DON'T OWN ANYTHING. DON'T SUE ME. ONLY OWN KAMRYN (:
CHAPTER ELEVEN
One Week Into School.
"I really love that ring," Kamryn said holding Donna's hand up while sitting in their new home room. "Ope did really good," she continued grinning at the impressive diamond solitaire white-gold ring.
Donna nodded, her face covered in a cheesy grin. "It was his mom's but she gave it to him to give to me," she said almost jumping in her seat. "It was the most romantic thing ever."
Grinning, Kamryn gave back Donna her left hand and nodded. "I bet."
"Oh, how was your date with Max last night?" Donna asked her brows raised in blatant curiosity.
Shrugging, Kamryn turned her attention to the clock. "It was okay. I just, I want to take things slow. Like snail paced slow. It's only been like month since, you know..." she trailed off and shook her head.
Donna frowned sadly at her friend, who was in obvious distress over her ex. "Well, I think you should do what makes you happy. Stop worrying about what Jax is doing because I can guarantee you he's not thinking about what you're doing."
Kamryn's head jerked to Donna and her eyes widened. "What's that supposed to mean?" she asked quickly.
"Uh..." Donna started but then the bell rang and Donna shrugged and pointed at the teacher who turned from the board and looked at the students who were sitting in there seats.
Kamryn looked at the brunette next to her with questioning eyes, eyes that Donna was now avoiding.
What the hell did she mean?
/
Jax was laying down in his bed, smoking a cigarette while Tara was getting dressed next to him.
"I don't understand why you won't even think about it," Tara said exasperated while she shrugged on her black tee shirt. "It's a really good opportunity."
"Yeah, for you," Jax replied gruffly, and put out his shrunken cigarette in the ash tray beside his bed.
"But it would be great for both us," Tara said and sat down on the bed next to Jax. "It would be great for a new start."
Jax chuckled and shook his head. "You don't even know me, what makes you think I want a new start."
"I've seen things here, Jax," Tara said quietly. "I've seen enough to know that this is not exactly the best place to hang around."
"But your stayin' here anyway?"
Tara rolled her eyes and gave a heavy sigh. "If you have been listening to me anytime I talked you'd know I want us to go to Chicago."
"Listen, we've been together three weeks–"
"And it feels like I've known you for so much longer than that," she said indiginatly and, before he could voice his protest she gave him a soft kiss. "Just think about it, kay? I gotta go."
/
Donna had avoided her like the plague, the goody good girl even skipped lunch and second period so she wouldn't have to talk to her.
Kamryn was pissed and confused as hell.
She shouldn't care about what Jax was doing, Donna said he didn't care what she was doing. But... it was just so hard being here while she knew he was doing something. It was even worse that on the three dates she went on with Max her mind kept drifting over to what Jax was doing, or how he would make the date even better.
While walked home from school, Kamryn's mind was racing with thoughts she didn't hear the roaring of a bike behind her before they pulled up next to her.
Kamryn turned around, frowning immensley when she saw it was Clay. "Hi, Mr. Morrow," she said a little nervously while waving slightly.
Giving her a smile, Clay turned off his bike and looked at Kamryn. "Hey, Kamryn. Gotta question for ya I was hoping you could answer."
Sighing, Kamryn's shoulders dropped. "Look if it's about Jax, I haven't spoken to him for almost a month if you wanna know anything you should probably ask Tara."
Clay shook his head, his hand up slightly. "No, no, no. Not about Jax, per say. More about how much he told you."
Like a deer caught in the headlights, Kamryn's eyes widened, not knowing what to say.
/
"How's Luann holdin' up?" Jax asked his mom later on that day in the office.
Gemma brought down her reading glasses and swung them slightly. "Otto's being carted away this morning, how'd you think she feels? Ever since court, she's been a wreck."
Jax sighed and plopped down into the seat in the office and rand his hand through his hair aggressively. "This is all my fuckin' fault. Should be me getting sent away."
Shaking her head, Gemma stood up and walked over to her son. "Don't say that. Do not do this to yourself, Jax."
"Do what?"
"Drown yourself in whatever fucked up feelings your having," Gemma said harshly. "Otto did this so you could be out here, helping the club and help him get out."
