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Chapter 10: Blind
I awoke sometime early morning to find myself draped on Damon. My head had been buried on his chest with one leg strewn across his pale body. His arms were possessively wrapped around my waist. It seemed that even in our sleep we were a tangled mess. As I lifted my head up, I caught sight of the beautiful man that lay underneath me and not for the first time admired him. I felt my heartstrings begin to tug as I thought about him coming to my rescue, his heartfelt plea and his uncanny declaration. It was all too much. I rolled over carful not to wake him, and not for the first time admired that man before me.
The night before had been an eye opener for me. My mother was being held captive by my father in some kind of spell. That was shocker number one and of course number two had to do with Damon. I had to come to the terms that no matter what I would always love Damon; he was a part of me and that would never go away. Almost shakily I reached my hand out to fix his mused hair when I noticed the flashing lights on my phone. I screwed my face up confused because I hadn't brought my cell into the room with me, but silently thanked Stefan. It was his way of giving me an out and despite everything that was jumbled up inside of me, I knew I needed to take it.
Ever so carefully I slipped out of bed and retrieved my phone hoping that the little spell I had just whispered would keep Damon sedated while I made my next move. I looked around for something to wear as I traveled to the nearby closet where some of my clothes still lye all the while holding the phone up to my hear.
"What took you so long?" Caroline screeched through the phone.
"Caroline, I can't talk right now." I whisper. "Now is not a good time." I say into the phone.
"Oh hell no! I'm your best friend, and I'm bored. I'm stuck on this ship with my dad and I want details on your night with Mason? And don't lie to me I know you've been boning him so give me some details of how hot he was, what he said and what you did." she says in one breath.
I rolled my eyes and set the phone down on one of the tables in the ridiculous sized closet, while tugging on a pair of ripped blue jeans. "Actually we hit a snag." I say as grabbing a pair of my flip flops off the shelve. It amazed me to the fact that Damon had kept so much of my stuff here. I guess you could say that even when I was screaming at him and telling him I wanted nothing to do with him, he still kept the faith. One of the things I had always admired about Damon was the fact that he didn't give up, he was a fighter. That was probably also one of the things that I hated most about him, sometimes you needed to throw in the towel and admit defeat.
I pushed the phone off of speaker heading back into the bedroom. As Caroline speaks. "What kind of snag?"
I open my mouth to say something but im startled by the sight of Damon sitting up in bed a murderous look on his once peaceful features.
"You didn't think I'd let you leave that easy did you?" Damon asked. I felt my heart drop into my stomach and heard Caroline screeching in the background. I had never heard such bad language in my life!
"Bon, oh bon please don't tell me that's who I think it is? You went home with Damon?" Caroline asked on the other line.
I swallowed hard muttering that I would soon call Caroline back and clicked the phone off. "Damon. How long have you been up?"
He ignored her words and let out a huff. He thought they had gotten somewhere, he thought Bonnie would stop running from him yet here she was trying to run away, from what they both knew was right.
"So your just gonna try and dip out of here like nothing happen last night." He says while sitting up in bed. He had been awake for the past hour anticipating her next move and wasn't really surprised when she tried to leave without so much of a word. It had hurt though. He had revealed all to her, hoping that it would be the one thing that had brought them back together. They had shared a moment together. She had let him hold her and he thought they were getting somewhere, but like always she was running away from him.
I let out a shaky breath. I knew this was going to be difficult and that alone was the reason I wanted to avoid it, escape it. It wasn't that I was ungrateful for everything Damon had done for me. He had come to me when I needed him and that had meant the world to me. However I wasn't deluded into thinking that once his blood had passed through my system that everything between us would magically fall back into place. This went beyond Elena. It was about us. The odds were against us and we knew it.
I turned around to face him. "I know exactly what happened last night." I say closing my eyes for the briefest moments. I didn't want to hurt Damon but we both knew that we couldn't be together. Last night, had been rather extreme circumstances and that was why things had gotten so far out of control.
White hot anger rose in his chest causing him to march over to her. But when he cupped her cheek and she looked at him with those green eyes, realization nearly crushed him. "I know you're scared, I know I have a bad track record when it comes to you and Elena, but Bonnie," he says pausing as she looks into his eyes. "I promise I can make you happy." He says his voice raw with emotion. "And I can prove it, ask me anything and I'll tell you the honest truth."
I sucked in a breath. If we were being honest, I wanted the truth about that night.
He swallowed hard. "Before that night we shared a couple of kisses." He says pausing to see her face stoic. "It wasn't an affair that night had been our first time together. It was fast and choppy and a blur. It was something we wanted to forget and pretend never happen." He says his head down.
I say nothing to his words, knowing in my heart of hearts that-that night had been the nail in the coffin for the two of us. Not just because it ruined me and Damon, but me and Elena, and Stefan and Elena at the same time. Nothing would ever be the same and we all knew it. And maybe that was a good thing.
