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Rachel

I look around me, hearing footsteps not too far behind me. That's when I sprint, not looking where I am going, only seeing blurs or objects, people.. only catching small glimpses of the faces around me. I don't stop to look though, I want to but I can't stop. Someone is chasing me, they just won't stop. I'm forever guilty, forever in their debt, they're always after me. I can feel it deep down, the same, my conscious eating away at me; telling me I've done something wrong, I just don't know what yet. What is it? What have I done?

That's when I fall over, and I as I fall onto my back, I look at the full moon in the sky and shake my head. Before I know it, I lift up my hands, looking directly onto the silver light, it's glittering off something, a substance in my hands.. but I don't know what it is. I can't see it clearly, I bring my hands closer to me, noticing the red liquid dripping off them. I shake my head and quickly get up, not knowing, not being able to comprehend where the blood is coming from, and I keep wiping it away but it comes back. It won't stop growing, gripping, someone is dying.. fading.. disappearing... dying. Someone is dying.

I can't shake the guilt, that this is my fault. I've done something, I've hurt someone and I don't know who. I carry on running, ignoring the blood, trying to think of something else. Then I look at someone in front of me, realizing who the blood is from: Gemma. I run over to her, screaming her name but she just lays there. Pale, shaken.. dead. It's my fault. It's all my fault and I, like Lady Macbeth, will never be able to get the blood off my hands.

I wake up suddenly and look around the room, I can feel my whole body shaking as I notice Gemma's bed unslept in. I shake my head, she wouldn't do anything, she wouldn't do this to me. She wanted to be happy, she wanted it more than anything. I already know though, I know the moment I approach her bed. I let a tear fall down my cheek and onto the small, pink paper note laying on the cushion. Underneath it is her favourite teddy bear, and I shake my head instantly knowing what this means. I take the note, scanning it quickly, never taking in the exact words. I look around the room once more, and run out as fast as I can.

She wouldn't do this, please God, don't let her do this. Tears plummet down my face, leaving wet patches on my pale skin. I can feel my whole body shaking, my best friend could be dead right now and what can I do about it?

I should have woken up sooner.

I should have been there for her.

I should have saved her from coming back here.

I should have..

I should have..

I should..

I sigh as I close my eyes, reaching the gate but there's no hole this time. She couldn't have made it, not yet. And then, I hear her, "Rachel?" I turn around and speed towards her, grabbing her before she collapses onto the dirt ground, clinging to a tree. I hold her in my arms and shake my head, not caring about my tears splashing onto her.

"W-What did you take?" I whisper, biting my lip,

"Don't worry." She stutters out, I shake her, trying not to damage her in anyway at all. I love her so much, she's my best friend, she can't leave me too. I don't want to be alone. Please never leave me alone.

I fight the urge to run from all of this, to turn my back on her, scramble out of the gates and run, never stopping. I've said this so many times, I am meant to be alone, I was born to be a loner. I have always been alone, that's the way things were supposed to be. I ruined everything when I made friends, it's my fault. This is all my fault.

I can feel my heart beating fast, too fast and I shake my head. "Help!" I scream as loud as I can, "Please help me." I whisper, as Gemma touches my face with her freezing hand, smiling up at me.

"I will be okay now, I'm going to be safe."

"No, you're not going to be okay, please."

"I'm so sorry." She croaks out, I shake my head, sobbing harder,

"No don't speak.. it'll be okay." I look around, hearing people shout, footsteps getting closer and closer, and closer.

"Never forget, you've been an amazing friend. My best friend." I look away from her before looking back down into her eyes,

"Gemma, don't leave me. We will get out of here one day, I promise you. We will be happy."

"No, you will be happy. I can never be happy again. I'm giving you a chance, I don't want to burden you with me." I shake my head quickly, the tears falling down harder and harder,

"Don't leave me.. you're not a burden. You're everything except a burden, please."

"I love you." I shake my head, grabbing her tighter,

"No, please don't leave me. You'll be okay." I watch her as she closes her eyes, and I bring her closer to my chest, not hearing anyone come up. "Help." I whisper, "No.. don't die.. please someone help.. don't die.." I feel someone pull me off her, but I feel numb. The tears stop as I try to tell myself it's just a dream, she's not really dead. I'll wake up soon.

"Rachel, what happened?"

"She wanted to die." I mutter as I am helped up by someone next to me, I don't see anyone else though, I only focus on Gemma. "She wanted to." I shake my head and feel the woman next to me grab my arm,

"Come on." I follow her willingly, not fighting her off. I don't have any energy to fight. I don't want to anymore. I walk into the bedroom and stare at the note on the floor, slowly picking it up.

Rachel,

I will be gone hopefully when you read this, I am so sorry that I couldn't be the friend you deserved so badly. I needed someone and you were always here for me but because of everything I have always felt like I can never return the favour. I can never thank you enough for everything you have done for me, and I can't bare to burden you any longer. You're the only person who has believed me, and I don't think I could ever ask for anything more from you.

I hope one day you can see how much you deserve a happy, normal life. One filled with joy, family and a life. Don't let this eat you up, don't let this destroy you. I have to let this get the best of me, I let this kill me but I won't let it do the same to you.

I will be watching over you, this is my favour to you. I can do so much more for you up here than I ever could with you. I'm happy now. I'm free.

I love you, my best friend forever.

Gemma.