Finally, after a week of living with Carisi, (yes, don't worry, I'm still alive) I was finally able to go with Olivia to the hospital to see Amanda. We were taking her home and I was extatic. We put her into a wheelchair, bundeled her in blankets, and into the car she went.

"Excited to come home?" I grinned.

She laughed. "I haven't showered in a week. You'd bet I'm excited."

Olivia cringed, but continuted on to the road.

"We're so much alike." I also laughed.

"It's why I didn't force you into the bath at the hospital," Amanda said. "I wouldn't let those nurses bathe me either."

"It's weird." I shuttered at the thought. "They might be nurses and see all of that all the time. But."

"Yeah." Amanda nodded, completely understanding what I was saying.

"Okay, first plan of action when we get home." Olivia started, "Take Amanda to the bath."

I laughed.

"Then, we eat food, and I don't know what you guys want to do after that." She finished.

"I have a question." I said.

"Yeah?" She looked back at me in the rear view mirror.

"Who are Aria and Noah staying with?" I asked.

"Well, for the day they'll be staying with Carisi, and then I'll go back home at night. You're okay with that right?" Olivia replied.

"Yeah sure." I nodded.

"Okay awesome." She smiled.

Once we got home, Olivia helped me ease Amanda into the tub. Then I helped her with whatever she needed help with, which was pretty much everything.

"Our places have switched." I said, making her hair into an extremely long mowhawlk.

"I know." She sighed. "Are you happy about that?"

I shrugged, even thought she couldn't see me. "Not happy, I'd rather you be healthy and able to do this yourself but I'm happy to help you."

Even though I couldn't see her face, I knew she was smiling.

"What do you want to wear?" I asked once everything was finished.

"I don't care, anything easy." She replied.

"T-shirt and sweatpants sound okay?" I started drying off my hands, pulling off the gray long sleeved shirt I had been wearing as it was completely soaked, leaving me in my bright purple sports bra.

She nodded. "Yeah."

I walked into my room, put on a sweatshirt, then walked back into Amanda's room and found exactly what I was looking for. When I came back I helped her out and into her clothes and we walked back into the living room.

"I just called the chinese place." Olivia said, placing the house phone on the counter. "They'll be here in an hour."

"Good because I'm absolutely starving." I groaned, walking over to the fridge. "We really need groceries."

"I'll go out and do those tomorrow." Olivia said.

"Liv, you don't have to do that. Me and Annie can manage to do that ourselves." Amanda said.

Olivia raised an eyebrow at Amanda. "Whether you like it or not, you don't always have to be in charge."

Amanda took a deep breath, and let it out slowly. "That's been my life since I was a kid, Liv. It's ingrained in me."

"True." I nodded from my place at the fridge.

"I always took care of Kim and Annie since the time I was little. I did everything for them. This is weird for me."

"Get used to it, Mandy." I spoke, opening the Naked juice in my hands. "Because now it's time for us to take care of you."

She nodded with a yawn. "Chinese wont be here until an hour, right?"

"Right." Olivia replied.

"I think I'm gonna take a nap." She stood up, "Wake me up when it's here?"

"Yeah sure." I responded.

Amanda left, leaving me and Olivia in the kitchen alone together.

"I know that you're going to take this opportunity to talk to me about what we spoke about at the hospital, so I'm just going to break the ice for you." I looked over at the brunette woman, a small smile came to her lips.

"Smart girl."

I shrugged. "Amanda does that to me a lot too. You get used to it."

"I have a question for you," Olivia said. "If you...murdered him. Why wasn't there an investigation."

"There is." I replied. "It's ongoing..."

"Still, a month later?" Olivia's eyes widened.

I nodded. "He's...a cop. Obviously it won't stop until a year later I'm sure."

Olivia scratched her forehead. "Do you have the newspaper that you saw all of this on?"

"It's in my room, let me go get it." Taking the small journey to my room, I returned with The New York Times in my left hand and handed it to Olivia.

She flipped through the pages and nodded. "I know what this is, they found semen on the ground next to him. Thought he was raped before he got knocked out but there was no DNA on him. They covered up the semen, and something tells me, they knew exactly why it was there, and why it was his."

I swallowed down my tears. "If I say something now, I'll be charged with murder, Liv. They wont believe I was raped."

Olivia rubbed my back softly. "He got what he deserved, Annie."

"I know he did. But I can't get the picture out of my head some days." I looked down at my fingers, "Him just...His hands. All over me. I was stark naked and just so completely terrified, I grabbed the rock and just smashed it over his head. I didn't want to kill him, I just wanted to get away from him. All I wanted to do was get away from him. I didn't mean to kill him, but the blood just kept gushing out. He was unconcious. I ran, as fast as I could back home. I took a shower, told Amanda I had gone to the park and that was that. I never told her what happened that night. I still haven't."

"You should." Olivia said. "You need to tell your sister what happened to you."

"She has so much to deal with right now." I shook my head. "I need to take care of her first. Maybe I'll tell her later on."

"Not maybe, do it." Olivia grabbed my hand. "Tell her."

"Okay."

"Okay." She smiled at me lightly.

I smiled back.