"Listen. I know I messed up, but I'm being honest...it's what you wanted." pause. "I can make you happy I just need you to give us another try." He says emotionally charged.
I cover his hands with my own. "I can't." I say as my heartstrings are being pulled like those of a marionette doll. "I'll always love you Damon...always." I say the last word coming out in the softest whispers although I know he's heard it. I look into stone cold eyes that are hard from my words and probably from the world in general.
He puts distance between the two of them needing to desperately get away from her because he didn't know what he'd do or say. "Because of Mason? Because you put all your fucking hopes and dreams into him?" he nearly screams and is not surprised when she doesn't jump at the thunder in his voice. He picks up a nearby glass, throwing it against the wall in a fit of anger. She had said she wanted him to save her, just once and he did it and it still didn't fucking matter.
I swallow hard as I chance a look in the direction of the door. If Damon wanted to talk, he needed to calm down because Stefan would jump at the chance to pummel his brother. " If you want to continue talking to me, you need to calm down." I say my tone laced with a warning. I didn't want to fight with him, I had been really tired of fighting with him, now I just wanted peace.
He chuckled sarcastically. Sometimes he just wanted to shake some sense into her, didn't she get it, he was in love with her and she was turning him down just like everyone else all for some rebound who was probably going to drop her once she confessed all that had happen last night. And of a part of him wanted that, he wanted her to feel like him so that she would know what it felt like to have your mistakes thrown in your face.
"He's a rebound Bonnie, and we all know what happens to rebounds." He says pausing. "They end up falling into black holes."
I perched my lips together momentarily. "We were a rebound." I say causing him to blink rapidly my way. "You remember that first night." I say pausing as we both let our minds travel that far back in time. "You confessed your undying love for Elena and she turned you down, and I-I was looking for something or someone to take the pain away..and that night it happen to be you."
He shook his head furiously. Sometimes he just wanted to shake her. He knew she was scared and she had every reason to be cautious but things changed. "You and I were more then a rebound and we both know it." He says holding her gaze. They were passion, fire, ice and complexity mixed up into one hot package. Together they had been unstoppable, nothing and no one could stop them..well except for Elena.
"Why?" I asked perplexed by his words. "Because you've convinced yourself that what we had was so special?" I asked as he blanched at my words.
He glared her way. "Because you'll never love him the way you love me." He says reaching out to touch her. "And he'll never love you the way I love you." She and Mason would never work and he knew it, and one day so would see it too.
I placed my hand on my hip. The way I loved Damon was so intense so, raw that it had nearly consumed me..it had consumed me. It was unhealthy and unstable. "Then I guess he wont hurt me like you did then?" I snapped back quickly regretting my words as they came out harshly. I didn't want to do this, but if we didn't do this we'd continue in circles. It was my fault. I had been so hurt that I kept running away from him but what we both needed was closure.
I watched as hurt slashed across his face and tentatively walked over to him."Whenever you hear people talking about love, you always hear how the person they love brings out the best in them. " I say pausing as emotion slams into me. This was hard- probably harder then I would have ever imagined because the blood that we shared had wrapped us in a cocoon together and hurting him felt like I was ripping myself apart as well. "We don't do that." I say placing my hand on his arm. "We fight, we tear each other down, breakup, makeup and continue as if nothing has happened."
He raises his hand out to tuck a wild curl behind her ear while leaning into her. "You act like it was all bad." He says his voice sounding fractured.
I looked up into crystal eyes and smiled and sad smile. "It wasn't all bad." I say turning away from him. "I remember the day I realized I was in love with you." I say pacing. "It was a pathetically hot day and you were working on your precious car. I had been watching you from inside the house." I say pausing to look over at him. "You looked hot or maybe I was just hot-" I say rambling. "Anyway I decided to bring you something to drink and since you don't drink anything other than bourbon and blood, I brought you bourbon with ice cubes." I say as my mind floats back to that day in particular. I could remember feeling so nervous even to meet eyes with him. "You gave me one of the most beautiful smiles I had ever seen." I say turning around to look at him. "I realized then that 1) Even your coveralls were black. 2) The despite the fact that you were under a car you managed to keep yourself clean and 3) I loved you."
He searches her face so intently and brings his arms out to grab a hold of her. She loved him, he loved her that was all that mattered. "If you love me and you know I love you then why are you doing this Bonnie?" he asked determine to understand her logic. Last night she had been in his arms and he felt it, felt the connection they had, felt her love for him. "You could have died last night." He said passionately as his eyes darted all over her face. She may have been still hurt by him and what he had done but the moment she was in trouble it was like he didn't care about anything but making things right. "And with your last thoughts you thought of me." He reminds her as she puts distance between the two of them.