"He's not getting out anytime soon, Gemma," Jax spat angrily. "With all the other offenses? It's a fifteen year sentence, with no possibility of parole. Where's the good in this?"
Gemma straightened and looked down at her son, feeling slight pity for him. He was kicking himself in the ass for doing what his V.P. told him to do. "You don't feel bad for this," she told him in a firm quiet voice. "You were following orders, and if you hadn't done that then you would be in there with Otto. And where's the good in that?"
"I should've saw the trap, there were barely any cars out, shoulda known," Jax insisted.
"Well you didn't, and I can tell you this," Gemma said and gently grabbed Jax's chin. "Otto isn't mad at you. But he'll be pissed if you lose your focuse over this."
/
"Uh, what do you mean, how much do I know?" Kamryn asked, her voice slightly shaky. She was upset with Jax, but she didn't want him getting in trouble for her. He really was telling the truth. It wasn't just his secret.
"I mean about the, uh, family business," Clay said in a conversational tone, using his hands while he talked. "You know much about it?" he asked a hand came up on his hip, his back slightly hunched.
Kamryn shook her head playing dumb. "No, not really. I mean, Jax never really told me how to fix any cars."
Clay raised his brows at her, over the rim of his sunglasses standing there for a moment without saying anything.
Then he nodded his head and a smile came on his face. "Alright, sorry about all this. Just really protective no family secrets get out, ya know?" The grin on his face didn't look so friendly know. "Can't let other people come on in and steal our business away."
Kamryn nodded, clinching the purse on her shoulder. "Absolutely understand, you know, my dad's a lawyer. I know how tight-lipped he gets about his affairs," she said nodding and frowned. "Didn't know mechanics were the same way?"
What the hell am I doing? He can kill me with one hand! She thought to herself but quickly said, "Sorry, but I gotta go." She hiked her thumb over her shoulder. "Got lots of things to do," she continued, eager to leave this conversation.
Nodding, Clay said, "Yeah, of course. Sorry for keeping you, better get on home."
Eagerly nodded, Kamryn didn't say anymore as she quickly turned away from him and walked home at a brisk pace.
Clay scared the hell out of her and she didn't want him to change his mind about letting her leave, but she knew one person she'd be calling soon.
/
"I can't believe you've never been here before," Max said grinning at her while holding Kamryn's hand.
Shaking her head, Kamryn looked at the grown trees around her and the ever-growing lake they were walking toward. "I guess I just never had any time."
"I'll take you here as much as you want," Max promised as they walked onto the wooden bridge over the lake.
"It's so peaceful here," Kamryn said in a wistful tone while leaning on the bar of the bridge.
"It's quiet," Max agreed wrapping his arms around her waist from behind while she stared at the sparkling water the setting sun gave it.
"It's perfect," she whispered and grinned when he gave her a soft kiss on the back of her head. "Could it be? Did you just kiss me?" she asked him and turned around in his arms.
"On the back of the head," Max said tilting his head in acknowledgment. "It wasn't a real kiss."
Wrapping her arms around his neck, Kamryn sighed. "Thank you for being so patient with me. I'm just, I'm a total head case right now."
"Hey, I've dealt with worse. One of my exes threw a flower pot at me because I got her flowers, apparently she was allergic," he said and winced looking at her cautiously. "I didn't just ruin this did I? With the whole exes conversation?"
Giggling at his nervousness, Kamryn shook her head. "No, you're fine," she assured.
"Good," Max said relieved. "I don't want anything to ruin this date. I put a lot of work into it."
Frowning inquisitively Kamryn looked at the bridge they were on and teasingly asked, "Oh you built this?"
Laughing, Max shook his head. "Alright, so I put a lot of thought into this."
"And this is definitely my new favorite place," Kamryn said nodding and looked up at him. "Thank you for bringing me here," she said and placed a soft kiss on the corner of his lips.
/
Max had just dropped Kamryn off at her house and all of the good nice feelings left her system while she marched into her house.
Opening up her door, Kamryn sighed in aggravation. Drake's bags were all over the flood of the little doorway and she groaned. "Seriously?" she muttered to herself while trying to get over the bags in front of her.
