Hello everyone! I hope you enjoy this! I know you all hoped this update was for Moms' Night Out! But I woke up this morning with this idea and had to write it! the update for Moms' Night Out will be soon I promise but in the meantime enjoy this and please review! sorry for any errors !

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"Hey, how as Mercedes been?" asked Tina as she tucked a piece of her ombre' hair behind her ear. The fashionable gay nodded in response before speaking.

"She's good, she should be on her way" smiled Kurt.

Kurt was happy him and Mercedes had made a great life for themselves in LA. After graduating high school they had decided to follow their dreams together. Kurt wanting to be a fashion icon and Mercedes wanting to be a singer and actress. Coming to LA they had met a gang of friends. Kurt had met Tina Cohen Chang and Brittany S Pierce at his fashion school he was attending. Tina had met Rachel Berry and Finn Hudson in a coffee shop accidentally bumping into them. Mercedes and Kurt had met Santana Lopez going to a bar for happy hour. Santana and Mercedes met Quinn Fabray while taking one of their acting classes. Quinn met Noah "Puck" Puckerman at a club that she went to with Tina, Brittany, and Santana; getting his number because he was hot was one of the best things she had ever done. And Brittany had met Mike Chang taking a dance class for fun. Over the course of two months they all had assembled a gang and began hanging out with each other every chance they could get. They all had a dream of being famous and in the industry in very different ways. That particular day they had all gathered at Finn and Rachel's apartment for a dinner party. Finn had invited two extra guest meeting them had a concert he had went to with Puck, Rachel, and Quinn. Soon Mercedes had arrived; she took a couple of deep breath to calm herself. Doing this for so many years had become a routine for her. Kurt saw her when she walked in and went over to her; he placed his arm around and hugged her before speaking.

"Hey, you made it. Are you breathing?" he asked in a whisper voice with a small smile.

Mercedes breathed in and out, "Yeah, I'm fine" she said with a fake smile while inhaling and exhaling.

They all gathered around the table and began to take their seats. The doorbell rang and Finn knew exactly who it was. He went to the door and opened it; he smiled immediately and hugged a muscular dirty blonde man and a well-dressed black haired man that loved raspberry hair gel.

"Welcome guys, you came just in time" said Finn leading them to the dining room. "Everyone this is Sam Evans and Blaine Anderson. They met at one of their acting classes a month ago" said Finn to the rest of the gang.

When Sam laid eyes on Mercedes his heart stopped; he was instantly mesmerized by her beauty. While he looked at her he noticed she began to breathe heavy; she leaned over to what appeared to be her friend and whisper in his ear. "Was I making her uncomfortable?" thought Sam has he quickly averted his eyes not wanting to scare her away.

Mercedes continued to breathe in and out. This guy she had just met; Sam wouldn't stop looking at her, her mind went crazy as she wondered what he was thinking. "Does he think I'm fat? Am I ugly? He's really cute, but I'm sure Brittany or Quinn is more of his type. I wish he would stop staring at me, I get it I'm ugly" she thought as she looked down at her plate and continued to breathe.

After eating everyone gathered in the living room and talked for a while and got to know each other. They were all new to LA coming from different states to follow their dreams. At the end of the night they made sure they had everyone numbers and was sure to keep in contact with each other. Mercedes had thought maybe she and Kurt could have a movie night when they got back to their apartment, but she was let down to hear that Kurt had accepted an invitation from Blaine to go get coffee. Mercedes accepted she was going to be by herself tonight and decided to go home and have a movie night by herself, that is before Sam stopped her.

"Hey it was really nice meeting you Mercedes" he said nervously has he put his hands in his pockets and rocked on his heels.

Mercedes looked into his green eyes and noticed his southern drawl that was coming from his mouth. It was thick; she wondered how she hadn't noticed it earlier.

"It was nice meeting you too" she said looking away from his eyes; Mercedes heart began to beat fast.

"Do you wanna, maybe do something tonight? I mean I really don't wanna go home just yet" he said with hopeful eyes.

"I don't think-" said Mercedes but stopped when she saw his sad eyes. Mercedes didn't like making people sad.

"You can come over" she said instantly regretting it as soon as it left her mouth.

Sam's eyes brighten up and he smiled, "Okay, I'll follow you in my truck" he said pointing to the black truck that screamed the country south.

Mercedes nodded, and into her purple Kia nervous has ever. She breathed in and out several times like her doctors told her before putting the key into the ignition.

"Breathe Mercedes, just breathe" she said to herself.

