After her surgery, Arizona went straight to the patient's room, hoping Amelia would be there already, but she wasn't.
"Wilson!" – Arizona called the resident.
"Hi, Dr. Robbins" – Wilson answered.
"Have you seen Amelia? I mean, Dr. Shepherd?" – Arizona asked, feeling a little embarrassed by calling Amelia by her first name inside the hospital.
"Last time I saw her she was outside the main entrance, sitting on a bench" – Wilson said.
"Is she ok?" – Arizona asked, worried.
"I don't know, when I asked about a patient she told me to leave her alone for a few minutes" – Wilson answered, with a "sorry" look in her eyes.
Arizona went looking for Amelia and found her exactly where Wilson last saw her.
"I was looking for you, my surgery just finished" – Arizona said, smiling and sitting beside Amelia.
"I needed a time out. Just breathing fresh air" – Amelia said, even though Arizona hasn't asked what she was doing out there.
"Are you all right? Can I get you anything?" – Arizona asked.
"Why did Minnick leave?" – Amelia asked, looking directly into Arizona's eyes.
"I'm sorry, what?" – Arizona asked confused, not sure about what Amelia just asked her.
"Why did Minnick leave?" – Amelia repeated.
"She got fired" – Arizona answered, intrigued.
"Yeah, but why did she leave you? Did she leave Seattle? Did she say she wasn't up for a long distance relationship? What happened?" – Amelia shooted a lot of questions.
"Why are you asking me this?" – Arizona asked, not so friendly anymore.
"I wanted to understand" – Amelia said.
"Understand what?" – Arizona asked, coldly.
"Understand why someone would leave you like that. It doesn't make sense. You deserve better" – Amelia said, with sweet eyes that made Arizona melt.
"Things just happen sometimes, there's no good explanation. She was hurt when she got fired, she wanted to leave, so she left." – Arizona tried to explain it.
"Do you miss her?" – Amelia insisted.
"Amelia, why are you asking me this?" – Arizona was lost.
"I think you know, Robbins. You're smart enough" – Amelia said and left the bench, walking towards the hospital, then she shouted – "C'mon, we got a patient to see"
Back in the hospital, Arizona was way too confused about Amelia's questions and, mostly, about the last thing she said. What did she know? They had a moment in her house, it was good, but things were such a mess that night, Arizona knew how complicated it could be for both of them.
"Jill, this is Dr. Robbins, she's the head of Peds in here" – Amelia said, introducing Arizona to the patient.
"Hello, Jill" – Arizona greeted the teenager.
"Hi, Dr. Robbins. I know Dr. Shepherd probably insisted for you to come here and convince me to have the surgery, am I right?" – Jill asked.
"Actually, no. Dr. Shepherd asked me about a patient of mine and that, even though we're not supposed to discuss it with other people, I think it's only fair for you to understand what's going on with Matt" – Arizona started.
"Are you his doctor?" – Jill asked, and Arizona sat down on her bed.
"I am one of them. Matt started his treatment with me three years ago but now he has a full team of oncologists too. " – Arizona explained.
"Jill, I told Dr. Robbins you didn't think it was fair for you to get a brain surgery while Matt didn't even know if he would have a chance to get better, too. And I asked her for her help explaining it to us about his whole situation" – Amelia said.
"It's probably not good news, you two don't have sparkles on your look" – Jill commented and Arizona sighed.
"Jill, you're right. It's not good news. Matt has a very, very aggressive type of cancer. It started on his liver years ago. Did he told you how many times he had surgery to remove the tumors?" – Arizona asked.
"A few times, I supposed." – Jill answered, wiping a tear from her eye.
"A lot of times, to be accurate. And he also had stomach surgery, and now his cancer had spread. Did he tell you his exact situation?" – Arizona said.
"He told me he still needs chemo to reduce his liver tumor like I needed with my brain tumor. It worked for me. He said the doctors just found a tumor in his bone, but it might be less aggressive. I just want him to have the same shot and we will do it, together" – Jill insisted, a little louder than before.
"Jill, honey, everything in this story is so unbelievably sad. You two are so young and in love, I can see that. Even though I just met you I can say you love him, right?" – Arizona asked, and the girl nodded yes.
"I love him, very much" – Jill said, crying.
"He loves you, too. So much he didn't tell you about his health. He didn't want you to worry, and I can assure you he didn't want you to give up on life. Chemo can give him a little more time, but that's all. You have a real chance in here, and Dr. Shepherd is the best one you could ask for. Don't give up on you. Do it, if you can't do that for you, do it for him" – Arizona insisted.
"Are you married, Dr. Robbins?" – Jill asked, wiping her eyes.
"No, I'm not. I'm divorced." – Arizona answered her.
"Are you, Dr. Shepherd?" – Jill asked, looking at Amelia.
"I'm not, Jill" – Amelia answered her.
"Well, neither am I. My generation is different than yours, I guess. Young girls don't think about marriage anymore. We think about independence, rights, and careers. Boys are just for fun. We want children, but we don't care about husbands. I was that girl, with that mind. Matt changed it for me. I can picture my life with him, our day-to-day battles with this fucked up disease, our mutual support. I can picture him in a black suit while I'm wearing a wedding dress. I can plan a future, even though I might not survive one or two months. But, again, aren't we all up to that? We all could die tomorrow, just by crossing the street. I know you're doctors, and older than me. I know I'm just a teenager rebelling against a surgery for you, guys. But I'm in love. He's my shoulder to cry on, he's my strength to go on. If I decided on the surgery, I can either die on the table and leave him alone, or I can get cured, and rub on his face that I have a life ahead of me and he doesn't. I don't know if you ever fell in love with someone like that, sometimes we take a time to figure it out. I thought Matt was just a friend in the beginning. Just a sweet boy who tells me jokes about cancer and let me read some of his favorite books. He was already so much more. He made me smile, every single day. He made me trust myself again. He told me, with that hoarse voice of his 'Jill, you can do it. You're that strong'. He looks at me and I forget I'm a teen walking on the death row with this brain tumor. Have you ever felt like that? How am I supposed to just ignore this and think only about myself?" – Jill vented, making Arizona and Amelia exchange looks and hold their tears, too.
"Maybe it's his turn to hear all of that. Maybe he needs you healed so he can raise hope, too" – Arizona said.
"Do you have any hope? About him?" – Jill asked Arizona, who got tongue-tied.
"Jill, as doctors we need to get realistic because it's our job, it's our responsibility. But miracles happen all the time. All the time. It's your job to be hopeful for us." – Amelia said, making Arizona smile.
"Jill, if I didn't have any hope about my patients, I could never be a pediatrician. I'm always hopeful, but I am also a little bit ahead of myself, to see it beforehand and prepare my patients and their families. But deep down, I'm hopeful until the last minute. You should be, too. As a doctor, and especially, as Matt's doctor, I think you should get the surgery. I think you should be a miracle for Matt to keep believing" – Arizona said, and left the room.
"Take your time to think about that, we can talk again tomorrow, is that ok? I will ask Dr. Wilson to run a few more tests and we go from there once you make your decision" – Amelia said and the girl nodded yes.
