Hello everyone. I am sorry it has been kind of long since I last updated.
I changed chapter two a little bit. Bella was in the hospital for 6 months now, not 3 weeks. One of my reviewers pointed out that it would have to be much longer than 3 weeks due to physical therapy and such. I agreed, so I changed it.
Also realize that Bella is now 19. She never wanted to become 19, but that was how it worked out because of her accident.
Someone said that Bella would definitely be able to walk again after the change. Well, I believe that something as big as paralysis would find a way of showing itself even as a vampire.
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And Alice's vision. I was going to get better. I was going to be able to walk! But I wanted to know how long it would take for that to happen. Jasper had said it wouldn't happen right when I woke up. I would possibly have to wait years.
But I could do it. I would do it. I would wait as long as I had to. I had to trust Alice. After all, she was never wrong…
Bella's Point of View
It was now ten o'clock. Edward and Carlisle were the only ones in my room. Everyone else was waiting anxiously downstairs in the living room.
"Are you sure you want to do this?" Edward whispered as Carlisle prepared a seringe of morphine to possibly lessen the pain of the change.
"Yes Edward. I am more then sure." I smiled as he leaned down and kissed me.
"Jasper told me about Alice's vision," he said.
I smiled. "It's exciting, isn't it?"
He smiled his crooked smile at me. "Yes it is." He paused and then continued. "I just want you to know that I will be there for you for as long as it takes. I will help you as long as I need to until you can walk again. And even then, I will always help you."
A single tear slid down my face and Edward wiped it away. "Why are you crying?" he asked, worried.
"I am happy. I love you so much Edward."
"I love you too Bella." He leaned over and kissed me.
Just then, Carlisle walked over to the bed. "Are you ready Bella?" he asked.
I nodded. "Yes Carlisle. Let's do this."
He smiled at me and then turned to Edward. "Are you ready Edward?" he asked.
"Yes," he answered with determination clear in his voice.
"Good. Now, you will have to bite her more than once."
Edward nodded solemnly.
"You will need to bite her once on each side of her neck and then once on each leg. This will help the venom spread faster."
"I know," Edward said.
Carlisle turned to me. "Do you want the morphine now or after the bites Bella?" he asked.
I thought about it. "After. If you give it to me before, some of it would just be sucked out by Edward."
Carlisle nodded. "I will give it to you right after the last bite."
"Okay," I whispered. I was excited, but I was getting nervous now. I didn't particularly like pain.
"Okay Edward. Do it."
Edward leaned in and kissed me on the lips. He pulled away and positioned my head. He leaned into my neck and whispered, "I love you so much Bella," before biting me.
Immediately, the pain began. Fire was coursing through me. It burned so badly, but I didn't scream. I didn't want to startle Edward.
After about five seconds, he pulled away and bit into the other side of my neck. I bit my lip in order to contain the scream that was rising in my throat.
Another five seconds later, he pulled away and bit into my left leg, just above the ankle.
It was getting harder not to scream. I closed my eyes and concentrated all of my power on keeping quiet. Although I couldn't feel him bite into my other leg, I knew he had done it, because the pain increased.
Before he had bit me, I thought I wouldn't be able to feel the change as much because of my paralyses, but I was wrong. I was so wrong.
Edward came up to me and kissed my cheek. "Okay Bella. Carlisle is going to give you the morphine now."
I couldn't take the pain anymore. It was coursing through my whole being. I was on fire!
I let out a high pitched scream. I wanted to squeeze something! I wanted to be able to thrash around at least a little bit. But I couldn't. So instead, I just kept turning my head from side to side. I continued to scream so loudly that I was sure everyone in the world would hear. But I didn't care.
I didn't even know Carlisle had given me the morphine until he whispered, "Okay Bella. That should help a little bit."
The only problem was, it wasn't helping at all. The fire still continued to course through my veins.
"Edward!" I screamed.
"I'm here," he said. I could tell he didn't like this at all.
"It isn't working! It isn't helping!"
"Carlisle," Edward yelled. "Why isn't it helping her?"
"I wasn't sure if it would help," he stated calmly as I let out another scream. "My only explanation for it not helping is that the pain is just too much that even morphine can't take it away."
Edward let out a cry and got onto the bed with me. I opened my eyes and continued screaming as he wrapped me tightly in his arms. "It's okay Bella. It is going to be okay."
I heard the door close and figured that Carlisle had left. Edward was shaking now. He was dry sobbing. He didn't want to see me in this kind of pain.
"I'm so sorry Bella. I'm so sorry," he cried.
I wasn't helping anything by screaming. So I bit down on my lip to keep it in. I bit down too hard though, and blood started to go down my chin.
"Bella!" Edward shouted. He grabbed one of the towels Esme had prepared and wiped my mouth. "Don't do that. It's okay to scream. Don't hold it in."
"I…don't…want…to…worry…you," I struggled to say.
"Bella, stop being brave. Just scream!"
I couldn't hold it in anymore, so I screamed. I screamed louder then I thought was possible. I continued to scream as Edward hummed my lullaby, trying to help me feel better.
It was day two of the change. My throat was so sore from screaming that I couldn't produce any sound anymore. I had lost my voice.
Every now and then, I would open my mouth and scream silently. Mostly though, tears ran down my face relentlessly. I was sobbing. It hurt so badly! I wanted it to be over with!
Edward continued to rock me and hum my lullaby. I wished I could open my eyes and look at him, but I kept them closed tightly. Since I couldn't squeeze something, I had decided to scrunch up my face.
I was glad Edward was with me. I didn't know if I could have come this far without him.
It was day three of the change. The pain was still awful, but I couldn't find it in me to show that pain anymore. I was so exhausted.
So I opened my eyes and stared at Edward as the tears kept falling from my face. My voice had come back a little bit, and every now and then, I would let out a little moan. But other then that, I kept quiet. It didn't help anything or anyone for me to be screaming.
At the end of day three, I could feel my body growing weaker. Although I couldn't feel most of my body, I knew it was starting to shut down. My breathing grew labored. Sometimes, I found that I couldn't breath at all. It scared me badly, and I would freak out, but Edward comforted me.
"It's okay Bella. It's almost over. Just hang in there. Close your eyes and try to sleep."
I closed my eyes and concentrated on my breathing. Every now and then, I would go a few minutes without breathing at all. I would feel myself drifting off, but then I would come back with a gasp and I would breathe again. It was always very labored.
Eventually, my heart stopped altogether. I stopped breathing. I waited for it to begin again, but it wouldn't. I passed out into blackness.
I hope you liked it. I tried to be descriptive about it. Tell me if it was too much.
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