"Bonnie, if that doesn't prove that maybe we're meant to give this thing between us another chance then I don't know what is?" he says almost pleadingly. He hated begging. He had begged Katherine to love him and she hadn't been able to do so, she had loved Stefan. He had begged Elena to admit that she had loved him and the ruling was still out on that one. Bonnie had loved him, openly, freely without pressure and now he was begging her to believe in the two of them.
I can't take the way he's looking at me, so open so hopeful. "Because," I burst while throwing my hands up in the air. "I loved you so much that it consumed me and I can't go back to that Damon." I say as the dam inside of me breaks as I begin to cry. He's in my face trying his best to comfort me but we both need this. "I can't" I say brokenly. "You and me together, you, me and Elena it was killing me." I say the last of the fight being sucked out of me. I was tired so tired all I wanted to do was stop hurting other people, Damon and Mason and stop hurting myself.
He wiped her face with his hands. He had never seen her break down like this. Every time they argued or tried to deal with any aspect of their past relationship she had broken down more and more and now, she was just broken. Someone had once said you have to hit rock bottom before climbing back to the top and he figured that this was their rock bottom.
"I already told you. I don't want Elena. You're the one I want; didn't I prove that last night?" he bellows his voice coming out loud and a bit unsteady as he was just as unsteady. He was tired of talking, words had always got in the way with them but actions had always proved more."I love you. I love you so fucking much." He says gripping her hip. He's pulled her closer to him with one hand while his other hand rest between them. His fingers are playing with her as he laves her exposed neck with open mouth kisses. She just needed to be reminded of everything, of those feelings she was trying to push aside and once he was inside she'd remember it all. She'd feel it all.
I closed my eyes briefly as I feel the familiar flames begin to lap at my skin, before halting what I knew he had planned. I pulled is face up to mine while green met ice blue. I cupped his face. "I know you love." I say tears falling freely.
He knew what she was going to say and didn't want to hear it. "Bon."
"But you love her too." I say knowingly. It was time we all dealt with the truth and moved on. Because none of us would be happy until this was truly sorted out, not Stefan who although he never spoke about it, was still hurt. Not Elena who was still torn between two brothers and not me, because regardless of what I said, I had kept Mason at arms length because of Damon, and I would never be able to move on, unless we finally let everything go. "I want more" I say weakly. " I need more...I deserve more." I say at this time my words are strong.
Her words were like vervain being poured over his skin. His head sunk low into her chest and he felt her lips placing a tiny kiss on his forehead. They were both breathing heavy, her more then him and when a crystal tear fell from his eyes he knew that it was over. He hadn't cried in over century not when Katherine told him she didn't love him, not when Elena did anything. Leave it to Bonnie to be the one to make him cry. He sniffs feeling foolish as he looks up into her teary green eyes.
"Bonnie, please." Emotion takes over him and he kisses her forehead, her cheeks, her chin.
I shut my eyes at the mere sight of him. I had never seen Damon so raw, so real and it was killing me as much as it was killing him. We needed this. We needed to say goodbye for real this time. I had always said that Damon was holding onto me but somewhere deep inside I was holding onto him just as much. "I'm not mad." I say nearly choking on my words, when he sends me a look, I chuckle despite myself though its hollow. "At least not as much as before." I say sniffling. " I knew what I was getting into- I always knew." I say pausing to let out a tiny sob. He soon wraps his arms around me and it feels so good and so bad at the same time.
After a long moment of silence I finally regain some sort of control over my emotions. The lights are flicking on and off as the windows are starting to open and shut. "And now I just want to be happy," I say pulling away from him so I could look into those glacier eyes. "And I want you to be happy to." I say tearfully. Despite everything I still believed Damon deserved to be happy, because it was all he ever wanted.
He hated feeling like this, feeling so exposed and raw yet here he was, swatting at crystal tears as they fell from his eyes. "You think you can be happy with Mason?" he asked his tone foreign to his own ears. Gone was the bravado the suave man that could charm the clothes of off any woman. He was now reverting back to his human form with his human emotions, which made him a pathetic mess.
"Yeah." I say wiping my face as my tears have finally seized. I was sure I looked a mess and soon tried to put as much distance from him as possible but he had other plans and brought me right back to his chest, where we held on for dear life. My head was tucked underneath his chin and he hugged me to his body. " This could be the worst thing I ever do. It could be the best. You and I could be meant to be together, maybe not. We owe it to ourselves to be happy to find happiness." I say as my voice gets stronger. "All I know is that you and I will never work if you don't see what is between you and Elena." I say my voice sounding monotone. I knew it would hurt like hell to see them but we both deserved to be happy and obviously together we weren't that happy.
He nods his head while walking over to the bar. He understands her logic, she can't give her heart out to him again until he can give her his full heart and if by chance he can never give her what she needed, she wanted to be happy and Mason made her happy. "You gonna tell him about last night." He says his eyes going over to the bed they had shared last night. He had been a gentleman last night, and relished in the moments she was in his arms.