Sure, Kamryn was called a slob on occasion but at least she kept her mess in her bedroom and not scattered all over the house.
Finally getting passed the death trap, Kamryn began the walk through the living room to get to the staircase, but stopped when she saw her father and mother sitting at the dinner table in the dining room.
"I just don't see how we're gonna afford this," her mother said in a low tone. "My shop is good, but I have people to pay and this is not enough to cover your treatment and Drake's school. When is this agent supposed to be paying you?"
Ian ran a hand through his silvering hair while shaking his head slightly. "They're supposed to be doing a money transfer for about sixty thousand. I won the case I put the man in jail, I should be getting it any day now."
"Good," Maragaret said quietly and looked up. Her eyes widened when she saw Kamryn and she scrambled to put the papers on the table in a blue folder next to her. "Hi, how was you day? Need anything?"
Kamryn shook her head and frowned at her mother's anxiousness. "It was fine and no, I'm good."
"Okay, well then, why don't you head upstairs? Donna called for you earlier," Margaret told her conversationally.
Nodding, Kamryn said, "Thanks." Walking away from the dining room and going up the stairs Kamryn was thinking to herself the entire way up.
What the hell was in the blue folder?
/
Upstairs in her room, Kamryn changed out of her dress and into some old jeans and a tee shirt. She was going to talk to Jax about her little chat with Clay.
It was ridiculous. He had the balls to cheat on her but he had to get his step dad to ask her if she was going to say anything to anybody about what they do in their club.
She'd see Donna in school tomorrow and she was going to question her very tight lipped friend.
/
Sitting at the table outside the clubhouse, Jax had a cigarette and bottle of Jack in his hand. His head was pounding with the fucking information in his head right now.
Otto was servin' fifteen years, right now there was no V.P., there was a whole big pissing contest going on to see who'd get the patch, Cacuzaa's gave them another two weeks to get them their guns, and the fuckin' Mayan's were deciding to start up shit by going through Charming to transport their drugs.
This shit was never ending.
Then on top of that Tara was hounding him on going to fucking Chicago with her. Taking another pull of his cigarette, Jax still had a hard time gettin' his head wrapped around that.
Hearing the squealing tires of a familiar car, Jax's head shot up from the bottle he had been looking at and he saw the black 94 chevy swing into the lot like a bat outta hell.
Putting out his cigarette and the bottle, Jax quickly stood up and jogged to where the car was now shut off and where an angry Kamryn got out of the car.
"How dare you!" she immediately yelled at him and shoved him when he came close enough. "If you wanted to know if I was going to tell anybody your–"
A slightly buzzed Jax cut her off by putting a hand on the back of her head and one on her waist and pulled her toward him roughly. Landing his lips on her before she could protest. She was even more beautiful than she was a month ago when he last saw her. She cut her hair and it looked sexy as hell on her.
Putting her hands on his chest, Kamryn pushed at him, refusing to open her lips and gasped when Jax finally let her go. "What the hell are you doing?" she asked angrily.
Jax shook his head and ran a hand over his growing beard, which was in desperate need of a trim "Sorry, I just..." he shook his head trailing off. "Been a while since I saw you."
She raised her brows at him shocked. "You kiss everybody like that, that you haven't seen in a while?"
Looking down at her, Jax shook his head. "Just you."
He was committing every detail about her to memory. How her short hair was now choppy and layered on her shoulder, how her side bangs came to rest just under her eyes and her hair was in her natural curled state. Her hazel eyes were big and without make up, her loose tee shirt encasing his favorite asset about her..
"Dude, my eyes are here," Kamryn said pointing to her face. "Now, I'd appreciate it if you didn't have Clay come talk to me about stuff your to scared to ask me."
Jax frowned and looked at her like she was crazy. "I didn't ask Clay to ask you anything," he said and looked around before grabbing her hand. "Come with me."
/
Dragging and cursing and unwilling Kamryn throughout the clubhouse was interesting to say the least, even the double thumbs up and shit-eating grin Tig gave him on the way in was a little discretional to say the least.
