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Now onto Chapter 30


Chapter 30: Deleting you by Ashley Tisdale

Hours flew by as the sky started to change colors. Drawing her legs closer to her chest, Allie watched the wave's crash into the Malibu beach shore while she sat on the hood of her car, wrapping her arms around resting her chin upon her knees looking out. Her emotions were shot completely.

Something was falling over her and it was happening fast. Having her car turned off she was able to keep it alive for music to blare through. Her eyes were on the peaceful sunset, feeling the damp liquid escape her eyes rolling down her all ready dampness cheeks listening to the song she had on repeat on her drive over to her hiding spot.

Only one person knew about the meeting place and that was her first best friend she made at the park before Mel showed up in her life and she thought he was going to be the one when one simple mistake broke that bond that they once had.

(A/N: Ten Years belongs to Rev Theory)

"Ten years from now When I turn around Will I be satisfied When I look back on life Don't tell me it's too late Don't tell me that I threw it all away Don't tell me that I did this all in vain I have my reasons Why I walk this lonely road And I never return Was it worth the life of sacrifice Ten years from now

When she looks at me (She sees right through me now) All that emptiness in her eyes So damn hard to speak (Can't say a word out loud) There's no words to make this right She tells me that I'm lost I know that she will never understand (even if I'm wrong) I know that I will do it all again,"

She pictured her mother, asking her why she did what she did, by going on tour with that band and now getting into the one sport that she didn't want her to get into proved everything that she didn't want the best for her daughter. She still glanced at sky, her chest shuddering against the breeze that blew against her skin.

"I have my reasons why I walk this lonely road if I never return was it worth the life of sacrifice Ten years from now,"

"Years from now…" She screamed out with the song, raking her hands through her hair finally covering them over her ears, breaking down again.

Her forehead pressed into her knees, crying harder. She pushed away her friend, she pushed her boyfriend away and she didn't know what else was in store for her. Looking back at what happened within her ten years, she's been looking out for herself when her mother was too busy to even find her father or hell for all she could know, she did find and or knew her father and just didn't want to tell her daughter about it.

Her heart was all ready being torn into pieces. She didn't know what to expect if she came back and talked to John. Hell he could've moved on and started a new life with her idol, leaving her; making her, feel alone, like she had all her life when her friends went off on vacations when she hid out at the beach, all by herself. She tossed her head back looking up at the starting of a dark blue night, crying out a name she wanted to help her in this time of need, after almost getting assaulted once again. "Daddy," She sobbed hearing the last of the song.

"I have my reasons why I walk this lonely road if I never return was it worth the life of sacrifice Ten years from now I have my reasons why I walk this lonely road (Ten years from now) And I never return was it worth the life of sacrifice Ten years from now."

There was something still eating away at her hearing the song start up again. She extended her legs out finally getting off of her car walking over to the railing to the beach. She blinked her tears away, her shaky fingers wiping them away as she just stared out into the ocean, listening to the calming movements.

Glancing down at her outfit, she was armband-less, shirt torn down the middle from her psycho ex boyfriend who's now in jail, her gray cami acting like the shirt she was wearing before as her shirt acted as a coat, her dark denim jeans and Vans shoes.

Her head slowly shook as she bent down rolling up her pant legs just at the knees slipping off her shoes along with the ankle socks now hopping over the railing letting lose of her Avril Concert shirt, slowly walking towards the water feeling the grains of sand cool her feet.

She felt the cool breeze brush against her again, her head slowly twitching to right as her left arm turned up, showing her the tattoo again. Her teeth slowly bit down into lower lip, inside her mouth trying to get rid of the pain she was feeling. More cold tears were released just looking at the color she had for her mother. "You should've called me," She muttered, shaking her head, closing her eyes tight. "You should've called me!" She screamed, falling to her knees into the moist sand as the waves crashed into knees.

Through the tears and emotions she gave out, she smelt that salty air bringing her head to look straight a head of her looking out into the ocean. The same lost pink/brown eyes closed in having her into clearing her mind of everything that went down in the past few hours.

"Alyssa," A whisper was made, but she barely heard it, "Cali Allie?"