I followed his line of vision and looked to bed as well. We hadn't been intimate, temptation had called out to us and if I hadn't stopped when I did we probably would have gone further then touches and kisses but we had slept in the same bed together and that was a line crossed. Mason deserved to know what happened. " Yeah, I can't lie to him." I say tearing my eyes from the bed as I look up at him.
"What are you going to do if he doesn't want you anymore?" he asked as their eyes held each others gaze.
I ran my hands through my curly hair. I had asked myself that same question. What if I had ruined something that had the potential to be really good for me? "I dunno, I guess I should go find out." I say pointing to the door. I walk over and soon open it when his voice causes me to stop.
"Bonnie." He says and when she turns around to face him he races over to her. He needed one last taste before they finally said goodbye. He looked her way, blue eyes imploring and he knew she needed this too. It was time to close this chapter of their lives, and say goodbye. With his hands braced on either side of her face, he dips his mouth down low to her, ever so slowly before capturing her lips. And so he kissed her, with everything he had inside of him. He kissed her like a man going to war, like a man saying I love you and most of all, like a man saying goodbye.
I pulled back barley able to catch my breath and that was when what little control I had slipped away. I started to cry again. This hurt, but getting back together in the near future would hurt more. I cried into his chest, I cried till the tears soaked his chest. And when I finished, I looked up into those eyes that would haunt me forever and said goodbye. "Goodbye Damon." I walked out of his room down the hall when suddenly he appeared in front of me.
"Bon, do you-do you think we could ever be friends?" he asked gripping her elbow. He knew he was prolonging the inevitable but he just wanted to know, if maybe he could have a little bit of her in his life. He had never been friends with any woman but he was hoping that he could try with Bonnie, as long as she was still in life in some sort of way. They had never been friends before. At first they hated each other, then they lusted after each other and then they were together. "I know we'll never be like you and Stefan but do you think one day, we could just be?"
I smiled sadly his way. I didn't know if I could do it but I guess it would be better then avoiding each other. "Maybe one day."
"I'll be looking forward to it." He says watching as she travels down the hall. He knows she's run to Stefan and tries to block out the voices. Turning around he caught sight of Katherine in one of his brothers shirt while she stood in the doorway. "I'm not in the mood." He says bouncing onto his bed.
"I know. We heard you." She says leaning in the doorway. "For what it's worth I'm sorry."
He chuckles sarcastically. "Don't patronize me."
He clicks her tongue. "I'm not here to here to preach to you or to offer a shoulder to cry on because we both know that is not me." She says pausing to push her curly hair out of her face. "I just came to tell you that sometimes they come back." She says before leaving him alone.
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I found Mason in the Lockwood gym boxing or sparing with one of his friends I had met at the party. In the corner I watched as the two men continued to spare. Mason was quick on his feet and with every jab I could feel his anger and frustration as if it was rolling through the air. The full moon was near so I knew he was doing all he could to keep the beast at bay. I watched silently as the two men continued to spar when they finally took a break and noticed me.
"Don't stop on my account." I say with a tiny smile on my lips. "I can wait till you guys are finished." I say sitting down on the bench. The Lockwood gym was huge and was fully equipped with everything you could need, from a swimming pool, boxing ring, and everything else that you would normally see in a gym. When I had been dating Tyler this was the place he had gone to when he felt like the world was caving in on him, he'd work out and train for everything and I would be his cheerleader sitting in the stands telling him he could do any and everything.
The moment he saw her, he knew it was time to kick Jase to the curb. He loved his friend dearly and he was glad that Jase had been the one person to help keep his mind off of Bonnie, but really he just wanted to be alone with her. Silently he took of his gloves all the while looking over at the girl who had been on his mind all night. He hadn't been able to sleep and wink and when he did actually try to sleep his mind kept reminding him of the history that was shared between Bonnie and Damon and the fact that he had fed her his blood. It was a known fact that once a supernatural being had a sip of supernatural blood it had similar effects as one being intoxicated or high. And he was sure that Damon had used that fact against Bonnie.
"Bonnie.' He says a grin playing on his features. He would be lying if he said he wasn't happy to see her. He had spent his whole night worried about her, worried about what the blood in her system would mean to the two of them. He personally knew the effects of sharing blood. Blood of another supernatural always affected your judgement. He had once been in love and let Katherine drink from him, while he had been in love with her and she had let him take a sip of her one time as well. Though they had never shared blood at the same time, he could remember the feeling that had surrounded him the moment he tasted the blood of the dangerous vampire. He felt like had been under her spell, and he had been for a very long time after that.
