Chapter Eleven: Pride

Breathing in the ocean breeze, the mahognay curls blew behind the young heart-broken girl's face.

"Ready?" Leah asked, the hybrid.

"Yeah-let's go."

Brushing the sand with her feet, the imprintee walked away from the chilly waters. While sitting here, she had debated numiorious of times, wheather to walk into the salty waves until she could no longer feel anything.


Walking up to the door, Renesmee's eyes were on the stary sky, blinking 'hello' with her eyes to her old friends-the balls of light in the darkness.

Already making it through the door way, the young 15 year old stepped into the tense room. Looking up from the ground, where he dark chocolate hues had roamed, to a sight that startled her.

Jacob.

Stomping her feet up to him, out of anger, she raised her fist up to his face.

"Really? We're going to do this again?"

His voice was so sweet, husky and beautiful just as she had remembered. Even with hearing him, the pain came from the yearning urge to jump his bones, made her fist his his face harder.

Shrugging, Jacob turned the other cheek and held his hands out, waiting for another blow from her. To his suprize, her fist slammed against his cheek once again.

"That's enough-" he mumbled, grabbing her body and wrapping his arms above the elbow, so that her hands could no longer bruise his face.

Squirming, the minautre figure attempted to get out of his superior hold on her.

"You know, I didn't expect that last one. I should give your temper more credit."

"Let me go!"

"You sure do ask for a lot of things, Ness."

"Your not funny, dog!"

"And your not the nice Renesmee I remember."

Struggling, she kicked, shaking her arms to try and set herself free from his hold. Still, his arms didn't budge, not even an inch.

Growling, the hybrid elbowed him in the ribs.

"Hey-that one hurt a bit. Knock it off."

"I said let go of me!"

"Too bad I can't do that."

Screaming, she hit the floor hard, dropping to her knees. Bothered by the fact that she wasn't strong enough, that he didn't even slightly let go-tears fell from her eyes.

Still holding her in his arms, his enbrace became less forced and more carenessing. Crossing his legs around her tiny body, he pulled her to him. All too willingly, the hybrid rested her head on his chest.

After a few moments, the pale girl picked her head up, wiping her face.

"I hate you," she mentioned, hoping it would phase him.

"Yeah? Well, that's just too bad, isn't it."

"Screw you."

"That's a mightly big wall you got there. Thought all the pretending was done. Or was that just another act."

"Leave me alone."

"I can't do that."

"It's what I want."

"It's a lie."

"Why are you so gad damn annoying?"

"It's apart of my nature."

"Well, in that case-I loathe you."

"You'll get over it."

"Don't be so sure of yourself, pup."

"You got a lot of names, taking notes from Rose I see."

"She was right when she called you good for nothing-you know?"

"You don't really believe that."

"Oh, you don't think so?"

"No-I think you are hiding because your hurt."

"Wrong again-I don't give a damn."

"Yes you do."

"Your so ignorant."

"Your hurt because I use to love Bella"

Punching him in the gut, she picked herself up and stomped around the corner. Grabbing her leg, he pulled her to the floor. Kicking him in the face, she yanked herself out of his reach. Standing up, Jacob snatched hold of one of her arms and jerked her back. Throwing her fist toward his face, the imprinter caught her balled-up hand. Turning her toward the wall in the small hallway in which they were throwing punches, he took hold of her waist and slammed her against the wall, holding her above the ground. Slamming his fist into the wall beside her head, Jacob's face was within inches of Renesmee's.

Gulping hard, for a moment she had thought his fist might hit her across the face. Realizing how much it would have hurt her, not only on the surface, but also on the inside. Knowing that he was mad enough to hit her. What did it feel like to him?

With his lips so close, in reach, she was loosing her strength to resist. All her walls came down, and her heart pounded hard. Trying to find a way to tell him she'd had enough-to go back without saying it. Then it came to her.

"Mercy," she breathed out.

Laughing, Jacob's mind was being pulled back into the memories he had of them, "I'm not tickleing you."

Pressing her hand to his cheek, she showed him what she meant.

'New meaning. Mercy equals kiss me.'

With a hint of confusion, Jacob smashed his lips on hers, wrapping is arms around her body. He couldn't resist her request. Holding his face in her hands, she hitched her legs around his hips. The needy urge was being taken care of for the moment.

'This doesn't change anything. I still hate you.'

"Wha-" Kiss. "tever" Kiss. "you" Kiss. "say." Kiss.


Sitting around the table in silence, Renesmee played with the food on her plate.

"So..you guys are like cool now?" Seth asked, looking between the two awkward lovers.

A slam was heard under the table, then Seth wined. Leah probally kicking the young shapeshifter.

"No."

The answer was cold, hard and unsesitive, just like the hybrid had meant it to come out. Still putting on an act for all to see.

"Frankly, I don't kiss people I hate," Jacob stated, looking at the mahogany-haired beauty.

"Don't get your hopes up mutt."

"Still with the names."

"Go away."

"Your actions don't line up with your words."

"Last time I checked, it's perfectly normal to hit someone you aren't faund of."

"Yeah-kissing them is totally in tune with that too," Seth mumbled.

Another slam came from under the table.

"Okay, okay. I'll shut up."

Ignoring Seth, the half-breed looked down at her plate.

"Look I'm sorry-" the imprinter started to say.

"I don't want your apologies."

"Then what do you want?"

"The truth damnit. Is that really too much to ask from you?"

"If you'd stop punching me in the face every time I try to explain than yes, it would be a acceptable request."

"Should have told me in the first place."

"And what would you have done then."

"I still would have punched you."