Mercedes drove to her place with Sam behind her. When they arrived at her and Kurt's apartment Mercedes let them in and they began to talk. Over the course of the night they drunk tea and water getting to know each other more. Mercedes had learned that Sam was from Tennessee and had a dream of acting, he had the basic high school experience. He was very popular and was the star quarterback of his high school and was homecoming and prom king. Sam learned that Mercedes was from Ohio and had a dream of singing and acting; she was known as a dork in high school and only had Kurt has her only friend. Sam also learned that Mercedes parents weren't fully behind her dream because of her condition. Sam paused when he heard her say condition. "What could possibly be wrong with her? She was perfect! Beautiful, sexy, and had a really cute giggle" he thought as she spoke. Sam decided not to ask what her condition was considering it was probably a really soft spot for her. He wanted to know when she was ready to let him know.

Eight months had passed and the gang had gotten super close. Kurt and Blaine were official and so were Quinn and Puck. Mercedes and Sam had grown really attached to each other. They spent more time together then the gang did and they both grown really comfortable. There was flirting and kissing but no labels. There labels for each other were pretty understood; Sam knew he was Mercedes boyfriend and Mercedes knew she was Sam girlfriend. There was no reason for the couple to say it out loud if they knew it in their hearts.

One day Mercedes had gotten a call from a label she had sent her demo to, when she first saw her phone ring she saw the unfamiliar number but decided to answer it.

"Hello?" said Mercedes

"Hi Mercedes Jones, please" said the women.

"This is her" replied Mercedes.

"This is Mya from Universal Records. We heard your demo and we love it" she said.

Mercedes heart stopped, "You what?" she said in confusion, hoping this was a dream.

"We love your demo, we actually really wanna meet you and possibly sign you. Do you have a manger by any chance?" he asked.

Mercedes heart was beating fast; she then thought of Santana. Santana was taking acting classes to learn the craft of her future clients. Her and Puck were in school to become mangers, "Yes, yes I do" replied Mercedes.

"Okay great, Um how does next week sound for a meeting? You and your manger can come to our offices and we can talk business" said Mya smiling through the phone.

"Okay, great" said Mercedes as her heart beat got faster and faster. Mercedes hung up the phone, her mind began to spin with questions while her heartbeat got faster and faster. Mercedes ran to her bedroom and found her medication that was assigned to her and took more than the two pills she was supposed to take. She drunk as much water as she could to get the pills down and laid on her bed breathing hard and fast. Mercedes began to flutter as the pills began to they effect, within moments she passed out.

Rachel's phone ranged while she was cuddled up watching a movie with Finn; she looked at the caller ID and saw it was Kurt.

"Hello?" she answered.

"Hey Rach, I know this might sound weird but can you go to my place ad check on Mercedes. I have a feeling something is wrong. I called her three times and it's not like her to not answer her phone. I'm wrapped up at school and I can't. So can you and maybe Finn go check on her please?" he asked.

"Yeah of course. Will go right now and call you when we see her" said Rachel sitting up and going to look for her shoes.

"Thank you so much" said Kurt.

"Anytime" replied Rachel before hanging up.

"Finn, somethings wrong we need to go back on Mercedes" said Rachel.

"But my favorite part is coming" he said pointing to the tv.

Rachel gave him a look, "Finn, something is wrong we need to go now" she said being stern.

Finn soon got up and put on his shoes, "Okay we're going".

When the couple arrived to Mercedes house they knocked on the door several time but got no answer. "Are you sure she's here?" asked Finn.

"Yeah, her car is out front" replied Rachel.

"What if she's with Sam?" asked Finn.

"Sam went to an audition with Blaine and Quinn, remember?" she replied. She looked at the door with concerned eyes, "Somethings wrong, I can feel it" she added. Rachel then suddenly remembered Kurt telling her about a spare key him and Mercedes kept. Rachel stepped off of the welcome mat and nudged Finn off of it. When she looked under the mat she found the key that Kurt spoke of and put it into the lock. When she opened the door she saw nothing but they're living room, her and Finn began to call Mercedes name.

"Mercedes?" yelled Rachel

"Mercedes?" yelled Finn.

"I'm gonna go check her room" said Rachel going up the stairs and into Mercedes room. When she saw Mercedes on the bed unconscious she screamed.

"Finn get up here right now" she yelled from upstairs; Finn came running.

"I'm gonna call 911" cried Rachel.

Finn looked at Mercedes unconscious on the bed and saw a pill bottle in her hands, "She took something" he said looking at the bottle. "My cousin takes this stuff it's for anxiety" he added.

"Hello, 911. My boyfriend and I just found our friend unconscious on her bed. She took some pills" cried Rachel through the phone.

