Disclaimer: Victorious is Dan Schnieder's and last time I checked, I'm not him.
CHAPTER 11: Sexy Cat
Shit, what should I do today? I'm thinking about avoiding Cat. I just don't know if I'm ready for this. What if she was just lying to me to make me feel better? I don't want her to pretend to like me. And what if she meant friendly love?
Love is the one thing in life that I don't understand. So many questions are running through my head and I'm starting to feel light headed. Ugh, I should just skip school today. But then again, what if she really did have feelings for me? I could end up hurting her if I didn't go to school.
I decided to just throw on my black skirt and green long sleeved shirt. I got on my boots and drove to school. Usually Beck picks me up, but I needed more time to think.
I watched my hands shake on the steering wheel. I couldn't stop shaking because of how nervous I am!
I bet Cat's mom took her phone and accidentally sent it or something . It seemed more logical than Cat actually having feelings for me. No matter how bad I want to believe that she really likes me, I can't get my hopes up. My heart is too fragile. I know it doesn't look like that on the outside. I try to act as if I don't care so that people won't hurt me.
Damn it, I'm already at school.
I got out of the car slowly and walked towards the school. When I walked down the hallway, I saw a flash of red and I turned around and ran back to my car. Gosh, why do I have to be such a fucking pussy? I need to suck it up and just walk back in there!
I saw a coffee shop across from the school, so I decided to skip my first class and go get some coffee. Coffee always clears my mind.
I focussed on the taste of my coffee and tried not to think about Cat or Beck. It felt nice to relax like this for once.
I was pissed when my phone inturrupted my moment of peace.
Beck: Hey babe. Sikowitz's class is over. You comming for lunch?
Shit, time goes by fast! I grabbed my coffee and headed to the school.
As I entered the area where we eat lunch, I saw Beck waving to me. I walked over to where he was and sat with him, Tori, and two of his friends Robbie and Andre. The Robbie kid had some weird urban puppet that he called 'Rex'.
I saw Cat proceeding towards the table in the corner of my eye and I tried not to look at her. I failed at that and turned my attention towards her.
Cat looked... sexy. She was so stunning, that it was like she was walking towards me in slow motion.
She was wearing a short, tight, strapless purple dress. I couldn't help but to examine her body. The dress defined her figure and exposed her sexy tanned legs.
"Woah..." I said under my breath.
She noticed me checking her out and blushed. I quickly snapped my eyes away. Cat looked so adorable when she blushed. Cat came over to our table and sat next to me.
The entire lunch break I couldn't keep my eyes off of her! She was just so god damn beautiful. I occationally looked away from her rack when Beck was talking to me. Oh shit! Beck! He probably noticed me looking at her. Wait, why do I give a fuck? His eyes are always all over Tori!
"Umm... Jade?" .
"Huh?" I snapped my eyes away from Cat's chest and looked at her. My face burned of embarassment that she'd caught me stareing again.
"About last night..."
"Oh...I'm fine now Cat." I tried to avoid talking about our feelings towards each other, so I lowered my voice to talk about Beck. "I'm waiting for the right moment to break up with him... I just can't bring myself to doing it. I..I love him.. and you know how fucking rare it is for me to love."
"Oh." was all Cat said. I felt bad, I knew she wanted to talk about the other subject, but I don't even know what to say.
We didn't talk anymore, so I started to eat. I tried to focuss on my food as much as possible, but I really wasn't hungry. I ate anyway so that I wouldn't have to sit there awkwardly. When there was no more food in front of me, I reached for my chapstick to get the salt off my lips. I felt eyes watching me do this.
As soon as I put my chapstick down, Cat's hand pulled my head towards her. I didn't know what she was doing until I felt her tongue mingling with mine. Her lips were so soft, and she tasted like everything I imagined she would, except better! Cat was making out with me. Holy shit!
"Get your fucking lips off my girlfriend!" Cat quickly pulled away when Beck yelled. I sat there in shock as Cat ran away to the bathroom.
"What a fucking bitch! I should go beat the shit out of her! She's not allowed to touch MY girl's lips! They're mine!" Beck slammed his lips against mine forcefully. I felt absolutly nothing but hatred. How dare he threaten to hurt Cat! And since when are my lips some object that he owns?
I slapped him when he pulled away. "You're such a fucking douche! And it's over! So, why don't you go try to use Tori for sex now? I'm sure she wants your 3 inch dick WAY more than I do."
I ran towards the bathroom to get Cat. I got in there just in time.
Cat was sitting on the bathroom floor, holding my black pair of scissors to her wrist. Her make-up was smeared from all of the tears flooding out of her eyes. There's no way in hell that I'm going to let her destroy her beautiful skin. I quickly ran over to her and flung the scissors across the floor.
