?"
Bella jumped out and threw on some clothes and ran to get her door.
"He's here Lorina. He's getting dressed." She wasn't facing me but I could tell she was beet red.
"Oh. OH!" Lorina gasped and looked embarrassed. "I'm sorry"
"It's fine. Just don't tell Jake. Ok?" she begged Lorina
"Sure thing honey." Lorina winker at her
"Seth your mom is pretty worried about you and Leah is fuming you are not there." Great. I felt bad Lorina had to come tell me, but I am sure glad it wasn't Billy or Jake. I valued my life.
"OK."
"You want me to come with you baby?" Bella asked a sweetly as she could.
"No babe. I will take care of this and then we can talk later ok?"
"Ok honey I love you. Call me if you need me for anything."
I kissed her gently and waved goodbye to Lorina.
I ran home and walked into the house. My mom cried when she saw me.
"I was so worried about you Seth."
"I'm sorry mom. I just needed to blow off some steam."
Jake looked at me like he knew something and all of the sudden Leah came barreling in screaming her head off.
"What the fuck you asshole. Is it not bad enough that we just lost dad. You have to be irresponsible and take off with Bella?"
"Jake knew I was with her"
"And? That didn't mean you had to be gone all night! You fucking idiot. Mom has been through enough"
I could feel my anger seething and I started shaking. I never got this mad. I was usually pretty laid back, but Leah was pissing me off. I know I should have called, but I was otherwise engaged and didn't think.
"I'm sorry. I didn't think"
"Obviously not you stupid bastard"
That had done it. I was ready to rip her fucking head off. WHOA! She just kept ranting and raving about how horrible I was. I started shaking more and more and the next thing I knew Jake was dragging me out the door. I was more pissed now that he had taken me out of the house and I couldn't take the anger anymore. I felt my bones starting to shift and the pain that succumbed my body was immense. The next thing I knew I could hear Jake in my head. I looked at him and stepped back at the huge wolf I saw standing in front of me.
Seth calm down. It is me. I am the wolf in front of you. Surprise!
Funny Jake really funny. Why the hell are you in my head.
You are a wolf man. The stories of our people are true. You got so mad at Leah that you phased. Guys, welcome Seth to the family.
I heard Paul, Jared, Embry and Quil thinking welcoming thoughts to my mind.
Now look you cant tell anyone. Not even Bella.
Bella! Shit! As soon as Jake said her name thoughts of last night came rushing back to me. Before I could get my next thought out Jake was on top of me.
You stupid motherfucker. What the hell were you thinking. You will not go near my sister again. EVER! How could you? She is my baby sister.
Jake she sure didn't look like a baby to me
Paul you are not helping my case here man. Jake growled at both of us as Jared and Sam ripped him off of me.
Phase back. I cant stand seeing my sister naked anymore. GAH!
I phased back as Jake and Sam explained the rest to me and told me I could have no human contact till I was ready.
"What? How long is that gonna be for?"
"Usually two or three weeks man"
"NO! What about my dad's funeral? What about Bella? Do you know what she is gonna think if I don't call her? She is gonna think I used her. Is that what you want your sister to think Jake?"
"Of course not. I cant risk her life Seth and she cant know unless she is your imprint"
"My what?'
"Imprinting" Paul broke in
"It is when a wolf sees the girl he is meant to be with for the rest of his life. His soul mate. The earth shifts and you know that she is the one. You become anything she wants. Lover, brother, friend…."
"Ok so maybe it will be Bella"
"I cant take that chance Seth" Jake said. "What if you continue to see her and you meet your imprint somewhere else? It would tear Bella apart. You have to stay away. As far as your dad's funeral, we will all be there to keep an eye on you. My dad and Sue already know about the wolves. Leah does too"
"How?"
"She is my imprint" Paul said and I lunged at him.
"I am gonna call Bella at least""NO YOU'RE NOT!"
I was frozen. I couldn't move. It was like everything was just still and I had to listen to the voice.
"What the fuck?"
"I am your Alpha" Sam said. If I give you a command you have to listen. "You will have no communication with Bella"
"Sam please. She is leaving for college in two weeks. She is going to hate me."
"I SAID NO SETH"
That was it I couldn't do anything about it. So much for my happily ever after.
We went to the funeral and I could tell Bella wanted to come up to me. It had been three days since I saw or talked to her. I could see the hurt in her eyes thinking I used to her just to ease my pain, taking her virginity with it. She was so broken and it killed me.
She called to me as I started to walk away and I had no choice but to ignore her. She left early for college. A week early. Jake was bummed. He knew that this mythical life sentence crushed his sister. He said he tried to call her a few times and Lorina drove up to Seattle to see her, but she wouldn't talk to either of them. All she knew was that they were helping keep me away at the funeral. She talks to Billy and my mom, but that is it.
After Bella left I only left my room to patrol for stupid vampires. I took out my frustration on the stray vampires we would find roaming around. I tried drinking but it didn't help. Apparently it took a lot to get a wolf drunk. Drugs did nothing. So all I did was mourn my dad the last four years and missed Bella. I refused to go out incase I imprinted. I had planned on figuring a way to get her back. Billy said she was graduating next week and was coming home. He didn't know if she was staying. She got her degree in restaurant management with a minor in culinary arts. I had to see her.
A few weeks after I had heard she had come home I decided to go to the beach. If I was going to get Bella back, she certainly wouldn't want to be with the man I turned out to be. I had to better myself. As if fate was knocking at my door, Bella was sitting at First beach. I walked up to her and she turned and looked at me.
As soon as she looked at me my world stopped. Nothing mattered to me anymore. Bella was the steel cables holding me to the earth. She was all that mattered. My soul. I HAD IMPRINTED ON MY GIRL! It is the happiest I have been in four years.
"Bella"
"Seth…."
"Honey how are you? I am so happy to see you"
"Really Seth! What's wrong hard up? Can't find any other girls to fuck?"
Ouch that hurt, but I deserved it. She had no idea why I cut her off.
"Bells. It is not like that"
"Fuck you Seth and don't call me Bells. That is reserved for friends and family"
"Bella…."
"Don't Seth. Just don't!"
"I'm sorry Bella"
"So am I Seth. Sorry I wasted four years on you, sorry I let you take the most precious thing from me. Sorry I ever loved you. You are an insensitive asshole and I hate you!"
The tears started coming down her face and she turned to run. She left and ran back to her house not even giving me a second look, not that I deserved it. My imprint hated me. Bella hated me.
That was when I decided to get my life in order. No matter what it took I was going to get Bella to love me again. We would be together. I love her too much to give up!