"See? I'm not so stupid."

"For once."

"Do you want me to explain it to you now-you know? Now that your across the table and your arm doesn't strech that far."

"Go ahead and try."

Looking up, she saw Jacob breath in. With her arms folded across eachother, the hybrid waited.

Stopping him before he began, Renesmee stood up from the table, "Save your breath."


Following her outside into the chilly air, he took every step she did. Wanting him to leave her alone, she walked faster.

"Would you just stop?" Jacob asked, throwin his arms in the air.

Turning around to face him, her expression was showing all of the emotion she was feeling. The hurt-in her swollen eye, the betrayal-in her face, the pride-stoping her from crying.

Walking up to her, he took her face in his hands.

"I love you. Only you. And that will never change as long as I breathe. I've hurt you. Because you've built up so many walls, you have no idea how to deal with this. Your falling apart. I get it. I was the same way. There will be something that pulls you out of it, Ness. You have to believe that. No matter what. You won't be hurting forever. I promise you that."

Breathing hard, every word he said, everything he was telling her was the cold hard truth.

"I don't care. It doesn't matter to me. Yes, it hurt at first. But your right, I got over it. I forgave you the second I found out. But it was an excuse. I stayed away from you because it's hard-for me-to have to rely on someone so deeply. I can't get away from you long enough. I have to have you around. That scares me and I can't get over it. What if I loose you? What if you dissapear? What if you leave? What if you died? I would die also. I would be so broken that it wouldn't be able to be fixed. I don't want that. I don't want to have to have you. I love you, Jacob. But i'm scared."

"What do you think is going to happen?"

"I don't want to take that chance, Jacob."

"I'm not going anywhere."

"I don't want you to-or I don't think I want you too."

"Alright, lets be friends until y-"

"I can't go back now, and i've already had you."

"Then what should I do-cause I'm running out of things to offer you."

"Stay away."

"No."

"Please. I can't do this Jacob. I can't need you like this."

"And I can't leave you. I won't go away."

"Then I will keep pushing you away."

"Fine. I can deal with that."

"What if I loved someone else? Would it make it easier for you to leave me alone?"

"Do you love someone else?"

"No-I said what if."

"No."

"Why not? I though that was what this imprint thing was all about."

"It is, but I fell in love with you."

"So the diffrence is?"

"Now I have to have you."

"But.."

"Member the first time I kissed you? And I apologized?"

"Yes.."

"And you said you wouldn't let me ruin it for you?"

"Yes.."

"I'm not letting you ruin us. Your scared, I get it-"

Tears ran down her face now, easy as breathing when she was around him. All her walls immediatly came down, crashing at her feet like raindrops on marble statues.

"I'm scared too. I'm scared you'll leave me, or love someone else, or disapear-your so perfect Renesmee, and I never deserved you, I use to think I'd wake up one day and Renesmee Cullen would be a figmentation of my imagination-or dead. But for you, I'm willing to take this I won't let my fears keep me from knowing you-holding you-loving you. I won't let myself screw this up. And I won't let you. Ness, that's how much I love you. I don't care where we end up in the end as long as I've shared everything I have-everything I am with you. I won't stop-I can't."

Breathing in, the young girl began to look at her feet. Hooking his finger under her chin, he pulled her face up to his and kissed her once. Twice.

"And it's killing me. That this thing that your going through-that I can't help you. That you'll cry and be misrable until you can admitt to yourself what's best. I can't help you see this. See what I've spent all of my time since you where born, trying to understand. You have so much to see for yourself. But shoving me away is going to get you no where. We are the same-in heart-in mind-in love. We handle things the same way. When you were a baby, I ran away for months, because I was going through what you are right now. That one day, I won't be able to have you. Frankly, I don't care anymore. One day, it might happen. One day, I may not see your face anymore or hear you voice. So why stay away from you because I'm scared. I want to have all the time I can with you-in case one day comes-and I'll be thankful for what we shared. I just want to be with you-for as long as I can-for as long as I get."

Shaking, the minature figure of the hybrid's body was shivering, nervous like she had been four months ago with him. When she was real-no lies-no hiding-her real reaction to his words was nervous-very nevrous.

"I can't let you go, Ness. Not for this. Not because your scared. I won't"

"I don't want you to..I don't want you to ever go away..I don't ever want to be without you again.."

"Then stop pushing."

"I can't-I can't just hold on to you and believe that no matter what we'll be together-cause everything I've ever done-everything I've been all my life has been because of that. Because I don't believe in you and me forever-I can't."

"I just want everything you want to give me."

"I want to give you everything that I have, but one day it will all be gone, and there will be nothing left of me."

"There will be nothing left of me, I don't want anything in return. I just want to give you everything Ness. I don't give a damn what's left of me. As long as I know I gave it all I had and held onto you until I can't."

With salty tears running down her face, the hybrid held onto Jacob's hands, where they layed on her cheeks.

"Why do you have all the answers?"

"I'm wise. I've been around longer."

For a moment, the imprintee glared at her feet.

"This isn't going to be easy."

"Your right, Ness. It's going to be hard. Really hard."

"And one day, if maybe no soon, we'll have to give up everything-everyone to keep eachother."

"Yes."

"And it'll hurt."

"This-us-it's going to be the most difficult thing i've ever done. But it will be the most treasured thing i've ever done. Being apart of your life, is something I will not comprimise-because it's what I was ment to do. What I was born to do."

"We were made for eachother."

Nodding, the imprinter's forhead pressed to the young half-vampire's marble skin.

"So no more running?"

"I'm right here, Jacob. I always will be."

'Hopefully..'