She heard that childhood nickname her mother gave her. She shuddered slowly, looking around trying to find her, "Mom?" Her eyes got brimmed with the same substance she cried out as she looked around slowly getting to her feet feeling the foam from the ocean touch her skin. She blinked finally looking out into the ocean seeing her mother. "Mom,"

"Allie, I'm sorry for everything," Jane's voice answered.

Allie scratched the side of her head starting forward into the water as she continued to hear her mother. "I should have invited your father to your Sixteenth birthday party,"

"But you didn't!" Allie screamed out still fighting the waves crashing into her as she walked. She was now determined to get to her Mother. "You didn't invite him!"

"I know that and I'm sorry," Jane's voice was hurt knowing everything she did in the past was never going to be the same. "I'm also sorry for freaking out about you becoming a babysitter for the little girl who was in that band with her Father."

Being halfway into the water, Allie shook her head letting her feelings out again. "Why are you telling me this now? Why didn't you call me telling me this instead of those damn emails Jane?"

"I'm sorry for freaking out that you were in the company that you grew up watching without knowing your Father. The past night's of you sleepwalking was my fault and I'm sorry for that too."

"Damn it Mom, stop saying you're sorry and tell me what's really going on!" Allie screamed seeing her vanish. Her eyes bugged out now chest high in the water, "Mom?" She looked around feeling the current pull her out further. She sighed, turning around getting ready to head back to the shore.

"I'm sorry for not being that perfect Mom you looked up to when you were little and I knew you felt safe with Mrs. Mason when you stayed over many nights when we fought," Jane's voice brought her to look back seeing the image of her Mother further away from her. "You belong to the ring and I can't fight that anymore Sweetie."

She gasped feeling the salty water finally over her tattoo. Slowly hyperventilating, her eyes closed as sharp twisting pains hit her heart. Her eyes lowered feeling a new wave of hurt wash over her. Her hand pressed into her chest slowly lowering her head into the water. "John. Mel. Shawn… Daddy," her ears picked up a sound of a car door slamming. She had no heart to turn around to see who it was. Lifting her head up she saw the wave swallow her under the surface.

"ALLIE!" was the last thing she heard along with someone going into the water for her before blackness took over.

I'm not an Angel:

"Don't give your life up Allie just because you're mad at me. You have friends and a Boyfriend who love you, along with another family who brought you in." Jane sternly snapped at her daughter.

"Allie, wake up!" Allie's cheek rested against the sand, hands pressing against her chest, reliving her.

"Damn it; Allie, don't do this. John's trying to keep you with the family you now have who loves you."

John brought Allie's head back making her eyes if they were open, look up to the sky finally giving one last push into her chest. He brought his hands back to her face. He knew she was still breathing but very faintly. His fingers touched her chin lightly pulling back placing his mouth over hers giving breath.

He pulled back feeling her stir. His eyes narrowed watching her twitching. He gave another set of compression finally hearing her cough, jerking up slightly but turned her head to the side having the water flow out. He sighed seeing her slowly look back. "Allie, what the hell were you thinking on…"

She looked at him with tears beginning to form. "I don't want to talk John, I…" Her voice was raspy from the salt water getting into her throat but gasped feeling the water that was still on her skin burn the newly tattoo.

"What's wrong?" He moved closer to her, wrapping his arms securely around feeling her skin tremble. He blinked slowly seeing the Tribal tattoo on her wrist. He shook his head. "Randy was right," He saw her look up at him. "You did get a tattoo."

She nodded closing her eyes. "It burns though." She rasped again, feeling him pull away. Her eyes slowly opened seeing him whip off the new shirt he had on. Her gaze slowly looked over seeing a damp on sitting there by his side as he lightly brought her wrist close, dabbing lightly as she winced.

"Sorry," he murmured looking at her face then down at the design. His head tilted to the side noticing the colors. "Why?"

She blinked feeling the pressure off, "Why what?" She lowly asked as she saw him lock eyes.

"You, trying to strangle yourself with the game cord and wanting to drown in the pool when Shawn was away," He saw her look back into the water she almost died. "You, going to yours and Mel's apartment and not calling or texting me for help when your ex shows up and almost assaults you before Adam came in. You pulling away frantically from me when the cop leaves and as Mel and Randy show up, you almost decked your best friend,"

She smirked slightly, "She touched my wrist that was still trying to heal…"

"And you, getting a Tattoo. Allie I would have never thought that…" He stopped seeing those eyes look at him after he cut her off. "Allie what's going on?" He asked lowly seeing her shake her head. "Please?"

