Chapter 11: Scars need time to heal.

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Previously…

When I woke up, I had a terrible headache.

'Rose, I sense you're awake. I put a fresh pair of jeans and shirt and some necessities for you to shower and get dressed…' Lissa said, and I internally thanked her, I wanted and needed a shower. My only hope was that I'd come out feeling new.

I opened my door to make my way to the bathroom when Tasha walked into my path,

"What happened last night? Huh?"

RPOV:

Ugh. Not her again. It was to early for this.

I turned around and met her eyes, "Yes, Tasha?"

"Oh, don't act all innocent; I know last night you were talking to my Dimka" Her dimka? Did she own him? Last time I checked – she didn't.

"Don't make that face. I saw how you were all over Dimitri all night. Don't lie." She stated, and I looked in her with wide eyes, wow. She really was crazy.

"You really are a lunatic. I barely even made eye contact with him because of you." I hissed, and then I got slapped again... Great. You know, I was really getting tired of Tasha and tired of being afraid and running. But there was nothing I could do because I wasn't trying to get my insides burned out of me and I'd be damned if anyone I loved had to have that happen.

"Watch it Rose, your voice is your strongest power but also your greatest weakness." And then she walked away.

I sighed, walking into the bathroom closing the door (locking it) and put the towel down. I looked into the mirror and didn't see who I expected to see.

I didn't see Rosemarie Hathaway, the fearless and bravado attitude. The person who never ran but yelled and scream and fought until her last breath. Who I saw was a coward, a coward afraid and I hated it. I felt tears build it (dang, I really did not want to cry again) and forced them down. I was doing this for Lissa…. For Dimitri.

But why was I doing it for them? What did Lissa ever do for me? It's her fault I'm all caught up in this situation, I hate-

I stopped my road of thoughts before the darkness really hit. I've been taking Lissa's darkness subconsciously now. Without a second thought. But it was starting to take its toll on me, I mean, last nights events should say enough.

I jumped into the shower, the thoughts of last night continuing. What did last night mean for me and Dimitri? He promised he wouldn't leave- but did I have a right to hold him to that promise? I mean, I left him. But for the first time in a while- I felt cared for. I felt the comfort from contact and my heart felt like it was going to explode. But then of course, Tasha had to ruin it. Ruin my one moment of happiness and I know very well Dimitri now had many questions.

I hated being vulnerable, able to have a weakness. I always thought I was invincible but I wasn't. I had a rock-hard shell but a soft inside and I kept those two things from colliding. But last night- it broke. My resolve broke and I cried and cried. This is all Tasha's fault and being back in court isn't helping,

I mean, first problem is that everyone most likely hates me. Hates me for leaving a sudden and want answers that I just- cant give.

Then, I have seeing everyone and how much I missed everyone, how much I missed being around all of my friends, how safe it felt in Dimitris arms…

I started scrubbing harder with the rag until my skin was raw and then decided that it was probably time to get out. '

I got out of the shower- soaking wet- and threw on the outfit Lissa had given me. And It was bigger than my current size which was understandable. As since I left I had lost a few pounds- thanks to always being on the run, but Sydney- oh god. Sydney. I need to call her. Like. Now.

I quickly brushed my hair and walked out. I walked straight to my room searching for my phone, when I couldn't find it I resorted to the bond.

(A/N bond talk is just like normal talk just in italics)

"Lissa, do you know where my phones is?" I asked, and I got a reply very quickly.

"yes, its out here Rose." She said, knowing very well what game she was playing.

She was playing the- you want it? Come get it. And I was not in the mood.

I opened my bedroom door and made my way to where I could sense Lissa. And there she was, perched up on the couch holding my phone, wearing a satisfied smile.

I ran to her and picked up my phone and dialed Sydney's number.

"Who are you calling?" she asked curiously

"A friend."

Ring. Ring. Ring.

"Hello? Rose?"

"Sydney." I greeted, getting ready for the yelling.

"Oh my god Rose- Where have you been? I was told not to worry but- you never came back and you-"she started rambling which I laughed at and at that Lissa looked at me surprised.

"I'm fine… I'm at court."

"Oh?"

"Yeah..."

"Well, how's it going there?"

I sighed, "Well you know, getting to see all of these old faces and such, then you know about…" I stopped short realizing Lissa was there.

"Oh, let me go. We'll talk later. Love you Rose!"

"Love you too, Sydney." I smiled before closing the call.

LPOV:

Rose laughed, like actually laughed. I hadn't heard her laugh in a while and it warmed my heart. While she continued her phone call, I began to wonder who was on the other line. Who was she talking to.

But, then it hit me. Her friend. Her new friend… I forgot she'd probably created a life out there… in the real world. Without us. And that made my heart shatter.

Hope you guys enjoy this chapter! I know I loved writing it. Sorry for grammatical error issues,

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