"How long as she been unconscious?" asked the women.

"I don't know! I don't know!" she cried; Rachel was mad at herself for not knowing the answer. "Just please get an ambulance here now….please hurry" cried Rachel.

Hours later at the hospital the whole gang was all sitting in the waiting room with sad eyes and tears in their eyes. Kurt soon came back from talking to the doctors and went to face the group.

He took a deep breath, "Mercedes suffers from server anxiety…The type that she has is called panic disorder" said Kurt wiping away a tear. "She's had it for as long as I can remember. I remember being ten years old and seeing my best friend have what looks like a heart attack but is really a panic attack. Her disorder stems from being self-conscious. Like all of us Mercedes as insecurities but hers are heightened by her disorder. If too much pressure is put on her she begins to focus on her insecurities and she begins to hyperventilate. If she keeps hyperventilating it will turn into a panic attack, which in result is an anxiety attack. She has pills that she takes every day to calm her down and keep her leveled. My guess is someone called her or she saw something that added pressure and she had an attack. She took the pills to calm down but she took too many" said Kurt crying.

"Is she gonna be okay?" asked Sam with tears in his eyes.

"Yeah, she's gonna be fine" he replied. "She can go home in a couple of days…I'm gonna call her parents and tell them" he said soon walking away to make the call.

A couple days later Mercedes went home was given orders to take it easy and rest. The doctors also gave Mercedes more medication, recommended a therapist, and told her to try yoga. Sam decided to stay at Mercedes and Kurt place for the next couple of days or however long he needed to till he was comfortable leaving Mercedes by herself.

"Why don't you feel your beautiful, darling?" asked Sam while they were cuddled up in her bed listening to music.

Mercedes took a deep breath, "I don't know, I'm just not" she replied.

'I think you're beautiful. You're the most beautiful person I've ever seen" said Sam.

"Sam, don't sugar coat it" remarked Mercedes.

Sam made Mercedes look at him, "I'm not. You're beautiful, darling and I want nothing but you. I want take care of you".

"Sam I'm a big girl, I can take care of myself" she said.

"I know you can take care of yourself, but I want to…And you're not big, you're curvy" he exclaimed.

"Big, curvy, fat, their all the same thing" she with anger.

Sam looked deep into her brown doe eyes, "No there not…Mercedes I will make you believe you are beautiful if it's the last thing I do" he said meaning every word.

Months later Mercedes was in the studio working on her album while Sam went on audition after audition. Sam and decided to go out to an audition in New York. He was scared to leave Mercedes alone but he knew he could count on his friends to watch out for her and it was only gonna be a three day trip. Sam took the trip and was off in New York hoping this could be his shot. Back in LA Mercedes was working closely with Santana who was her manger on her album. Later one night Mercedes decided to go out to dinner with the girls. As they were eating the girls poke of relationship and life.

"These auditions for these movies are kicking my butt, I can't wait for pilot season. Maybe tv will be more my thing" said Rachel.

"Don't give up, film is where the money is" remarked Quinn.

"Yeah, what she said. As both of your mangers I want you both on Film and tv auditions" smirked Santana.

"Fine, I'll keep trying. You know it great to have such a good support system out in LA. I have you guys and Finn" smiled Rachel.

"I know what you mean Mike, help me out a lot sometimes" agreed Tina.

"You know this place and you guys are changing me for the better. The other day Puck told me he loved me and I said it back. Last year you would have never caught me saying I love you to a man. Never! But I really like the person I'm becoming out here" exclaimed Quinn.

"Me too! And even Lord Tubbington is staying true to his diet. He would have never done that if we stayed in New Jersey" grinned Brittany.

Everyone looked at Brittany but decided to ignore her comment, "That's really great that you and Puck are still moving forward" said Mercedes.

"Yeah, you can join the love boat with Finn, Sam, Mercedes, and I" smiled Rachel.

All the girls giggled except Mercedes, "What love boat?" asked Mercedes.

"I was just saying that you and Sam love each other" replied Rachel.

"But we haven't said it yet" she said.

"Oh come on Whitney Houston, you and Sam can basically read each other's mind. It's beyond me what you see in trouty mouth but it's very obvious you two are in love" smirked Santana.

"Soo obvious, do you see the way he looks at you?" asked Quinn.

"Or the way he tells you your beautiful?" said Rachel.

"Or the way he wraps his arms around you?" said Tina.

"Or the way he undresses you with his eyes" said Brittany and Santana in unison. Both girls laughed and high fived each other. They always knew what the other was thinking.