She shook her head hearing another car door slam. She blinked looking over seeing her friend run over to them. "John, all I got to say is that I'm not an Angel and everyone makes stupid and careless acts." She muttered looking back over into the ocean.

"Me falling in love with you wasn't stupid and careless," He gritted, lightly pulling her chin over to have her eyes stare at him. Weeks ago her eyes were slowly turning brown but now he saw them back to pink.

"Alyssa?"

She lowered her head, shaking her wet hair around hearing that voice. She slowly moved like a child who had a nightmare, into John's embrace feeling him wrap his arms around her. "Make him go away," She whispered into his chest.

John lightly pressed his lips against her salty oceany hair, nodding. "Will you tell me more on why you…"

"Yes. I just don't want to see him."

He lightly looked over seeing the person look at him and Allie. "Who are you?"

"Eric," The brown haired guy answered slowly glaring. "And you are," He snapped back seeing those eyes of his narrow.

John's body tensed hearing the punk ask him. "I'm John Cena, Allie's co-worker and now boyfriend. Do you mind in telling me why you're here and why she doesn't want to see you?" Those words he said, he watched Eric look at Allie knowing something was about to go down.

"Why I'm here?" Eric stood slowly seeing Allie look up at him. "Some guy that Mel's dating told me that John," He paused and looked over. "Apparently it's you," He nodded then brought his attention back to Allie. "Knew were you where because your mother told him?"

Allie blinked looking up at John. Her eyes slowly closed pressing her head closer into his chest feeling her heart jolt by a sharp pain. "John," she whispered.

"Not my fault, I was more worried that…"

"John!" Her voice was harsh and gritted. He looked down seeing her clutch at her drenched cami. He looked back seeing Eric just stand there in shock.

"Are you going to do anything?" He snapped seeing the poor guy look at him, shaking his head.

Eric stared at Allie seeing those eyes water. "Allie I have two things to tell you and you better listen well, one; I was dating Amber when you asked me to be your boyfriend and two," He stopped seeing those icy blue eyes of John's glare at him. He shook his head as his eyes saw Allie turn her head away from him. "Your psycho ex boyfriend Jason; broke into your Mother's house thinking you were there but your Mother got the short end and he killed her. She's gone."

He saw Allie look back over at him. He shook his head, "There I told the truth and I guess you'll want to know the funeral is Thursday if you want to show up but we'll understand if you rather get ready for your comeback Mel told us about." He sulked off leaving the two. He got both of the stress of his chest finally telling the only daughter of Jane Dream, the truth of what truly happened.

John heard the car door of a Mercedes shut and the tires squeal out of the parking lot, leaving the two of them on the moonlit night. He brought his attention back down on Allie seeing her slowly rest against him, staring off into space. "Allie? Giggles?"

She slowly sighed, looking at him. "My Mom's gone?" Her eyes glistened again, seeing those eyes lower. "No," She whispered slowly going back into his chest, feeling his arms wrap tighter around her.

He slowly bit his lip lightly rocking hearing her cry against him. "Allie I'm sorry,"

She pulled back, looking at him. "You knew?" Her eyes narrowed hearing him sigh. "When were you going to tell me?"

"Allie, how could I tell you?" He asked feeling her pull out of his arms. "Allie, Mel found out from Amber when Sky called Shawn telling him what happened where you almost drowned in their pool." He saw her stop pulling as she looked back at him.

Her head lowered slightly thinking back of what her Mother's voice said to her when she was floating in the ocean. "I was sleepwalking because of her," She muttered bringing her hands up to her face hiding her pain.

"Allie," His voice was soft again pulling her back into him. Hearing her sob like she did he felt bad of what was happening in her life. She has now no family to run to. Her Mother was brutally murdered and she still didn't know her Father was around her at all times. How could he tell her?

"No, no, no, no…" She started to fight her way out of his hold but his grip held her close to him. "Damn it John, let go please." She whispered.

"No," He gritted, seeing those eyes lower. "I know you're hurting and we can do it together. Tell me you weren't planning on killing yourself again, were you?"