"Jax, let me go," Kamryn said again, pulling on her arm to get him to release her.
Ha, fat chance, he thought to himself looking behind him for the moment at the angry red head. Now that she was within arm's reach they were gonna hash shit out.
/
Kamryn glared at the blonde as he locked the door behind him. "I did not come here to be locked in the bedroom with you. I came here to tell you not to send your dad to do your dirty work."
"Yeah, I got that. I'll talk to Clay about it," he assured her and he walked closer toward her until he was well into her personal space.
Crossing her arms, Kamryn tried not to act like it bothered her in the slightest. "Well, thanks. I just don't want anybody in here giving me a hard time or anything. And I wanted to say I'm sorry," she said hesitatingly. "I know my Dad was the one who put one of your members away. I also wanna make sure he's not gonna be on you're hit list or anything. He didn't do it for fun," she said defensively almost to the point of yelling.
"They won't be giving you or your dad a hard time and I know. Heard about the money transfer," Jax said easily, staring down at her, where Kamryn started fidgeting.
"Okay," Kamryn said nodding and side-stepped him. "Great little chat so I'll just be going now." But Jax's arm grabbed her forearms and he gently pulled her back toward him. "Wait a minute how'd you know about the money?" she asked flippantly.
"I have resources." Jax looked at her and all dropped the previous conversation. "We need to talk."
"There's nothing to talk about," Kamryn said. "You cheated, I didn't. I broke up with you. End of story."
"It's not the end of story," Jax told her seriously. "We got a lot of shit to work out."
"There is nothing to work out," she responded quietly. "I don't wanna talk about this. Not now, not ever. I really want to go home."
Dropping his arms, Jax backed up slightly. "Can't you just yell at me?" he asked, his arms thrown up beside him. "I don't know how to make this better."
"You can't," she told him. "Nothing you say or do will ever make this okay."
"Let me try," he persisted. "I will do anything for you, ya gotta know that."
Kamryn looked up at him unflinchingly. "Everything except be faithful, right?"
Jax winced at that and looked down at her. "I'm so sorry about that. Hell, I can say it a thousand times if you want me to."
Looking up at him, Kamryn's hazel eyes watered and she released a shaky breath. "You hurt me, Jax. I don't think you understand how much. Did I not satisfy you? I feel like I did something wrong to drive you to her. I was obviously not doing something right."
It felt like he had been shot, straight in the goddamned heart. This girl, who he loved so much, was standing before him crying because of him and what he did.
Putting his hands on her cheeks and gently wiping her tears away with his thumbs and whispered, "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry. Don't blame anything on yourself. This is all on me and my fucked up ways," he repeated, before laying a kiss to her forehead.
Kamryn's eyes closed as she let him hold her. "Why am I doing this?" she asked herself out loud. "You're the one that hurt my but I'm letting you hold me."
Jax gently picked up her head and placed a gently kiss on her lips. "Let me make it up to you. Please," he added.
Looking up at him, Kamryn didn't move toward him or away as he lowered his lips to her's.
Gently coaxing her lips open with his tongue, Jax nearly groaned when she opened her delicious mouth to him. He could never forget how she tasted.
His hand made their way down her waist slowly, stopping when he reached the hem of her shirt. He broke the kiss and looked down at her, questioningly.
She looked so vulnerable right then. Like the next thing he would do would either make her heart break or he could tape it back together.
So when she gave him a slight nod, Jax grinned down at her. "You won't regret it?" he asked her unsure, although his heart was pounding, he hands shaking at the thought of the chance of being inside her again.
"I just, I need you right now," she said shakily.
"I'm right here," Jax said giving her another kiss. "I'm right here."
Hello everyone! I'm so sorry that I didn't update in forever I had family issues that needed, and still do, me to be there. So please be patient with me during the next 3-4 weeks or so.
But... what the hell is going on in my story?! Why on earth is Tara still in the picture you ask? Well, it's because a... discussion will happen with her and somebody else and will end in either her staying or leaving and it will set up for the next story. I noticed some of you were showing concern about this turning into a Jax/Tara fanfic and no... it's not like that. It's a Jax and Kamryn why is all this shit happening to us fanfic (;
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