Mercedes began to feel pressure, her breathing quickened and she began to think. "Did Sam really love her?" she thought. She began to look back to all of her memories and realized all the love in his eyes in all of those memories. Sam loved her and that was bad. He couldn't love her, if he loved her that meant she had to admit of loving him and if they loved each other that meant there was room for one or even both of them to hurt each other or the other. Mercedes wasn't sure she could handle the pressure of possibly someday hurting Sam or worst wait for him to hurt her. Mercedes quickly got up from her seat and ran out of the restaurant.

"Oh shit, what did we just do?" said a concerned Quinn.

The girls went after Mercedes but she was a lot faster then she appeared. Mercedes hopped in her car and went speeding to the airport. When she got to the airport she book the next flight to New York using her emergency money. Within hours she landed in New York and caught a cab to Sam's hotel. When she got into the cab she say she had 10 miss calls from Kurt, 5 from Santana, 3 from Rachel, 4 from Quinn, 2 from Tina, 2 from Blaine, and 1 from Sam. She immediately called Kurt and reassured him that's she was okay and that she was in New York and that she would be home when Sam came back. He asked her if she had enough money, and she told him she did. When she hung up the phone with Kurt she arrived at Sam's hotel and took a deep breath. Mercedes went to the room Sam told her he was going to be in if his phone died and she needed to call the hotel phone. When she got to the room she took another deep breath and knocked on the door. He answered the door and was shocked to see his beautiful girl.

"Hey darling, what are you doing here?" he asked smiling yet a little confused.

"We need to talk, or maybe I need to talk" she said walking into his room.

Sam shut the door and turned around to give his girl his full attention, "It must be important, you didn't call or wait for me to come home. I'm listening" he said with a lopsided grin.

She looked at him and her breathing quickened as she looked at him; Sam looked at her watched as she got nervous. Sam rushed to her and grabbed her hands, "Breathe darling, please just breathe and talk slowly" he said getting worried she was gonna have another attack.

Mercedes closed her eyes and took five deep breaths, "Okay, I'm okay" she said slowly.

Sam nodded in response and watched her closely. Mercedes looked deep in Sam's green eyes, a small smile creped on her lips as she looked deep into his eyes.

"Sam, do you love me?" she asked.

He smiled, "Of course I do".

She looked down not sure if he understood what she said, "No, I mean are you in love with me?" she asked.

He looked deep into her eyes, "I understood what you meant. My answer is still of course I do. I-I thought what was understood a while ago" he said a little confused.

Mercedes began to cry, "Sam, you can't love me. Because that means I have to confess that I love you" she said beginning to feel pressure again.

"Darling, what wrong with that?" he said with a chuckle.

"Because, love brings pressure and it leaves room for use to hurt each other and Sam I don't wanna hurt you" explained Mercedes.

"And darling, I don't wanna hurt you" he said putting his hands on her cheeks trying to calm her down. "So if were both say were not gonna hurt each other we no longer have a problem" he added.

"Sam, it's more complicated than that" she said looking down worried.

"Hey" he said wanting her to look him in the eyes and bring her head up. "Why don't we just take one day a time? Let's let the future be the future and the past be the past. Let's be right here in this moment together" he added.

Mercedes took a deep breath, "Okay, Okay. We'll focus on right now".

"Okay good" he said leaning in to place his lips on her. When he kissed her it was like Mercedes forgot about all of her worries and just wanted to be with the one person that always made her feel safe.

Mercedes soon pulled away from the kiss in need of air. When she pulled away Sam went for neck and began putting pepper kisses all over her neck and behind her ear. Mercedes moaned and allowed him to kiss her in such a way. They soon found themselves on Sam's bed making out heavy, before he knew it Mercedes was straddling him and taking off her stop.

"We don't have to do anything you don't wanna do" he said a little out of breath.

"I want to" she said in a whisper voice with a small smile.

Sam smiled; she was confident in that moment and that turned him on. Sam flipped her over and got on top of Mercedes. Sam took his shirt off reveling his six pack that was more than perfect; he continued taking the rest of both of their clothes off and kissing Mercedes all over her body.

"You are so…so beautiful" he said hearing her moan.

Sam quickly found a condom and placed it on his member. He attached his lips to her neck to create a hickie while sliding into her. Mercedes eyes fluttered a little and she gasped as she got adjusted him. Mercedes was no virgin but Sam was only the second guy she had gone this far with. He began trusting as Mercedes listened to him tell her she was beautiful over and over again. She then closed her eyes and enjoyed the sensation she was feeling. There was no pressure, and no room for her to panic.


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