He cleared his throat. "You remember Jase." He says looking over to his friend who had a small smirk playing on his lips. Jase had been a good friend and had listened to him rant and rave about the vampire. He had even offered to go with him to the Salvatore manor to get Bonnie. He had declined though, he and Bonnie weren't serious, though they had spent a great deal of time together, he didn't want to come off like a jealous boyfriend.
"Hi Jase." I say waving over at him. I felt my skin heat up by the way Mason was looking at me and felt like a deer caught in headlights. I wondered if he could tell that something had happened? I ran my hands through my curly hair trying to calm my nerves.
"Hey Bonnie." He says smiling kindly over at the girl who had his friend in knots all night. He looked between the two and suddenly felt like the third wheel. He had never seen Mason so intense and Bonnie she seemed to giving it right back, when she wasn't shying away.
The blond clapped his hands decided it was time to vacate the gym. "Well I'm gonna head home since I didn't get any sleep last night. " He says eyeing his friend. "Thanks to someone who was beyond paranoid." He says again only to be ignored. He shook his head and soon vacated the gym leaving Mason and Bonnie the alone time they both wanted so badly.
"I thought I wouldn't see you till tonight, since you guys have that rule about sharing blood." He said while putting away the boxing equipment away. When finished he turns her way and noticed how young she looked today. Her hair was down in its natural curly state and she wore and headband as well. She looked all of her eighteen years and that alone made him get his emotions in check. Bonnie was young and he didn't want to come off demanding or anything like her ex boyfriend because he wasn't. He liked her, and sometimes he forgot that this beautiful girl in front of him, this beautiful witch in front of him was still a teenager at heart.
I shrugged my shoulders and picked off a piece of lint off of my leggings before meeting his honest and open blue green eyes. "That had been the plan but...things change." I say surprised when Mason is suddenly in front of me, his big hand underneath my chin.
"You've been crying." He says noticing her red rimmed eyes. He swears that if that damn vampire has done anything to hurt her, it'll be his last move he'll ever make and instead of being undead- he'll be really dead. "What happen?" he asked his voice soft.
I smile almost sadly his way. Mason was good for me, he was good to me and if he could understand what happen last night then we could be good together. I had come to the startling conclusion while on my way over to the Lockwood mansion that nothing in my life had been simple. I had barley turned eighteen and already I was in situations that were probably way beyond me. I had a vampire who I could openly admit I was addicted to, I loved Damon and I always would but I wanted more, then the uncertainness that came with loving him...being with him. And then their was Mason, a werewolf quite could be everything I had ever wanted in someone, that is if he could understand everything with Damon.
"We need to talk." I say looking up into his blue green eyes. I can tell by the look on his face he's expecting the worst, and for the life of me, I wish I didn't have to do this. But it had to be done, I needed to own up to mistakes and let the chips fall where they fell.
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We had traveled along the property in strained silence before finally coming to a stop by the lake.
Reaching out for his hand I let out a shaky breath before smiling. "First I want to start of saying, I like you...I like you a lot."I say simply. "The last couple of weeks we've been hanging out and I haven't had this much fun a very long time." I say pausing and I can tell by the look on his face that he is waiting for the other shoe to drop.
"Why do I get the feeling that there is more to this conversation then you liking me?" he questioned casting a sideways look in her direction. He had known the moment that she had left with the Salvatore brothers that the idea was a bad one. He didn't give a shit what either vampire wanted, he knew that Bonnie being in that house especially after everything that had occurred with her mother was a bad idea. She was emotional and vulnerable and that combination along with her ex had been a recipe for disaster.
I turned around to face him. "Something happen last night, something you aren't going to like." I say pausing to bite on my thumbnail. I had normally been so self assured and assertive but today I felt like a little girl who was entirely too emotional. Crying had never solved any of my problems in the past yet I felt like that was all I wanted to do.
He let out a sound that was between a snort and a harsh breath. He could only imagine what had happen. And his gut was telling him it had something to do with Salvatore and not the one that he could at least tolerate. He saw it in her eyes yesterday. Damon had come to her rescue and it was like she was seeing fucking hearts, stars and rainbows in the sky. And then their was Damon he had been so smug, he had boost about giving Bonnie his blood almost taunting him with the knowledge that she had a piece of that smug s.o.b. running through her bloodstream.
"Did you sleep with him?" he asked not being able to hide his anger or disappointment.
"No! I couldn't do that to you or myself...hell I couldn't do that to Damon either." I say chancing a look in his direction to see that his burly body was rigid. "He kissed me and I.. I kissed him back." I say as the image replays in my mind. "We were emotional from all the fighting and everything in between." I say closing my eyes briefly. "And we got caught up in the moment and in our past." I admit and it was the truth. "But I stopped it before we could have gone down the road of no return." I say as Mason crosses his arms in front of his chest.
