Bella wrote heartfelt letters to everyone else.. and now I'm going to read mine and she will tell me how much she hates me.
Why do I have so little control! She was my little sister I am meant to protect her!
"Dear Jasper ,
First of all I do not blame you for the party and what happened. Did you realise you were feeling the blood lust of every other vampire in that room that night? Excluding maybe Dad. I know you don't believe this but I will never ever blame you.
YOU ARE MY BIG BROTHER AND I DO NOT BLAME YOU!"
She doesn't blame me?! I can't believe she doesn't blame me.
"Do you understand now?
One day I wished I could hug you, tell you how much you meant to me. I have so much respect for you because you are so strong and mean so much to your family, I know you do not have the same up bringing as your family and for that I have a deeper respect for you because you have it a lot harder than them."
Oh sweet little sister of mine you have no idea how much that means to me...
"I wonder if you felt the love I felt for you, I remember when I asked Edward to change me one day in the meadow he asked me why and I said how I wanted to be with the family for all eternity. That means you included. You may not have been as close to me as Alice or Edward or maybe even Emmett but I still felt for you. That day I had daydreams of what it would be like hunting or wrestling with my brothers. I was tempted to ask you to take me hunting one day so I could get to know you better."
Bella actually wanted to know me? She wanted me to teach her to hunt! DAMN MY STUPID LACK OF CONTROL I SHOULD HAVE BEEN THERE FOR MY SISTER!
"I am alone now, and it scares me more than before. I know I have been alone all my life but I knew the love of a family now.
It was so weird when I came out of my catatonic state, it made me realise that life really is a bitch. I want you to know that I will always love you, And when I die in a few days it is not your fault... Unless of course you want to think it is so it makes it funnier for you. I know how much you and Alice and all of the Cullen's want to laugh at me through the hatred they feel for me.
Believe me Edward told me alright."
WAIT TILL I GET MY HANDS ON THAT SON OF A BITCH ILL RIP HIS FUCKING HEADOFF!
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He left me in the wood's you see? He told me how much of a burden I was to all of you and how much I was a pet to you all.
I didn't believe it at first, I thought to myself that my sisters and brothers and parents would never do that to me. I guess things were pretty twisted in my mind compared to the rest of yours. Is that all I was to you all? A pet.
I know realise I was only kept around because the smell of my blood sensitised you all so much.
I guess I really was that dumb to think you loved me huh?"
No Bella you weren't dumb.. god damnit what did us leaving do to you!
"I thought I would only tell this to Carlisle.. but I realise I want to tell you now, About how I cut myself and burnt myself to the point that I could finally feel something again instead of this mind stilling numbness. It was like the pain could lift the blanket covering my brain for a few moments. I realise now I did it to get rid of as much of this precious blood you all loved.
I changed the original plan I had to just jump off a cliff like it was easy, first I am going to slit my wrists and let the blood gush out as I stand with my back to the water at the bottom of the cliff, I will leave as many cuts on my body as possible. Non of you want that blood properly so I may as well let it scar the memories of the weak humans you laugh at. Why not huh?"
Bella I will not let you do this!
"I will always love you Jasper Whitlock-Hale-Cullen.
Your the best big brother I could have hoped for.
Love forever
Isabella Marie."
Bella will not die I wont let her!
Jasper looked up at the family once he was done reading. He saw the smiles on there faces with pain etched in their eyes and for the first time he looked at Esme and Carlisle and spoke "Mom.. Dad you need to save my sister.. please."
Everyone could see the pride and joy that was shown on Esme and Carlisle's face that their son had finally accepted them and the family.
The question was; would it make or break the family.
AN: Alright guys I know im a right idiot for not updating but I have some genuine reasons.
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