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Chapter 11

"Humans are fragile." Cas said somewhat arrogantly as he sat back down.

Dean snorted as Meg commented, "The last word I would use to describe Dean Winchester is fragile."

"Thanks…" Dean said before adding, "I think."

Meg stood as she said, tugging on the bottom of her shirt nervously, "I better go. I'll call Cas when I get back topside."

Cas stood awkwardly fidgeting as he said lamely, "I'll be waiting."

To which both Bobby and Dean stared at him.

"What?" He asked innocently, not understanding the looks.

Meg grinned as she saluted them, saying brightly, "Boys… see ya on the flipside." turning she walked out, not looking back.

Which would have been an awesome exit if Dean hadn't called her back, meeting her in the kitchen doorway to silently hand her the rings.

She blushed furiously as she mumbled, "Yeah that could have been bad." pocketed them she tried her grand exit again.

This time actually making it to the front porch steps before Cas called out asking her to wait. She stopped and waited. She heard the front door close and the screen door slam as Cas pulled her around by one arm and swung her into him, leaning down he kissed her soundly. She pushed half heartedly at him as she tried to bring her arms up to his chest to shove him away. Instead she ended up grabbing handfuls of his shirt and pulled him closer. Her body and mind couldn't seem to agree with what she wanted. damn, she thought silently then her mind blanked and she forgot what she had even been thinking about. Moaning she leaned against him as he released her mouth and looked down at her, smirking slightly. She tried to catch her breath as she grinned stupidly back at him, mumbling she told him, "I think that was highly illegal… probably could get us shot… I think what we're doing is considered treason by both sides." She let her handfuls of fabric go as she placed her open palms against his chest, looking up she shook her head. "You confuse me, Cas."

Cas grinned as he realized she was using his real name more freely now and a lot more often. "Good… I won't be confused alone."

She snuggled in his arms for several minutes. These were new feelings for her. She never felt warmth from a touch before… not the all encompassing warm twinkle that surged through her entire body, threatening to engulf her. It was a foreign feeling that she was finding nice she decided. Was this what she had missed by never being allowed to become an adult topside? Her parents had sacrificed her and her brother when they were just children. She didn't get a choice, but if she had she would have chosen this.

Holy hell! That's it… her brain was scrambled! She backed away with a murmur of, "I'll see you soon."

Cas dropped his arms to his side as he told her, "Good Luck?" He said with a question, not sure if that was what he should say or not. He was so confused… would this class as fallen? Was he a sinner… was he like Anna before she had been reinstated? He was afraid that what he was doing was probably far worse. He watched her disappear around a stack of cars… shit; he might be heading in the same direction Lucifer had gone- down. Cas was so… lost… that was it… he was lost.

He needed advice… now. He was slightly afraid to talk to Dean; he already knew how Dean felt. Sammy was pointless to talk to now, he was still soulless. If he was even like he was before letting Lucifer out, he would have talked to him. If any could understand being… what was he… interested? Was that the right word? Sammy could. He had been involved with a demon himself.

Cas stood there just staring into space until Dean opened the door and watched him a couple of seconds before asking, "You okay?"

Cas sighed before saying in the closest to a confused voice yet, "I do not know, Dean." He looked over his shoulder at Dean telling him, "I think I'm broken."

Dean stared at Cas silently a couple more seconds before pushing the screen door slowly open and slipping outside as he simultaneously pulled the front door closed, letting the screen door close on its own as he stepped up next to Cas. Finally Dean said softly, "Broken, huh?"

Cas nodded as he returned his stare to where he'd last seen Meg before she turned the corner and went… away.

"Why do you think you're broken?" Dean asked him after more silence.

"I like a demon." Cas started staring at his own feet as he said so softly, Dean had a hard time hearing him. "It's wrong. Everything we've been told says that."

Dean turned, taking a step back to lean on the porch rail facing Cas.

"You've even told me that… But she never had a chance to choose to be good or bad." Cas said with a quick glance at Dean before staring back into the yard working it out in his head as he talked to Dean.

"Uhuh." Dean commented just enough for Cas to know he was listening, but not enough to interrupt Cas' train of thought.

"I've always been taught humans all have a choice, free will... But she's a demon now…" Cas spread his hands out then continued, "But she was a person that didn't get her choice when she was a human child, it was made for her. So does the choice she made after turning into a demon count? Is it the only one she gets because she's demon now? Can she reverse it all by making a choice now? You know… I told her she could… but what do I really know?" Cas had continued to stare out into the yard the whole time he'd been talking, "So this confuses me." Cas said, finally looking Dean in the eye while he rubbed at his brow with one hand as if trying to ward off a headache.

"Honestly Cas, I worry that she may be like Ruby. That you could get hurt the same way Sammy did." Dean finally saying out loud what he'd been feeling about the situation.

"But I don't feel deception from her. There's lots of confusion about me, kisses and the role she's always played. She was given to hell when she was 5 years old, Dean. How can someone do that, her brother wasn't much older. She barely knew what good was before all they knew was evil. It confuses me."

"I don't know, why don't you ask your father?" Dean said after thinking about it for a little while.

"Uh… no." Cas said in such a human way it made Dean laugh; Cas had a look on his face that denoted horror at the thought. Well now that Dean took the time to study Cas, he kind of looked like he did during their talk at the motel.

Dean grabbed Cas' arm as turned him back towards the house he told Cas, "Then we'll go to the next best thing." Dean opened the screen as he told Cas, "Bobby."

Cas braced his feet as he stiffened up and pulled back, "That's okay… I'd rather not."

Which only made Dean laugh harder as he threw open the front door and pulled Cas through the doorway towards a conversation he didn't want to have.

Meg was still wandering down through the same corridors she had already been through twice so far. She supposed she could have smoked herself wherever, but she wanted the body to go too. She would need it topside if she made it that far. At this point she could only guess how all this would turn out. She knew how she wanted it to turn out. But that wasn't what was likely to happen.

Demons didn't get to dream, which is what she was trying to do. Dream and then get that dream. She smiled, yeah, 'cause her life was such a fairytale right now and nice things just happen to good little demons… she snorted, yeah, and the sky was painted neon green with orange polka dots.

Her thoughts moved on back to her very own Clarence… she smiled. Cas was like a young man that had his first crush. She just hoped it could be more.

Before she even realized how far she'd traveled she once again stood before the cage as she waited for the fighting to die down so she could talk to Lucifer and Michael.

Lucifer shoved Michael as he roared, "Well it's your fault we have nothing to do… you gave away our soul."

"Well, it seemed like a good deal, better than anything you've come up with." Michael snarled right back as he gave Lucifer a return shove.

Meg got tired of waiting for them to notice they were once again in her company so she cleared her throat and waited for them to realize her presence.

TBC