Author's Note: I am so sorry this has taken me so long to write, but school is slowly taking away any free time I could use to write. I'll post as often as I can, but I won't be able to keep to any kind of schedule. I am sorry and hope you all will continue to read.

Chapter 11: Can't Make You Love Me

Edward's POV

"Alice, will you get Jasper over here please? He should be here for this." Alice gave me the most confused look ever but pulled out her phone and started to type out a message. I left the room heading to my parents' room. I knocked before opening the door slightly.

"Edward, son, come in please!" Dad was toweling his hair dry seeing as he always showered after work. "What can I do for you, Edward?"

"Dad, I think it is time to show Alice the Talent Show video. I was just talking to her, and she is starting to get that déjà vu feeling that you said might come prior to her memory returning. Dad, this could be it if we nurture this properly."

Dad nodded slowly, letting the information sink in. "Of course. I have the video in the closet. Will you get the rest of the family? Jasper too."

"I'm already on it. See you downstairs."

It didn't take long for the family to gather downstairs…Now all we needed was Alice. I called for her once…twice…three times, but she never came down.

I felt a light touch on my shoulder. "I'll go check on her." Jasper went straight upstairs, leaving the rest of us to wait.

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Jasper's POV

I got to Alice's bedroom only to find the door closed. I knocked lightly.

"Ali, darlin'? You there?" No answer.

I knocked again. "Come on, darlin'. I know it must be hard for you, but maybe this will help you. Please open the door."

The door opened slowly to reveal a determined Alice.

"I don't want to watch the video." She looked at me with that stubborn glint in her eye, and I knew that we would not be watching this anytime soon.

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Alice's POV

While I waited for Jazz to reply, I thought more and more about watching this video. It seemed that the entire family thought it to be an important factor in my memory returning, but I wanted to remember on my own. I didn't want to watch a video, and poof, there is all the information I lost.

There was one thing I wanted before I watched this video. It killed me not to go downstairs when Edward called me, but I wasn't sure if I could make them all understand this. I wanted to see if I could remember at least part of the event without help first.

Shortly after Edward's summoning, Jazz was at the door trying to get me to come out. Maybe he'll understand. His expression was heartbreaking that I almost lost my nerve when I told him I didn't want to watch.

"It's of the night of my accident, isn't it?" I couldn't look him in the eye.

"Well it is before the accident."

"What is it?"

"The school talent show. You sang a song while accompanying yourself on the piano."

I nodded slowly formulating an idea. Maybe I would be able to play it without hearing it or seeing the sheet music.

I looked up and smiled at Jasper. "Follow me."

I went down to the living room where my family was waiting for me ready with my plan. I got a series of 'Hey, you ready?' and a loud 'It's about time!' from Emmett. I shook my head slowly.

"I want to try something first. It sounds like this was an important piece to me, and if I spent a lot of time on it, then maybe I can remember it without help." I explained carefully. I waited holding my breath waiting for someone to say something. "Please, someone, say something. Even if it is that I am absolutely crazy. Anything."

I watched as Carlisle…my dad…Dad took a deep breath before coming over to give me a warm hug. "Alice, I think it's worth a try, but I'm afraid that if it doesn't work you'll get…well I just don't want you to get your hopes up."

I nodded my head slightly. "But…Dad, this is something I need to try."

Everyone murmured in hesitant agreement. I sat down at the piano and took a deep breath. I rested my hands lightly over the keys pressing a few keys. No…no déjà vu. I pressed a few more, and just as I was starting to lose hope, a few of the notes sounded vaguely familiar. Trying not to think about it at all my fingers kept dancing over the keys. All of a sudden Edward was hugging me from behind.

"That's the one, Ali. Way to go." He kissed me lightly on the cheek before I turned to face the rest of my family. Everyone…even Emmett….had tears in their eyes.

"Oh, hunny, I can't believe it." Mom came over and hugged me real tight. "I'm so happy for you."

"Thanks, Mom." I didn't know exactly how I felt about it because I could only remember the melody. No lyrics came back to me, and this bothered me more than I wanted it to because it felt like the lyrics were more important than the melody itself… but why? Just then I heard a lot of clapping as my name was announced.

I turned to the television as I watched myself walk to the piano placed on stage.

I adjusted the mic after sitting down. "I'd like to dedicate this song to someone who is very special to me."

As I played the opening to the song, Emmett's voice carried over the recording…he never could be quiet even when he was whispering.

"She's gotta be singin' to you, man." Singing to who?

"Yea ok, Emmett." I barely heard Jasper's answer, but I caught it just before my mind went blank. Had I written this song for him? Why did I have to lose my memory? Why couldn't I have broken my leg or my arm? Though all of this shocked me, I couldn't have been prepared for the lyrics I apparently wrote.

"She can't see the way your eyes,
light up when you smile
She'll never notice how you stop and stare
Whenever she walks by

And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her
But you are everything to me

And I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me
But if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable
Instead of just invisible."

All coherent thought left me as I listened to the rest of the song. I didn't remember this, and I can't believe I had the guts to do this considering it was a public declaration…and Jasper never got to tell me what he thought because of the accident.

What if my best friend whom I apparently loved more than I could have possibly conceived didn't like me that way? What was I going to do now?

"There's a fire inside of you
That can't help but shine through
She's never gonna see the light
No matter what you do

And all I think about is how to make you think of me
And everything that we could be

I just wanna show you
She don't even know you
She's never gonna love you like I want to
And you just see right through me
if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable
Instead of just invisible"

A drop of water hit my hand as I continued to watch. I touched my fingers to my face feeling the silent tears trailing down my face. I was crying for not being able to remember and more so for not knowing what was going to happen.

Like shadows in a faded light
Oh we're invisible

I just wanna open your eyes
And make you realize.

I just wanna show you she don't even know you
Baby, let me love you, let me want you.

You just see right through me
But if you only knew me
We could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable
Instead of just invisible
(oh oh yeah)

She can't see the way your eyes
Light up when you smile."

As the song and the video ended, all I felt was fear and confusion. I didn't know what to say.

Jasper's POV

I had noticed Alice's tears during the video…I thought maybe she remembered, but when the video ended all I could see on her face was confusion….and fear? I looked around at her family waiting for someone to say something only to have both Edward and Emmett signal me to say something.

I walked over to her and sat on the arm of the couch wrapping my arm around her lightly.

"Alice darlin', it's going to be okay. I have been wanting to tell you this for a while, and I guess now is as good a time as any..."

She turned to me her eyes wide with fear. "Jazz, I am so so sorry." My angel pulled away from me and run upstairs leaving all of us confused.

Alice's POV

I wanted to stay and hear what Jasper had to say, but when he started to say it, I couldn't handle the situation anymore. I don't think Jasper likes me the way I like him.

I think that song cost me my best friend. I sobbed into my pillow and wished I could remember a time that was happier than I felt right now.

Author's Note: Okay okay, I know Alice is being a little melodramatic, but she has been through a lot. And no worries someone will fix it up and all will be good again….I think. Anyways please review! I love getting them and reading what you think. I am hoping to have the next chapter done soon if my schoolwork grants me enough time to write down my ideas.

The chapter title is the song by Britney Spears…yea yea I know, but it was a fitting title…sorta