Silence
He clicked his tongue and successfully walked around her. He had feelings too and just like her he had been hurt by someone he had really loved, he understood her, but cheating was something he was against. And if she couldn't let go of Damon then he didn't see a reason why the two of them should hang out. He cared about her, more then he should, so early but that didn't mean he was willing to play second fiddle not to Damon Salvatore.
"The moment you left I knew that something like this would happen." He said turning sharply to look at her. He would never forget the look in her eyes it was almost like Damon had given her reason to believe he loved her.
"Why because im so weak?" I asked my voice strong as I stood inches from him. Once upon a time I had been weak for Damon. I would have done anything for him, and it didn't matter how much it hurt me as long as the end result would make him happy. I was admittedly addicted to him, and it went way beyond the sex...I was just addicted to him. But the silver lining of it all came this morning and last night. I didn't give into temptation last night and it had been screaming for me to fall back into old habits and most importantly, I willingly walked away from Damon this morning and that had shown growth on my part.
"No." He says fiercely. He didn't think Bonnie was weak, he thought she was a young girl who had fallen in love with a century and half old vampire. She had been with Damon for a long time and for a girl who was still in her teens that said a lot. "You said it yourself, you loved him so much that it consumed you."
I let out a shaky breath and walked into his direction so that I stood in front of him. I reached out and took his big hand into my own. "That was before I realized that being with someone didn't have to hurt all the time." I say licking my dry lips as blue green eyes stare down at me. "I'm not gonna lie. I love him." I say causing blue green eyes to swirl with anger and hint of disappointment. "But that doesn't mean that he and I could be together again."
He dropped her hand and walked away as he tried to calm down. He hated the thought of Damon using her feelings against her and hated even more that he cared so much, but he did care more then he had wanted to admit. Bonnie had deserved more than Damon Salvatore, she deserved more then being used a crutch because he was hung up on one of his friends. He had a feeling that if Bonnie was willing to really give the two of them a chance, they could be something really good. However he had no intention on being the fallback guy, if Bonnie wanted to be with Damon, he couldn't stop her.
Soon she was in his face her eyes pleading and when she reached out for his hand, he felt a spark run through his body. "What do you want Bonnie?" he asked his voice coming out scratchy and raw. Damon had done to Bonnie what Katherine had done to him and that was mind fuck him. He wanted to save Bonnie, but he couldn't do that if she didn't want him.
I smile. I had always been the type of girl who owned up to everything I did, said and felt. The only time I had been utterly confused had been
"I-I want you Mason." I say feeling exposed. I had enjoyed my time with Mason I liked that their wasn't any pressure with him and nothing had ever been heavy except well, this whole thing but aside from that-I had fun with Mason and I wanted to continue to have fun. When he says nothing, his silence says enough. I pull away from him giving the two of us some much needed space. "What happen between me and Damon was wrong...what I let happen was wrong. I'm not the girl who cheats on people or lie." I say pausing mid pace. "I'm sorry." I say finally before turning on my heel. It was understandable to me if Mason couldn't accept my apology. I had trouble forgiving myself and I knew how difficult it was to forgive and forget.
I wait another moment before starting my walk back to the main house. I needed to grab my keys and then I'd get the hell out of dodge. I get about ten feet away with suddenly a hand has reached out for me halting me my movements.
"You're forgiven." He says as his thumb traces shapes on her wrist. "I want you to." He says not being able to resist those green eyes and that smile. She could have done worst, he had been they're and done that so he couldn't throw stones. Their was something about her that he couldn't walk away from and he prayed he never would have to do so.
When she turns his way and smiles, all he can to is bring her closer to his body, as he whispers into her ear. They may not be serious right now, but if one day she wants out, he just wants her to be honest with him, and before you know it, they are sealing the new arrangement with a kiss.
DS-DS
Damon
The sound of the doorbell made him groan as he made the trip from second story music room. He had been listening to sad songs like a heartbroken teenager. As the doorbell continued to ring, he made his way to the corridor of the living room at a snails pace.
After a long talk with himself...to himself he had realized that everything that had cumulated between he and Bonnie, every word that hadn't passed his lips, everything he had failed to do, say, or show had been the result of the other woman in their relationship. He loved Bonnie, he really did but he knew that his love for Elena although it had been back burned the last couple of weeks, would continue to be in the way of the two of them. He had been in love with two women, he chuckled darkly to himself. No he had been in love with two girls, that had hardly had a chance to live, they were still very young and he had come in wanting anything and everything from both of them.
Drink in hand he finally made his way over to the door revealing non other then Mason Lockwood. He had been expecting him, If the shoe was on the other foot he too would have done the same thing. If anyone had dared to go as far as he had gone with Bonnie while the two of them were even sex buddies he would have made sure the guy would never see the light of day again, because even when he and bonnie were just "sexing each other" they were much more.