She shook her head. Why did he have such a hold on her that made her fall so hard? "Why do care? You have your friends and a family to go to now. You don't have to wait on pity me for something that wasn't your fault to begin with. I'll just move out of the Michaels' residents and move to my Aunt's place and you won't see me again." Her words killed her of what she was going through and said to John. Her mother tried to communicate to before she completely fell under the grim reaper's spell once again.

He shook his head, "Damn it Allie. Don't you see that you have friends and family in the place you work at?" He watched her finally pull out rolling back on her shoulders getting to her feet walking towards her car. He growled getting to his feet, going after her. "How can you be so naïve and think that? You know I can't think straight when you're gone."

Her eyes rolled, whipping her head back around tossing her arms out almost like Randy's pose but straight. "I don't belong here anymore John! What's the use of staying?" Her feet turned making her back turn around knowing it was going to get ugly of what she said to him and having him beg and plead for her to stay.

"The hell you do," his feet moved fast against the sand finally getting back on the pavement lightly spinning her round, pinning her to the car watching those hurt filled eyes stare at him. "Yeah my past was rocky, I'll admit that all right; but you coming into my life, everything's changed for the both of us. I know it has with you."

"John…"

"Don't even," Her heart skipped, hearing him trying to convince her into staying. "Say that you need space. If you want to go to your Mother's funeral I'll go with you all right. There's something about you that I'm drawn to the most, when the others didn't have that kick,"

She shook her head, hearing what he told her, turning slowly trying to get rid of the pain she had. Twenty years of it had been dedicated to the jerk who finally told her the truth of dating her best friend, while another seventeen years ago were living with her mother until she finally had enough of her crap and moved out but just to find out by her now ex-best friend; as she now thought of him, that Jason killed her mother when he was looking for her. She now knew why that part of her soul went missing by finding out the truth.

"No, I don't want you to do that," She uttered feeling his hand lightly caress her cheek looking back at him.

"What if…I wanted to though?" He saw her shake her head again. "Don't be stubborn Allie; you need a friend with you."

She smirked, "Yeah so you can beat the living hell out of Eric who finally told me that he was dating Amber when I asked him to become my boyfriend ten years ago?" She watched his eyes narrow. "John, you really don't need to. Besides don't you have…"

"What else can I do? I'm a wreck when you're not at the arenas for the shows or the hotels. You're lucky that I found you before you fully vanished from my life." He choked out just staring at her. He saw her head lower in shame knowing he was right. "Plus I don't like this storyline with Ashley. She's pushing me into falling for her when I love you."

She smirked out a mocking laugh.

"You think I'm joking?"

She whipped her head around, "No I believe you one hundred percent on what you said it's just," Sighing her eyes looked and locked back into his. "I don't have a true family anymore as while you and everybody else does."

His gaze slowly glared at her, "And yet the Michaels haven't been acting as a family for you when you were there?" He challenged, watching her head slowly tilt still looking at him knowing she was thinking about it. "Cam taught you how to play the guitar, Sky caught you before you fell into the pool when you were sleepwalking, Rebecca thinks of you as a Daughter they never had," His head lowered lightly brushing his nose against her playfully. "Come on, Giggles; you're working with Shawn. They gave you a home to crash at so you wouldn't sleep on the streets." His words tickled her skin seeing a smile slowly form on those lips.

"You have family," Her eyes looked up at him hearing those words again. She shivered, rolling shoulders, she moved into his chest. His arms wrapped around her waist, resting her head.

"You're right," She whispered looking out into the water. She sighed feeling his fingers rake through her hair. "I do have family and my Mom would want me to be happy living the life I wanted."

He smiled, "Exactly." He watched her pull back slightly looking up at him again. "See you just need to be positive about life girlie." Her head nodded, lowering back to the ground. His forehead creased. "Allie, let's get you home," Her head snapped up glaring at him. "I meant to Mel's place all right," He restated seeing a slight smile cross her face.

Nodding she pulled away, having her back now to him, looking back at her car. She blinked shaking her head. "What if they know John? What if Mel's parents knew about my mother's death and why didn't they tell me right away?" She trembled, feeling his chin rest on her shoulder. "Instead of me hearing my mother's voice tell me she was sorry for all the shit we've been through when I felt hurt and bruised from everything that happened just…"

"Shh," His voice soothed, eyes watching her head slowly move having her eyes glance at him. "I understand and it past us. You're not hurt and still fine," he brought his head down, letting his lips kiss her shoulder. "You should be happy that you had someone save you before anything else happened."