I sat down next to her and hugged her.
"Why are you doing this Jade? Your supposed to hate me. I don't deserve a happy ending, just go!" Cat said as she tried to push me. She was too weak right now to do anything though, so I just craddled her in my arms.
I know what I want to do with my life now. I want to spend the rest of my life with Cat. I love her and I don't care about anyone else but her. I'm going to tell her everything.
"Do you remember the song I sang to you when you couldn't sleep? Swing life away?" She nodded and I continued. "The reason that song meant so much to me, is because I felt like the words were coming from my mouth. I felt like it was written for you and me. Everything in that song was how I felt towards you. I'd always wanted to sing it for you, but I was nervous. I didn't know how you'd take it."
"I don't understand what you're saying..."
"What I'm trying to say is, I don't hate you. It confuses me how much I like you actually. I usually hate girls who have a pink room, act bubbly all the time, are childish at times, have a billion stuffed animals, wear skirts over jeans, are extremely girly..." I went on with all the things that I hate.
She looked up at me like she was afraid I was going to say I didn't like her. I leaned in towards her lips and filled the gap between us. I took my time to enjoy this. Now I didn't have Beck or anyone else to intrude on this moment. Our tongues began to explore each other more, and I couldn't think of a better taste. I usually hate sweet things! But her sweetness tasted so fucking good!
"But I don't hate you Cat. You're the exeption to all of those things. I think it's because you're not just any girl. You're Cat, and I love you. I've always loved you. But I was too afraid to do anything about that love. I'm never afraid of anything! But somehow, when it relates to you, I'm terrified because I can't risk losing you. Friendships last forever, but relationships have limits. I don't want limits Cat, all I want is you. And when you told me those things last night, I stayed up all night thinking about you. I just, didn't know what to say back. But now I do. I love you so god damn much Cat!"
Damn it, I feel like such a sap right now.
Cat looked stunned for a while, but finally found her voice again. "Jade... I don't know what to say... You'd never lose me. True love lasts forever, and I truely love you Jade."
"Cat, I don't know where to go on after this. We're not in some fairy tale story. I really have no idea how to handle this. I have no idea what this is! All I know is that I've loved you since that day in the locker room, when those bitches shoved you in the shower. And when we went to the big oak tree. Those were the most memorable moments of my life! And I can't get you out of my mind!" I was spilling all my feelings that have been bottled up for the past two years.
After a long pause, Cat spoke up again. "What about Beck?"
"I just dumped his ass after you fled to the bathroom. He kept calling you a bitch for kissing me and said that he was gonna come in here and beat the shit out of you."
Cat grabbed my chin and pulled her lips to mine. There was a poping sound as we pulled apart. I'm adicted to Cat's kisses now.
"This has been the cheesiest moment in my life and what I'm about to say next will be even cheesier, but Cat, will you be my girlfriend?" I was nervous as I said this. I felt like a geeky kid asking the prettiest girl in school out to prom! But I know Cat really likes romance and things like that, so I was hoping she'd say yes.
"Yes!" She had the biggest smile on her face, and I'm pretty sure mine was just as big.
After thinking for a few minutes, I realized that Cat would go running out of the bathroom screaming 'Jade's my girlfriend!'. Am I even ready for it to be public?
"Cat, I'm not ready to tell anyone. Just, can we keep us a secret?"
"What's that supposed to mean? Are you embarassed?" Shit, I was upsetting her.
"No. It's just, we're girls. I'm worried about you Cat. Listen, not everyone is accepting of homosexuals, and it's going to bring the hell hole back. Isn't that why we came here? To get out of that place?" I didn't want kids to tease her anymore than they already do.
"Jade, I came here to be with you. The people around us shouldn't matter. It's been us against the world this whole time, but I thought we were strong enough to win? Isn't that what it's about? Like the song says" Cat began to sing. "If love is a labor, I'll slave 'til the end. I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand..." I smiled at her reference.
"You're right. I'm ready for this fight as long as you are. I'll do anything for you Cat. All I've wanted was to swing life away with you. " Damn it, why am I so cheesy all of a sudden? Cat smiled at me and my cheeks turned rosey.
"Ugh, and the cheesiness is back... lets get out of here before I get anymore sappy."
I helped her off of the floor and she pecked me on the cheek.
My heart skipped a beat. Cat Valentine is my girlfriend. I can't believe I can actually say that now.
A/N: Gosh they're just so darn cute together! I wonder if Dan schneider ever reads fanfiction... and would it be a good or a bad thing if he did? Some of our stories are kind of bad, like as in not appropriate...
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