"Mason." he said his stance reminiscent of Jack Sparrow, drink in hand knees slightly bent. The wolf says nothing and soon walk past him. A smirk plays on his lips as he closes the door behind him and finishes off the rest of his blood before turning to the wolf. "I guess it's safe to say Bonnie talked to you." he says, his tongue all but spelling her name out. He could still taste her on his tongue, that last kiss nearly scorched him. And then their was the fact that he sampled some of her sweet blood, it had his body humming in pleasure while his mind was thinking of all the ways he had screwed up.
"Yeah" Mason said his fist clenched. When he thought about what had happen last night it made him sick to his stomach. He knew Damon was going to try and take advantage and as predicted her did just that. He didn't blame Bonnie, no he blamed her leech of an ex boyfriend. And he had come here to settle the score, they both knew it was bound to happen, he wouldn't let Damon continue and interfere with what he had going with Bonnie anymore. It stopped today.
" Last night was the last time you will ever touche her.. You mess with her head...confuse her. But not anymore. She's with me and I wont let you ever hurt her again." he gritted out fists clenched as he eyes the vampire. He knew that the vampire had used all his tricks to play on the girl that had been so heartbroken over him and he had come here to stake his claim and beat the hell out of the vampire as well.
Blue eyes rolled as he looked over at the wolf. He mimicked the stance the wolf was doing. It was time they finally fought. It was no secret he had hated the wolf. Call it vampire rule of thumb or maybe it was jealousy. He hated the man before him, and not just because he was a wolf, but because he might actually make Bonnie happier then he ever could.
"It must be hard for you, knowing that no matter what you do, how you stake your claim she'll always love me." He asked a bubble of laughter brewing. It was freaking hilarious to watch the wolf puff his chest out and pace back and forth, but in the end it would mean absolutely nothing. He and Bonnie were connected, and nothing could ever really sever that tie, not Mason and not Elena.
"She wont love you forever." the wolf says with a grin. "But you on the other hand, you'll be pining away for her for a very long time.' Mason says grinning. "The joys of being a vampire." he say sarcastically. "You'll spend the rest of your dead life regretting losing the girl with the green eyes, while I have a chance to be her everything." blue green eyes dance.
He chuckled, it was obvious Mason wanted to go, he wanted to fight, then they'd fight. He was trying not to break his ass because Bonnie would be pissed but he figured this was bound to happen. "You wanna go?" he asked revved up, like a car about to drag race. The wolf was just as ready, and when the charged for him he knew it was go time.
He threw the first punch connecting with the mouth with the wolf. In turn Mason had started hitting his body. They had attacked one another causing furniture to break as they rolled on the floor. This was a fight that had needed to be done. He had the wolf in a headlock pulling tight on his neck and when the wolf was gasping for hair he whipped out a peace of wolf bane shoving it down his enemies throat. Just as he shoved the plant down he felt a sting and realized he had been pricked with a needle and that he knew was full of vervain.
Both in a drugged out state. The two still fought but not as hard. For the most part they were still doing better then the average humans. Mason had charged for him and punched him in the eye while he had worked on bruising the ribs of the overgrown dog.
"You stay the hell away from her." Mason growled after being thrown across the room and landing on a table. He lye on his back in pain, feeling as if he had been run over my a train.
Sluggishly he made his way over to Mason who was now lying on pile of wood. He could see the wolf was tired and so was he. "I could kill you right now and not even think twice." he said looking down at the man before him.
"Go ahead, Bonnie would see what kind of man you really are"' Mason says grunting in pain.
He kicked the wolf for the hell of it. "I wont though. But not for you but for her."he said meandering sluggishly over to the bar. He wanted to do so much more to Mason, he wanted to leave him crippled, beat him within an inch of his life but he wouldn't because Bonnie, would never look at him the same. She would look at him like he was a monster and after finally being her hero he didn't want to let her down.
Mason stood up and watched the vampire drink from the bottle. "Now you give a damn about her. You didn't care about her when you were trying to seduce her and don't give me the bullshit. Bonnie may believe that it was the blood that was making you act accordingly, but we both know that was all you. She was affected by the blood and you-you manipulated the situation but you still lost because I didn't end things with her." Mason says a smile on his lips.
He gritted his teeth. Was Mason daring to gloat in his fucking face? He spoke his voice deadly. "The only reason why you've won is because I let her go." he said his voice dripping with hatred. He was willing to give Bonnie what she wanted her freedom, but that didn't mean he loved her less.
Mason walked over the vampire unaffected by his tone. Everyone tipped toed around Damon Salvatore but he didn't give a flying fuck. He wasn't afraid nor did he care about his feelings. "You may think you have everyone fooled, Bonnie even but I know that her choosing me, is gonna eat away at you and the moment you get your going to try and come between us." he said chuckling. "Come after us and you'll start a war that might just end in finally ending your undead one." Mason said walking over to the door.