She smiled shaking her head, "You're right." She saw his head pull back as he beamed a smile to her. "Look, um…" Glancing back at her car her mind was still racing and wondered if Mel's parents knew about the lost in her family along with her Aunt. "Go back to the club and explain to the crew where I'm at and that I'm fine just gonna go back and talk to Mel's parents to see what they knew."

He nodded, "Do you care if I drove over just to make sure you're there before I head off to the club again just to tell a worried Songstress from Hell and the Rated R Superstar that you're all right along with the others, IE Mel, Randy, Cass, Tista Jay and Lara?"

She shrugged, now at least better. "Fair enough," She turned back in his arms looking up at him. "But just to let you be warned, I'm not coming back until the thirty first of August when you guys are in Detroit."

He smiled lightly, watching her arms wrap around his neck those eyes staring into his. "Yeah I know,"

"Ok, I'm just reminding you." She stuck out her tongue winking. Watching those eyes slightly flutter as he rolled them. She would know, she did it all the time. "And don't even roll those gorgeous blue eyes at me,"

"You're such a tease," he whispered lowering his head lips just inches away from hers.

She pulled back slightly, "But," His eyes lowered looking at her. "You can't tell Mel I got a Tattoo. She'll kill me if she found out that I got one with out her since she's been bugging me to go with her and get one."

He eyed her, pulling back watching her arms fall back to her sides. "And what possessed you in the first place to get inked?" He questioned seeing her blink.

She shrugged, turning her back to him finally opening the silver door sliding into the seat looking up at him. "I seriously don't know," She looked back through the windshield seeing the moon half way over the ocean.

"Seriously?" He asked, walking over closing her door leaning on the window looking at her.

"Seriously, John;" She answered looking back at him with a straight face. "I guess I just needed to get past my fears and go full out on things since hell, life's too short." She paused closing her eyes. "Just look at my mother."

He nodded looking out seeing that body of water glisten under the moonlight. "Ok understandable," He glanced back at her. "You sure you're going to be ok?"

"Um-hm," She smiled back at him. "Get into your car and follow me to where I lived most of my life okay?" Her arm extended out, hand caressing the side of his cheek.

"Sure," Slightly turning, his lips kissed her palm before finally pulling back stepping away from her car hearing it come to life watching her flip through a case of CD's trying to find something hyper and fun for her mood to lift.

Finally getting back to his car, he watched her step back out as the radio blared what sounded to him like Hannah Montana. He poked his head out of the window seeing her pick up her shoes walking back to the car. "Seriously Giggles? Ms. Montana?" He called seeing her glance over her shoulder glaring at him.

"She makes me happy you Goon," She stuck her tongue out at him again finally getting back into the car now flipping through her CD case again.

His eyes bugged, "I was just joking you don't have to…" He sighed, shaking his head hearing Taylor Swift's Fearless CD blaring.

"Happy now?" She teased finally pulling out of the parking spot waiting for him to follow after her.

He shook his head, doing the same hearing the song she's now listening to. Smiling he watched her speeding off heading back to Mel's parents. He followed after her having a lot on his mind and what the upcoming week is going to be for the both of them.


Ok so Allie once again tried to kill herself without knowing it… -.- But thank John for finding her before the worst happened... XD anyway...

What's going to happen around SummerSlam when the others find out about the incident and the full news about Allie's Mother?

How is Shawn going to react about the news of his daughter's mother and the woman that he met up with on night?

What's Eric and Amber's play in this whole mess? Will Allie show up just to prove her ex-crush that she did care for her mother when the funeral happens just days after SummerSlam?

And who else is going to show up to give support to the heart broken diva?

Stay tuned for more Falling in Love: Seasons.

** Ok so this was like a I don't know…a slow chapter for me so if the ending is kinda odd I'm sorry…I got back into School… -.- College… fun but trust me I'll get them out as soon as I can when I don't have as much homework from these people XD. I hope you enjoyed it…**

Thanks again for those who reviewed! As I said before they will be announced in the next chapter I promise :]