For his part Damon was unimpressed as well. "Don't think because you have her now that it'll last long. I'll always be in the back of her mind, inside of her heart. What you have together may be fun and easy but she will always be mine Mason." he says not surprised when the wolf storms out slamming the door behind him.
DS-DS-DS
He found himself on the familiar doorstep jilted and angry which wasn't a good combination but he didn't really care. Misery had always loved company and Elena was his only company at the moment.
"Damon, what the hell happen to you?" Elena asked upon seeing the bruise on his face.
He walked past her and found a seat in the living room. "I could ask you the same thing." he said noticing the cut across her cheek.
She bit her lip thinking back to what had happen last night. She had challenged Katherine to a fight and by slapping the hell out of the vampire. Katherine in turn had scratched her face and was about to do more when Stefan had surprisingly stepped in putting an end to the whole thing. She had never been more thankful to her ex boyfriend then in that moment. "Katherine, and I got into an argument. I slapped her-she scratched me and was about to do more but Stefan stopped it." she said looking over at him as she sat on the couch beside him. Her mind quickly went back to the night before. For a split second she saw the man that she had fallen for in Stefan, he had saved her from a beat down from Katherine and when they locked eyes she thought she had him, that the real Stefan had come back, but then it was gone just as he, as he had disappeared
When Elena had dared to touch just beneath his eye he moved far away from her. "I got in a fight with Mason Lockwood." he says a smirk forming on his lips, he beat the hell out of the wolf, and would gladly do it again if he ever dared to step to him again.
She rose her brows and folded her hands in her lap. She had known Damon was a hot head and Mason was the same it was just odd hearing that the two were fighting over Bonnie. In fact she had never really seen Damon fight anyone unless they were deemed the bad guy, but she had heard that Stefan had put a beating on Damon for breaking Bonnies heart. "So you guys were fighting over Bonnie?" she deduced.
"Yeah" he said with a simple shrug of his shoulders. He was almost comical that he hadn't fought for Bonnie earlier, he had always been fighting for Elena, fighting to save Elena. And then after she had walked away from him, he wanted to fight for her, he wanted to save her and even that had come too late.
It was odd hearing Damon talk about Bonnie, because despite the fact that Bonnie and Damon had been together for about two years, that subject had always been glazed over. However now that they were talking about Bonnie more, she could hear the words that Damon had always been afraid to say...he was in love with Bonnie.
"I love her. "He said suddenly as his eyes landed on a picture frame of the girls, it was one of those double sided frame and enclosed was a photo of the girls in their cheer uniforms while the other side held a picture of them on graduation day. In each picture the girls were hugging, Caroline and Elena were flocking to the sides of Bonnie hugging her tight and the sight made him smile despite himself. "And she loves me." he says placing the frame back onto the mantle.
She swallowed hard, it seemed like Damon would be getting everything he wanted back, while she sat and watched as Stefan paraded around with Katherine. It was a bit of a shock to realize for the first time in a long time, that the Salvatore brothers were moving on without her. "Did she tell you that?" she asked as nonchalantly as possible.
"Yeah." he said as his mind went back to her finally admitting that she still loved him. It should have made him feel much better but it still hurt, knowing that they could never be what they wanted...at least not right now.
"So are you two getting back together?" she asked thinking back to the night before. She had seen Bonnie and Damon just as most as Mystic Falls had seen the two of them on the dance floor. Even from afar, even knowing that they weren't on the best terms she could openly admit, that they looked perfect together.
Immediately he stood up at her words walking over to stand by the window, as he looked out. It was painfully broody and something Stefan did so often, but in this instant it had calmed him. "No" he said he back to her. "I told her the truth about that night, and everything that I thought she needed to know before that night." he said as a gasp escaped her mouth from across the room.
"I love her," he says again. "And she loves me, but she cant get passed what happen. She cant let herself trust me again or believe that I wont run back to you." he says through gritted teeth. "And most importantly she cant began to fathom ever getting back with me until you and I figure out what's between us." he says whirling around to see Elena looking pensive.
She ran her hands through her long brown hair. For her part the thought of exploring things with Damon scared her, that was why she had always run away from it. If they actually gave into the whatever was between them, she feared that their would be no coming back from it, and if she hadn't already lost Bonnie and Stefan, then she'd lose them for sure. "Damon.' she says finally meeting his eyes and it was then that his face said everything she needed to know. They weren't just doing this for their own selfish reasons but for Bonnie and Stefan as well. Until they figured out what they had everyone else was doomed as well.
"Elena.' he called and his words sounded painful even to his own ears.
She licked her dry lips. "So you're saying that the only way we can have a shot with Stefan and Bonnie is if we give into whatever it is between us?" she asked slowly as Damon had come to sit next to her on the sofa.
"That's exactly what I'm saying." he said as the two of them sat side by side. He felt her eyes on him and looked her way.
Silently they sat together, it was time for them to grow up.
